living sacrifice

I have experienced the pain of the night shift, and I also understand that because I am willful and unwilling to take on more work, my colleagues on the night shift have to do more work.

I wasted their lives.

Therefore, in the future, if it is not for any other special reasons, I will try my best to take over the proofreading tasks of new media manuscripts, not just for a dozen proofreading fees, but because I really understand that this It is the work God gave me, so I have to do it for God.

We have all heard the teaching that "the presence and absence of the teacher are the same" when we were young, but in all fairness, I know this is true and good, but I have never been able to do it.

In fact, many people are just like me. They behave differently when the teacher is there, and behave differently when the boss is there. Feel numb.

To be honest, I was like that before.

Now I understand that I really want to show to God, not just to be seen by others. I understand that I should do this in order to please God, and to gain a lot of the best joy that night.

However, "It is up to me to aspire to do good", but I still often fail to do it.

The girl at the front desk is my number one test.

She is a friend I made before I was saved, but because she later said that she was visited by ghosts, and I later observed that she worshiped Buddha at home and liked to watch homosexual things, I can often feel strongly about ghosts. I used her to test me, and I often felt faintly that I shouldn't have too much contact with her.

But once, I had a sudden thought in my mind that I should pray about this matter, asking God to reveal His will.

So I prayed, "Lord, I don't understand if you mean to tell me not to get close to her? If that's the case, please show the Lord so that we can't get close."

After I finished this prayer, I prayed for her every day for more than ten days. Every day, either she had something to do or I had something to do, or we had something to do at the same time, and we had different things every day. We just couldn’t meet at noon.

I also witnessed this incident to my mother. In the end, my mother felt very strange, and she would take the initiative to ask me: "What happened to you today?"

Once when the person at the front desk was walking with me, he suddenly said a lot of blasphemy. I was so angry that I left without saying a word.

Afterwards, she asked me instead: "Why did you leave suddenly yesterday? I think your expression is so scary."

She has no memory of herself saying blasphemy. I don't think she is pretending to be stupid on purpose. She probably wouldn't do that, because she is a person who just says what's on her mind.

But the problem is, she often has contact with ghosts, and it doesn't help her to evangelize at all, I really don't want to communicate with her too much.

After this incident happened, I suddenly understood a sentence in the Bible: Do not stand in the way of sinners, nor sit in the seat of scorners.

It really is.

Although they are friends, this friend doesn't seem to regard me as a friend. She likes to be lazy (I am also like this, and then I found that the friends I made are also like this), and she often throws me the things that are her duty.

After a person who distributed newspapers in our company left, the leader called us in. The job assigned to us at that time was mainly to distribute newspapers here. If she asked for leave, I would take her place.

However, later, she would come to work very late in the morning for two or three days in a row, and she would ask me to do this for her, especially on Monday when she had accumulated a lot of newspapers, and she would ask me to do it for her.

At that time, I was really furious in my heart, and I still resented God for letting such a thing happen to me.

It was only after I worked overtime until 2 o’clock in the morning that I realized that God has entrusted me with my work. God has completely controlled my work. On the surface, it seems that man gave it to me, but in fact, it is God. power behind the scenes.

Because I discovered this truth, I was able to do this kind of work willingly and willingly with the mentality of serving God.

The strange thing is that after having such a state of mind, I became very joyful, and I began to wonder why I couldn't accept such a thing willingly before.Obviously everything has to be done, but I bitterly blamed people and God, and then confessed and repented, why bother?

Distributing newspapers suddenly became a joyful thing for me. I thought that since it was done for God, God would remember me.Such a small thing, God actually remembers me, what a joy!

However, sometimes when I am not in a good mood, for example, I have many other things to do in the morning, I still resist and even find excuses not to do it.My old self keeps coming to make trouble for me.

But every time I do this, my other tasks will increase, and I understand that God is teaching me through such things. He uses various circumstances to let me know that He is in complete control time after time, day by day. , No matter how much work I have in my hand, it is determined by Him. Only in this way can my heart slowly obey.

After that, I observed the time and found that no matter how busy I was, all work would be over by five o'clock, and I could go home on time, participate in church services, or go home to read the Bible and pray without delay.

I remember one night when I was going to a prayer meeting, but at that time, another person suddenly came to me to proofread a lot of things.

I calculated the time and felt that it was too late, but I was in a hurry to go downstairs to hand in other materials, so I didn't communicate with her online.

As a result, when I finished handing in the materials and went upstairs, I happened to meet that person, and I told her directly: "I have something to do tonight, and I may not have time to review your things."

She said: "It's okay, let's forget it if it's too late. You can review it tomorrow."

I said, "Tomorrow I'm on vacation at home..."

She said, "Forget it, it's okay."

However, I didn’t do this well. In fact, I should have finished it the next day. But for me at that time, I was still very grateful to God for giving me some grace to attend the meeting with peace of mind.

Another time, it was also at five o'clock, and another person called me in the group and asked me to proofread things.

Can you feel it?It's really annoying when something like this happens.Maybe you sit there all afternoon and no one looks for you, but when it’s time to get off work, especially when there is a prayer meeting at night, they will come to you for all kinds of troubles.

And I know very well in my heart that many times it is the enemy deliberately seeking trouble, but it is also God’s permission.Through these things, God keeps expanding my capacity.

