don't get close

"Forget it, don't say it if you don't want to, but you have to tell me your name and where you live!"

She may have felt that I didn't want to say it, so she didn't continue to ask, but it's hard for me to answer her question now.

I want to forget everything that was before and live a new life, a real new life.

"Tang Chu, I'm homeless now."

I said in a low voice, the former name contained too much pain and helplessness, those memories were like a bloodthirsty devil, constantly torturing my brain nerves, making my life worse than death, and the pain.

Obviously this answer surprised her. The sympathy and pity in her eyes made me feel funny. It turns out that I am so pitiful at this moment.

"Qiu Qi, if you don't mind, we can be friends." She extended a friendly hand to me for the second time. To be honest, I was very grateful to her, and then I heard her continue, "I need an assistant by my side. If you You are really homeless, you can work for me, and all the treatment is favorable, as long as I, Qiu Qi, will never starve you, how about it?"

"Aren't you unemployed?" In the face of her kindness, I am deeply grateful, but I am still absolutely curious about this question.

"This kind of thing, if you don't stay here, you have your own place! I'm going through the formalities for going abroad, and I plan to go abroad to make a living. As far as my current conditions are concerned, it's okay to start from the grassroots. I swear To be an actor who is popular all over the world by virtue of his strength is my goal and the principle of my life." She said with high spirits.

"I'll go with you."

As for Qiu Qi's words, I feel that if I don't go out with her, I will regret it in the future.What's more, it's just a good opportunity to leave the sad place and bid farewell to everything here.

In the few days after that, Qiu Qi searched almost all of her relationships, and finally exchanged for me this brand new identity, Tang Chu.We are scheduled to leave Kyoto after our passports come out next month. Before that, I have to meet someone, someone I must meet, and that is the only bond I have here.

"Yunjin? I'm Tang Lun."

"Where did you hide, do you know that we are all looking for you, brother Mingyu is in the hospital, do you know?"

Her words made my heart twitch, he was hospitalized...

"Give the phone to Rui Jie."

On the other end of the phone, I heard Yun Jin's sigh, "Brother, where are you? Rui Jie misses you so much."

"Rui Jie, my brother is going to a far away place. It may be a long time, and you will not see him for a long time. Don't worry, my brother will write to you often. Do you have to be obedient?"

"No, Ruijie wants an older brother, Ruijie wants an older brother."

"Rui Jie is obedient, don't cry." I choked up and comforted Rui Jie, but I couldn't control my emotions.

"Where are you going? Do you know what you're doing?" Yun Jin answered the phone, and she could still hear her comforting Rui Jie who was crying.

"You are the person I trust the most, Rui Jie will leave it to you."

After I finished I hung up the phone and leaned against the public phone booth, crying like an idiot. After 3 minutes, I fled the phone booth in a hurry. I knew that the people from Qingmen would come to find me soon, and I didn't want to be discovered by them.

Although when I heard Yunjin say that Kang Mingyu was hospitalized, I really couldn't control myself for a while, I wished I could rush to the hospital immediately, since I decided to bid farewell to the past, let's end it thoroughly!

"Kang Mingyu, I love you, goodbye."

I shouted loudly in the empty space, and my voice echoed for a long time.

"Hey, where have you been, why are you in such a mess?" Qiu Qi came out of the kitchen as soon as she entered the door, "Forget it, I know you won't tell. I have some good news for you. I'm here Country Y got a job, Model."

"Really? That's fine."

"It's okay, but if you want to get involved in the foreign entertainment industry, you can't do without some real materials. You still have a day to think about the plane tomorrow morning. It can be seen that you are also a person with a story. Now you regret it. There's still time, when you get on the plane tomorrow, I won't let you go if you want to regret it, we signed the contract." Qiu Qi said to me solemnly.

I fell into deep thought, I know exactly what I want and what I want to do, but now I am confused, I have asked myself countless times, is the scene I saw that day just a misunderstanding, maybe I Really should listen to Kang Mingyu's explanation.

But I can't convince myself, the more I look for a reasonable explanation for that incident, the more pathetic I feel about my love.

As I said, there may have been just a mistake between us, a mistake that originated from the same sex. He once firmly told me that he was not gay. I should have known at that time that his sexual orientation was not a problem. Yes, and I, maybe I have always been, but I have never dared to admit it.

If the price of admitting is so high and painful, I would rather live in the lies I wove, at least not as painful as it is now. Maybe a temporary escape can calm my heart, but the person who has taken root in my heart can no longer be pulled out. Because uprooting might end up killing me...

"Since I have decided to leave with you, I will not go back on my word. When a man speaks, one spits and another nails." Maybe I will be decisive and treat both of you well. At least I don't have to be tortured by the world anymore, and I won't be tortured by the other party.

"Okay, from now on, you are my Qiu Qi's manager, plus life assistant, take away daily good girlfriends, and go abroad, we are each other's only relatives, let's have a drink for our tomorrow! "Speaking Qiu Qi handed me a glass of red wine.

"I'll drink a piece of wine and exchange it for a drink."

"no problem."

I plan to quit drinking, but I don't want to talk nonsense after being drunk. I want to keep everything as a secret and keep it in the deepest part of my heart. Only in this way can I get peace.

"I'm going out tonight to meet someone."

I have always been reluctant to part with him, but before I leave, I still want to see him one last time.

"En." Qiu Qi casually tossed the house to me, "Take it, I don't want to get up in the middle of the night to open the door for you."

I thanked her and ran out. I didn't know which hospital he lived in. That night I used a public phone to almost call all major hospitals in Kyoto, and finally found the one he lived in.

But where the person from Qingmen is guarding, I can't get close at all. I tried all the methods for the whole night, but I couldn't meet him for the last time.

Maybe this is the closest distance between us... Goodbye, my beloved.