over dependent

"you've been drinking?"

"no!"

Jiang Yi hiccupped, wishing he could burrow into the ground and blame others: "Zhou Jian, why are you hiccupping?"

Zhou Jian raised his hands in surrender: "It's me who hiccups!"

Jin Rong chuckled on the other end of the phone: "So the reason for calling is to tell me that you miss me very much?"

"Yeah." Jiang Yi closed his eyes and pondered, and suddenly realized, "I miss you! Didn't you say you were chasing me? Did you just chase me like this? Why didn't you call me at night? You want me to take the initiative, Hiccup! Called you on my own initiative! You still said to chase me, you chased me and...you still..."

"What's wrong with me?"

Jiang Yi didn't dare to make mistakes, and said weakly: "You still rent with other men."

"Didn't you say that it has nothing to do with you? Doesn't it have nothing to do with who I live with?" Jin Rong teased, playing the piano non-stop, and it was rumored that Jiang Yi was here.

Jiang Yi was furious, and immediately found an excuse to scold him: "I'm fucking you, I'm calling you, and you still play the piano?"

I regretted it when I said it, Jiang Yi had never scolded Jin Rong before, how could he dare to scold Jin Rong when he was drunk.Sure enough, Jin Rong seemed to be angry, and asked back, "What did you just say?"

"I'm sorry." Jiang Yi confessed, "I shouldn't scold you, I'll be angry."

Zhou Jian was dying of laughter when he heard it, and beat his arm with his fist, saying that he was hopeless and afraid of his wife.Jiang Yi glared at him, bewilderedly ravaging peanuts there, obediently obeying the instruction.

"What are you angry about?"

Jiang Yi said: "I'm angry that you live with other men."

Jin Rong had no choice but to say, "I told you it's just a co-rent. He's a straight man. What's there to be angry about?"

"What's your attitude!" Jiang Yi became arrogant again, "You chase me, I can't even talk about such a small thing? Can't I talk about it if I'm unhappy? I don't like you living with other men, can't you?"

"Okay." Jin Rong smiled, "Then you mean we can get back together?"

"No." Jiang Yi shook his head, "I hate you, and I won't get back together with you."

"Then what are you calling me? Call and scold me, and then what?"

Jiang Yi didn't know what to say, he blamed Jiang Xian and Zhou Jian: "You insist on calling me, what should I say!"

"Didn't you say you won't sleep with me? Say it now, don't sleep with me, you said you want to become a monk!"

Okay, Jiang Yi is going to say it, but one word is weaker than the other: "I called you just to tell you...I..."

"What are you?"

"I..." Jiang Yi was so dizzy, he closed his eyes and tried hard to think, but for some reason, he just couldn't concentrate.Now all he can think about is Jin Rong, wanting to scold him, beat him up, and reconcile with him.But can feelings be such a joke?So if you say break up, you break up, and if you say reconciliation, you reconcile?He has to be tougher?

"Why did you break up with me?" Jiang Yi asked, "Do you know that I am sad? Do you know that I am sad."

Jin Rong sighed helplessly from the other end of the phone: "I'm sorry, I know you are very sad. It's all my fault."

"You're right, it's my fault. Blame me for provoking you, blame me for wanting to fall in love with you, blame me for liking you so much." Jiang Yi cried, "If you break up, break up, and now you're still reeling. I won't get back together with you Okay, do you think Huihuicao is so delicious? I won’t give it to you, and I won’t reconcile with you!”

"I'm sorry." Jin Rong apologized again, "What happened before was all my fault. I just want to turn around, and I still love you very much now."

"Jin Rong, you are heartless."

Jin Rong was silent for a moment, and admitted: "I am heartless, I am a bad person."

"So you are such a person, you don't want me, after you throw me away, you want to reconcile, right? Or I'm just easy to talk, I'm just easy to coax, you didn't ask a word before Me, don't send me a single message, so I can do whatever I want now?"

"sorry."

