Relying on love in the entertainment industry

Fang Nan hid in the bathroom and laughed wildly for several minutes. Because he couldn't restrain himself, he couldn't help laughing halfway through.When he finally lost his strength from laughing, took a break and opened the door to leave, he inevitably found a waiter looking at him with a complicated expression.

Fang Nan knew that he must look like a lunatic to the other party.

But even if he was regarded as a lunatic, he still couldn't restrain that weird sense of exhilaration—in the past six years, he never thought of even a single thought, deluding himself that Chu Xiting was actually Those who love him, or the other party will repent for what they have done.Fang Nan's self-esteem forced him to get rid of all such thoughts, because he knew that if he continued to rely on such alms from Chu Xiting—or pity, it would be too much for Fang Qingzhi. Sad and pathetic.

Fang Nan has been somewhat introverted and pessimistic since he was a child because of his illness, but this does not mean that he is very fragile inside.On the contrary, because he was accompanied by illness since he was a child, his personality is precocious and much clearer than his peers.

And because of his talent, he has created an extraordinary self-esteem.

Chu Xiting's harm to him made Fang Nan go from one extreme to another.What used to be a desire for kindness turned into vigilance against malice in the end.

But the attachment and admiration for Chu Xiting turned into full of malice towards him.

With the word "green" that Chu Xiting miscalled, Fang Nan knew what the other party really wanted to say without much effort.Regardless of whether Chu Xiting made a slip of the tongue due to a momentary loss of focus, or a deliberate temptation, Fang Nan planned to ignore it.

He now understands that Chu Xiting has a subtle affection for him... and this inexplicable affection is probably because the other party sees the shadow of Fang Qingzhi back then in him.

In fact, Fang Nan somehow understood that once he had frequent contact with Chu Xiting, the other party might soon see through his disguise, just like he himself had the same confidence, no matter how Chu Xiting changed his appearance, he would recognize him quickly.

That was not what he expected, because he didn't want Chu Xiting to be wary of him, or to discover his intentions in advance.

But now the situation is different - Chu Xiting actually has Fang Qingzhi in his mind.

Fang Nan felt like laughing again.

Oh my god... It's so funny that Chu Xiting can't forget Fang Qingzhi back then.

Fang Nan couldn't tell whether he thought it was absurd or happy, but he felt that suddenly he didn't have to care about Chu Xiting's possibility of discovering his true identity.

However, he didn't want to take the initiative to expose it.

Fang Nan felt very happy, perhaps for the first time after the accident, suddenly felt something pleasant.He happily decided... Chu Xiting would definitely not be able to confirm his guess for a long time.

It is only good that he is so suspicious.

It is naturally impossible for Chu Xiting to know Fang Nan's distorted mentality.

It's just that after he came home that day, he went to the piano room by a strange coincidence.

He doesn't often stay in the piano room, mainly because he can't face Fang Qingzhi's portrait and the memories between the two of them.Most of the time when he was alone in the past, he preferred to stay in other places - bedroom, living room or other rooms, imagining that Fang Qingzhi was active in the piano room on the second floor separated by tens to hundreds of feet.But that night, Chu Xiting stayed in the piano room for a while, and even played a piano piece.

In the past, Fang Qingzhi often sat next to him and played with him.

After Chu Xiting finished playing the whole piece, he leaned over and leaned to the other side.This movement was a bit like leaning on someone. Chu Xiting supported himself with the strength of his arms, and then closed his eyes.

His thoughts focused on the side of his cheek, the position of his shoulder.

16-year-old Fang Qingzhi is not tall at all.Boys developed late. Fang Qingzhi was only 16 meters tall when he was 1.6 years old. He was half a head shorter than Fang Nan. Even if he sat on the piano bench, the top of his head could only reach Chu Xiting's ears.

Just a big boy.

This big boy likes to put his whole weight on Chu Xiting after playing the piano.It's probably rare for him to get this close to anyone, so he's clingy when he gets the chance.

It's not the kind of clingy that makes people feel troublesome. Fang Qingzhi is a very sensible and considerate child, and never makes people feel embarrassed.His clinginess is the kind of clinginess like a docile puppy, close and dependent, but very quiet and will not force.

Chu Xiting closed his eyes, as if he could pretend that the boy was leaning on his shoulder, holding his right arm, his eyes were lively, and he looked up at him with a smile, then closed his eyes, feeling warm in the afternoon The corners of his mouth curled up slightly in the sunlight.

——Brother Chu, is there any announcement this afternoon?

