Still tide

Miao Jiayan couldn't get in touch with Chen Chao all day, and the phone was dead. He went upstairs to recharge it, wrapped his coat and sat on the bed with his knees hugged.

This room is the warmest place for Miao Jiayan. It contains a lot of love from his grandparents, his happiness and grievances from childhood to adulthood, as well as those thoughts and little secrets that he can't tell anyone.

From the beginning, he talked to Chen Chao through the window, and later he would sit at the table and watch him secretly, waiting for him to call "Miao Er".The window that was broken by Chen Chao with a stone has not been repaired until now, Miao Jiayan kept the crack there, every time I see it, I can think of them at that time.

At that time, Chen Chao was different from everyone here, he was a kid from "outside".Chen Chao knocked on Miao Jiayan's narrow door and told him that the outside world was very big.

Miao Jiayan has liked him for too long.

All the longing for emotions, fantasies about love in adolescence, and even those muddy and ambiguous dreams of boys during development... all fell on him.

So when Chen Chao said he wanted to be with him, Miao Jiayan didn't dare to accept it.It was too heavy for him, something he never thought about, not once did he think about having it.He couldn't help but want to get closer to a dream. He looked at it carefully, but he didn't dare to reach out to touch it.

Chen Chao is so kind.At that time, what Miao Jiayan thought was that if one day Chen Chao didn't want to get along with him, he would never appear in Chen Chao's life again.Let the people who should be dazzling return to the right track to continue to shine and return to a normal life.

Miao Jiayan was not a greedy child since she was a child, nor was she stingy.He never asks for things from others, and he has always been magnanimous when others take his things.

Chen Chao left today, according to what Miao Jiayan thought, he should be quiet now.Waiting for Chen Chao to contact him, if Chen Chao really wanted to leave, he would accept it quietly.

But now Miao Jiayan has become greedy, and he can't calm down.He has a lot to say and wants to hold on to.

Miao Jiayan pressed her forehead against her knees, and occasionally turned her head to change directions.His forehead was rubbing red against his trousers, and he closed his eyes. In this small room where he was the warmest, on this small bed where he slept most comfortably, he only felt cold.

The message from Chen Chao was sent at around ten o'clock in the evening. When the phone rang, Miao Jiayan jumped up to watch.

—I lost my mobile phone.

Although there are only four words, Miao Jiayan feels that she is alive.

He dialed the phone directly, but Chen Chao didn't answer.

He sent another voice over.

"Brother Chao..." Miao Jiayan's voice was very unsteady, he clutched the phone tightly and asked, "Where did you go?"

Chen Chao: Back to school.

Miao Jiayan immediately asked: "Then where are you now? Are you in Seoul?"

Chen Chao didn't reply to him again, and half an hour later he sent a message: Go to bed early.

Chen Chao was indifferent, and the messages he sent were cold and without emotion.

This kind of Chen Chao was very unfamiliar to Miao Jiayan, but even so, Miao Jiayan was still more at ease than before.

The heart that had emptied a big hole was half filled, and he was wrapped in a coat, as if Chen Chao was hugging him.

For the next two days, Chen Chao remained like this, cold and distant.

He no longer took the initiative to look for Miao Jiayan, and he would not answer the phone calls, but would reply to the messages.

But there was no time difference between them, and he didn't go back.

The live broadcast room was newly renovated, and a new set of shelves was built. Miao Jiayan was also there that day when the workers came to install the shelves.He went out to get water for the worker, and as soon as he went out another worker came in with two wooden boards, which blocked his view, and the worker didn't see Miao Jiayan, so he slipped his hand and didn't hold it. On Jiayan.

Miao Jiayan blocked it with her hand, the wooden board was not so heavy that it would not be damaged, but the board surface was not so smooth, there were some small stubbles, half of Miao Jiayan's face was rubbed, and there was a burning pain from the cheekbones to the side of the forehead.

The workers apologized repeatedly, and Miao Jiayan covered her face and said, "It's okay, it's okay."

Xiao Wang was frightened to death when he saw it, the skin was torn and all red.

"Why have you been injured all the time recently!" Xiao Wang was in a hurry, "The last time I hit my hand, this time I knocked my face, this time it will still be swollen!"

"I don't know either," Miao Jiayan couldn't laugh or cry, "I'm hanging around everywhere."

Miao Jiayan relies on her face for food, and it's not a trivial matter to get her face broken. Fortunately, there is no bleeding, only a few spots of blood oozing, so don't worry about leaving scars.Xiao Wang felt a little scared after thinking about it: "I rely on this because there are no nails on it."

Miao Jiayan said: "Who still uses nails now, don't think about it."

"Brother Xun has to scold me again," Xiao Wang said with a sad face, "Why did you want to go just now, you let me go!"

"It's okay, it will be fine in a few days." Miao Jiayan comforted him.

At night, half of Miao Jiayan's face was indeed swollen, but it was not serious, but the swelling could still be seen around the eyes, which were smaller than usual.

There are thin scabs on the face, from the cheekbones to the face.

Grandma Miao hissed in distress, she held Miao Jiayan's face and looked left and right.

Miao Jiayan faced the mirror at night and took a picture of herself.With a headband tied on his head, his entire face was exposed, and he deliberately took a careful photo of the broken half.

After shooting, I sent it to Chen Chao.

—Brother Chao, I smashed my face today.

Miao Jiayan applied anti-inflammatory ointment on himself, and when the ointment irritated the wound, he squinted his eyes.

