When being possessed by the Honmaru

"Ah sneeze!"

In the world of Yokohama, Kunihiro Yamababa sneezed, pulled down the white sheet over his head in embarrassment, and pushed the cup of coffee in front of him a little farther away.

This is the reception room of the Ability Secret Service Division.

In other words, this is a room temporarily used as a guest room—the accompanying Ango Sakaguchi pushed his glasses unnaturally, noticed the subtle movements of the guest, and said soothingly: "Mr. Yamabukiri, please wait a moment, Dazai... be back soon .” His expression was a little stiff, and he seemed hesitant to talk about a headache, but he never mentioned what Dazai was busy with.

Now the Ability Secret Service Division knows the real names of the Sword Fusangshen, and the registration information has also been changed to their real names.Yamabuki Kunihiro was not surprised by Mr. Sakaguchi's title, he just didn't quite understand: He came to talk to Mr. Dazai according to Oda-senpai's words, but when a call came, the person who answered the phone was actually Mr. Sakaguchi?

Are the friends finally getting back together after months of feuding?

"If Mr. Dazai is busy, can I... come again?" Yamabuki Kunihiro asked uncertainly.He has learned how to handle affairs in this world for so long, of course he can see that Mr. Sakaguchi's expression is very subtle.Hesitating to speak means either seeing off the guest silently, or expecting him to ask questions.

"No need. Dazai is rushing here. You may not know that he has some small-hobbies, and his clothes were soaked just now, so he needs to change one, and he will be here soon." Sakaguchi Ango Hastily stopped.In fact, he was racking his brains for euphemistic words, trying to find a way to tell Mr. Yamabagiri the reason while maintaining the face of the Supernatural Secret Service.

Yamabuchi Kunihiro fell into perplexed contemplation, and a question mark slowly popped up in his head: "...?"

Little hobby?Cause the whole body clothes are soaked?Heading this way?

Foxnosuke once said that the three members of the Rogue faction have similar counterparts in other worlds. Mr. Dazai seems to be a great writer. Does he have any hobbies?It's been too long, and he didn't seriously memorize the information that Honosuke said casually at the beginning. Yamabuchi Kunihiro searched his memory for a long time, and fell into silence.

"It's okay." Yamabuchi Kunihiro raised his head and answered without thinking, "Mr. Dazai can have his own hobbies and relax after work. It's a very good thing. As long as you pay attention to your health, change your clothes in time and don't catch cold. .”

"No... I think this is the contradiction..." Sakaguchi Ango's mouth twitched slightly, trying hard to hold back the feeling of complaining.How could Dazai pay attention to his health with his strange hobby of committing suicide!Mr. Yamabukiri still had this natural blessing reaction, just like Odasaku, blocking all the words of Ango Sakaguchi.

"It's really rare." A clear and familiar voice suddenly sounded from the door, and Dazai, whose curly black hair was still wet, suddenly poked his head out, and slightly dragged out his voice in surprise, "——Why did Yamabukiri come here to find me? It made me fall into the water." Half have to get up."

His tone is too intimate, and his address has been shortened from "Mr. Kinoshita" to "Yamabugiri" without a teacher. He is so familiar as if he has been friends for many years, but the amount of information he speaks is too much.Dazai was wearing a bolo-style shirt with a sapphire pendant, and a large windbreaker loosely wrapped around his body. The neckline and cuff buttons were all open, not as neat as the ones that Yamabagiri Kunihiro had seen every time—— It seemed that he came in a hurry, and his hair was still dripping.

what?

Into the water?

Did Mr. Dazai enter the water just now?This is his hobby?Wait, Osamu Dazai and...suicide?

"...?" Kiri Kunihiro, who was skeptical about his ears, was stunned by Dazai for a moment. Sitting down on the sofa, he returned to the serious look that Yamabagiri Kunihiro was more familiar with in the past: "Then."

He unconsciously folded his fingers together, making a deep expression.Staring at the unusual appearance of the blond-haired young man with interest, Dazai's kite-colored eyes gradually deepened: "Some changes have taken place in you... What happened?"

Ango Sakaguchi next to him hesitated to speak again: "Dazai—" He wanted to remind his friends: You really look like the former Hong Kong//Black Chief Mr. Mori at this time!The essence and charm are exactly the same!

The black-haired young man raised his eyes slightly to this side—while he waited patiently for Yamabagiri Kunihiro to speak, he hinted to Sakaguchi Ango to get out. "..." Ango Sakaguchi, who had no confidence until now, covered his forehead, sighed, and got up obediently, "Talk slowly."

He went straight out, turned around and shut the door tightly.

When the two of them were left alone, Yamabuka Kiri Kunihiro was finally able to briefly repeat what he heard from Oda Sakunosuke, and explained that this was Oda-senpai's suggestion, suggesting that he, who was equally confused, come to talk to Dazai-san talk.

"It's Odasaku's meaning." Dazai's voice became softer, and his expression became serious.He propped up one of his chins thoughtfully, showing a troubled expression. The deep villain posture when he folded his hands before naturally collapsed, as if he was thinking about this kind of question for the first time, "Admitting the past self, this topic huh... really dare to think about it."

When he murmured these words softly, Osamu Dazai's slightly narrowed pair of kite-colored eyes leaked a thick and dark color like mud.He suddenly raised his eyelids, and stared at Yamabuchi Kirihiro with deep eyes, the hollow negative pressure in it seemed to be able to suck everything in, making people shiver.

