The bright moon sits on the ground

If Gu Huazhi felt something, he raised his head and looked towards the sky.

The eagle flitted across the clouds, like a black lightning, piercing the long wind.

In the pale sky, unfallen raindrops condensed among the flowing clouds, and fell heavily towards the mortal world, covering the scorching sun. He looked up inadvertently, and he was even a little dazed, feeling that the sky and the earth in the past had never been Never been this close.

The light boat floated up and down with the waves, but was dragged back by the hemp rope, and stayed on the river bank.

And Gu Huazhi stood with his hands behind his back, staying on the small boat for a long time. The boatman squatted not far away holding the bamboo pole, with a weed in his mouth, humming an unknown song, what "look at it?" Once the heart is broken, it's better to go and not look back", what is "sit in Chang'an empty space".

Xu Fengzi is not a restless person,? But he was a little impatient to wait,? He was even more anxious than Gu Huazhi, with his arms folded,? From time to time, he would look at the river bank to see if there were any familiar figures appearing,? However, he watched for a long time, but the young master of the Tan family never appeared. There was not even a sound, only birds chirping and insects chirping, and the gurgling of water flowing slowly.

He didn't want to offend his senior brother, he hesitated for a while, and finally couldn't help but said: "Senior brother, does he..."

Did you not come, did you miss the appointment?

They had to reach the next town before the rain started, and it was impossible to wait forever.

Hearing this, Gu Huazhi turned his eyes away from the green mountains in the distance, and said, "It's time to go."

He has always been reasonable, and never delays important matters because of a little personal affair.

But Xu Fengzi felt that something was wrong, because the senior brother could give up "Entering the Abyss" for Qin Rongchong, give up that chance of life, waited for an hour, and it seemed that it would not be difficult to wait a little longer, why did he let go at this time?

"Eldest brother." He called out, lowering his voice, "You are tolerant to others, but you are so sensible to yourself."

Gu Huazhi leaned over to take the broken leaves from Xu Fengzi's shoulders, pinched the roots, turned them between his fingers, and followed them with his eyes. Xu Fengzi faintly heard a sigh in his throat, and then heard him say: "This is not Reasonable, you can just treat me as a momentary confusion."

He wanted Tan Rongchong to appear as promised, but he didn't want him to.

Because Gu Huazhi couldn't imagine the scene of them saying goodbye to each other.

It's as if they didn't say the word "goodbye", and they might actually meet again in the future.

Gu Huazhi thought, he just wanted to leave such a little stupid expectation, he was not strict with himself, nor was he rational, he was indulgent, not sober, he was confused for a while, and was dazzled by redundant emotions, so That's all.

The boatman untied the hemp rope, the boat broke free, and happily sailed down the current, crossing thousands of mountains and rivers.

Xu Fengzi looked at the boatman holding a bamboo pole, wading the boat, and Xiayan City gradually went away, but he felt empty in his heart, as if he had lost something, it was an insignificant thing, but it could also arouse him for a moment. Sad.

If he is like this, what about senior brother?Senior brother should be more reluctant than him, right?

"Is this ending without saying goodbye really what you want?" Xu Fengzi stretched out his hand to pull the corner of Gu Huazhi's clothes, half suspicious and half sad, and said, "He doesn't know anything, he doesn't know you Why did you come to Xiayan City? I don’t know what you gave up. He doesn’t know anything about you, but he acts like he knows you very well... You can’t hide these secrets forever.”

"You may understand later, or you may never understand."

"However, there is one thing you said wrong." Gu Huazhi said, touching the back of his hand comfortingly, his tone was as usual, and he couldn't hear the slightest wavering, but his internal organs trembled violently, screaming silently. Xiao, "Without a beginning, how can we talk about an ending?"

He and Tan Rongchong never "started".

Therefore, when he left, all that Tan Hongchong could leave was a short period of regret.

And this is exactly what Gu Huazhi wants, Tan Rongchong doesn't need to know everything, he just needs to see what he wants to see, that's enough, let the glamorous, breezy, always calm and calm Gu Huazhi forever Stay in his memory, that's okay too.