Chen Chao: How did you do it?

Miao Jiayan: I knocked on the board, and I applied medicine.

Chen Chao: Yes.

If it was in the past, Chen Chao would ask him if it hurts, and he would have to say that he didn't know how to pay attention.Miao Jiayan hugged the pillow that Chen Chao usually slept on, and rubbed the undamaged half of her face.

Chen Chao looked at the phone, frowning deeply.

"What's the matter?" Zhang Kai asked across from him.

Chen Chao's frowning eyebrows were still not loosened. He threw the phone aside and leaned against the back of the chair irritably.

"We haven't seen each other for a long time, can you stop looking at your phone!" Zhang Kai knocked on the table, "Can you have dinner with me?"

Chen Chao breathed a sigh of relief, smiled and asked, "What am I eating? No food is served."

"Immediately!" Zhang Kai raised his hand and shouted to the waiter, "Give us a rush for our food! We've been waiting for 10 minutes! I'm starving!"

The waiter agreed to leave, Zhang Kai looked at Chen Chao and said, "Brother Chao, you come back to live with me today!"

"I won't go, all my things are in the hotel." Chen Chao doesn't like to live in other people's homes, and generally lives by himself.

"Then I'll live with you, I miss you!" Zhang Kai whimpered.

"Be careful what you say," Chen Chao said with a smile, "I'm gay, it's not suitable."

"Fuck..." Zhang Kai scolded with a smile, "What are you afraid of, anyway, I'm a straight man."

After graduation, Zhang Kai worked as an intern at a TV station for a year, followed a column, and did quite well.Now that I have resigned from the TV station, I am currently filming something with my friends.

Chen Chao had a good relationship with him when he was in college, and they kept in touch after graduation.What's more, before Chen Chao went abroad, he had been in Zhang Kai's brother's studio. At that time, the brothers in the studio took him with him and taught him a lot.

This time Chen Chao was called by Zhang Mingyang. He called him two days after knowing he was back and urged him to come and see him. Chen Chao agreed to come before he left.

For the past two days, Zhang Mingyang had forced him to work for Bai Gan, but today Zhang Kate took Chen Chao away on purpose.Before leaving, his brother said: "I have to pay it back tomorrow, he hasn't finished his work yet."

Zhang Kai said: "Don't be shameless!"

Zhang Mingyang threw a piece of paper on the back of his head: "How do you talk to your brother?"

Zhang Kai dragged Chen Chao out for dinner, but Chen Chao kept looking at his phone.

I watch it when the food is not served, and I still watch it after the food is served.

Later Zhang Kai quit and asked: "Can you still do it! I'm leaving!"

Chen Chao put down the phone again and said, "I won't watch it."

"What's so interesting!" Zhang Kai already knew about Chen Chao and Miao Jiayan, "You two have been together for so many years, what else is there to talk about!"

"No chat," Chen Chao said, "eat."

Zhang Kai hadn't seen Chen Chao since he graduated from Zhang Kai, and now he was so excited that he insisted on taking Chen Chao to drink.

Chen Chao can drink quite well, but he still drank a little too much tonight.

He went to the bathroom. Zhang Kai bit his cigarette and didn't light it. Now he is not allowed to smoke outside.

Chen Chao didn't take his mobile phone, and the ringtone was heard on the table. Xiao Kai stood up and looked at it in confusion, and it showed "wife".

Miao Jiayan didn't fall asleep all the time, he took his mobile phone and scrolled through the previous chat records between him and Chen Chao.This is his habit when he suffers from insomnia, and these records can be reviewed over and over again.The more I look at it, the more I feel uncomfortable. Brother Chao is really good.

This call was just a tentative call, but I didn't expect to answer it this time.

"tide--"

"Sister-in-law? I am Xiaokai!" Zhang Kai's voice came from the phone, and the background was noisy, "Are you looking for Brother Chao? He went to the bathroom!"

Miao Jiayan was stunned, and asked uncertainly, "Zhang Kai?"

"It's me!" Zhang Kai came here to shoot his graduation works back then, and he knew Miao Jiayan very well, "It's been a long time since I saw you!"

"Where are you guys..." Miao Jiayan was still a little nervous when she asked, "Is Brother Chao with you?"

"He didn't. He's so busy that he doesn't have time to talk to me! Today, I begged to come out to eat with me!" Zhang Kai's voice was a little loud after drinking, "Why didn't you come together?"

Miao Jiayan wanted to tell a lie, not to say that Chen Chao didn't want to talk to him anymore.

Before he could think of how to answer, Chen Chao's voice sounded from over there: "Who's calling?"

"Sister-in-law." Zhang Kai handed him the phone.

Chen Chao took it over, and his voice sounded a little different from usual after drinking: "Huh? What's the matter?"

His tone was still cold, but because of drinking, he spoke a little slowly.

Talking slowly like this, just like he usually coquettishly wants to coax.

Just a few words made Miao Jiayan's nose sore.

"Brother Chao..." Miao Jiayan called him.

Chen Chao asked again: "What's wrong?"

Miao Jiayan sat up, rubbed her nose, and her voice became hoarse: "Brother Chao, I'm very scared."

Chen Chao was silent for two seconds, and asked him, "What are you afraid of?"

Miao Jiayan clutched the phone, lowered her head and replied, "I'm afraid I won't be able to find you."

"Are you afraid?" Chen Chao sat back on the chair and asked with downcast eyes.

"Scared." Miao Jiayan said honestly with a trembling voice, "I'm afraid."