The bright moon sits on the ground

"Brother Nie, are you angry?" Xiao Xueyang asked in the almost noisy sound of rain.

"It's okay. I know it's a dream. I don't feel sad anymore. It's just a lump in my throat. I don't want to vomit. That's why I want to tell you." She added, "If Brother Nie doesn't want to hear it, then I won't tell you. Yes,? After all, those dreams are really annoying."

Nie Qiu's hand holding the handle of the knife tightened again and again, and finally he let it go slowly, showing a relieved smile to Xiao Xueyang.

"Go ahead. I just think that living in the same world as someone like that makes me uncomfortable."

It's more than uncomfortable. If Lin Du was standing in front of him now, Nie Qiu thought, he would strike without hesitation.

That is not something that can be described as good or evil.There is a way to be good, and there is a way to evil. Even the wicked who have committed a lot of crimes know how to repay their kindness. Even a person like Chang Jinyu will care more about his two apprentices. .

As for Lin Du, Nie Qiu didn't want to think about it from his point of view at all. Just thinking about it made him feel sick.

Since he doesn't like it anymore, he should break it cleanly,? It's because he wants to take advantage of everything.

"Then... shall I continue?" Xiao Xueyang caught the falling raindrops and let them slide in her palms, soaking the lines on her palms with a layer of clear water. She stared at the drops, a little Not daring to look directly at Nie Qiu, "Brother Nie, don't be angry anymore."

Seeing that Nie Qiu agreed, she turned her wrist, and the raindrops fell on the ground, quickly melting into the dust and disappearing.

Xiao Xueyang said: "I killed Lin Du with my own hands."

It was an indelible and maddening resentment, heavier than everything in the world, and it hurt her heart. It was a scar that was cut hard on the bone, even though it was clear that it was a dream. Whenever she thought of it, she Still feel palpitations.

After being kicked out of Jia's house, Xiao Xueyang went to a remote and dilapidated inn and rented an inexpensive room.

In order to be with Lin Du, she hadn't seen her family for a long time. Xiao Wuqian angrily asked her to get out of the house, so Xiao Xueyang really left without looking back. She swore that she would never come back again, nor would she shout He said daddy.

Xiao Xueyang has inherited [-]% to [-]% of Xiao Wuyin's stubbornness.

They are like two hedgehogs, as long as they get close, their heads will bleed, but they are unwilling to withdraw their thorns first.

The word "home" is already very unfamiliar to Xiao Xueyang.

So she could only find an inn, and temporarily settled down. The people who came and went here were all people she couldn't name.

Xiao Xueyang sat by the bed, dazed, as if lost in spirit, rubbing his belly for a long time.

She is a doctor, and those things in the book have long been deeply imprinted in her mind, and even after many years, she has not forgotten them, Xiao Xueyang thought, or in other words, she has nothing left, and the only thing left is those Jerky words.

She drank the bitter and spicy decoction many times, and she memorized the recipe so well that she could recite it backwards.

Amomum, Shichangpu, Atractylodes atractylodes, Magnolia officinalis, have the effect of anti-fetal, can relieve the symptoms of chest tightness and nausea.

And oleander, cassia twig, warm meridians and dispel cold, contain highly poisonous, purslane, musk, can also benefit the intestines and smooth tires.

It's not difficult to write a recipe, it's not difficult to buy herbs, it's not difficult to make a decoction, Xiao Xueyang made it up after running back and forth a few times, the cook at the inn glanced at her lazily, and didn't care what she was doing, just said Tell her to clean up the stove after she's done using it.

When drinking the decoction, Xiao Xueyang suddenly realized that he was crying, not because of hatred, not because of reluctance, the little thing in his stomach was only born for a short month, it is not considered to have feelings, and it is impossible to say that it has no feelings, She was glad that this was not such a difficult decision, and also that there was still time to salvage everything, at least she was the only one left who could not see the future.

Why are you crying, are you regretful, are you regretful, are you in pain, Xiao Xueyang couldn't answer.

She felt cold all over, so she could only shrink into the quilt. The things in this inn were all tattered, and the quilt had been sewn several times. Twisted crawling snake.

The pain surged up one after another, Xiao Xueyang bit her wrist, and viciously, made deep tooth marks, tearing off the flesh together, blood flowed from the uneven wound, but she couldn't tell where it was It hurts more.

Xiao Xueyang passed out several times due to the pain, and then woke up abruptly, crying, with trembling lips, not knowing who to call.She can go to Lin Du and tell him that I am pregnant with your child, you come back with me, and I can pretend nothing happened.

But Xiao Xueyang didn't want to anymore, she felt tired, tired and in pain, more tired than when she was a child, jumping up and down in the mountains with her brothers, playing for a whole day before coming home, paralyzed on Xiao Linglong's back panting for breath, she was at that time At least not alone.

She no longer wanted to redeem her, and she didn't want to say another word to Lin Du, she just wanted to go home, to Xiao's house.

Drowsy, half awake and half dreaming, Xiao Xueyang was vaguely conscious, and gradually realized that the pain was no longer so strong. She gently rubbed her fingers on the wet mattress, and when she held them in front of her eyes, it was amazing. A piece of blood red.

Then, she woke up just like that, and finally got rid of the endless nightmare, drenched all over, and woke up crying.

