Zihan and Yijing

If you miss the sound.

I don't like going to school more and more, and I'm tired of this boring life day after day.I have to get up before dawn in the morning, not only dizzy and hypoglycemic, but also feel bursts of anger rushing to my heart. The inexplicable anger and irritability make my throat burn and hurt. The road to school is always dark, only The shadows of people jogging in the morning, during the morning self-study, people recite their own books, those paragraphs and words, even if they are famous through the ages, lost their beauty under this kind of forceful pouring, I looked at the book in a daze, Under the influence of classmates' reciting, I forced myself to recite it too.

The teacher never has a smile, and I can't get in with my classmates. The only good thing is my tablemate Xu Jia. She is the intermediary for me to drink Wang Yijing. It is sad that there has been a rift in our relationship recently.

She started estranged from me and found other friends, which of course made me sad, the estrangement was something I could feel, like she started making a bad face at me and stopped eating with me.She didn't have much to say to me when class was over. I told her about my family affairs during my vacation, and she said flatly, "It has nothing to do with me."

I was amazed at the estrangement of the relationship with each other. Since then, I don't know who to open my chatterbox to.The heavy schoolwork and lonely life made me feel overwhelmed, so I really hoped for the appearance of a person.

Just like my little Timo chose me at the beginning, I also want to choose someone, at least a friend, who can listen to me and comfort my distress.It would be nice if I could fall in love with someone.The teenage brain is not fully developed, and the emotional realm can easily get out of control, and I began to feel blue frequently.

This kind of sadness is a kind of low ebb for no reason. It is wrong for teenagers not to know the feeling of sadness. In ancient times, teenagers did not need to study intensively, at least they did not study by themselves in the morning and evening before the lamp was invented.

After losing my deskmate, I was very eager to see Wang Yijing, at least to see her smile, but I went up the stairs and went to her class to find her, even elementary school students don’t have to do this to find friends.

It might seem weird, but I did it anyway.

The evening self-study break has a full 10 minutes, which is enough for me to implement my plan. I went up the stairs, anticipating what will happen next, and I was a little apprehensive. I don’t know if this excessive behavior will scare her. Similar to how Teemo behaved when he touched me, with a bit of desperate courage.

Getting closer to her class, I can hear my heart beating.If there's a sound you miss, this is it.

I timidly stood at the door of Class [-], and I was greeted by more than a dozen pairs of eyes, which made me feel very embarrassed. I couldn't resist looking at them, and started to look for Wang Yijing, who was closer to me A girl asked me, "Who are you looking for?" I gave my name and quit, and Wang Yijing walked out.

"You came to find me on purpose." She was very excited, and her eyes radiated light like a bright moon. It was the light that I could feel, even if I didn't look at it, I could feel its existence.I understand why I am so eager to see her, because she does not hesitate to smile at me, and I can feel the strong affection and interest in it.But she gave me a cat-like feeling. For example, she would not come to me. With her personality, she would not do it to this extent.

I don't know what expression I have, it's probably a smirk, all the unhappiness of the day has been healed at this moment, I have been looking forward to this moment for too long. "Come to play with you."

The two were talking together by the railing.

I thought it would be a good day to see her.

My principles were broken just like that, and in fact, no other students noticed my behavior. I exaggerated my importance in this way.One day I went to play with Wang Yijing and began to confide my troubles, "I don't have many friends, I don't know who to talk to, my homework is heavy, and I can't skip my homework recently, and I have received a warning."

"I also feel that life is difficult." "What is it difficult for you?" In my opinion, Wang Yijing is not as emotional as me. She has a normal social group, and her studies are not as messy as mine. I don't know what she is worrying about.She also suggested, "Seeing that you are so sad, why don't we skip a night of self-study and let's hang out together."

"Yes, but it is difficult to get out of the campus, and I don't want to climb over the fence." I was not good at climbing up and down when I was a child. "Then play in school, just to avoid the patrol."

"Yes, yes, exciting."

We hit it off and decided to fight for two hours of free time.