Everyone in the world thinks that speaking out about one's difficulties is to gain something from the other party.

Gu Huazhi didn't want to get anything from Tan Rongchong, what's more, he had already experienced what he was praying for.

He didn't need Tan Rongchong's pity, nor did he want him to regret, so he chose not to say anything.Xu Fengzi thought that this farewell was a farewell, and they would never meet again, so Gu Huazhi didn't know it.

At least he is good in Tan Rongchong's memories, Tan Rongchong doesn't have to see him in pain because of all kinds of diseases, and he doesn't have to see his unstoppable tears, every time Gu Huazhi thinks about this, he feels a kind of relief in his heart.

When the boat arrived at the small town, it was getting late and the drizzle had already fallen, covering the river with a layer of mist.

Xu Fengzi paid the agreed amount of silver, and was about to step off the boat, but Gu Huazhi took a step too slowly, and wrapped his fingers around the string around his waist, and untied the clear Chihu lotus jade pendant, solemnly It was put into the hands of the boatman.

He urged: "Please be sure to give this jade pendant to Tan Rongchong of the Qin Mansion, and tell him that this is my compensation for missing the appointment."

"Senior brother!" Xu Fengzi looked back, almost out of breath, and raised his voice suddenly, reminding, "I remember this is a jade pendant carved for you by a craftsman at home when you were still a baby, senior brother." ? How can you give it to others so easily?"

After saying this, he realized that Gu Huazhi didn't care as much as he did on the surface.

He clearly cared a lot, cared terribly, and he had to hand over this jade pendant to be able to get rid of those worries.

The unspeakable love is not that he doesn't want to say it, but that he can't say it.

Xu Fengzi really hated his teeth so much that he felt that Tan Rongchong was really lucky to be liked by Gu Huazhi, but he didn't know anything and was so stupid that he missed the chance to say goodbye to Gu Huazhi in the end. Farewell is forever.

However, the senior brother has already made a decision. Gu Huazhi seems to be meek, but in fact he is very stubborn. It is impossible for him to persuade him with a few words.

He took a deep breath, strode forward, grabbed the boatman by the shoulders, and led him to a corner to talk.

Gu Huazhi didn't know what they said. In short, when Xu Fengzi came back, he said that he had already solved the problem. The boatman probably wouldn't take the jade pendant privately. Tan Rongchong would definitely receive it, so he told Gu Huazhi not to use it. Worry.

The boatman held the jade pendant, still smiling, and said, give it to the young master of the Tan family, then I will definitely deliver it on time.

The aroma in the room was gradually stained with a blood-like sweetness, which was a bit pungent. The memories in the smoke stopped at that moment and gradually surged. Tan Rongchong even vaguely heard Gu Huazhi's never-to-be-hurried voice. He whispered softly in his ear——

Here it is.

Let all the memories stay here and that's it.

You don't want to see what's after, and I wouldn't want you to if I could.

No, Gu Huazhi.Tan Rongchong blocked the words between his lips and teeth without uttering a single syllable. Enduring the pain, he declined Gu Huazhi's kindness and said in his heart, I want to know everything about you, including your not-so-glamorous side.

The you from decades ago didn't say a word about it.

Decades later, I am old, you have passed away, and everything is settled.

So, it's time to let me know your thoughts that you never told anyone.

The smoke stagnated for a moment, and then dispersed to both sides, without showing Nie Qiu's figure. It seemed that Qin Rongchong had left the boat, Lingyan Lake, Xiayan City, and went to Suifeng thousands of miles away. A place I've only been to once.

He saw that after Gu Huazhi received the things he sent, he put the big Bi Wanyan jade pendant carved from blood jade in his hand, looked over and over, and stretched his eyebrows and eyes slowly, finally showing a little smile, but he couldn't help it As relieved as he showed in the city.