Xiao Xueyang knew that it was a nightmare, she knew it clearly, but she couldn't stop crying, at first she shed tears, then she curled up in the corner of the bed and sobbed, and finally she gave up on herself, holding the corner of the quilt and crying loudly, I just felt that my body was divided into two parts by something, and my chest was so painful that I couldn't breathe. It would be better to drink a bottle of poison directly, and it would be over.

The door was pushed open, and the master closed the door with a cold face on the senior brothers and sisters who came over one by one, dragged Xiao Xueyang out of the crumpled quilt, brushed away the hair stuck to her forehead by sweat and tears, and let her Show your crying face.

He checked Xiao Xueyang's pulse, and then touched her forehead. After confirming that she was not sick, he asked, "Did you have a nightmare?"

Xiao Xueyang leaned on Master's shoulder, twitching, crying so hard that she couldn't breathe, and hiccupped, Master covered her mouth and pressed the other hand on her back to calm her down, half impatient, half It was an exhortation, saying: "Don't cry, don't cry."

"Master, I miss, I miss my father, and I miss my brother." She tried her best to calm her breathing, and said in a low voice.

A few days ago when Xiao Xueyang woke up in the middle of the night, Xiao Xueyang cried before, but never cried so hard like today. Even if he drank sleep aid medicine, even if he lighted tranquilizing incense in the room, those nightmares still followed him, like a cunning hound.

Faced with this situation, the master had no choice but to frown, and sighed: "Then you can go back tomorrow."

Xiao Xueyang woke up all of a sudden, shook her head quickly, moved Master's hand away, gasped for a few times, tears could not stop streaming down her face, her face was flushed and wrinkled from crying, but she still said: "I haven't learned yet. Cheng, don't go back."

She wanted to take out the letter from home before and read it, but she felt that she would cry even worse after reading it, so she gave up.

Master's lips moved, and his face was dark. Xiao Xueyang knew that his expression meant to scold someone, and he felt even more sad in his heart. He would be scolded even if he cried like this. Prepare to be scolded.

In the end, he didn't curse out loud, and cut the little apprentice in his arms with his eyes, then got up and lit the lamp, and waited until Xiao Xueyang stopped crying in sadness and fear, and then stuffed her into the bed again inside.

"Hold it under your tongue." Master handed something over. Xiao Xueyang thought it was a pill, but when he took it into his mouth, he found it was sugar. It was so sweet that his teeth chattered, "If you have a nightmare again, get up, If you don't have nightmares, you don't have to come in the morning."

When Xiao Xueyang fell into a light sleep, she woke up a few times and saw her master reading a book by the light at the table, so she completely relaxed, carefully sucked the candy, and fell asleep like this. one morning.

After a long-lost peaceful sleep, when I woke up again, the master had already left, but I forgot to take the book.

Xiao Xueyang touched it and took a look, only to realize that Master had read it all night... the most cliche love story book?

Who is it, she laughed muffledly, and from then on, she was not afraid of that drowsy dream, and she would eat a candy when she slept.

Although the dream was bitter, surprisingly bitter and painful, but it was sweet in her mouth, at least let her remember that it was not real.

The last dream ended in blood, the blood on his hands was not Xiao Xueyang's, but Lin Du's.

Because she didn't want to hear Lin Du begging for mercy, she took away his voice, because she didn't want to look into Lin Du's eyes, so she took away his sight, because she didn't want Lin Du to escape, so she took away his legs , took his arm away.

Only one pair of ears is left to listen, to hear her anger, to hear the whisper of his dying life.

Doctors can always play with life in the palm of their hands, Xiao Xueyang thought that she would not bear to do it, but in fact, she was calmer than she imagined, even though her hands were covered with hot blood, it belonged to what she had given up everything she wanted people.

Only that night, after waking up from the darkness after a long dream, Xiao Xueyang did not shed tears.

She looked at the beams of the room, and she was inexplicably sure that this was the end, and she would never have such a nightmare again.

Afterwards, Nie Qiu sent a letter, and Xiao Xueyang happily told Master that he thought about what happened last time and did not stop her. Instead, he made an exception and allowed her to go down the mountain to relax and stop thinking about those unreasonable dreams. Study medicine.

Compared with those few days, Xiao Xueyang's spirit is obviously much better. The only thing she feels troubled is that there is no one to talk to, so she hesitates to tell Nie Qiu the unspeakable dream, and only then feels that the depression dissipates, and even her breathing is unobstructed .

However, Xiao Xueyang wondered why Nie Qiu's expression became so dignified, like a river flowing quietly under an iceberg.

"Brother Nie." She felt strange in her heart, and couldn't help asking, as if talking to herself, "Dreams are all reversed, right?"

Then she was patted on the head, perhaps because of the cold rainy day, so Nie Qiu's palm was also cold.

Hearing Nie Qiu's calm voice, Xiao Xueyang answered in an indistinguishable tone, "Yes."

"Those are not real." He said softly, "You just think it's a big dream, after the dream, it's over."

作者有话要说：感谢在2021-02-17?07：00：00～2021-02-18?14：00：00期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦～

Thanks to the little angel who threw the landmine: ah, it might be Pai Daxing, Baiyun deep? 1;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!