16 cm lady! ?

Every day in the future, I will go out for half a day.Zhang Yan asked me why I always go out recently, and I told her that I would go for a walk to relax.But in fact, I went out to find a job.

However, the job was not so easy to find, and I spent a whole week and couldn't find it.I even wanted to give up a little bit, but whenever I wanted to give up, the scene of Zhang Yan taking Shenghan away from me would always appear in my mind. At this time, my motivation would be there.

After half a month, I finally found my first job in life.As a small employee, I can't make much money, but I am satisfied, as long as I have a job.

When I found a job, I told Zhang Yanming.She was surprised and didn't believe me until I showed her the salary.When I handed her my salary, as expected, she didn't take it.

"Take it!" I handed her my salary, "In addition to being my babysitter, you also have to help me manage my money."

"why?"

"Because I can't manage myself well, and occasionally spend money randomly, so the money I earn is not enough for me to spend. I might as well eat at home..."

As soon as I said that, she agreed.

She agreed, and I was happy too.This way of getting along is more and more like a couple, isn't it?

I feel that as long as I do what I am supposed to do, I don't care about anything else, and I don't need to deal with others.But I was wrong, very wrong.

After working for a year, I don't have any friends in the company because I don't want to talk to them.But when I found out that a colleague who joined the company later than me and whose performance was not as good as mine had been promoted, I felt that I seemed to care about others a little bit.Why?Because I am not reconciled.

A few days later, I found out that that colleague is the most popular in our company. It can be said that everyone in the company except me knows her.

I'm wondering if my point is wrong?I always thought that as long as I don't care about others, I can still live well, but now it makes me a little uncomfortable.

I started to try to talk to my colleagues, but found that getting along with others is actually not that uncomfortable. At least I learned a lot, and my popularity has improved a lot.

After half a year, I was promoted.

This made me completely deny my previous point of view, and I suddenly remembered my days at home.In fact, as long as I study hard, I should still be able to make something edible, but I didn't.When I was the only one at home, I always felt that something was missing. I turned on the TV every day, and I didn’t know what to watch. At that time, I just thought it was boring, but now it seems that this is loneliness.

It is impossible for man to survive alone.

That's why I'm looking for a nanny, so at least there is a nanny who can accompany me, right?

Since Zhang Yan came to my house, I have lived a more fulfilling life day by day.Although I feel sad and cry occasionally, but I feel much better than before...

After I figured it out, I worked harder.The job has been promoted, and the salary has also increased.However, the happiest person is not me, but Zhang Yan who waits for me to come home every day.

I don't know when she will knit sweaters for me.I was up all night with joy when I received her hand knit.As for that sweater, I am reluctant to wear it even now, for fear that it will be gone if it wears out.

However, after she discovered my behavior of 'collecting sweaters', she came to me and asked, "Do you not like the sweaters I knit for you?" She looked like she was about to cry.

"How come, it's too late for me to like it!" I comforted her, I don't know when, I can also touch her without being hated by her.

"Then...then why don't you ever wear it?"

"I'm afraid I'll wear it out."

"If you wear it, it will break. If you want, I can knit one for you."

"No, this is the first thing you made for me, I want to treasure it!"

"You..." I couldn't see her expression clearly, but I thought, even if I saw it clearly, I wouldn't understand.I have never been able to see through her mind.

A few days later, I received another sweater she knitted for me.I didn't expect that she would knit another one for me. When I saw her weaving, I thought she was knitting for Shenghan, so I didn't pay much attention.

I hugged her happily and said "thank you."

I don't know what kind of mood she was in to help me make the sweater, but the only thing I'm sure of is that she doesn't hate me anymore.Because she wasn't afraid of me, didn't push me away, and even cared about me.This makes me happy, and I'm glad I made the right choice in the first place.

However, she took care of me, but she couldn't take care of herself.

One evening when I came home, I rang the doorbell for a long time, but no one opened the door for me.I quickly took out the key, opened the door, and found that her shoes were still there, which gave me a lot of peace of mind.

However, the lights are not turned on at home, where is she?

"Xiaoyan, I'm back! Xiaoyan?" I couldn't find her in the hall or kitchen, and finally came to the door of her room.

"Mom...Wow...Mom..." Xiao Shenghan's cry came from the room.

I opened the door, and in the dim room, I saw Zhang Yan lying on the bed, seemingly sleeping, and Sheng Han crying beside her.

I walked over, stroked Shenghan's head, and comforted me: "Shenghan, don't cry, don't disturb mommy to sleep."

"Is mom really sleeping?" Xiao Shenghan asked me sobbing.

