Prisoner direction

At four o'clock in the morning, Wen Langxi hugged the limp Fu Guan in his arms, slowly stroking his spine with his slender fingers, occasionally looking down at him, and kissing him again when he couldn't help it.

At this time, Fu Guan had already fallen asleep completely, so he didn't know that Wen Langxi was still awake at this time.

"Fu Guan..." Wen Langxi whispered, as if talking to Fu Guan, or talking to himself.

"Fu Guan..."

"Fu, Guan..."

As he spoke, Wen Langxi's voice choked up, his dark eyes flickered, and he pressed his lips to Fu Guan's forehead, without saying a word for a long time.

I don't know how long it took, until there was a glimmer of skylight outside the window, Wen Langxi closed his sore eyes, and tightened Fu Guan's naked body into his arms.

"Fu Guan..." Wen Langxi's voice had become hoarse, but those bloodshot eyes became brighter and brighter, adding a touch of radiance that had never appeared before to the dark eyes.

"I love you so much..."

"How can I love you so much..."

Wen Langxi tightened the arms around Fu Guan's body again, with deep fascination in his eyes, "I always feel that you don't belong to this world, as I imagined, a most perfect person..."

"Every time I enter your body, there is a kind of unreal fear, as if you will disappear from my sight at any time."

"But...you really exist, and I can feel your body temperature and heartbeat. This may be the greatest favor that fate has given me."

Speaking of this, Wen Langxi pressed Fu Guan's chest to his own, and after feeling the rhythmic heartbeats of each other, there was a trace of tenderness in his eyes.

"You don't dare to say these words when you are awake, for fear that you will think wildly, and if you frown, I will feel sorry for you for a long time..."

"But when I think about it later, I can't help feeling sorry for you. You... will understand me..."

Wen Langxi didn't close his eyes that night, and kept muttering to himself, as if he had endless words to say, endless attachment and reluctance to express.

On the third day after the affair, Wen Langxi took Fu Guan to get a tattoo.

on the way.

"Langxi, where are you going to get the tattoo?" Fu Guan asked.

"What do you think?"

"Um...on the legs?"

"Do not."

"where is that?"

"In the words engraved on my heart, I didn't want to have tattoos, but the scars will gradually fade, and I don't want that words to fade."

Fu Guan fell silent, watching Wen Langxi silent.

Wen Langxi said again: "Can I decide the position of the tattoo on your body?"

"……Can."

"On the back of your neck, on the marks of my teeth, okay?"

"Why don't you tattoo it on your heart like you?"

"I don't want the tattoo artist to see your boobs."

Fu Guan's ears felt hot, "...Okay, is it the word "Langxi" tattooed on it?"

"Don't... just one Chinese character is enough."

"why?"

"There are too many strokes in the word Lang, I'm afraid you will hurt."

……

Half a month passed in a blink of an eye, and it was September [-]st.

Wen Langxi's birthday.

It is also the anniversary of the death of his second adoptive father, Yang Rui.

Early in the morning, Wen Langxi took Fu Guan to a river in the east of the outskirts of the city. The two were dressed in black and stood side by side by the river, silently watching the leaves floating on the river.

Fu Guan was actually very sad. The words "Happy Birthday" could never be said to Wen Langxi. This person's birthday, since he was 16 years old, has no meaning.

"Fu Guan." Wen Langxi said suddenly, with a low tone.

Fu Guan tilted his head, his eyes touched the quiet side face of the man, he pursed his lips, "Yeah."

"It's okay, I just want to call you." Then he turned around, took Fu Guan's hand and walked towards the direction of the car, "Come back."

"Wait!" Fu Guan said.

Wen Langxi turned his head and raised his eyebrows.

"Shall I have dinner with my dad today?" Fu Guan asked tentatively.

Wen Langxi raised his lips, "Okay, although I have been seeing Uncle Fu, I haven't had dinner together for a long time."

Seeing that the other party's mood has been very stable, Fu Guan also smiled, stepped forward and hugged Wen Langxi's waist, put his chin on his shoulder and said softly: "Langxi, no matter what, I will always be by your side. do you know?"