"I don't want to hear you say I'm sorry. What's the use of saying it so many times? What do you say to me? What do you want me to do? I'll make up with you. After it's over, you still talk to me for no reason. Break up. I don't think it's interesting, Jin Rong, do you think it's interesting? Do you think it's interesting!"

Jiang Xian and Zhou Jian didn't expect that they would suddenly quarrel, the original happy atmosphere gradually froze, and they didn't know what to say.The two of them ate peanuts with their heads down, not daring to speak.

Jiang Yi also squeezed peanuts, he looked very angry, his eyes were still a little bloodshot, and he looked even more difficult to provoke.I have never seen him like this, it seems that Jiang Yi has never been angry.

"I didn't think it was interesting. It was my own fault." Jin Rong softened, "Do you know? In fact, I have always missed you, and I also want to come to you..."

"But you never came to look for me." Jiang Yi thought it was funny, "Who the hell knows if you have thought about me, who cares? In fact, in the end, I was the only one who was sad. What should everyone do? Whatever, I think it's so fucking weird, so fucking confusing! I, I love you so much, I still can't figure it out! I don't understand, what made you want to break up with me? I don’t understand now. What makes me understand even more is you, you can do whatever you want, and what about me, am I at your mercy, I should be very obedient? "

"No... I want to see you, I want to talk to you face to face. Jiang Yi, I'll come to you right away, let's talk about it!"

"No, I don't want to see you. I hate you very much, do you know that I hate you very much? I hate you so much, Jin Rong, don't come to me again, I hate you very much!"

Jiang Xian felt that the situation was wrong, so he quickly stopped him: "Don't say it, don't say it!"

But Jiang Yi got drunk, so he still had to say without hesitation: "I don't want to be cheap, but you don't want me, can I do it? Do you think I can do it?"

"Sorry……"

"I don't fucking want you to apologize to me! I want you to give me back, I want you to give me back everything you lost, everything you didn't want! I want the five years you lost, everything you lost Give it back to me. Do you have to pay it back? You count with your fingers, how long is five years, why should I keep five years for you, I am a fucking psycho!"

"Jiang Yi..." Jin Rong cried on the other end of the phone, "I...I really can't help...I love you very much, really, really love you..."

"I don't want to listen to you anymore. Do whatever you want. Jin Rong, don't think I'm easy to talk to. What gave you the illusion? Don't contact me, just be it."

"Jiang Yi! You are crazy to talk like this!" Jiang Xian was in a hurry, and explained to Jin Rong on the phone, "He drank too much! He talks nonsense after drinking, don't quarrel!"

Jiang Yi hung up the phone abruptly, and scolded: "What the hell is your business? I don't need anyone to talk about my affairs with him!"

"Fuck, Jiang Yi, am I not fucking for you? You like him so much, and now he wants to reconcile with you, and you still refuse?"

"What do you know, you don't know what's going on at all, what a fart you are!"

Seeing that the two of them were about to quarrel, Zhou Jian was in a dilemma, he couldn't pull anyone, and shouted: "Stop fucking arguing! Go to sleep, can you stop arguing?"

"Jiang Yi, you're really fucking brainless!"

"none of your business?"

Jiang Yi's eyes were red from the noise, he was anxious and angry, and only after he finished scolding did he realize that he was too serious and there was no need to lose his temper with Jiang Xian.So I apologized: "I'm sorry, I shouldn't scold you."

"Look for yourself, anyway, it really has nothing to do with me! Your sweetheart came to you on his own initiative, and you push him away! Look for yourself, Jiang Yi, I can't control it, and I can't control it!"

He and Jiang Xian broke up unhappy, Jiang Xian was so angry that he climbed into bed and fell asleep, the quilt was covered and he stopped talking.Jiang Yi was also angry, he himself was a little sober, sitting in front of the table in a daze.Jin Rong also sent him a message, explaining a lot, but none of them were on point.

Jin Rong said he was coming to see him, but he was so annoyed that he didn't want to see him, so he said coldly: Don't come to me, I don't want to meet you.