The high school campus occupies a limited area, and there is no need to waste land to build a pavilion. It is too eye-catching to see two students who do not go to evening self-study on the playground at night. I have to find a place to hide. I thought of the top floor. Although the door there is locked, But the stairs leading there can be hidden. Thinking of when I was sad when I was a child, I would like to find an empty staircase to sit and feel the peace of being alone.Now there are stairs again.

In the evening self-study, there are teachers to inspect the situation of each class, so we dare not speak loudly. The air outside is much better than that in the classroom, and the whole teaching building is quiet.I feel that my suppressed emotions have been relaxed, and my whole body and mind are relaxed.

"Will the teacher find out about absences?" I asked, "Anyway, my teacher often corrects homework or prepares lessons in the office, and asks the class leader to preside over the discipline. It's nothing to find out."

"Yes, it's over when you're cool."

The coolness of human beings lies in the comparison. At this moment, I am playing outside with my friends, instead of being forced to study by myself between a small table and chair, unable to speak, and even reading comics will be warned.I can't even sleep,

"The most important thing is to make yourself happy." Wang Yijing told me.Suddenly there was a sound of footsteps in the distance. We looked at the debris in the stairwell, walked up, and hid behind some abandoned tables and chairs. The place was full of dust, and we couldn't care about it. Go down, hear the footsteps gradually go away, feel the joy of excitement.

"It's like playing a game." Many games have a link to avoid inspections.

I'm not a bad student, at best I'm a poor student, I didn't have any special behaviors, and I wasn't noticeable. I don’t have the answer, I just know that the stagnation of many days has been washed away, and what I pursue is these small happiness.

When I got home, I started to play games. Playing games should be controlled within half an hour. I can only play stand-alone games that don’t have to be restricted. When it comes to games, animals can also play games. Games are a kind of human instinct, to entertain themselves, Let yourself feel the fun under the pressure of brutal survival.In the real world, I use the life attitude of "don't participate, don't indulge when you have to participate" to decompress. In life, we have to put in a lot of effort and it is difficult to get positive feedback, but the game is different. It is very important to our feedback. In time, if you think about it, you may clear the stuck level, and you can upgrade by accumulating experience.Especially the addictive matching battle game, you can feel the pleasure if you win, and you will start again like a gambler if you lose. They will never make people win or lose all the time. It will be boring.

It always adjusts the difficulty of the game to a moderate range.

In the game screen, I tried hard to think about the skills of customs clearance, and kept exploring back and forth.Compared with long-term hard work to see the improvement of grades, spending half an hour to feel the sense of accomplishment of clearing the level is more satisfactory to me. What's more, I don't think hard work can solve all problems. I have always lived with such a sloppy attitude.

Lying on the bed, I feel like I have been muddling along like this, I have always lived like this, and I don’t want to change. Like most children, I am troubled by the suppression of school rules and regulations, but I don’t have any outrageous rebellious behavior. My personality is a bit withdrawn. But it’s not to the point where you can’t talk to anyone. There are also many people who have no friends and no one they like. Living alone in the world, they don’t depend on anyone and care about others. Everyone has a fragile heart and feels that life is hard and boring. Time, longing to depend on and like each other.Those enviable scenes of cuddling and loving each other are always recorded and praised.

I also thought of Wang Yijing's lovely figure, and the strange vortex feeling left by my first acquaintance. I depended on her because I wanted to get rid of my miserable and boring life. On top of this, I used imagination to weave her Mysterious magic.The attraction between people can be known as soon as we meet. She comforted me deeply when I was lonely and sad with her unsparing smile and recognition.Let the loneliness be relieved.

Teemo jumped onto the bed suddenly, it grew up a little, and lay beside me, the temperature came from its small body, animals have no language and can only use touch to convey temperature, I stroked its cock, why did it choose Me, and why did I choose Wang Yijing?

The world traps me like a cage. In the boring and hard life, this thread of thoughts is different from the daily topics of schoolwork troubles, what to eat and what to drink, and I find that all the directions pointing to the artistic scenery are tinged with magnificent colors.Sunflowers naturally face the sun, and I naturally yearn for her smile.