"I know." A strange light flashed in Wen Langxi's eyes, but it was fleeting. He reached out to wrap Fu Guan's back, stroked it gently, and added: "You have been engraved on my heart." , no matter how far the distance is between us, I will always feel that you are always by my side."

Unexpectedly, after hearing Wen Langxi's words, Fu Guan suddenly became agitated. He raised his head and met his eyes with a trace of searching, "Our distance will not be far, will we?"

After finishing speaking, he paused for a moment, then frowned and said, "Langxi, what have you been thinking about recently?"

Hearing this sentence, Wen Langxi's face was as usual, with a smile on his mouth, he raised his hand and pinned Fu Guan's wind-blown hair behind his ear, and said in an ambiguous tone: "You are all on my mind, how can I still think about you?" What?"

This tone did not reassure Fu Guan, "If you have something to say, you must say it, okay?"

Wen Langxi smiled and nodded, lowered his head and kissed the corner of Fu Guan's mouth lightly, and said with a smile: "Okay, listen to Brother Fu."

……

There are three people sitting in a private room in a home-cooked restaurant.

Fu Huasheng still had the same smile on his face. He took a sip of tea, looked at the two people beside him in a relaxed manner, and said with a smile, "Little Langxi, why are you so clinging to my house?"

The dining table in the private room was made of round noodles, and Fu Guan was sitting between the two of them.

Fu Huasheng was supposed to be sitting in the middle, but Wen Langxi had been holding Fu Guan's hand since he entered the door and never let go, so the two sat together by the way, but they were both from their own family and didn't pay much attention.

"Yes." Wen Langxi replied naturally.

During this time, Fu Huasheng and Wen Langxi looked at each other for a moment, and there was a light in their eyes that only the other party could understand.

"Ha!" Fu Huasheng laughed suddenly, with a somewhat sad tone, "It's okay, Xiao Langxi, you really have more and more...your own opinions."

Wen Langxi lowered his head and said seriously, "Uncle Fu is cured well."

Unexpectedly, after hearing this sentence, Fu Huasheng immediately flashed a cryptic smile on his face, and after glancing at Fu Guan, he said, "I don't think it's my credit, it's Guan."

Fu Guan tilted his head, glanced at Fu Huasheng, pursed his lips, and said nothing.

"Yes, Uncle Fu and Fu Guan are the people I am most grateful for, they are my noble people."

Hearing this, Fu Huasheng smiled and said, "What about your father Wen and mother Liu, aren't they?"

Wen Langxi was stunned for a moment, then recovered immediately, pulled Fu Guan's hand from the table, looked at Fu Huasheng and said, "Of course they are too."

This matter started when Wen Langxi just moved out. The two went to the hospital for the first time after moving. Fu Guan was waiting in the lounge alone, while Wen Langxi and Fu Huasheng were in the consultation room.

During the communication between the two, Fu Huasheng took out an envelope from the drawer and handed it to Wen Langxi.

Inside was a bank card and a letter.

The card was given by Liu Fengyang when Wen Langxi moved out of Wen's house. He didn't take it at the time, but he never thought that the card would be in his hands again a few days later.

The words on the letter paper were written by Liu Fengyang, and the meaning was very clear. Wen Langxi needed to get what belonged to him, and it indicated that he also had a share in the company's shares. Even if they did not accept homosexuality, the home was still the same.

At that time, Wen Langxi read the entire letter and didn't say much, but with sparkles in his eyes, he slowly put the bank card and envelope into the bag.

"Okay, just to tease you." Fu Huasheng said with a smile, "Let's eat while it's hot."

The meal was very comfortable, and the three of them were familiar with each other and accepted each other.

After the meal, when Fu Guan went to the parking lot to pick up the car, the smile in Fu Huasheng's eyes faded, and he turned his head to look at Wen Langxi, whose eyes were glued to Fu Guan's back, and said, "It's really decided?"

"En." Wen Langxi said lightly, his eyes still following Fu Guan.

"Would you like it?"

After Fu Guan's back disappeared from his sight, Wen Langxi turned his head to look at Fu Huasheng, his eyes glowing, "I will spend a lifetime with him."

Hearing such unwavering words from this man who just turned 20 today, Fu Huasheng felt like he was successfully persuaded.

Wen Langxi doesn't look like 20 years old at all, he's more mature than that.

