Ding Zhou Ji

situation.

As for me, I am "I will never die", because I have a debt that makes the King of Hades shake his head.

Milong is really "never dead", he has been living in his home with his wife and children.

It was raining again, and he squatted under the corridor of his house, looking at the stagnant water on the ground, thinking about fixing the drainage eaves as soon as possible.

It was windy again, and he stood in the small yard of his house, looking at the fallen leaves, thinking about sweeping the yard up later.

The sun was out again, and he walked into the bedroom that he had "bombed", intending to take the muddy and watery quilts out to dry in the sun.

He can finally be with his wife and children forever, the war is over, and life is easier.

He and his wife would laugh and watch as their yard became lively day by day, many people were talking to them, some called them "Mom and Dad", some called them "Grandpa and Grandma", and some called them "Grandpa and Grandma". ...

If, Milong is really "never die".

However, Milong is really dead.Now what accompanies his wife all the time is nothing but her endless longing for her husband, and nothing but a beautiful dream she wove for herself.

Also, her hatred that has nowhere to vent.

How could she not hate.She was deprived of her husband, deprived of her son's father.Her happiness was ruined, her future was ruined, and the dream that only belonged to her was ruined.

But what is she going to hate.Hate this war, hate this world, hate this era? Or do you hate Mr. Chen in the military, or Yu Xiaoqing?

She could hate it, she could hate it with her life, she could hate it with her whole life.However, her hatred will never be lessened, it will only become stronger and stronger, and it will only become more and more hateful.

She shouldn't live like this, she can't live her life like this.She still has a long way to go, and she should go on with hope and love instead of despair or hatred.

Milong's wife is very clever, she found a way out for herself.

Yes, I was supposed to bear all her hatred.

I was the one who tied Milong to the Jiqi Slope, and I was the one who brought Milong to the Nantian Gate.

It was I who believed in the wrong person and begged the wrong person, I broke Milong's leg, and I killed Milong with my own hands.

Milong's wife is very merciful, and she has found a way out for the person she hates.

She gave me a chance to pay off my debt to Milong, even if only a little bit.

She even gave me a chance to finally dig a shovel of soil for the three thousand graves on Nantianmen.So that I can finally begin to pay off my debt that will never be repaid.

For the first cup of tea, I owe Milong's wife.The second cup of tea, I owe Milong's son.

The third and fourth cup of tea, I owe to the wives and children of the three thousand brothers.

Fifth and sixth cup of tea, I owe the parents of the three thousand brothers.

Seventh, the eighth cup of tea, I owe the three thousand brothers' brothers and sisters.

The ninth cup of tea, I owe to all the relatives of Brother Paozhe who built the Great Wall with their own flesh and blood and guarded the blood of the nation with their lives.

The tenth cup of tea, No.11 cup of tea, No.12 cup of tea, No....

Every cup of tea is so heart-piercing and painful.

However, how can it be enough, the pain of losing a loved one is just in case.

Fanla said, I am addicted to drinking poison.

Maybe, I wish I could keep drinking like this.

For my debt to the dead, for my debt to the living.

For all the sons, fathers, husbands, and brothers who left home at a young age but didn't know when to return in this war, for their parents, children, wives, and siblings.

It's so annoying, let him wait for me there every time, and suffer together with me.

It is difficult for the whole people to help, so that he has to bother to come up with various antidotes every time, and I have to occupy his hammock.

For the sake of Milong's wife, let her use the same fixed amount of medicine every time, and make tea for me who comes uninvited and disgusts me.

It’s hard for the brothers, so that they can only watch me with such a virtue, but they can’t do anything or say anything.

Oh, by the way, and, for the sake of that wall, look at what this annoying kid has become.

I have always made so many people "difficult", and now I don't let go of the wall.

Anyway, if there are too many lice, it doesn't itch, and if there are too many debts, I don't worry, so I have to pay it slowly.

Now, I'm going to the National Assistance, I don't know what he will come up with this time.

Meng was annoyed: I immersed myself in the water, the water was up to my head.This is the water on the west bank. There is no gunpowder smoke and blood that I am familiar with. There is only a touch of sulfur transpiring with the misty heat.

We are on the west bank, soaking in hot springs in this place, which is very suitable for ambush with the enemy.

We, my head and I, and Yu Xiaoqing.

The last time I saw Yu Xiaoqing was the day before Milong died.

At that time, Yu Xiaoqing was very busy.

Too busy to sleep in the car.Too busy to stop for a second for the life of the death captain who did not die on the battlefield.

I thought it was the last time I saw Yu Xiaoqing in my life.

Because the end of this war is just around the corner.Because those of us cannon fodder who don't even have scum left are useless.

Now, I see Yu Xiaoqing again.

This time Yu Xiaoqing was very idle.

I was too busy to send a car all the way to take me and my regiment leader, two wandering souls who wandered between the shelter and rat poison all day long, to a place where only high-ranking officials and dignitaries are qualified to meet him.

I was so idle that I took a leisurely soak in the hot spring with two smelly and dirty beggars.So idle that he talked about his grand plans and ambitions on the battlefield with two muddy people and scumbags.

He said our battle is not over yet.

He said he would give my regiment commander a division and me a regiment.And he is about to have an army, the Yu Family Army.

He said that the cannon fodder regiment is his most elite [-] iron armor, which can be used as an enemy army of [-].

