Maple like the sun

Wu Xiaoyang trapped Ye Feng between himself and the door. From bottom to top, he carefully looked at the lovely face in front of him: the slightly parted red lips were red and swollen, the small and exquisite nose kept moving, and the eyes were tightly closed. Closed, the long eyelashes cast a shadow on the lower eyelids, the brows were furrowed due to nervousness or fear, and the delicate skin could be broken... Although Ye Feng did not have such perfect and beautiful facial features as Wu Xiaoyang, but looking at it now, This whole face is so delicate that it doesn't look like a boy.

Ye Feng, who had his eyes closed tightly, didn't feel Wu Xiaoyang's next move for a long time, so he couldn't help opening his eyes cautiously, wanting to see the current situation, but unexpectedly found that Wu Xiaoyang was staring at him unblinkingly, Ye Feng hurriedly opened his eyes again He closed his eyes, his eyelashes fluttering non-stop due to nervousness.

Taking a panoramic view of Ye Feng's little movements, Wu Xiaoyang felt both funny and helpless in his heart: This little thing is really cute, but is he so scary?Thinking of this, his body uncontrollably kissed Ye Feng again.

Seeing Ye Feng gradually collapsed into his arms, panting delicately, the fire in Wu Xiaoyang's lower abdomen rushed directly to the top of his head, and then his brain became hot, he hugged Ye Feng horizontally, and rushed into the bedroom like a gust of wind.

Ye Feng was feeling at a loss because of being stared at by Wu Xiaoyang, and then he was kissed by Wu Xiaoyang, his eyes that were already closed closed even tighter now.But just when he was kissed by Wu Xiaoyang, he suddenly felt his body lighten, his feet were empty, and he hurriedly opened his eyes to see that he was actually in Wu Xiaoyang's arms, still in the posture of a princess hugging him for a while. His face flushed with shame, but his arms unconsciously wrapped around Wu Xiaoyang's neck.

Entering the room, he threw Ye Feng heavily on the bed, Wu Xiaoyang took off Ye Feng's shirt, saw the traces of Ye Feng's body after lust, and thought that those bruises and purple traces were all left by himself, Wu Xiaoyang His eyes couldn't help but darken a bit.But Ye Feng has been a little at a loss since he was thrown onto the bed by Wu Xiaoyang. In addition, the action just now pulled the wound, and now Ye Feng can only stand straight on the bed as a corpse.

Wu Xiaoyang also noticed Ye Feng's stiffness and guessed that he might have touched his wound, so the movements of his hands slowed down, but they didn't stop.But when Wu Xiaoyang took off Ye Feng's pants and separated his legs, he saw again the alluring acupoint that made him almost uncontrollable this morning, but it was already red at the moment It was swollen and fragile.

Silently thinking about his size... Wu Xiaoyang clearly found that if he forced it in now, Ye Feng would definitely not be able to bear it. If he hurt him again, it might bring him a lifetime of pain. I don't want him to be left with lifelong disabilities and regrets, after all, this is the first... er... man who made him feel impulsive...

At this time, Wu Xiaoyang remembered the phrase that he used to think was very hypocritical: if you like someone, you will be impulsive for him; but when you fall in love with someone, you will hold back for him.I used to think it was hypocritical, but now I think it makes sense.He didn't know if he fell in love with Ye Feng, and as far as he could accept it, he didn't think he would fall in love with a man...a man he had only known for a day...he only knew that now he really I held back, obviously I was so uncomfortable that I was about to explode, but in order not to hurt him, I forcibly held back... Then,...

Didn't think about it, and didn't dare to think about it... Wu Xiaoyang stopped all the movements in his hands, pulled the quilt on the bed to cover Ye Feng, took a deep look at him, and left a sentence,

"You... rest well, I... go first." She left Ye Feng's house as if fleeing.

It can be said that Wu Xiaoyang is not interested in Ye Feng, but that little idiot who loves himself and is entangled with himself doesn't think so.In his opinion, Wu Xiaoyang obviously also has desires, but because Wu Xiaoyang is in a sober state now, he abruptly stopped all movements, and even looked at himself with disgust, and then ran away Oh, it looks like I'm afraid that if I walk too slowly, I will be infected by disgusting germs...

So, he started thinking wildly again.

"He gave up. It's the last step. He still gave up. Sure enough, men can't do it? He really dislikes me... He really thinks homosexuality is disgusting... Woooo..."