Jiang Yi turned off his mobile phone, lay on the bed and wanted to sleep, and when he closed his eyes, he recalled those things back then.Thinking of him and Jin Rong, holding hands, kissing, embracing, and thinking of them walking side by side in the dark night, and the sunset in the piano room, he and Jin Rong rubbed their fingertips and smiled against the tip of their noses.

What a wonderful memory, Jiang Yi's first love was the sour sunset glow and the breeze blowing at night.Why is there always mourning, why is the night always approaching.

The 17-year-old Jiang Yi was ready to "be in the dark forever" the moment he wanted to fall in love with him. He was willing to be passionate forever, and would rather never be accepted than to be spurned by others.

really weird.Jiang Yi cried, and he didn't feel wronged for himself.I just find it really difficult, and I can't blame anyone.

Blame Jin Rong?He wanted to blame, wanted to beat him up.

Jiang Yi woke up early in the morning. He didn't sleep well all night, and the hangover gave him a terrible headache!He woke up, took a shower, and changed out of his alcohol-smelling clothes.

I don't know why it's annoying, but I felt so refreshed yesterday when I said so many angry words.I don't know how Jin Rong is doing, he seemed to be crying yesterday, did he really come to him?

He turned on the phone, and there were countless messages popping up.I don't want to watch it, Jiang Yi thinks he doesn't need to watch it.

He went downstairs to go to the cafeteria, but before he left the dormitory, he accidentally saw Jin Rong waiting downstairs.

Jin Rong stood on the steps outside the dormitory building, with disheveled hair and swollen eyes, as if he hadn't slept all night.He stood a little unsteadily, and the moment he saw Jiang Yi, tears welled up again.

There are birds chirping and chirping in the campus, and this morning brings a bit of inexplicable ease. The sun just showed a corner, calm and hot.

Jiang Yi's mind was buzzing, he didn't dare to look at Jin Rong like this, he avoided his sight and wanted to leave, but Jin Rong grabbed his wrist: "I can explain, I'm sorry, I really didn't mean to leave you ..."

"How did you come?"

"I'm in a hurry, I'm really in a hurry." Jin Rong's tears flowed out one by one, his voice was also hoarse, and he spoke in a deep voice.

"You didn't sleep all night? When did you come?"

Jin Rong said: "I didn't sleep, I came before dawn. I couldn't sleep at all, because I really wanted to see you, I'm sorry, I really don't know how to say it, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I know it's wrong, I really know it's wrong I don't want to break up with you, I want to reconcile with you, I really want to reconcile with you." He cried, "I don't want you to hate me, I don't want you to don't want me...Jiang Yi, I beg Don't hate me, I beg you..."

Fuck, Jiang Yi scolded himself in his heart.He really didn't want to see Jin Rong cry bitterly. He was not willing to let Jin Rong cry before, but today he cried so hard because of himself.Jiang Yi couldn't bear it anymore, and reached out to wipe his tears: "I drank too much, don't worry about it."

"I don't want you to be so indifferent to me..." Jin Rong still cried, "I don't know how you can forgive me, I really can't do without you, Jiang Yi, I beg you..."

"Okay, okay, ouch." Jiang Yi really wanted to have a stop crying switch, press it, and Jin Rong would stop crying, "Don't cry, don't cry! If you cry again, I really ignore you. ,Shut up!"

Jin Rong bit his lip, he obediently wiped away his tears, sniffed his nose hard, and pretended to be calm: "I'll give you back five years, and I'll give you back my whole life, okay? I don't want anything in this life, I just want one You, I have given you my whole life, I'm sorry, can you forgive me..."

"Don't cry." Jiang Yi was upset, "When do you stop crying, when will I talk to you. Come to me after crying."

The author says:

Not cruel

Thank you for your support all the time. In fact, this article has many shortcomings. I feel that the writing is not very good, but I am still very happy to see the comments every day!Thank you everyone~