When he saw the letters he sent, Gu Huazhi put them away carefully. Gu Huazhi would occasionally sit on the edge of the cloud-shrouded cliff and review the letters. Tan Rongchong was worried that he would fall, but His figure was steady, he squeezed the wind-blown paper tightly, chewed the words between his lips and teeth, raised his eyes to look into the distance from time to time, as if he was imagining the scene depicted in the letter.

He saw Gu Huazhi was riddled with various diseases, lying on the bed breathing deeply and shallowly, falling into a misty illusion.

He saw Gu Huazhi shaking his head and politely rejecting the position of head of the sect. Neither the head nor the other elders could bear it. If there was a post for a banquet in the future, he would ask another disciple to go. Showed his face in the imperial city.

It's not that Gu Huazhi doesn't want to leave Suifeng and take a walk in the outside world.

In the back, Gu Huazhi's body could no longer support him. His complexion was frighteningly pale, with almost no blood visible, as thin as a thin piece of paper, haggard, and his breathing was so shallow that it would break at the touch of a button. When will it disappear completely.

In the next few years, the water corpses in Lingyan Lake became more and more rampant, and Tan Rongchong was so overwhelmed that he couldn't spare time to write letters.

When he finally had a chance to breathe, he picked up his pen, but he didn't know what to say to Gu Huazhi.

The letters sealed in that exquisite little box have stopped since then and have never been added.

One of Gu Hua would ask at first if there was a letter from Tan Rongchong, but then he seemed to understand something and stopped asking.

The doctor said that he would not live to be 25 years old, but he lived for six full years. Even Xiao Wuyin said it was a miracle.

However, during the six years that Gu Huazhi prayed for and saved with all his might, he never showed a smile again.

He wants to live more than anyone else, he wants to slowly find a cure, but as time goes by, Gu Huazhi only understands that all this is futile, he can't, and never will There may be a day of recovery.

Once, Xu Fengzi finally couldn't suppress the emotions that were close to collapse, and cried bitterly beside Gu Huazhi's bed.

"Eldest brother, is it really worth it?" He cried intermittently and asked, "Why do you still insist on it?"

From the persuasion at the beginning to now, Xu Fengzi no longer wants to see Gu Huazhi live in such pain and depression, even breathing is a kind of torture for Gu Huazhi, he began to hate himself, hate himself Why force him to live.

Gu Huazhi's eyes were scattered, he looked at the endless void, thought for a long time, but only said this sentence.

He said, I don't know.

To live for the beauty he saw that night?Do you live for the fireworks in this world?

But the time was too cruel, he couldn't remember the scene at that time, nor the feeling at that time.

All he could feel was endless pain, day and night were both dim, there was no difference to him.

Tan Rongchong suppressed his crying, wiped away the tears on his cheeks, the tears soon rolled out of his eyes, and was wiped away by him again, and so on, he also tasted that salty and wet taste, which was surprisingly bitter, making him feel sick all over his body. The bones are squeezed inward.

At the end of memory, at the end of darkness, at the end of light, there is a bright picture slowly unfolding.

In the chaos, Gu Huazhi vaguely thought that he is a stubborn person who guards the cage to the death. He has closed his heart for a long time and does not allow anyone to step in, but ah, on that day, the sun was just right , the birds chirping in the treetops, Tan Rongchong looked over with that kind of curious gaze, and he gently moved the wicker to the sides, leaving a place for the young master.

He still doesn't want to go out.

But he let Qin Rongchong come in.

So, Tan Rongchong grabbed his hand, took him away from the mud, went with him to the place of fireworks, took him to the Liyuan to listen to an opera, leaned over to his ear on the street with flickering lights, and said, you look beautiful when you smile. , Thanks to you, I also had a good time today.

Gu Huazhi has always liked the untouchable light, which is vivid and vivid, which makes him smile unconsciously.

Tan Rongchong wanted to know when his long wait started and where it ended.

Now, Gu Huazhi gave the answer.

His long wait started from the moment he lifted the willow branch with his hands, crossed mountains and rivers, time, and all joys and sorrows, and finally ended at the moment when the faint breath in his throat dissipated, returning to silence.