you are my love

Waking up again from sorrow, it was cold and clear at midnight, I cried and cried, I was exhausted all over.One more week, I'm leaving in one week, I just want to take another good look at Jun Pyo for the rest of the day, see his cute face when he's angry, his awesome smile...

I chose to hide my illness from Junbiao, and at the same time let other people hide it for me.six months!What do you want me to say.Tell him I may have six months to live Will you still love me?

Don't love me please go away?I will be sad because he never thought of loving me.

If you love me, let him watch me being tortured by illness, will he feel better?He feels bad and I feel even worse, okay.

I am afraid of both results, maybe I am cowardly and always deal with problems in a muddle.

I sat in front of my dressing table, because I knew it was ugly, and I didn't allow myself to see Junbiao like this.I put up a high ponytail, spread the liquid foundation, I picked up the eyebrow pencil, and traced the light-colored eyebrows, then went to eyeliner, eye shadow, mascara, lip gloss, and finally blush.Change the color unnaturally, change thick and thin, change unnaturally, change unsightly.Repeating the movements of the hands over and over again, the face keeps changing one by one between applying makeup and removing makeup.

The sky was slightly brighter, the sun slanted across the floor, and the transparent glass shone with golden light.In the mirror, I have pink makeup and jade, red lips and white teeth, what a beautiful woman.Yingying Qiushui is lovely and moving.

【~Good morning everyone, why are you looking at me like a ghost? I'm not dead yet. 】I pursed my lips and looked at them like a resentful woman.They went from brightening their eyes to having lingering fears in their hearts.

[How can you say that, hurry up~ Let’s talk about it again. 】My mother was very nervous and asked me to talk about it again. [Come on, come over for breakfast and see if there are any other mothers who want to eat for you.Are you going to school? 】Looking at her thick dark circles, I felt ashamed and remorseful, and I made them feel uncomfortable again before I came and filial piety to them.

【~ Well, say goodbye to my classmates. ] I patted the clothes on my body, and it was gone!My sister will stay in Korea first, I think the big reason is because of Brother Zihao, it seems that they also quarreled about this matter, and I didn't ask about the final result.Mom and Dad just waited for the work at hand, and went to accompany me when it was over.

[Sister, come and eat more, you haven't eaten well these days. 】Add a large piece of beef to my bowl.

【~Well, it’s delicious, I want more. ] I gave her a big smile back, and she patted me on the head like a puppy.

【~Hehe. 】Looking at the cheerful me, Dad also smiled comfortably.

【~Yes, be happy and have a better mentality. ] Said to Jamie, whose condition will be much better.What a rare breakfast full of joy and laughter, full of prosperity and harmony.

[I heard that she broke up with Master Gu Junbiao, do you know why? 】Passerby A G.

【…】Passerby A H.

[Wow~ That golden silk grass is really good at seducing people. She has an affair with Master Yin Zhihou, and flirts with Master Gu Junbiao in the cable car. 】Passerby A G. (Author: In order to smear Jinsicao first for Yuyu. Haha——)

[Yeah~ I really want to ask how this commoner hooked up. I see her dangling in front of F4 every day. Wu Minhui is a bit pitiful! She can be cheated even if they are together. 】Passerby A H felt aggrieved.

Don't look at me sympathetically, okay?I don't know if they are together or not, but yes~ they are together, but they can't make it to the end.

【Does it still hurt?Sorry, and thank you. 】We were standing in the corridor of the teaching building, and I knew I was guilty and looked at Lee Jae-he beside me. It was his silent companionship some time ago. The sadness in his eyes hurts me now, and I am really grateful.

【If I want to use you, and I am using you now, don't you mind?Really? 】Since Jun Pyo thinks that I am with Lee Jae He, I will completely give up on myself, so that I will have no chance to be with Jun Pyo with excuses.

【~Hmm. 】Lee Jae-ho spoke lightly.

[But I will feel uneasy. ] I just looked at him straight, trying to see what his heart was made of. I couldn't be as great as him.

[Then you give me some compensation. ] After finishing speaking, he pouted like a ruffian and kicked over.

[~ Go aside. ——Hee hee~] I pushed his head away with one hand, looking at his frustrated and wronged expression, I wanted to laugh.A cold light shot at me, and I shivered unconsciously.

[Let's go, let's play basketball and watch people play basketball. 】Because I saw F4 playing basketball on the basketball court from a distance.

【~Good. 】I patted him on the shoulder, but he took my hand naturally, I looked at him with disdain, his face has already been trained to be impenetrable, thick!Laughing like a thief.