That day, I was very irritable and prayed to God to help me, but that person unexpectedly withdrew himself inexplicably.

I still haven't figured out what happened to him, but that's how the day ended.

I was in the battle every day. What I could see was busy work, but what I couldn’t see was the forces of the spiritual world who were disturbing me every day through these jobs.

But God has been watching over and protecting me, but He didn't save me.

I believe in God, but my faith is unstable. These things made me so weak. I prayed more than once: "Lord, please save me from this job. I have learned a lot. Please. You save me."

Because every day is a huge battle and struggle, I later learned a technique from others, which is to get up early every day and say morning prayer.

I have heard my uncle talk about morning prayers before, but I have not developed such a habit myself.

At one of my family gatherings, my uncle told me: "Your great-grandfather and great-grandmother were both Christians, and they were the first group of Christians in the village. Do you get up every morning and pray on your knees?"

At that time, I was very disdainful: "I didn't kneel and pray."

My uncle criticized me: "Then you are still far behind. They were very pious at that time, praying on their knees at three or four o'clock every day. I was still young at that time, but I was very impressed."

At that time, I was very disdainful of my uncle's views, but I was very cunning and didn't say anything.What I thought in my heart was: God looks at the heart, not the appearance.Sister Zhao kneels every day, and I don’t think she understands God’s will very well. It can be seen that morning prayers are useless.

But this time, because of the various battles and persecutions in my work unit, I started to do morning prayers for myself. Later, I found that the effect was really good, so I increased my appetite and started to do morning prayers for brothers, sisters and the whole church.

After I did this, I found that I was more and more connected with the church. Often what I prayed, and then what the theme of this Lord's Day was.

I reminded myself not to be proud, but on the other hand, I was really thankful to God. How great and strong this was for my faith!

This is also God’s grace. In fact, what I do is what God does. However, because I have such a prayer experience, when God really does it, I receive a continuous supply of living water from God. It’s amazing. !

In the same way, I developed the good habit of getting up in the morning to get close to God without looking at my phone, not being late for weekly meetings or Sunday meetings, and often praying for my brothers and sisters.

These habits were not taught by others, but were slowly developed in an environment of persecution by the enemy. Thank the Lord, He really understands me very well.Although I don't like persecution, however, these persecutions really forced me to grow a lot.

What is the change?

Also, from one to five o'clock, there are things in the unit, but the situation becomes different every day after that.

I also gradually got used to it: God is in power anyway, so why should I be so resistant?Isn't it good to follow in the footsteps of the Holy Spirit?

Had another experience the other night.

That night, I had to wait for the leader to sign before I could leave, but the problem was that the leader did not sign for a long time. I waited since the afternoon and there was no movement until five o'clock.

In the beginning, I still had some disobedience, but this time I obeyed relatively quickly.

So I began to pray: "Lord, since everything is in your hands, I will no longer resist you. Please do what you want, not mine, because I know that the Ruby you have chosen for me is better than mine Choose better."

Participating in the prayer meeting was a task given to me by the Lord, and I had to complete it. However, the work at my work unit was still lingering. It was impossible to say that I didn’t have any anxiety in my heart.

But I didn't have a lot of fighting that day, and I was doing other, less urgent tasks while I waited.

It was around six o'clock, and I began to think in my heart: If I go home for dinner and then go out according to the previous plan, it must be too late.So I started thinking about where I could have dinner.

I thought I could go to the bathroom before leaving, but when my colleague told me that I could leave work, I completely forgot about my previous plan and rushed out with my bag.

When I got downstairs, I suddenly found that there was sporadic light rain outside, and I remembered that I didn't go to the toilet before leaving.

Standing downstairs at that time, I faced a choice: go upstairs or go to church?

I could choose to go upstairs to get my raincoat, go to the toilet, and then go to church leisurely, but my heart is very anxious to go to church, and I don’t want to waste time here.

I felt exhausted from all these battles, one little thing after another was entangled with me, and it was unbearable.So I said, "Go away!"

The rain stopped.

After I ate something, I successfully found the toilet hidden in the hallway and solved the problem. Then I suddenly found a small gift that God had prepared for me in the bag. After I arrived at the church, I began to be grateful for this day and A completely different experience before.

According to the nature of sinners, we all hate things that are not in our own hands. I used to hate such things.

I sometimes hate it now, but thinking that every time there is such a situation, the Lord will not disappoint me, and I can obey, and then many different experiences are brought out.

But please don't misunderstand me. What God looks at is man's obedience. Don't go in the wrong direction, but pursue those very rare things.If you take the latter path, you may die faster than if you take the gay path.Read the previous article carefully, I have mentioned several such people.

I always feel cautious about signs and wonders, but I also feel that I should speak as truthfully as possible of what I have experienced and seen.In case someone tries it out of curiosity, when I say this, I have to worry that the sinner’s nature is that the more others tell him not to do it, he will do it anyway, just like learning to stutter when he was a child.

What is the right way?

Suffering and bearing the cross are the right path, and no one can avoid it.

When bearing the cross, no one will feel that it is a pleasant thing, it is the limit of human nature.But the will of the Lord is to call for patience. Blessed is the one who endures to the end according to the will of the Lord.