Catch only learn God to fall in love

She watched helplessly as the wound was slowly opened, and blood dripped onto the floor bit by bit.

At that moment she smiled, from the heart.

She can finally do whatever she wants and is no longer bound by anyone, and she can follow her inner thoughts to pursue happiness.

If there are people in this world who she feels memorable, then they are only the partners in their small group. Unfortunately, the good times didn’t last long. They only knew each other for more than a semester, and they haven’t worked hard to create more beautiful things with everyone. memories of...

She closed her eyes slowly, and the tears that had been swirling in her eye sockets dripped from the corners of her eyes.

But this time, the relief she thought was unsuccessful. Not long after she closed her eyes, her mother came back.

From before to now, the first thing Tian's mother does when she comes home is to go to her room or dance studio to find Tian Miya. Look, that dazzling blood red made panic appear on her face.

She hurriedly took a towel from the bathroom and wrapped the wound on her wrist to stop the bleeding.

Roaring in a low voice: "Are you crazy?"

Tian Miya opened her eyes and watched her various busy tasks with a blank face. Mother Tian looked up and saw her fearless attitude, and she was sure in her heart that it was the child's rebellious youth who wanted them to regress as adults. plan of.

My heart was instantly filled with anger, and my mouth became more and more swearing one sentence after another.

Tian Miya smiled wryly, and slowly closed her eyes. She never thought that her relief would be considered by her mother as a child's family dinner.

From this moment on, there was no smile on Tian Miya's face, no light in her eyes, she vomited whatever she ate, the only thing that remained the same was that she kept forcing herself to learn and practice dancing.

Although she was exhausted, without the support of food, her nutrition was seriously lost. When she was reviewing, her hands trembled and she couldn't hold the pen tightly. When she was practicing dance, her legs were weak, but she still persisted.

And all of this, her parents turned a blind eye to it, treating it as a little girl's waywardness.

"No wonder, no wonder." Yi Tingnan murmured to himself when he heard this.

"What?" Xu Yaosheng looked at him from the rearview mirror, the cigarette in his mouth was caught between his index finger and middle finger.

Yi Tingnan bent over, put his elbows on his thighs, covered his face with his hands, and said in a muffled voice: "When we went to find the monitor a while ago, we saw the scars on her wrists, and her skinny skin It turned out that at that time, her spirit had been tortured."

Cheng Sibo's face was heavy, he put his hands on his shoulders, squeezed his fingers a little harder, and squeezed his shoulders to express comfort. He asked in a hoarse voice, "Why did you commit suicide this time?"

Xu Yaosheng closed his eyes in pain.

The last home visit can be said to be timely. When he first arrived, Tian Miya's mental state was already very bad. In order to give Tian Miya a space to talk, he sent Mama Tian away. Get off the two of them.

Tian Miya was sitting in front of the desk, and after she looked up and saw that it was him, she, who had rarely shed tears in front of her parents, finally couldn't help crying.

The shrill and hoarse cry was telling the despair and unbearableness in her heart. The pain had almost made her soul linger. This kind of heart-piercing cry made Xu Yaosheng feel that there were a thousand and ten thousand knives constantly scratching her. his heart.

He stepped forward to hug the girl who had fallen into the abyss with one foot in distress. This was the worst time he cried since seeing Yi Tingnan and the others last time.

"Teacher, help me, please, please help me." Tian Miya was shaking violently as she cried, clutching Xu Yaosheng's clothes tightly, the clothes in front of his stomach were soaked by the tears falling down .

Xu Yaosheng frowned, his eyes were full of pain, and he wished to help the weak girl in front of him share the pain, "Tell me, as long as you say it, the teacher will help you."

He knew that there was something wrong with Tian Miya's physical condition, but he never thought it would be so serious.

It was on this day that Xu Yaosheng understood this girl's desire for love and freedom better. Years of repression had torn every inch of her reason and every inch of her skin like rags, and was thrown away In the abyss, like a soulless body, wandering in a dark and dirty place, unable to find its source.

She needs light and love to pull her out of the darkness, even a little bit of neon light can nourish her.

It's a pity that she, who has never been understood and cared for, can't feel it at all.

After comforting Tian Miya, Mother Tian came back not long after. It took Xu Yaosheng the whole afternoon and evening to persuade Mother Tian to let Tian Miya go to school in a few days. Only classmates can relieve her inner pain.

At first, Tian's mother didn't take it seriously, saying that the little girl lost her temper willfully.

In the end, Xu Yaosheng couldn't help but get angry, and asked her to take Tian Miya to the hospital for a mental checkup some time, without any delay, if she really wanted to lose a daughter.

Tian's mother was also slightly intimidated by him, and she said yes, but in fact she never carried out the matter of taking Tian Miya for a physical examination, and the original promise of letting her go to class on Monday still failed to materialize.