If, the cannon fodder group really has three thousand cannon fodder.If the cannon fodder are really elite armor.

If the cannon fodder of the cannon fodder regiment is not dead yet.If the cannon fodder is still there.

He said he would give us another Sichuan Army Corps within two months.

Our Sichuan Army, our cannon fodder, our regiment.

Really, can I really return it?

Li Wula wants Ma Kangya, bean cake, snake butt, Lao Mai, veterinarian Milong, can they really come back?

Is it really my brother Sanqian from the Nantian Gate who came back?

I can't come back, they are all dead.

What came back was just a number.

Numbers die, numbers live, and numbers come back.

A number that never leaves a trace is a number that will never leave a trace.

A number that is nothing.

I hold my breath and close my eyes.

I can only hear my own heartbeat, and the sound of tears melting into the warm current around me.

If you can no longer return to my world, then please take me to your midst.

I want to see your faces all the time, I want to be with you forever.My brother Paze.

Long Wenwen: "Pao Ze, old friend, my elder brother", he handed me the glass of old wine that was the same age as us.

As fierce as him, as bitter as me.

I drank my bitterness and watched his fierceness split through layers of hot mist, pointing directly at the center of my eyebrows.

I can't avoid it, and I don't need to avoid it anymore.

He sees me as his treasure, so he feels ashamed of me for those 38 days, and grieves for me for my ruin.

He regards me as his old friend, so because he believes in me, he believes in my former cannon fodder regiment, and he believes in my future Sichuan army.

He regards me as his elder brother, so he wants to give me Master Yu, the Yu Master of the Yu Family Army.His Master Yu, his Master Yu.

On his face are the flames of war from the current war, and the excitement of talking about the future war.

He was born for war.He can get everything he needs from the war, and he also vowed to use the war to fulfill his ambition of serving the country with his own body.

He will use war to cut off the heads of all enemies who invade our land with arms.

He wants to use war to eradicate the stubborn disease that makes our country backward, poor and lax.

He's going to pay the debt he thinks he owes me with war.

He said war account, war pays off.

I looked into his eyes, still warlike and still sharp.

It's just that there is less anger and hatred, and more playful and caressing.Less thirst for victory, more indifference to control everything.

I sighed softly and smiled wryly to myself.

I'm afraid I'm going to disappoint him.I'm afraid I can't stand him paying it back.

Because my brother, my brother, has always been just a number in his eyes.

Because the answer I want, everything I want, should not be at the cost of life in war.

I'm sorry, my old friend.

I can no longer stand by your side or help you do more.

What you and I cherish, care about, and pursue may never be the same.

I have no strength, no strength to bear more debts, no strength to go further.

I can only stay here, guarding the Nantian Gate.Until, until the day when I, who "will never die", finally died.

You owe me nothing, so pay nothing.

Between you and my old friend, where is the debt, and where is the repayment?

It seems that I can only be your old friend.

Yu Xiaoqing, my old friend.If you still want to.

Long Wenwen: After returning to Zenda from the hot spring, I went directly to Milong's house.

Knock on the door lightly, three times, take three steps back, count silently to thirty, and she opens the door.

"I'll come and see you."

"Team seats, please come in and sit down."

I stepped through the door and she closed it.I followed her through the small courtyard and came to the hall.

"I've been busy with military affairs these two days, so I didn't bother to come and see you, please forgive me."

"Tuan Zuo, you are too polite, how dare you bother you to remember. Tuan Zuo, please sit down."

I sat down and made funny faces with Lei Baoer while she was busy with housework.

"Tuan Zuo, would you like some tea?"

"Anything can be done".

She brought a pot of freshly brewed tea and poured me a cup.

"Tuan Zuo, please."

"Okay, thank you."

After I drank this cup of tea, I got up and said goodbye.

"I still have something to do, I'm leaving first, and I will come to see you some other day."

"Lao Tuan Zuo is bothering you, I will send you off."

I followed her through the courtyard and she opened the door and I stepped out and she was in the door.

"Just send it here, please stay."

"Tuan Zuo walk slowly, do not see off".

She closes the door and I turn around.Fanla rushed over and helped me to find help from the whole people.

The same process, the same dialogue, the same result, have been repeated many times.Today, however, something has changed.

I drank that cup of tea and walked out of Milong's house, but I didn't go to the whole people to help there.

Because I don't need detoxification today, because she said that the medicine is gone, because she said she forgave me.

I stood outside the door, and she slowly closed the door.I watched her alienated and indifferent face slowly disappear before my eyes.

I raised my hand and gently placed it on the slightly mottled door, trying to touch the world inside the door again.

There, is my past.There, there was a woman who finally stopped hating me.

I miss my past.I am also attached to the woman who hated me but still brought me peace and tranquility.

However, what came from my palm was only the coldness of the door.

Like, the smell of the dead.

I put my hand down and whispered to the world inside the door: "I don't like fighting and killing, and I'm also afraid of seeing death. But there are some things we have to do. Because it's our duty , because it is what a person with a backbone, blood and soul should do. I know you understand and understand. Don't worry, my team fight is gone, and there will be no more. Things have been done, just No one should die anymore. Take Lei Baoer and get out of here. Milong is always in your heart. China is so big, it’s the same wherever you go. I won’t come again. These days, it’s hard for you, Thanks."