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Five years later.

"Damn! The counselor said it! Boys who don't go will count as absent from class!"

Jiang Yi woke up in a daze, he couldn't keep his eyes open, rubbed his bangs up hard, and glanced at his phone: [-]:[-].

"Damn it, what does the freshman party have to do with us? Why do we ask our seniors to perform for them!" shouted his roommate Zhou Jian. Senior year! The school leaders are out of their minds, why are we always here every year!"

Jiang Yi felt that it was noisy, and it wasn't the counselor's message, but the complaints from roommates Zhou Jian and Jiang Xian.

"Are you going?!"

"Every day we are suppressed by absenteeism, and we are all seniors."

Jiang Yi was so sleepy that he rolled his eyes. He stayed up late yesterday to find information for Chen Huai. He didn't sleep until three o'clock in the morning. He hadn't slept for four hours before he was woken up mercilessly.

"Stop making noise..." Jiang Yi was dying, "Let me sleep for another 5 minutes..."

He was about to continue dreaming about some memories of his youth, and just fell asleep when Zhou Jian started again: "The counselor said that the orchestra will come to accompany the accompaniment this afternoon and ask us to move the chairs! You said that we will come to join in this afternoon, why do you want us to come together?" Moving early in the morning? Call me at seven! You woke me up..."

Jiang Yi hated being woken up, he almost rolled his eyes, and hit Zhou Jian with a pillow: "Shut up!"

Jiang Yi is a senior this year.He was one year older than the dormitory people, and for no other reason, he repeated his studies for a year.

This is about his past events back then. He was broken up at the beginning of the third year of high school. The reason is unknown—it should be unknown. , was beaten up by Jiang Chengtian.

Jiang Chengtian asked him why he did this, and he simply said, "Mr. Jiang, I'm broken in love."

Jiang Yi recruited himself for being gay and falling in love with Jin Rong, and hoped that Jiang Chengtian would kill him.Jiang Chengtian didn't kill him, but made him suffer even more.

"I've seen for a long time that you have an unusual relationship with that Jin Rong! Between those friends, can you do this? We get tired of being together every day, cuddling and hugging! I'm sorry I was confused and didn't think about that place, otherwise I would always I'll break your legs sooner! If you're gay, then Jin Rong is not a woman!"

Jiang Chengtian scolded him, seeing his decadent appearance, he couldn't bear it.Jiang Chengtian should know why Jin Rong wanted to break up with him, but at the beginning he promised Jin Rong not to tell about his illness, so he gritted his teeth and held back.

"Forget it, you brat!" Jiang Chengtian is quite open-minded. He has seen many homosexuals before, including Chen Huai, so it's not a surprise.It was just that he couldn't accept the fact that his son was gay, so he calmed down for a few minutes and compromised.

Chen Huai touched his son's head, and said helplessly: "It's a big deal, isn't it a breakup? Your father and I broke up before, and we got back together later! Think about the good, don't be too sad."

Jiang Yi was even more sad: "No, he won't be with me anymore."

Jiang Yi has been troubled by a broken relationship for a whole year, and every day he wakes up wanting to cry, yes, he is so fragile.No one could have imagined that such a big Jiang Yi would cry because of a broken relationship.After being depressed for a year, he almost got depression, and he failed the college entrance examination. He could have scored 430 in the exam, but he only scored [-] in the exam.

So repeat it.

Fortunately, he passed the exam in the second year, but Jiang Yi was seriously injured and couldn't recover to his best condition. He passed the exam in his early [-]s, so he can barely make do.

Jiang Yi, who had just entered university, was still lifeless, without any vitality.Everyone in the dormitory asked him why he deliberately pretended to be cold. He said, "I didn't pretend to be cold. I used to be very lively."

"Then why are you doing this?"

Jiang Yi, who just entered his freshman year, was exhausted after a day of military training during the day. At night, thinking about the past, his eyes turned red again: "I'm broken in love."

"When did you break up in love?"

"Two years ago."

"..."

The people in the dormitory thought that Jiang Yi was too hypocritical, but later found out that he was not hypocritical, but really hurt deeply.In Jiang Yi's mouth, his first love was so perfect that it was indescribable!He is tall, thin, beautiful, can play the piano, has a good personality, and has a nice voice... In short, he has all kinds of advantages.

"You found the treasure! Why did you break up?"

Why did you break up?Jiang Yi shook his head depressedly: "I don't know. He suddenly said that he was not good enough for me and wanted to break up with me. I persuaded him to stay, and he also called me, crying and talking to me a lot. I thought he was coming to get back with me. , I didn't expect him to say 'never see you again', he said he hates me."