Yamabuchi Kunihiro was stimulated by that undisguised aura, so that his shoulders stretched out in reflex.He was slightly startled, and belatedly realized that this was the real person "Osamu Dazai".It's the "sleek", "beautiful" and "normal" appearance that is stripped of the disguise...the sharp and weird inside that is not suitable for the crowd is exposed.

This was specially shown to him by Mr. Dazai.

That horrifying look was fleeting, like a human hallucination—the corners of Dazai's lips were slightly pursed, and a relaxed and friendly smile was restored on his face, his iris eyes sparkled, and the lines at the end of his eyes were beautiful And long.There is a special texture in the smiling eyes, as pure and beautiful as gemstones under the moonlight, completely gone from the previous filth and gloomyness.It makes people wonder which one is the truth, the youth before and the youth now.

Such a Dazai didn't say a word, Yamabuki Kunihiro's heart was already trembling uncontrollably.He clenched his fist on the white quilt, and for the first time, he did not pull the quilt habitually under discomfort, but tightened his lips, silently staring into the other's eyes: "..."

If Mr. Dazai is like this, acting as the "Osamu Dazai" he is used to on weekdays, then the question he is pursuing now... what a terrible question.

He also thought that Mr. Dazai didn't care about the past, and would not be bound by something to his "self". That kind of strength visible to the naked eye was the type that made him want to listen to the learning experience, but he was wrong... Mr. Dazai was contradictory of.Although he is powerful, he also chose this way of tolerance for his past, no, this way of isolation...

"It doesn't matter if you hide your real 'self'?" Yamabuki Kunihiro leaned forward slightly and asked earnestly.

"Don't you feel tired of pretending every day and turning yourself into a new person?"

"Should the ego that cannot blend into the crowd be killed?"

Yamabasaki Kunihiro asked word for word one after another, his tone was calm and persistent, revealing confusion.He is serious about seeking answers from the perspective of discussion. From the time he saw Dazai's reaction, he already understood that the other party did not know how to touch the existence of "self" even more than he did, but this kind of Dazai is already living. found its own solution.It was painful, exhausting, a way of having to pull on myself all the time.

Kunihiro Yamababa still felt that this was not the answer he was looking for, because he felt that he... couldn't do it.

"That's too much! Even if Yamabuchi asks that, I can't find an answer that can refute it." Dazai tilted his head and complained loudly without negative emotions.Even if he took the initiative to open up the truth to others just now, he still felt uncomfortable, so he could only use this method to roughly cover up the past, and vaguely leaked a few words of truth from his lips and teeth, his voice gradually faint and distant,

"...In this world, there is no one who can truly understand me."

"Thank you, Dazai-san." Yamababa Kiri Kunihiro suddenly thanked you in the deadly silence, "However, Oda-senpai and Sakaguchi-san are very concerned about you."

"..." The kite-eyed youth shrugged noncommittally and turned his head away.In fact, from Yamabuki Kunihiro's point of view, such a performance seems to be an embarrassing acquiescence.

Kunihiro Yamababa stood up, finally planning to say goodbye.

Today's conversation is brief.He could easily discuss this topic with Oda-senpai before, but with the overly smart Mr. Dazai, he not only didn't talk a few words, but felt that the atmosphere was so heavy and depressing that he almost couldn't breathe.But Yamabashi Kiri Kunihiro forced himself to feel the heaviness seriously - this was the kindness of Mr. Dazai.

Because of the request of his friend Oda Sakunosuke, Osamu Dazai revealed to him these truths that he would not reveal to others.Obviously Mr. Dazai felt very alienated, and he himself felt uncomfortable, but he did it anyway.Looking at it now... Dazai-san has really changed a lot as Oda-senpai said.

This is also Mr. Dazai's gentleness.

Yamabuki Kunihiro thought about this short-term relationship seriously, and felt that he had gained a lot. He saw a different way of coping.

"That's right." The young man in white blanket turned around at the last moment, suddenly recalled something, retracted his hand that was about to open the door and asked, "Mr. Dazai—"

"Ok?"

"Suicide..." Yamabashi Kiri Kunihiro thought carefully, and asked hesitantly, "Is this a way for you to think about life and examine yourself? Is it really useful? Oda-senpai seems to think that...you can see yourself clearly on the eve of death."

He was not intimidated by Osamu Dazai's little hobby of "suicide".

Because, except for Oda Sakunosuke, this is already the second person who thinks that "death" is related to self-recognition.Yamababa Kiri Kunihiro couldn't help asking this question.

The author has something to say: was (written):

[Sincerely, Aru.

I admire Mr. Dazai, but I can't do that.

They all mentioned a method, which is very helpful to see the essence. 'Life and death are very important connections', humans think so.

...I seem to understand a little bit. ]

Honmaru secretly read the letter to the public knowing knife: ... What do you mean? !What do you mean? !

感谢在2021-05-2522:52:10~2021-05-2623:59:34期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who cast the landmine: I will cut it off if I don’t turn into a typewriter, remember Moxiao, Tuile Bubble, Feng Jiyizhai 1;

感谢灌溉营养液的小天使：22020699137瓶；bisi24瓶；是栢芸不是柏云20瓶；九、车厘子5瓶；绘乐泡泡3瓶；鹤丸国永2瓶；称“兴”如意、鬼鸟、zyum1瓶；

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!