Tian Miya's depression became more and more serious because of Tian's mother's laxity. At five o'clock in the morning on Monday, Tian Miya picked up a knife again and committed suicide.

But this time, Mother Tian was not as lucky as last time. When Tian Miya bled all over the ground and her breathing began to weaken, she found out that her daughter had committed suicide again. It was only through this time that she suddenly realized that her daughter really didn't want to live anymore.

Xu Yaosheng has also been paying attention to Tian Miya's coming to class on Monday. He waited at the school gate early in the morning. He was expecting to see his students, but he didn't show up for a long time.

Feeling inexplicably flustered, I couldn't help calling Tian's mother to ask if Tian Miya had gone out.

As a result, as soon as the phone was answered, his mouth had just opened, and before he could make a sound, there was the sound of crying from the other end of the phone. At that moment, Xu Yaosheng knew that it was over.

Passing by the class on the way to pick up the car, he stopped by and told Cheng Sibo and Tang Yu to help look at the classmates in the class, and this was the scene where the three of Cheng Sibo chased him out to find him for answers.

When he rushed to the hospital, Tian Miya was still in a coma. The doctor said that she had lost too much blood and lacked nutrition, which made her very weak. In addition, Tian Miya had no will to survive. Whether she could wake up or not was entirely up to her .

Hearing this, Xu Yaosheng clenched his left hand into a fist because of too much force, even though the nails were trimmed and clean, the palm of his hand was bloodshot.

"Mother Tian." He walked up to Mother Tian who was still crying, and asked with restrained anger in his tone, "Did you never find a doctor for Miya?"

Although he could guess the answer, he couldn't help but want to ask clearly.

Mother Tian looked at him with eyes swollen from crying, and nodded with tears in her eyes.

Xu Yaosheng took a deep breath and wanted to calm himself down, so as not to swear at a woman who was the parent of a student, "I reminded you before that Mia's situation is not right, whether it is my student who came to visit, Or if I go to visit my home in person, your attitude remains the same and you insist on going your own way."

Mother Tian covered her face with her hands and said, "I thought she was just throwing a temper tantrum. I didn't expect that she really didn't want to live anymore."

Xu Yaosheng closed his eyes, full of anger and had nowhere to vent, finally opened his eyes slowly, and said weakly: "When Mia wakes up, treat her well, and fulfill the true duties of a mother, instead of treating her unwillingly." What I did was forced upon her."

Mother Tian regretted it in her heart, but she couldn't change anything.

Xu Yaosheng looked around, but he couldn't see the male owner of the house, and asked, "Where's Father Tian?"

"Go and pay the fee."

Maybe God is not willing to let such a docile and well-behaved girl go away. Tian Miya didn't wake up until the afternoon. Her face was pale, her eyes were empty and unfocused, as if she was immersed in her own world, even if her parents There were good words in her ear, but she was still unmoved.

Xu Yaosheng felt very distressed when he saw it, so he asked Tian's father and mother Tian to go out first, and asked him to have a chat with Tian Miya.

With Tian Miya's appearance, the two elders had no choice but to agree.

It's been half an hour since Xu Yaosheng spread everything out. Cheng Sibo and Yi Tingnan were walking in the bustling streets, but their mood was not exaggerated, and their faces were gloomy. This was the first time The two stayed together and didn't speak for a full half an hour.

It's understandable that Cheng Sibo doesn't like to talk, but Yi Tingnan, who is usually bored for a minute without speaking, feels his throat sore and can't say anything.

Xu Yaosheng was still sitting in the driver's seat, with a lit cigarette in his left hand, and the steering wheel was tightly held in his right hand, as if he wanted to smash it, even his fingers began to feel a little pain.

Tian Miya's last home visit said, "Teacher, help me, please, please help me." ' has been echoing in his mind, this is the first time since he has been teaching for so many years, he feels powerless, the first time he feels that he is so useless that even a student cannot be saved.

He didn't fully tell Cheng Sibo and Yi Tingnan what he said when Hetian Miya was alone in the afternoon, because those words were cruel and helpless.

He whispered to Tian Miya about the interesting stories of the students in the class, especially Yi Tingnan and Wen Jing, the two annoying students. At first, he just wanted to give it a try and see how Tian Miya felt about these little friends. Is there any room for thought.

It might be the spirit of heaven, when Tian Miya heard about her group of friends, her eyes slowly focused, her hands tightly grasped the quilt, and finally her eyes fixed on Xu Yaosheng's face.

Xu Yao gave a bitter smile, "Thank God, you finally reacted."

Tian Miya opened her mouth, as if she was asking for help, or praying. The hand that was holding the blanket was replaced by the corner of his clothes.

Xu Yaosheng couldn't hear clearly, he leaned down and listened carefully to what Tian Miya was about to say, for a moment, his eyes widened in disbelief, at last he raised his head slightly, facing Tian Miya's eyes, his eyes were red for the first time, and the corners of his eyes were moist .