At this moment, Fu Guan had already driven over. Fu Huasheng lowered his head and sighed softly, raised his hand and patted Wen Langxi's broad shoulders heavily, and said word by word: "I can help you in the future, but the premise is to appease you." My house is closed."

It was already late at night when the two arrived home, and as soon as they locked the door, they kissed passionately. Wen Langxi dragged Fu Guan's buttocks and hugged him against the wall. Fu Guan's legs tightly wrapped around Wen Langxi's thin waist, The two hugged tightly, and there were constant squeaks of water from eager kisses.

"Mmm Langxi..." Fu Guan raised his head, with desire in his eyes, his chest was wide open, and he heard that Langxi's lips and tongue kissed his neck one by one.

"Fu Guan...Fu Guan...Fu Guan..." Wen Langxi kissed passionately while murmuring, as if he could never get enough of this name.

When the emotion reached a certain level, Fu Guan blushed, bit his lower lip, and said in a low voice, "Go to the bedroom..."

In the bedroom, the two met again frankly. Wen Langxi pressed Fu Guan under him, and kissed the square "Xi" on the back of the man's neck over and over again.

……

For Fu Guan, the real change happened on September [-]th.

When he got up early in the morning, there was no one around him.

Dragging his body that was weakened by tossing last night, he got out of bed and shouted in a hoarse voice, "Langxi..."

No one should.

He shouted again, "Langxi..."

Still no one.

Fu Guan sat naked on the edge of the bed, yelling again and again, as if he was tireless.

After an unknown amount of time, Fu Guan's hoarse voice gradually weakened until he stopped speaking.

He didn't look for it in the kitchen, nor in the living room. He just lay back on the bed, put on Wen Langxi's pillow, covered himself with the quilt, and closed his eyes.

He knew that Wen Langxi had left.

Fu Guan had already had a premonition that that person would definitely leave.

I also vaguely understand the reason why that person left, but... just...

It's just so sad...

The heart seemed to become empty in an instant, without a support, Fu Guan buried his eyes on Wen Langxi's pillow, from the initial sadness to a soft sob, and then from a soft sob to a howl.

The tears came so fast, Fu Guan never knew that a man could shed so many tears, and he gradually stopped crying until the pillow was soaked in a large area.

He closed his eyes and lay on the bed where Wen Langxi had slept. After his emotions calmed down, he got up. With red and swollen eyes, he took out Wen Langxi's nightgown from the closet and put it on, and walked out of the bedroom.

Start looking for something as if you have a purpose.

Fu Guan was sure that Wen Langxi could not disappear suddenly without a word, he must have left something behind.

Passing by the dining room, Fu Guan saw gruel in an insulated box on the dining table. Passing by the balcony, Fu Guan saw the newly hung clothes on the drying rack. Passing by the living room, Fu Guan saw the envelope in dark blue and dark red. with a dandelion.

Without even thinking about it, Fu Guan knelt down on the carpet, gently picked up the exquisitely crafted envelope, and opened it carefully.

Inside was a piece of white letter paper with a paragraph written in neat blue ink.

To my favorite:

Forgive me for not being able to look you in the eyes and say goodbye.

Do not be sad,

I am always by your side.

I will write to you every day,

I will pick a flower for you.

just leave for a while,

Maybe months, maybe years.

I don't want to be a patient who needs to be cared for by you,

Just want to be your pure lover.

The kind of lover who can act like a spoiled child to me, and be angry with me.

But now you see me as a fragile product.

I also rightly regard you as a Patronus.

But this is not what I want.

I just want to be your man.

You gave me new life,

Pulled me out of the underworld.

So I'm a lot like your kid.

Rely on you, monopolize you, love you.

You gave me the faith to live,

Let me understand that there is such beauty in the world.

My home is in your heart,

That is my eternal home.

So, Fu Guan

wait for me.

Wait for the day when I have the courage to stand in front of you again.

Wait for the day when I can say that I love you without any scruples.

Waiting for the day I overcome borderline personality disorder.

Waiting for the day when I change from fragile to diamond.

don't look for it

do not worry,

don't miss it

I am always by your side.

Today's flower is a dandelion, do you like it?

your naive lover

浪西

September [-]