[Comprehensive] living to death

From the time she can remember, Fenglin has been told by people around her that she was born as the hope of Fangguo's future.Everyone said that she shoulders the most important mission of a country, so she must grow up well.

Is she really that important?Feng Lin was ignorant, but firmly remembered this point.

——In order to make everyone in the motherland live better, I must become an excellent unicorn!

……Yes.Fenglin once hoped very much that he could become an excellent unicorn and an excellent celebrity.When she was a child, she was very ambitious. She felt that she wanted to become a powerful Qilin like Zonglin of the Southern Kingdom or Yanqi of the Yanzhou Kingdom, and choose a virtuous king who could rule the world for a long time.Well, Gong Qi’s Gong Qi doesn’t want to study. Although I heard that the queen is also a very powerful king, she doesn’t want to be slapped by the king twice in three days.

In order to achieve this goal, Feng Lin is studying very seriously every day.As a unicorn, you have to eat well, sleep well, and run every day (if the king is in danger, you must need her to carry the king to escape, right?), you must submit to powerful orders, and you must learn all kinds of knowledge, because in the future you will need to As a celebrity to handle government affairs...

She wants to be a very good unicorn, and then choose a very good person to be the king.Feng Lin thought that only a very good person can be a king.

But what does "very good" look like?Feng Lin tried hard to imagine, but she had never seen a real king, so she could only use the people around her as a reference.She secretly speculated: Do you want to be as kind as Huzhu?Sometimes gentle and sometimes harsh like Rong Ke?In the words of the king, he must be as majestic as Bixia Xuanjun, right?

In any case, it must be someone different from the frightening Huizhou Hou Yuexi in the legend. A "very good person" must not hurt others, let alone kill innocent people and innocent unicorns. In short, he must be a very, very kind person.

That was what she thought when she was seven or eight years old.After all, unicorns are different from human beings. They only have a short infancy. After the horns on their foreheads grow, they become "adult beasts".In human terms, from the age of eight, Fenglin is an adult.It was also at this time that the failure to surrender occurred.

Feng Lin ran to the depths of the Yellow Sea, wanting to realize the first step of her ambition: to subdue a powerful big demon as a messenger.

She failed.

Although there was no danger, she and the original envoy were only injured in the end, and the smell of blood still made Feng Lin sleepy for a long time.But that's not the most important thing.

Most importantly, since then, Fenglin has discovered more and more that he does not seem to have the talent to be a unicorn.

In other words, she doesn't have the talent to "be the kind of unicorn she wants to be".

Without strong enough spiritual power, powerful demons cannot be subdued.Without a smart enough mind, the studies related to political affairs became more and more difficult day by day, making it difficult for her to understand.Even she didn't have a strong enough character. When she was depressed and crying because of self-blame, she found that people around her were showing worried expressions; The blame hurt Feng Lin's emotions even more.

Fenglin once tried to confide his troubles to the fairies: Am I unable to become an excellent unicorn?

However, the female fairies just replied in confusion and tenderness: Feng Lin is already very good, and as long as he chooses the king, he can complete his mission.

...In other words, it turns out that everyone's expectation of her is not actually how powerful she is, but as long as she chooses the king, is that all right?Did no one expect her to be strong and smart?

It turns out... her only value lies in finding the king?So... what are all her efforts, all those careful planning and hard work in the past?

She was at a loss.

After all, Qilin is a kind of benevolent creature, with a gentle obedience that can easily be transformed into cowardice and stupidity.Even though Fenglin is an unusual unicorn, she still has such a nature.

So she silently accepted this reality.So be it, she thought, at least there was something she could do.

She wants to choose a very good, very good, very kind, very kind king.In this case, if the king can make everyone happy, Fenglin should also be responsible for this happiness, right?

This is the last and only thing she can work on.

—Find the king.

It is conceivable that when Fenglin found out that her last hope was pinned on Yuexi, how hard it was for her to accept.

Even when she ascended the mountain in the second year, she saw Zukazai Xiaoyong's cruelty in Fangguo's team-the kind of cruelty that held high the banner of righteousness and did not hesitate to sacrifice others, and Xiaoyong said that no matter who sat on the throne, It will be so.

Fenglin finally understood that as a Qilin, she had no choice.Everyone is waiting for her to choose the king, but what they are waiting for is "God's will" to choose the king. As for what Feng Lin thinks...no one cares.

How she thinks, how she tried, hoped, blamed herself, grieved... In fact, no one really cares.

It's like... How many people still remember the Fengtaifu who was killed?Once killed, it is forgotten.Everyone knows that there will be new peaks on Pengshan's sacrificial tree, no matter before her or after her.