Zhou Jian comforted: "Forget it, brother, she doesn't cherish you! There are many good girls, let's find another one!"

Jiang Yi said: "He is a man."

The other three people in the dormitory were shocked and hugged themselves one after another.

Jiang Yi didn't come out until his sophomore year, and it took three years.It's just that suddenly one morning I won't be sad, and I can't remember to look for Jin Rong's photo. When I eat, I won't think about whether he has eaten, and I will hardly dream about him.

Jiang Xian said that if you don't see it in your dream, you really forgot it. "Brother, find the next one soon."

In the winter of the first semester of my sophomore year, when the first snow fell, a freshman kid confessed his love to him.It's quite silly, blushing when handing over the love letter, and said very solemnly: "Senior, I like you! Can you stay with me?"

Jiang Yi looked at him and somehow remembered Jin Rong.

In fact, they don't look very much alike.But this kid is always chasing him, always asking him "Senior, do you like me?" It really looks like Jin Rong.

He chatted with this elementary school boy for more than half a month. The elementary school boy wanted to be with him very much and was innocent. Jiang Yi thought about it for several nights and agreed.

On the day we were together, it snowed heavily. Jiang Yi and his elementary school brother held hands and walked from one end of the school to the other, step by step.

He looked down at his elementary school brother under the street lamp, and suddenly thought of a snowy day, when he took Jin Rong's hand home, Jin Rong lazily asked him to carry him on his back, and almost fell in the snow.

Jiang Yi felt that he was going too far, obviously he still had someone in his heart, no matter what, he couldn't give his whole heart to this elementary school boy.

"I'm sorry." Jiang Yi said, "I still don't think we are suitable."

The pupil's eyes were red from crying: "Why?"

"I still have someone in my heart."

It only takes time from falling in love to breaking up: three to 10 minutes, less than.

His roommates scolded him for being mentally ill, so why refuse others?It has been many years since I insisted on biting the white moonlight in my heart and refused to let it go.

"If you don't find the next one, he will definitely find it! Why are you still working so hard for him?"

Jiang Yi didn't know either, he was just stubborn and never had a hurdle in his heart.Once there is Bai Yueguang, he doesn't want to harm others. Later, he refused all those who confessed to him.

It’s impossible to say that you can’t dream of it. Sometimes I still dream of Jin Rong at night, and I see him playing the piano on the stage, wearing plaid suit pants, and the plaid tie on the white shirt is so cute.

"Mr. Jiang," Jin Rong in the dream rubbed his cheek affectionately, "Do you still like me?"

Jiang Yi couldn't tell.

He still likes it.

Then year after year, and two years later, in the blink of an eye, he and Jin Rong had been separated for five years.In the past five years, Jin Rong has not heard from him.His WeChat is no longer used, his phone number has been changed, and everything is gone.

Like suddenly disappeared, all of a sudden, it disappeared.Jiang Yihui thought that Jin Rong was just a dream, but in fact he never appeared at all, everything was just his dream.But the photos are real, and he has posted many Moments for him, the shoes are also real, and everything he sent is real.

Jiang Yi's memory of Jin Rong has surpassed the time they spent together.

"Brother Jiang, are you going to move the chair?"

Jiang Yi said "hmm", he was still very sleepy, but the anger of getting up has passed: "Move, I am the class committee, can I not move?"

He is a life committee member, so you can turn to him for things between classmates, for class fees, and for big and small matters.If he doesn't go, it's even more unlikely that anyone will be willing to move the bench.

Jiang Yi couldn't wake up, he was sleepy even after brushing his teeth, and he was also sleepy when eating breakfast, he almost ate noodles in his nose.Jiang Xian didn't know whether to laugh or cry: "So sleepy? It seems that you are getting old and can't stand staying up late."

"Busy looking for information."

"Hey, I heard that your mother is a piano professor at the Academy of Art, is it true?" Zhou Jian became curious.

Jiang Yi casually nodded: "Really."

"Then why don't you study art? It's so elegant to study art!" Zhou Jian pointed to a row of violinists passing by the cafeteria window, and exclaimed, "Look! That's the band invited by the school, right?"

Jiang Yi glanced at it, then lowered his head and continued eating noodles.

Then he glanced again, why did he see his little uncle in this group of people?

Jiang Yi's little uncle, Chen Huai's younger brother, is only one year older than Jiang Yi, this year he is in the second year of graduate school, his surname is Chen, and he plays the violin.