I looked at Zhang Yan's sleeping face, "Of course, otherwise, why would I be lying on the bed." I turned to Shenghan, put my index finger on my mouth, and said softly, "Shh, don't cry, it's too late if you disturb your mother when she sleeps." It's not good, let's go out."

"Okay," Shenghan wiped away tears by himself, sniffled, "but mom..."

"What's wrong with her?" I was also a little curious, I rarely see Zhang Yan sleeping at this time, it can be said that almost never.Maybe it's because he's too tired, but Shenghan has been crying beside him for so long, it doesn't make sense that he hasn't woken up yet...

"Mom, her body is very hot, can I stay for a while before leaving?" In cold weather, children always like to lean against hot places.

However, "What!" I didn't care about Shenghan, and put my hand on Zhang Yan's forehead, it was hot!She has a fever!

My heart has never been so chaotic.I pulled off Zhang Yan's quilt, took off my overcoat, put it on her, carried her on my back and left.

"Auntie! Auntie, where are you going!" Shenghan followed me, which annoyed me.I believe that if I take Shenghan with me, she will slow down my time.

"You wait at home first, we'll be back soon!" After finishing speaking, I closed and locked the door before Shenghan could leave.

I just carried Zhang Yan on my back and ran to the hospital.

"Are you awake? Do you feel all right?" I leaned against Zhang Yan's hospital bed, holding her hand tightly.When she opened her eyes, my uneasy heart calmed down.

"Why am I here?" She looked a little confused, "Aren't I sleeping at home?"

"What sleep! You have a fever, you passed out!" I let go of her hand and took a bowl of porridge from the table, "Are you hungry? Would you like something to eat?"

But she didn't seem to be fully awake, she stared blankly at my hand.

"What's the matter? Don't you like porridge?" I thought she didn't like the porridge in my hand.

"No...it's nothing." She turned her head away, not looking at me.

"Since there is no dislike, come and have a bite." I took a bite out of a spoon, blew on it with my mouth, and then put the spoon in front of her.

"I... I can just do it myself!" She took the spoon and bowl in my hand and ate slowly.

I watched her eat and felt very happy.

After eating for a while, she asked me, "Where's Shenghan?"

"I'm at home." I was very upset that she was still thinking of Shenghan at this time, but when she said this, I remembered that there was another person at home. "Too bad, there's nothing for her to eat at home!"

"What!" Zhang Yan was also stunned, how could she be willing to let the child go hungry. "I want to go home!"

"Okay, I'll tell the hospital and we'll go home."

When I got home, it was already past nine or ten o'clock in the evening.

Open the door, but found that the whole room is dark.Zhang Yan quickly turned on the light, and the sound of 'pop' made the voice in the corner louder: "Mom...Mom...I'm afraid..."

Only then did I realize that Sheng Han's eyes were red and swollen from crying.When Sheng Han saw Zhang Yan, she ran over, hugged Zhang Yan with her small body, and kept shaking.

Is she afraid?Yes, trapped in a dark room, hungry and cold, she is only a child, can she not be afraid?

Sheng Han kept crying for his mother in Zhang Yan's arms, crying that he was afraid.In order to keep her from crying, I put the food I bought in front of her to seduce her: "Xiao Shenghan, don't cry, let's see what delicious food Auntie bought for you!"

But I didn't expect her to cry even more when she saw me, "Mom, I don't want my aunt!... I don't want my aunt!"

In desperation, Zhang Yan could only bring food and Shenghan back to her room.

I stood in the living room, looking at their closed door.Shenghan hates me?

For the next few days, Zhang Yan stayed with Sheng Han in the room.According to Zhang Yan, Sheng Han is very afraid of the dark now.This was all caused by me, I said sorry to Zhang Yan, but she seemed a little unhappy.

"It's none of your business, it's all my fault."

"..." I watched her walk back to the room step by step, "Remember to wear more clothes!" I shouted to her behind her.

She stopped walking and said "I see." But she didn't turn her head around.After speaking, she went back to the room.

I don't know what Zhang Yan is saying to Sheng Han every night, I can only hear Zhang Yan's very small voice from the next door in the room, but I can't hear what she said clearly every time.Occasionally, when he felt that he could hear clearly, Shenghan would cry again.

At this time, I can only complain in my room: "Crying, crying, isn't it enough to have her whispering by your side! Don't give her to me!"

Shenghan hates me, but she is Zhang Yan's child, so I can't hate her.And I was already ashamed of her, which made me unable to hate her even more.Although she told me not to eat with Zhang Yan for a few days...