Fenglin is Qilin, and Qilin is God's will; Qilin's choice of king is essentially God's choice of king.

The unicorn is just a symbol.

It has nothing to do with Kirin himself.

"Sorry, it's all my fault..."

It's all her fault, it's because she's too willful, it's because she knows how the people of Fangguo need a king, but she still stubbornly refuses to admit it because of her cowardice and secret grievances.It's because she shouldn't resist her mission, it's because she takes her own ideas too seriously...

Obviously, as long as you obey your instinct and kneel in front of Yuexi, isn't that all right?

"Sorry……"

What is she sad about?

In the empty side hall, Feng Lin's cry echoed.The sun shone silently into the room, illuminating the thick dust on the floor clearly.Feng Lin lowered his head, tears dripping down one after another, smashing the accumulated dust into blurred traces.

From the moment she cried, Mrs. Liu had a bitter face.He grabbed his hair, racked his brains and could only say "Don't cry", and finally he could only look at the black unicorn next to him for help. "Hey, hello!" Mrs. Liu greeted in a low voice, "Say something!"

Mingyue stared at him: "What can I say?"

Liu Tai hates iron but not steel: "Aren't you also Lin?"

"It's also Lin, what's wrong?"

"As Lin, shouldn't you be more gentle and considerate!"

"No, I am a model of quick deeds but slow words."

"Who are you lying to!"

The brunette girl laughed.Qilin is born as a divine beast and is well-clothed and well-fed. When it takes human form, most of them are delicate and even beautiful, but their complexion is too dazzling. One can't help but think that it is too much to be so beautiful.

Half of the suet white jade-like cheeks glowed delicately in the sunlight, the light red lips curved gracefully, and the eyes were as deep and clear as the night sky full of stars.

There will always be a few occasional moments when she looks like a famous painting with a long history but still fresh and vivid, and every smear, light and shadow has meaningful meaning.

Liutai suddenly thought, it is no wonder that Shang Long always mentioned Gonglin after returning home, after all, he is truly beautiful and incomparable.

"I think, instead of me who doesn't have much to say, it's better to let the really important people say it, right?" Mingyue said unhurriedly, "For example, I have worked hard for the country for many years, and I will continue to work hard I don't know how many years, the future King Feng?"

"what?"

Liu Tai was dumbfounded, and Feng Lin stopped crying.

"Ge Ying."

Following an order, the female monster stepped out of the shadows.After giving a little salute, she gave up her seat to a certain "big man" behind her, and after removing the bandage covering his face, she quietly disappeared without a trace.

Feng Lin's eyes widened, and his body trembled slightly again.

The person who looked at them with a wry smile... was the one who was supposed to be outside the palace, Huizhou Hou Yuexi.

"Good day... the two Pengshan Gongs, and Lord Yantaifu."

The sixth wife also opened her mouth wide in shock.Immediately, he jumped in front of Mingyue and asked a little frantically, "You kidnapped King Feng?!"

"Kidnapping - the act of bringing the victim under his control by violence or coercion in order to demand property. I neither used violence nor coercion, nor controlled him, nor demanded a ransom. In conclusion, I did not No crime as serious as kidnapping has been committed."

"Please—is this the time to argue? Are you not afraid of getting Qiaoguo into trouble?"

"I'm not quibbling, the law of crimes and punishments is the foundation of a country. I, at most, do extraordinary things at an extraordinary time, and my original intention is to help Fenglin and the future His Majesty Fengwang."

"This is just a reckless move to make a claim..."

Yan Taifu, who had seen many lives for a long time, let out a long sigh, glared at Gonglin again, then casually bowed to Yuexi over there, and said old-fashionedly: "This guy has this personality, and he doesn't mean anything malicious, Yuexi, don't you Take it to heart."

"I understand that Qilin doesn't harbor ill will toward people." Yuexi nodded.He wears a crown on his head, his clothes are simple and elegant, and his expression is calm and gentle. He is a person who can easily be liked at a glance.

Then he looked at Fenglin.

As soon as he came into contact with Yuexi's sight, Fenglin trembled like an electric shock, showing a panicked expression, and even wanted to turn around and run away—unfortunately, Fenglin held him down.

Seeing her like this, Yuexi smiled wryly again. "You really hate me... No, are you really afraid of me, Feng Lin?" He tried his best to sound gentle and cautious, hoping to comfort the helpless Feng Lin to some extent.

Feng Lin hid behind Gong Lin, just like when he ascended the mountain, his hands tightly clutched Gong Lin's dress.Mingyue couldn't drag her out no matter what.And her terrified and pitiful appearance made it impossible for people to be tough on her.

