rain trail

Letter [-] from Lu Lin to Zhou Wei

Classmate Zhou Asi:

See the word as the face.

We have come to Dali, it is beautiful and has a lot of delicious food.It can be said to be perfect if a sum of money is not slaughtered by the black tour guide.

My father said in a previous message to me that the older I got, the more unpredictable he became.He didn't know what went wrong, who led me into trouble, and prayed to God to return his well-behaved and excellent daughter.

I also don't know what went wrong.Wherever I went as a child, I heard praises.Look, the daughter of the Lu family is so sensible and filial. No matter in study or life, she is so independent that she doesn't need to worry about it at all.

I wasn’t allowed to dye my hair, to live too far from home, to say no to the high school and college majors my parents had chosen for me, or to take an “insecure” job.Because of these, I will no longer be a "good daughter" in everyone's mouth.

They all told me that you should speak softly, smile on your face, hold your head high when you walk, and take smaller steps.They praised how beautiful I am, but I am too thin. If I look a little plump, I will be more attractive.

I listened ignorantly, and felt like I was waiting for someone to choose and buy pork on the chopping board.

So from a certain day, I began to think, why should I be such a "good daughter"?He is also a child, why does Zhang Tao next door get praise only if he doesn't cause trouble on a certain day?Zhang Tao's mother is just an ordinary woman who works around in a panic all day long. His father only needs to come home on time every day, and he will be a "good man" in the neighborhood of Sifangkou.I saw Zhang Tao's mother, as if seeing my future.

You are the exact opposite of me, you have a thick skin, you don't care about anything, you only take what you take for granted.If you say you don't follow the culture, you don't follow the culture, if you say transfer to another school, you transfer, if you say you resign, you resign.

Looking at you, I was suddenly enlightened, and finally I changed my voluntary major, and without hesitation, I gave up the most advantageous bargaining chip of becoming a "teacher" and "civil servant", and I have rebelled ever since.

Speaking of which, you are my first guide.

But now if you are the one who is at a loss, I don't know how to enlighten you.

I just want you to know that many times, if you just stare at the result of your imagination, thinking step by step and trying to arrange each step, you will hesitate and miss a lot of things.

It's better to give it a go and go wherever you go, but follow your heart.

that's all.

Lu Sansan

"What's the matter, aren't you satisfied?" Seeing Zhou Wei's eyes glued to the camera getting colder and her brows furrowed tighter, Yanzhi asked.

Zhou Wei wanted to answer her, but found that his throat was dry and his voice was trembling: "It's different, it's different from what I want."

"But I think it's good." Yanzhi looked at the photo and affirmed.

Not far away, Luo Jiayi also ran towards them and sat down beside them.

"I might, I won't be able to find my direction mark." Her voice was full of panic.

Yanzhi and Luojia looked at each other, Yanzhi's hand climbed onto her shoulder, and patted her lightly like coaxing a child.

"In fact, sometimes, being too persistent will actually hurt yourself." Luo Jiayi said lightly.

"Don't say that, she's still a child." Yanzhi sighed.

"Actually, when we were in the Northeast, we felt that you were not in the right condition." The warmth of Yanzhi's palm penetrated through the thin shirt material on Zhou Wei's shoulders, making her want to cry.

"It's okay, you're still so young, it's normal to be confused for a while. If you trust us, you can confide in us." After Yanzhi said this, she didn't speak anymore, she just sat quietly and comforted her with her palm. looking at her.Her hands are so warm, Zhou Wei vaguely thinks of her mother.

"No one will understand me." Her voice was hoarse like sandpaper.

"Then do you want to hear a story?" Yanzhi asked again.

As soon as she finished speaking, she laughed bitterly at herself again: "I've been lonely for too long, and I want to tell those old clichés when I catch children."

Zhou Wei has already raised his face buried in his hands.She looked at Yanzhi, her eyes were full of bitterness, and her face was full of fragility that could be shattered after a blow - she had known her for so long, and it was the first time she had seen such a depressed expression on her face.She is always so energetic, caring and warming all the people around her like the sun.

So her mouth moved in front of her brain.

"No, I want to hear it." Her tone was very sincere.

Yanzhi's pupils are light-colored, which reflects her current appearance.She still looked haggard and disappointed, only a little star-like flame was ignited in her eyes.

Yanzhi looked at her female companion again, who nodded slightly to her.She let go of the hand on Zhou Wei's shoulder, thought for a moment, and opened her mouth slowly.

"Do you still remember the oolong we told you yesterday when we first met?"

Zhou Wei thought for a while, and retrieved that incident from a certain corner of his memory, then nodded with difficulty.

"We didn't actually meet at that time, we really met here." Zhou Wei looked in the direction of her finger, and she pointed to the gate of Experimental Middle School.

"It was a rainy day." She said, her eyes became foggy, but there was a little light, as if she was tracing the long river of time and looking straight at the past.