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Zhou Ying stood at the door, a look of panic appeared on his calm and sinister face.

Sheng Yan opened the door, the two looked at each other, Zhou Ying was slightly stunned, the pair of golden pupils and ears he had been ignoring and mocking in the past seemed to have the answer at this moment, Zhou Ying clenched his fists sideways, he was really careless, let this I don't know what it is that is approaching Shen Shi'an.

Zhou Ying lowered his gaze, grabbed Sheng Yan and pushed him three steps forward against the entrance wall. "You recruited that man? Where's An An!" He was manic and violent, and all his paranoid emotions came out from the bottom of his heart. Zhou Ying seemed to be a raging jackal, with his knuckles pressed against Sheng Yan's throat, oppressed His throat creaked.If he had the ability, he would have strangled Sheng Yan just like that.

However, he didn't—

Sheng Yan leaned against the wall with his back against the wall, allowing a discordant creaking sound from his neck, his long eyelashes fluttered down, and his bright eyes dimmed. "You can save him." Sheng Yan's voice was not affected by the hand on the neck, and said calmly: "Tell him that everything you do is because of protection and love."

Bai Shu's illusion is to use the most vulnerable part of the human heart to create a prison. If Shen Shi'an knows the reason behind this, he is so kind and will definitely choose to forgive, so that he can wake up from the nightmare.

Zhou Ying's wrist froze, and he grabbed Sheng Yan's wrist suddenly, his expression became more gloomy, and he gritted his teeth and said, "What nonsense are you talking about?"

Not everyone's love can be brought into the light openly. Zhou Ying's heart is gloomy and depressed. Even if he loves someone, he will not express and tell his sincerity. It will only make him feel cowardly and hypocritical, so Just like he loves Shen Shi'an deeply, but he just likes to sneak out his claws to hide in the dark, but he doesn't pursue vigorously with flowers in his hands under the sun.

Sheng Yan opened her eyelids and looked directly at Zhou Ying's beast-like eyes. "I don't like you very much."

"Your liking, your love, in my eyes, are all means to achieve my own dirty desires." Gods have their own measure, they have eyes that can see through everything, and the efforts of people like Zhou Ying are not worthy of sympathy And pity, with the reason of love, to drive people to a desperate situation to force obedience, to distort the personality into the appearance of submitting to him, the so-called protection is just selfishness in disguise.

"Zhou Ying, I asked you to tell the master all this, just to clear up the barrier in his heart."

"How to choose next is the master's own decision." If it wasn't for the sudden appearance of Bai Shu, Sheng Yan would not have planned to let Zhou Ying appear in Shen Shi'an's life again, he would gradually heal the cowardly heart curled up in the darkness.He didn't want Shen Shi'an to know the so-called "truth" at all, because according to that person's temper, he would definitely choose to forgive.

Sheng Yan didn't want him to forgive, didn't want him to pardon.The shadow left by Zhou Ying is like maggots attached to the bones, causing Shen Shi'an pain to this day, and it would be too easy to smooth it out with the words "everything happens for a reason" in the end.

Shen Shi'an was lying on the bed, his hands tightly clutching the bed sheet under his body, fine cold sweat oozing from his forehead, and his brows were tightly frowned.People are most helpless in dreams, being in it is like sticking to a huge spider web, no matter how hard they struggle, there is a kind of despair that cannot be escaped.

Zhou Ying looked at Shen Shi'an who was struggling in pain in his sleep, and finally agreed to Sheng Yan's request that he would enter Shen Shi'an's memory and let him know everything about it.Zhou Ying clenched his back molars tightly, with extreme resistance in his heart.In his eyes, he has already lost, and telling Shen Shian these excuses is like begging for mercy after being abandoned by a weak person. He despises such a humble behavior.

Yu Qianyu and Ji Ying came after receiving the news that the mermaid has the ability to spy on people's hearts, and since Qianyu came as a witness, it was easier to help Shen Shi'an get out.

Zhou Ying looked at Yu Qianyu and Ji Ying. These were models for the theme event that day, and they were also friends who could make Shen Shi'an really smile.It turns out that they are "not human".It turned out that he and Shen Shi'an were no longer just each other.

The room was so quiet that even the sound of breathing seemed to disappear, Sheng Yan watched Zhou Ying disappear in front of the bed, and closed his eyes very lightly.

Zhou Ying and Shen Shi'an are meeting in another time dimension, a time without him.At that time, Shen Shi'an was helpless and sad, but only Zhou Ying was by his side.When Sheng Yan thought of this, a dark cloud rose over the sunny heart in his chest, making people feel stuffy and uncomfortable.For the first time, strange emotions arose in the god's clean and clear heart.

Sheng Yan knew that this kind of strange feeling was called jealousy in human mouth.

Yu Qianyu held Shen Shi'an's hand and sat quietly by the bed, the wind ruffled her long hair.Standing beside Sheng Yan, Ji Ying raised his eyelids a little. He felt the dark emotion slowly emerging from Sheng Yan's body that shouldn't exist, and his eyes showed surprise.

Just like Yu Qianyu was afraid of him by nature, Sheng Yan was born pure and kind, and their family seemed to have been baptized by the holy light since birth, and there would be no darkness that violated their nature.

"It's nothing strange." Sheng Yan looked at Shen Shi'an who was lying on the bed enduring the torment of the nightmare. His thick and long eyelashes seemed to be unable to bear the weight any longer, and he calmly faced the jealousy in his heart, and said calmly: "Once you want Cherished things, even gods, will become humans."

Shen Shian stood at the entrance of the alley.The shadowy scene in front of my eyes and the memory in my mind overlapped a little bit.