"If you are worried, just talk like this." Yuexi looked at Gonglin, "Is this okay?"

"Of course I don't care."

"Feng Lin."

"...Yes, yes, what's the matter?"

"I have fully understood Fenglin's worries and fears, and at the same time, I also understand Fenglin's accusations against me. Indeed, Feng Taifu in the past was just obeying the destiny, and the king's cruelty cannot be attributed to Qilin. Moreover, When the king is tyrannical, the unicorn will also suffer from painful diseases."

"That……"

"However, I will not apologize for everything I have done, including ending Fengtaifu's life."

At this moment, Fenglin forgot to breathe. "You..." She wanted to yell, but in the end she only made a weak mosquito sound, "Do you think... it's right to kill Qilin?"

"exactly."

"……why?"

The eyes of the three unicorns in the room all focused on Yuexi.Yuexi also glanced at the other two unicorns again.Seeing unicorns from three countries at the same time is also an unusual experience for Yuexi.For what he said just now, Yan Taifu just frowned and didn't react. After all, he was the leader of King Yan; Thinking of it, Yuexi couldn't help being startled.

But the focus of his attention was only on Feng Lin.The young child stared at him stubbornly with big innocent and weak eyes.Yuexi then remembered that Feng Lin was only 13 years old this year, the same age as Princess Xiangqiong when she was promoted to immortality, and they were both very young children who didn't know the world.In the palace, the princess became a 13-year-old princess forever, and paid a heavy price for it, while Fenglin...

Yuexi thought, this is something he should take responsibility for.

"For Fengtaifu, I still feel very sorry, and I don't shy away from admitting that this is a crime I committed. But if I do it again, I will still do it. Because the past Fengtaifu elected two kings one after another, During the reign of the two kings, both of them brought great suffering to the people. A total of 100 years have wiped out the trust and expectation of the people in that Fengtaifu, so..."

"You want to say..." Fenglin exhaled tremblingly, "In order to give birth to a new unicorn, the disappointing Fengtaifu must die, right? Just like when ascending the mountain, the guards of Zukazai Xiaoyong Should you die? Because, because..."

Yuexi probably didn't know what Fenglin encountered on the way up the mountain, but his expression seemed to indicate that he understood what Fenglin was talking about.He stared at the Qilin in Fangguo, and quietly listened to her finish speaking.

"Because that's what the majority of people want...it's for the preservation of the majority, that's it, isn't it?"

"Doesn't Fenglin agree?" Yuexi finally said, "So, what do you think should be done?"

"I..." Feng Lin muttered for a long time, and said timidly, "I don't know..."

"However, as decision makers, we have to make a choice." Yuexi's gentle face showed a bit of sternness, but remained calm, "Although, in the operation of the country, cruel decisions are made by the king, Qilin is a benevolent beast. It only needs to persuade the king to be benevolent and keep telling the king not to hurt the people. Fenglin actually doesn’t need to know these things, but I once said to another person that since he enjoys what ordinary people can’t get In life, you should fulfill your responsibilities that ordinary people cannot do. I think that being a unicorn should be no exception."

Qilin is elegant, healthy, respected and loved by everyone, and if he can find a good king, Qilin can continue this kind of life for many years.They live a life beyond the reach of ordinary people, so when misfortune strikes, they should also bear these...?

"but……"

Under Yuexi's calm and stern eyes, Feng Lin couldn't suppress his emotions anymore, and burst into tears again.She cried, let go of Gong Lin's dress, and yelled at Yuexi: "You bastard——"

"Have you ever thought about it, have you ever thought about it! If I had a choice, maybe I would rather choose to live in poverty but live freely for ten years, than to carry these things and live like a delicate doll for 100 years. !!"

"You have a choice! Whether to become an official, whether to trade your life for fame and fortune, how to do many things - humans can choose these things! But Qilin has no choice, we have no choice !!"

"I'm just... I'm just..."

Feng Lin covered his face, squatting on the ground and choking.The side hall was filled with dusty sunlight, and the beams and pillars with peeling vermilion paint stared sadly at the few people in the room.

"...I just want to choose... just once..."

For a while, the room was extremely quiet, only the sound of Feng Lin's crying stirred up the ubiquitous dust particles.There is the sound of waves from the sea of ​​clouds outside the window, and the white clouds make the palace in the sky brighter; the light and shadow wrapped in the breath of sea water are accompanied by the swaying of the wind, spreading silently in the old and ancient buildings, as if indifferent and calm, or because of The loneliness that has no choice but to be silent.

"...Forget it." Feng Lin rubbed his eyes vigorously, "After all, I am too willful... Actually, I also know that this kind of resistance is meaningless... and it will only hurt others..."