Today's weather is very good, the sun is shining and there are no clouds in the sky, the basketball court is full of people, and the sound of cheering for F4 is deafening. I am very fortunate to be able to clearly see Junbiao's figure and vigorous figure in the crowd , with sweat on his forehead.

【~ No more playing. 】Junbiao dropped the basketball, turned around and left, Zhihou and the others followed suit, Jinsicao looked at me hesitantly, holding a clean towel and mineral water in his hand, and finally turned around and left.

【~Trash can—】I cover my mouth, I want to vomit. [~ Vomit. 】This morning's breakfast, all came out, what a waste, my chest feels so uncomfortable.

【~Water, rinse your mouth.Want to go home and rest? ] Li Zaihe handed me water, and gently stroked my back with the other hand.I didn't listen to what Li Jae He was saying, I just stared blankly at Jun Pyo's leaving figure, let me see you, don't you allow it now?

The next day, I also put on beautiful makeup, and today Lee Jae He said that he would come to pick me up from school, and he started his nagging again, and didn’t stop until I got home from school.I don't know what he's talking about, I just know that I didn't even see Junbiao's back today.Is it because Lee Jae Ha is by my side?So I told Lee Jae He not to come pick me up from school tomorrow, and let me be quiet.

On the third day, another beautiful makeup look.I came to the school early by myself, climbed up the teaching building where Li Hemin jumped off the building, and sat in the same seat, because I can see the students entering the school here, and I will definitely see Junbiao today, I smiled .

Today I didn't wear a school uniform, but put on the blue skirt I went to Junbiao's house for the first time. Although some places were scratched, it didn't affect the overall effect.Gradually, there were more and more people going to school. I didn't notice the crowds gathered under my feet. I just looked at the door, hoping to see Junbiao's figure for the first time. I didn't see him yesterday!

F4 four all appeared, did they see me?If you see it, Junbiao, can you look up at me?I can't see you, is my vision starting to blur again?Is it because the eyes connect with the heart?My heart ached so badly my eyes started to cry.

I picked up my cell phone and called Lee Jae He, I want to go home, I want to go home.

I hummed a song, tilted my head, supported my body with my hands, and swung my calves.

It's dark, lonely and slowly cutting

Someone's heart starts to ache again

Love is far away, I haven't seen you for a long time

I can still live like this

You listen to loneliness singing softly and fiercely

The singing is so cruel that I can't help crying

Who said people have to be happy

As if happiness is chosen by others

Will the one who can't be found come?

who will i be who will be mine

You listen to loneliness singing softly and fiercely

The singing is so cruel that I can't help crying

You listen to loneliness singing gentle and crazy

Sadness is getting deeper and deeper, how can I stop it?

You listen to loneliness singing softly and fiercely

The singing is so cruel that I can't help crying

You listen to loneliness singing gentle and crazy

Sadness is getting deeper and deeper, how can I stop it?

You listen to loneliness singing softly and fiercely

The singing is so cruel that I can't help crying

You listen to loneliness singing gentle and crazy

The grief is getting deeper and deeper Can anyone do me a favor and make it stop

It's dark like it won't light up again

It doesn't matter if it's tomorrow or not

Just watch quietly youth is hard to let go

Tears are still hot, the traces of tears are cold

I couldn't cry, I couldn't sing, a coat was draped over me, and I fell backwards, Li Zaihe thank you for coming, I'm tired, take me home.There is still one week to go, but in three days my body said NO.

Lee Jae He looked at those smiling eyes and was crying.He didn't know why Min Hui made himself suffer so much, but he respected her choice.

When Gu Junbiao was always feeling weird today, when he rushed back to the teaching building, he saw Min Hui in Li Jaehe's arms, and he was timid.He was very angry and tormented when he saw Min Hui but couldn't hold her in his arms these days. He wanted to make Min Hui suffer in a few days, and then even if Min Hui refused, he would still be with her.But seeing now, if this is Min Hui's choice, he chooses to respect it.

But he didn't see Min Hui's smudged makeup, wet tears, and wrinkled face.

When they didn't see Min Huihui's school for the next few days, F4 asked Min Zhi that she was indifferent, and went to the principal to find out that Min Hui had completed the withdrawal procedures ten days ago.Although the school is run by Gu Junpyo's family, there is nothing special that does not need to be reported. Dropping out of school is very common in Shinhwa, but that day Gu Junpyo lost his temper and smashed the principal's office. Everything, because Min Hui seems to have disappeared overnight, and there is no news about her anymore.

Junbiao never thought that this would be their last meeting.

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