"Chen Yan?" Jiang Yi thought he had misunderstood, "Is he also from the orchestra?"

"I heard that it is the symphony orchestra of the Conservatory of Music, and the chorus was organized by our school. I went to see their rehearsal a few days ago, and the singing was unsightly. Compared with the professional ones, it is really embarrassing."

Jiang Yi shrugged: "What's the shame, I don't sing anyway."

There were only three people in Jiang Yi's dormitory. There were originally four people, but one of them moved out.None of these three performers, one was lucky enough not to be selected, one was out of tune, and one was too tall and out of place.Jiang Yi is just too tall. It may be that he ate too well after graduating from high school, or his sadness turned into motivation. He was 1.8 meters 1.9 in the first place, but he grew to [-] meters [-] in his freshman year. He was so surprised that he stared at the medical examination form long time.

"If you grow longer, you can break the Guinness World Record. You can grow taller at the age of 20!"

Jiang Yi was stunned for a moment, and didn't bother to answer: "Maybe I used to have 1.9 meters, but the previous measurement was not accurate!"

"Why don't you study physical education?" Someone asked.

Jiang Yi doesn't understand, is it necessary to study physical education if you are tall?

Being tall doesn't necessarily mean being popular. He is required to participate in sports meetings, basketball games, glass cleaning of professional classrooms, and the housekeeper's aunt who pokes hornet's nests.Jiang Yi really wanted to give Zhou Jian ten centimeters, so that they would be the same height.

Jiang Yi had to go to the student theater to move chairs after dinner.Orchestra players all sit on the stage to perform, and almost all the orchestral, woodwind, brass, and percussion groups have chairs.

As soon as I came to the theater, the teacher started yelling: "Move quickly, arrange the chairs in the order of the screen!"

The chairs had to be moved, the music stand had to be moved, and the grand piano had to be pushed to the edge of the stage before it was complete.

Jiang Yi has good physical strength and is not tired after moving, but Zhou Jian can't. He sat on the steps panting, and lamented the director of their college: "Sure enough, the new official took office three times! The welcome party was not so big before!"

The official rehearsal of the symphony orchestra over there started at [-]:[-] p.m. Today is not a rehearsal, one program after another. It is also the first time that the orchestra has joined the chorus, and it is still going on.

Jiang Yi met his own brother-in-law in the background, and the two of them were actually friends who grew up playing with mud. They didn't call each other "uncle" or "nephew" when they met, they just called each other by name.

"Are you still coming to the welcome party in your senior year? I thought you would retire after your senior year." Chen Yan put down his piano case.I wiped the dust wherever there was dust, and suddenly thought of something, and asked, "Do you have a program?"

Jiang Yi shook his head: "The counselor said that I am too tall to participate in the chorus."

"That's right. Want me to find you a job? Get some credits?"

"I'm already in my senior year, so what credits do I need?" Jiang Yi meant that he didn't need it, but he was curious, "What job are you looking for me?"

Chen Yan said with a smile: "I'm short of a page-turner, if you want to come, I'll tell the conductor."

In fact, piano accompaniment does not pay attention to memorizing scores. Generally, the piano accompaniment of this kind of performance will be accompanied by a score page.

Jiang Yi can play the piano, and turning over the score is a piece of cake for him.

"Come or not? But the piano players in our group are a little talkative. If you talk so much, people probably ignore you."

Jiang Yi shrugged: "I don't talk too much, and those who talk less will not work together, it's too boring."

That is to refuse, Chen Yan knew that he didn't like to join in the fun, he was lively before, and liked to watch other people's excitement, but now Jiang Yi suddenly became cold, and he couldn't arouse interest in doing things.Hearing that Chen Huai said that he was broken in love, he turned a corner and asked Chen Yan to find a suitable male student who played the piano in the conservatory of music for Jiang Yi to meet.

Of course Chen Yan understood: "The little brother who plays the piano in our group is pretty good-looking, don't you want to get to know him?"

"I don't want to, I have broken my roots in the world of mortals now, and I don't want to have any more emotional entanglements. I told my mother that I will become a monk in the temple after graduation and shave my head."

"But the little brother who plays the piano is very handsome!"

Jiang Yi was speechless: "Am I the kind of person who just sees sex?"

Chen Yan laughed so hard that he almost didn't open the piano case. The thought of him going to become a monk deserves encouragement, but he must be discouraged: "To become a monk now requires a postgraduate degree. You should take the postgraduate entrance examination first."

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