She stood up, lowered her head, and walked in front of Yuexi, ready to kneel down to meet the destiny.

At this time, Yuexi grabbed her shoulder and stopped her movement.

Feng Lin shook again, but there was no other reaction.

"Sorry." Yuexi said, "I already understand Fenglin's wish. But if the fate is on me, for the sake of Fangguo, I will not refuse."

"..."

"However, in the future, I will try my best to give you freedom."

"That's..." Feng Lin raised his head and looked at Yuexi blankly, "What do you mean?"

The man smiled.

"Feng Lin is only 13 years old this year. To put it disrespectfully, he is still a child who knows too little."

"I was a beast when I was eight years old."

"For Qilin, this may be the case, but for Fenglin——Feng Taifu, the knowledge and principles that can be learned in 13 years are really too little."

"I don't deny that..."

Yuexi patted the child's thin shoulder lightly, just like an elder treats a junior in the world. "If you know too little, it will be difficult to make a choice that truly meets your wishes, because you still don't know who you are and what you really want." He said softly, "So, if Feng If Lin is willing to continue learning, I will take on the responsibility of continuing to teach Fenglin, including those decisions that are not in line with Qilin's nature, and I will also tell Fenglin the reasons behind it."

"When Fenglin feels that he is strong enough to make a decision, I think that is the beginning of 'freedom'."

The little girl clenched her hands. "But even so, what can I do then?" she asked.

"I don't know about this issue. Only Fenglin at that time could think it through." Yuexi said, "But I can guarantee that if one day Fenglin loses his way because of me, I will immediately go to Pengshan Zen position , will not let the tragedy of the former Fengtaifu happen to Fenglin."

"This is a promise from the king."

******

During the day when the weather is fine, the sea of ​​clouds in the sky will fade, and those hazy and illusory water shadows will split like cotton, scattered in the blue sky, like ponds of various shapes.This situation will continue until the evening, when the temperature drops to a certain level, the sea of ​​clouds will become a large real ocean again.

Mingyue lay lazily on Yanqi's body, hugged Dama's neck, pressed her face against his mane, and let the warm sunshine cover her back.

"This is miserable." Mrs. Liu muttered, "There were three when I sneaked out, and there were two when I went back. I will definitely be scolded to death by that woman Xuanjun."

"But Feng Lin succeeded in choosing the king, shouldn't we be commended?"

"Tch, you are such a naive little Qilin. Only Fenglin will be praised. It's no wonder we don't get scolded like hell."

Mingyue dragged out her voice, said "Oh", turned her face around, and continued to lazily lie on her stomach basking in the sun.Mrs. Six tilted her head, and said with disgust: "Really, I, my senior, will carry you back and forth. Hey kid, come down and run by yourself."

"It won't change."

"Maybe once you are thrown down, your survival instinct will stimulate you to transform."

"Hahahaha please forgive me..."

The blue sky flew by them.After a long time, Mingyue felt the altitude drop.The sea of ​​clouds that were originally under their feet slowly turned into water vapor soaking in the surroundings, and finally turned into a feathery white shadow hanging above their heads.

Pengshan has arrived.

She straightened up and stretched.

"Sixth wife."

"how?"

"I'm thinking, maybe you can really try your previous proposal."

"What proposal... Hey, hey, don't mess around!!"

Amidst Yanqi's panicked cry, Gonglin jumped off his back.In an instant, she fell to the ground unrestrained, her ears filled with the sound of the wind, and she forgot everything—including Yanqi's anxious call—from her mind.

The wind rushes by--

I want to be the wind itself.

It turns out...is this the feeling?

The rapidly approaching gray-black shadow—that is the shadow of Mount Kumgang.There is also a sea of ​​dark green trees and a few spots of yellow sand.Are the black dots galloping towards you a monster that you mistakenly thought could be prey...

—My lord!

——塙Lin!

She closed her eyes.

The black unicorn, which is as dark as the night sky but bright, opened its eyes.

Gone with the wind.

The wind is flying fast.in the blink of an eye.

He probably didn't know the exact time of her return. According to his schedule, he should be studying history books now.But in fact, he was standing on the long bridge outside the palace, looking over the railing.

The black unicorn landed lightly in front of him.

"Let's talk about it first, I can only kneel this once, after all, there is no way to do it."

The young man with black hair and black eyes stared at her without any surprise, but showed a faint smile instead. "Up to you," he said.

bend over.bow your head.

"—Abiding by the destiny, welcome the master. Never leave the imperial court, never disobey the imperial edict. Swear to be loyal."

"I forgive."