saturation concentration

How to do?

Sui Channong was thinking all weekend, what should he do.

He played back the scene at the bridge over and over again in his mind, but he still couldn't analyze Ji Ling's psychology and motivation for that behavior.

He chewed every detail over and over again - the cigarette in Ji Ling's hand, the bewildered expression on his face, the figure of him leaning half of his body out of the bridge, even his hair was caught by the wind. The blowing range is still so clear in Sui Cannong's mind.

In the end, he only felt terrified and fearful after thinking about it.Because no matter how you look at it or how you think about it, Ji Ling's actions at that time really seemed...as if he was going to jump off the bridge.

Sui Cannong also tried to think of another potential possibility.

But standing alone by the bridge, he suddenly leaned most of his body out of the bridge, with such a delicate expression on his face.If he didn't have the intention to jump down, what did he want to do?

And why would he do this?

Work pressure?Family reasons?Or was it because the unlucky meeting with him today became the straw that crushed him at that time?

Sui Cannong also knew that his thoughts were somewhat absurd.It's not a trivial matter to make fun of other people's lives. Now that I think about it like this, I feel like I'm cursing Ji Ling, wishing him a bad life.

But what if?Even if there is a one-in-a-thousand chance, what if things are really like what I think?

Then Sui Cannong became the only insider and bystander.Although Ji Ling did not take an irrational step at the last moment this time, if he just stood by and watched, what if something really happened in the future...

Sui Cannong felt that he might not be able to reconcile with himself for the rest of his life.

He realized that no matter what, he had to find another chance to talk to Ji Ling again.

However, Sui Cannong's Monday morning class was very full.

The classrooms of the two are not on the same floor, so if one of them does not take the initiative to create opportunities to "encounter" the other, the probability of meeting the other on campus is almost zero.

After the last class in the morning, Thomas and two other teachers appeared at the door of the classroom and asked Sui Channong if he wanted to have lunch together.

There is no fixed small circle among teachers. Basically, those who are closer to the classroom will be more familiar with each other, and they will go to dinner together at noon.

The canteen of the international school has set up a Chinese food area with no merits, a Western food area that often commits crimes, and a salad area where "guess if you eat today will make you dizzy".

Sui Cannong was a little absent-minded today, and didn't even look at the dishes, so he and Thomas directly lined up for western food.

Then he got a plate of polenta with asparagus.

The sticky yellow lump was piled up on the plate, the pig sighed and the dog shook his head when he smelled it, Sui Cannong couldn't figure out whether it was freshly made by the canteen master or freshly vomited.

He put the dinner plate on the dining table, and when he sat down, he glanced at the dining table behind him, but he didn't see Ji Ling in the crowd.

Thomas has been learning to use chopsticks for a year, and Sui Cannon has helped him correct his movements many times, but the way he holds chopsticks is still a bit like an ape eating.

Sui Cannong still couldn't hold back and asked Thomas: "Did you... see Ji Ling today?"

Thomas' expression became confused, as if he didn't understand why Sui Cannong suddenly mentioned this person: "I don't know, doesn't he usually eat with Lin and Louis? What's wrong?"

Sui Cannong picked up the corn paste on the plate, and said vaguely for a while, "It's okay."

When going upstairs, Sui Cannong deliberately slowed down his pace, and walked the stairs that he didn't often walk, but was closer to Ji Ling's classroom.

However, he didn't meet the person he wanted to meet, Sui Cannong went downstairs, just turned a corner in the corridor, and saw two old acquaintances standing at the door of his classroom.

Today, the pair of neon sisters had a double ponytail and a single ponytail, holding the seeds given to them by Sui Cannong on Friday in their hands, and waved to him breathlessly from a long distance away, as if they had just run over.

Twintails said a little embarrassedly: "I'm sorry, Mr. Sui, we're a little late."

"It's okay, I didn't wait for you two just now, so I went downstairs to eat first."

Sui Cannong opened the classroom door and said with a smile, "I have already made room for the pots and soil for you, come in."

"The science fair is half a month away." The little girl with a single ponytail continued to explain, "We are in Teacher Ji's group, and the topics chosen are also difficult, so there will be an extra hour and a half at noon every day. Yes, I didn't mean to be late."

Sui Cannong paused when he opened the door.

"It's okay." He opened the door and said, "Come and plant."

Sui Cannong brought out the pot and the soil for the two of them, and the two girls squatted on the ground happily, whispered a few words in Japanese, and then clumsily began to hold up the soil with their hands.

Sui Cannong hesitated for a moment, and asked, "Mr. Ji...is he still in the classroom now?"

The two sisters looked at each other blankly, and then the girl with ponytails looked up at Sui Cannong and shook her head: "When we were leaving, he seemed to have gone downstairs as well."

"He went to the first floor." Shan Mawei added, "It should be for dinner."

The first class in the afternoon will start in about 10 minutes, so when Sui Cannong returned to the restaurant, there were almost no people there.

He saw Ji Ling sitting alone from a distance.

Today's Ji Ling is wearing a light-colored shirt, with his head down, his profile is very quiet, his cheeks are slightly bulging, and he is mechanically eating the corn paste on the plate.

From the expression on Ji Ling's face, Sui Cannong couldn't see anything wrong with his state at all, and it was even more difficult to connect the person by the bridge at that time with him at this time.