Ye Feng has never hated being born a man and being gay as much as he does now.So this little idiot who felt that he was disgusted by Wu Xiaoyang was burying his head under the pillow at this moment, trying to suffocate himself to death like this.

At this moment, Wu Xiaoyang was sitting alone in the taxi heading home, thinking of Ye Feng's delicate and pretty face, his writhing and irritating body and moaning constantly, Wu Xiaoyang himself silently A few points, and a "big tent" was erected on the messy suit pants that would not be in the slightest at ordinary times.

After finally reaching home, Wu Xiaoyang rushed into the bathroom non-stop, turned on the water flow to the maximum, and flushed for half an hour before extinguishing the desire in his body.

During these half an hour, Wu Xiaoyang was sobered up by the cold water, and he also thought about many problems.

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There was no one at home, Guo Min had already gone to work at the magazine, Wu Xiaoyang sat on the sofa alone after taking a shower, thinking about everything that happened from yesterday to this morning.

Is all this just a passionate collision, a physical intercourse, or... Wu Xiaoyang dare not think about it anymore, although he also knows that the matter has already happened, there is no chance of saving it, and he can't solve it by escaping... But he I was always afraid of the situation that I feared the most and the situation I didn't want him to appear the most.

Trying hard to let myself think about other things, but my thoughts still involuntarily come back to this matter, to... Ye Feng.

What happened between him and Ye Feng last night can indeed be explained by drunkenness, and I really don't have any impression of it, but the impulse I had towards Ye Feng this morning was not fake, and because of It is absolutely true that I do not want to hurt Ye Feng but hold back my desire. Even if I deceive others, I cannot deceive myself...

Thinking of this, Wu Xiaoyang knew that he could no longer deceive himself and others, and could no longer escape.

He, Wu Xiaoyang, is true. He has a feeling for Ye Feng, a person he has only known for a day, and it seems that this feeling is called... love. The most important thing is that this person is still a man.

Wu Xiaoyang groaned, fell down on the sofa, and lay powerlessly on the sofa.He didn't realize that today was the day he lost his composure since he was sensible, even the previous time...he didn't lose his composure...

Wu Xiaoyang's brain was running at high speed, and he tried to calmly analyze the current situation: he slept with a man yesterday; today, after this man confessed to him, he had a desire for him, and he also had a desire to be with him. This man's impulse to be together; now after a series of analysis, he unexpectedly found that he should be in love with this man... These are not the most distressing, although Wu Xiaoyang is not gay, but he is not old-fashioned. Immorality is just disgusting, so even if he really fell in love with a man, he would not be troubled like this... because... the most difficult thing to solve is that he still has a wife who has been married for 7 years at home ...

When thinking of Guo Min, Wu Xiaoyang is one head and two big, ahhhhhh! !Going crazy, it's so confusing, I can't think of a solution at all! ! !

Can I just leave my wife behind and be with Ye Feng desperately?The answer is naturally no.Not to mention that the nature of my job does not allow me to have any problems in my life style, just say that Wu Xiaoyang, although he is thin-lipped and affectionate, but kindness is heavy, and besides, a husband and wife can be kind for a hundred days, even if he has never been in love. Guo Min, but in the past seven years, Guo Min has long been his relatives, family members...

However, if he doesn't divorce his wife, can he let Ye Feng go?Wu Xiaoyang is not sure about this answer, after all, the time is too short... However, the heartbeat and heartbeat I experienced today is the first time in my life...

Then, if I divorced my wife and got together with Ye Feng, but the nature of my work and Ye Feng's work would not allow the two of them to disclose their relationship to all relatives and friends, what they can give each other is only physical The joy, and perhaps the spiritual...satisfaction, then would Ye Feng be willing to follow him so anonymously?

Moreover, Ye Feng is more than 10 years younger than himself. Maybe his confession to himself today was just his impulse. Then when the enthusiasm of this moment dissipated, the two men had neither children as bonds, nor love and passion. When Ye Feng was in his prime...would Ye Feng still be willing to continue to be with himself in his dying years?Well, after one's old age, being alone and helpless, although it would not be said that the evening scene is bleak, it is also a very sad thing to live alone and alone.

Looking back and thinking about my wife Guo Min, although I and Guo Min met through a blind date, and the original intention was just to reassure my father who was lying on the hospital bed and his days were numbered, the two hardly knew each other. chance to get married.Before getting married, the two didn't have any emotional basis, and after getting married, they didn't have much passion, even having sex was businesslike.At the beginning, they often shared the same room because the two elders wanted to have grandchildren, but then the two elders passed away one after another within two years after they got married; in addition, I was just promoted to the chief of the bureau at that time, and things became more complicated; in addition, I didn’t know Whose problem is it? Although no protective measures have been taken, Guo Min has never been pregnant with a child, so it is not very common for two people to sleep in the same room.Usually Wu Xiaoyang handles official business in the study, and sleeps directly in the study when he is sleepy.