The muffled sound of the beating was like a heavy hammer hitting his heart, and Shen Shi'an's ears buzzed.Rows of garbage cans in the corner are still exuding a disgusting stench. The garbage here is collected after a long time. The rotten leek leaves falling on the ground are mixed with the chicken bones with maggots, which have been accumulated in the past few days. Puddles soaked in rain turned black.The pervasive smell of decay and decay mixed with all kinds of garbage is disgusting.

Half-grown teenagers surrounded a man and beat him fiercely, and the sound of wailing pierced the eardrums and echoed throughout the alley.

Shen Shi'an was nailed to the spot, and an invisible powerful hand grabbed his throat, forcing him to look up, witnessing all this with his own eyes, his eyelids seemed to be stretched, and he couldn't even close them.

Ling Chi's punishments repeated over and over again, those voices went mad like poisonous snakes and gnawed at the nerves, and Shen Shi'an could only watch helplessly, helpless as if he was dead.

Rotten, bloody, howling, struggling, yelling... After more than ten years, the voice with a smile whispered in his ear again: "An'an, this is what happens to disobedient slaves, do you still want to leave me?"

This voice seemed to be played in Shen Shi'an's ear continuously as if someone had pressed the cycle button, and it kept echoing over and over again.Shen Shian was trembling uncontrollably, he had been tortured for more than ten years.Ever since he knew Zhou Ying, Shen Shi'an seemed to have an invisible cage around him, imprisoning and forcing him. He was like a walking dead, lingering numbly in the darkness.

It has struggled and escaped, but in the end it cannot escape the ubiquitous darkness.All his life, he could only stay by Zhou Ying's side, and he would never be able to get rid of this nightmare from which he could not wake up.

"Let... let me go, let..." As if a drowning person finally cried out for help, Shen Shi'an's lips trembled violently, and every word he uttered was mixed with the blood in his lungs.

Why?Shen Shi'an felt that his body was being torn into pieces, and the piercing pain was accompanied by the lightness of relief.

Why?He wants to live so uncomfortable?

Zhou Ying stood behind him, watching Shen Shi'an's body twisted in pain, a look he had never seen before.

In his memory, Zhou Ying always stood at the high end, looking down on everything like a king, and took it for granted that he was performing an incomprehensible guardianship.But he doesn't need to be understood, as long as he resists and suppresses, everyone will submit forever.Even in the face of the person he likes, he will not choose to treat him in a gentle way.

Zhou Ying thought he had protected Shen Shi'an for more than ten years, but he never saw the whole process from Shen Shi'an's perspective.

It turns out... Zhou Ying looked at Shen Shi'an's painful and desperate face, his eyes were reddish, and the initial bewilderment and surprise in his heart dissipated, he gritted his teeth and turned his head to sneer—in Shen Shi'an's eyes, it was so Devastated and unable to escape.

It turned out that what I gave him was always torture.

"Shen Shi'an, you bitch, you disgusting piece of garbage, you owe it to the dog..." Shen Shi'an looked at the front numbly, Wei Yanming's hateful scolding and Zhou Ying's threats and warnings filled his ears, tears Flowing from hollow eye sockets.

These punishments are what he deserves, and he shouldn't resist. At this moment, Shen Shi'an doesn't even have the heart to ask for help.

Let it end, Shen Shi'an thought, let it all end.

"An'an." Zhou Ying hugged the desperate and painful Shen Shi'an from behind, gritted his teeth suppressedly, this was the first time he hugged him tightly without any pretense or hard defense.

Zhou Ying raised his hand and repeated the same thing as before.This is probably because he, one of the few, really protected Shen Shi'an.

Zhou Ying tightly covered his ears to block out all the sounds around him.

The hustle and bustle disappeared, those voices dissipated from Shen Shi'an's world little by little, just like back then, Shen Shi'an thought he was numb and eventually lost his hearing, but in fact it was the hand that had traveled through ten years that once again blocked everything for him.

"I'm sorry." Zhou Ying hugged Shen Shi'an tightly. He has lived for more than 20 years, and these three words have never appeared in any scene. Only then did he realize how much the things he had done in the past had hurt him.

I wanted to block the darkness for you, but I didn't know that I had become your darkness.

Zhou Ying's heart has always been made of fine steel, paranoid and conceited, even if he loves someone, he has to use means to force him into submission, taking care of him and holding him in his palm while making him smile, in his eyes, that is humble and humble. weak.

However, at this moment, Zhou Ying took a suppressed breath, and the twisted and dark heart showed a little blood on the tip. Sheng Yan was right, the liking he said was just an unscrupulous means to satisfy his selfish desires, and he really shouldn't have this person.

"I never told you." Zhou Ying faced Shen Shi'an in a way that he thought was ridiculous, and said the hypocritical words: "I love you."

When Zhou Ying reappeared in the room, the corners of his eyes were slightly red. He lowered his composure and glanced at Sheng Yan. His cold eyes and expression of a beast in clothes were the same as usual.

Shen Shi'an's memory overlapped with his, and he has seen the whole truth of that year.

Wei Yanming's betrayal, Zhou Ying's deliberate approach, he heard that low but soft confession.In Zhou Ying's life, it was the first time and probably the last time that Zhou Ying said such a sentence from the bottom of his heart.

Due to my personality, my distorted nature has been cultivated by my childhood education and environment, and it will be difficult to change in the future.

The author says:

I revised the previous chapter today. I wrote this chapter all afternoon, but I still feel unsatisfied. The thoughts I want to convey are not very clear.The main body of this article I want to write is healing and redemption, so there are no particularly bad people here. (Except for Sui Feng.) In fact, from the very beginning, I never thought of portraying Zhou Ying as a very bad person. I can only say that he is a sad character produced by the combined effect of living environment and family education. (Can you smell the end?)