In fact, before the meeting in the coffee shop that day, the two of them had hardly any interaction on weekdays, and they had never eaten at the same table.

In order to make his next conversation less purposeful, Sui Cannong carefully considered it, went to the western restaurant area nearby to order another meal, and decided to act out a chance encounter scene.

He looked down at the dinner plate in his hand, took a deep breath, and walked over to Ji Ling.

Ji Ling decided to stop eating the corn paste in front of him.

He doesn't want to call his current behavior eating, because "eating" is a very beautiful verb in Ji Ling's mind.

And the thing in front of him can only be called carbohydrates, Ji Ling doesn't think it can be classified as food.

In fact, Ji Ling still has some tolerance for unpalatable food, but now his chest is very tight, and he just feels that he doesn't want to eat any more.

Looking at a small area that was empty on the dinner plate, Ji Ling realized that her current intake was still a little small, and it might not be enough to provide the energy that would be consumed in the afternoon's teaching.

So he hesitated and decided to eat three more asparagus.

The asparagus is fried with black pepper, and the oil is put a little too much.When stuffing the third asparagus into her mouth, Ji Ling heard a voice beside her——

"Did you just finish class too, Mr. Ji?" The man's voice was light, "Can I sit here?"

Ji Ling's pupils shrank.

He didn't know what the expression on his face looked like now, he only knew that the root of the third asparagus was really bitter, so bitter that the tip of his tongue was a little numb.

At the same time, he also knew that in Sui Cannong's eyes at this moment, his expression must be very stiff.

Ji Ling's Adam's Apple moved up and down, and he raised his head, allowing himself to look at Sui Cannong as naturally as possible.

"Yes." He heard himself say calmly, "Please sit down, Teacher Sui."

So Sui Cannong sat on the opposite seat with the dinner plate.

Ji Ling shifted his gaze downward, knowing that Sui Cannong was looking at him, so he tried hard to show himself a very comfortable and nonchalant posture.

But in fact, it is really difficult to do this, because Ji Ling's heartbeat is really fast at the moment.

He never expected that Sui Cannong would choose to sit with him.

But the only teacher in the cafeteria who is still eating is himself, Ji Ling quickly realized.Sui Cannong didn't want to sit with him, it was just because he was his only choice at the moment.

This time, we must not be cold again.

Ji Ling told himself this in his heart.If Sui Cannong asked himself something, don't just answer with a nod or "um", you must say something more.

But don't explain too much when answering, it will appear too strange and courteous, in short, absolutely absolutely, and the atmosphere should not be let down like that day.

Ji Ling saw that Sui Cannong took two mouthfuls of corn paste, then put down the spoon, and said to herself: "Ah, this corn paste is really..."

Sui Cannong didn't complete the sentence, Ji Ling raised his head vigilantly, he realized that the other party might want to hear his own evaluation.

So Ji Ling paused for a moment and said, "I think this corn paste is delicious, the entrance is very smooth, and the aroma of corn is very strong."

Ji Ling carefully described a lot, and in order not to make the conversation embarrassing, he paused, and then threw back a question: Is that right? "

Sui Cannong seemed to be taken aback for a moment.

After a while he nodded and said, "Yes, it's really delicious."

Ji Ling thought that his answer this time was still of high quality, so he relaxed a little.

The two lowered their heads and ate face to face in silence for a while. One minute later, Ji Ling heard Sui Cannong call out to him again.

He asked, "Mr. Ji, have you... anything bothering you recently?"

It was a very abrupt sentence without any foreshadowing or premise. Ji Ling didn't understand why he asked such a question, nor did he know how to answer it.

So Ji Ling hesitated for a moment, and chose to tell the truth: "No."

Immediately afterwards, Ji Ling felt a little annoyed, because he found that he seemed to have brought the topic into a dead end again.

However, Sui Cannong's expression was hesitant to speak, as if he had expected this answer a long time ago.

"But I have," he said.

Before Ji Ling could react, seeing Sui Cannong lowered his head to scoop up a spoonful of corn paste, and continued on his own: "Did you know that the new dungeon is going online tonight?"

Ji Ling's expression became a little blank, he looked at Sui Cannong's face, and blinked slowly.

Because he thought that Sui Cannong would never bring up this game again

Ji Ling knew that his mouth was stupid, and he also knew that he really screwed up that day.

At that time, Ji Ling understood the meaning of Sui Cannong's words. He knew that he seemed to make Sui Cannong feel embarrassed and uncomfortable that day, and he didn't want to embarrass him any longer.

So Ji Ling has not been online this weekend, even though he knows that the mushrooms in his garden should have died.

When Sui Cannong sat down opposite her, Ji Ling thought that he would treat the side they met in the coffee shop on Friday as if it never existed.

However, Sui Cannong put down the spoon, and continued to say nonchalantly: "I saw the spoiler of the official blog, it is a very difficult book, anyway, it might be a bit painful to download it alone."

Sui Cannong's words seemed to be implying something, but Ji Ling was not quite sure what he was thinking, so he just stared blankly at his face.

"So do you have time tonight, Teacher Ji?"

He heard Sui Cannong ask himself: "Should we add a WeChat first?"