But in any case, the two have been married for 7 years. During these 7 years, Guo Min has not made any mistakes such as disobedience to women. He has always done housework well and served as Wu Xiaoyang's good wife; Chong is also when I am the busiest, and Guo Min has been taking care of the two old people; and Guo Min himself is also the editor-in-chief of a well-known newspaper in Q City, with a good income, and he is not very dependent on him financially and in life. ;Although Guo Min is not a lady of every family, her family can be regarded as a scholarly family. She is very dignified and respects herself. If she goes out with her, she will only make herself look good instead of embarrassing herself.

Therefore, for a long time, although the two of them did not have the kind of passion that ordinary couples would have, they still lived with respect and respect for each other for 7 years.

If there is anything wrong with Guo Min, it may be that Guo Min did not give birth to a child for Wu Xiaoyang in the eyes of others, and he cannot leave him a queen, but Wu Xiaoyang himself doesn't care at all whether there is a child or not. I have always felt that this kind of thing must happen in life sometimes, and there is no time in life to force it, otherwise he would not have the idea of ​​being with Ye Feng now.

This may also have something to do with his innate indifference.Not to mention Guo Min and the child, even his parents, since Wu Xiaoyang became sensible, they have never had a special time with him. When Wu Xiaoyang was young, Wu's mother often said to Wu's father, "This child is a little The indifference is too much. Since he was weaned, he seems to have no time to cling to me, and he has never acted like a spoiled child to my mother like his peers. Sometimes it is really sad to think about it. ah……"

Father Wu comforted, "Boy, it's better to be independent..."

Fortunately, Father Wu and Mother Wu have a very good relationship, so apart from teaching Wu Xiaoyang the most basic principles of life, they did not interfere with his son's growth process.Therefore, I don't know if I missed the best opportunity for education, or if Wu Xiaoyang is born like this, and I can't change it, so I have always used Wu Xiaoyang's temperament, although he is more than filial and respectful to his parents, but he is always not close enough...

Even when his parents passed away one after another, he just knelt in front of the coffin with a cold face, his face was indifferent, and he didn't shed a single tear. People who didn't know said how unfilial he was, even when his parents died He didn't even cry, and he didn't even come here when he had to work during the day, and only came to watch after work... But anyone who knows him well knows that Wu Xiaoyang has that kind of indifferent temperament, not to mention that he may not necessarily feel very uncomfortable in his heart. No matter how uncomfortable he is, he won't express it.Moreover, he has always put work as the most important thing in everything, and he upholds the philosophy that "the dead are gone, and the living should not live for the dead...".

And everyone in the bureau knew that he had a high fever and continued to work, that is, when Wu's father just passed away, Wu's mother couldn't bear the blow, then fell ill, and passed away within a year.So everyone also knows that although Wu Xiaoyang doesn't say anything or show it on his face, he still feels uncomfortable in his heart, just because unlike ordinary people who are heartbroken, crying and making noise, Wu Xiaoyang is just indifferently bearing all this in his heart ...

Even when the two elders were around, they always said, "It seems that Xiao Min is our daughter, and Xiao Yang seems to be our son-in-law..."

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To sum up, if he wants to talk to Guo Min about breaking up and divorce immediately, and then go to be with Ye Feng, Wu Xiaoyang feels that he can't do it due to emotion and reason.

Wu Xiaoyang felt that maybe he should be more sober, weigh the pros and cons, give up the novel feeling of "heartbeat" that he had never experienced before, and continue to respect his wife as a guest...

Between him and Ye Feng, maybe, it's true, it's inappropriate, and it's impossible...

But when he thought of making such a choice, what he would have to face was that he would never be involved with Ye Feng again for the rest of his life. There was a feeling of discomfort that he had never felt before the death of his parents filled his chest, as if someone was pulling hard. crushing his heart...

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Sighing helplessly, and stroking his chest, Wu Xiaoyang continued to lie on the sofa in a corpse posture, and even fell asleep amidst this chaotic thoughts.

At this time, Wu Xiaoyang didn't know that it was this sleep that made him have to face the thing he didn't want to face so quickly...