Chu Xiting smiled and said, "No, I can accompany you all afternoon."

Then he opened his eyes.

It's not afternoon, it's night.The night was as cool as water, and Chu Xiting's ravings echoed a little in the empty piano room, appearing lonely and ethereal.

Only the portrait on the side of the piano room smiles softly and brightly, as if it is not hanging on the wall but alone in mid-air, creating an unusually strong sense of distance between time and space in Chu Xiting's field of vision.

For a moment, Chu Xiting felt that it actually existed in a different time and space, too far away to be touched.

When going back, Fang Nan didn't forget to buy Jia Luo some snacks to bribe and appease him.

Gallo was quite angry at first, but maybe because he has always been relatively weak in mentality towards Fang Nan, so when Fang Nan came to coax him, he only hesitated for a while, but in the end he didn't dare to take Joe too much, so he was coaxed well up.

The small snacks that Fang Nan brought, if they were normal, Gallo would definitely not take them too seriously.But because it was taken from Fang Nan, it seemed to be a little bit delicious. When the filming crew tried to come over, he just asked his assistant to buy a bunch of food to pass away. He finished it by himself. A box of little cakes.

Only a small piece of it was stuffed into Fang Nan's mouth.

Fang Nan wanted to coax him, but she didn't refuse, she opened her mouth and bit her.It's just that this kind of action is too intimate, and it's inevitable that Fang Nan will feel uncomfortable under the eyes of everyone, so after taking a bite, he hugged the notebook and flashed away, not giving Gallo a chance to continue showing intimacy.

But even so, it made Gallo feel a lot better.

But Gallo's good mood didn't last long, because within a few days, Fang Nan went out with Chu Xiting again.

When he came back, he had just opened the door and entered the house when he found Gallo standing at the corner with his hands folded and a gloomy expression.

Fang Nan was taken aback for a moment, then gestured to Gallo with the bag in his hand, and said with a smile, "I brought dinner back."

But Jia Luo didn't pick it up, nor did he smile back, but asked coldly, "You went out with Chu Xiting today too?"

The smile on Fang Nan's face suddenly faded, and her voice was calm, but she said in a calm voice: "Gallo, I also have my own life... whoever I go out with has nothing to do with you."

Then he seemed to realize that his attitude was a bit too cold, he forced a smile again, and said, "Let's eat first, today I brought..."

Unexpectedly, Gallo suddenly reached out and swept the paper bag in his hand to the ground heavily.After the takeaway filled with soup was knocked to the ground, the hot soup poured out of the paper bag, emitting a strong aroma, and at the same time drew a puddle of irregularly shaped water stains on the wooden floor .

Fang Nan said angrily to Jia Luo: "...Why are you crazy!?"

Gallo, however, ignored him.He stepped on the side of the spilled takeaway paper bag, and in a blink of an eye his hands had already grasped Fang Nan's wrist.During this process, Jia Luo kept pursing his lips and frowning, with a resolute expression and calm movements, but he suddenly pressed Fang Nan against the wall of the entrance with an irreversible force.

Then he began to kiss Fang Nan compulsively.

Use your tongue to pry your lips open and penetrate between your teeth.Because Fang Nan was struggling desperately and refused to let go of his clenched teeth no matter what, Gallo just licked his soft lips gently with the tip of his tongue, describing the shape of each tooth surface.

This may be the first time in Fang Nan's life that someone kissed him so passionately.Even when he was with Chu Xiting back then, he had never experienced such a kiss—because of his age, physical condition, or Chu Xiting's deliberate gentle attitude towards Fang Qingzhi, even if Chu Xiting kissed him, It was also very gentle, more like a comforting kiss than desire.

But a kiss like Jia Luo's made Fang Nan shocked for a moment, and then tried his best to break free.However, he has been weak for more than 20 years. How could he have earned the Gallo who can play all kinds of sports from a young age?For a while, he was imprisoned between Jia Luo's arms, struggling desperately but unable to get out.

It wasn't until Fang Nan uttered a mournful cry similar to "woo woo" that Jia Luo seemed to wake up suddenly and relaxed his strength.

Fang Nan, who broke free, suddenly pushed Jia Luo staggeringly, retreated to the corner of the wall, and looked at Jia Luo sharply.

Although Jia Luo completely overwhelmed Fang Nan in terms of physical strength, he had become a habit of getting along helplessly, and was naturally weaker than Fang Nan in terms of momentum.At this time, Fang Nan stared at him like this, and all the original determination was broken. He opened his mouth and didn't say a word for a long time.

In the end, it was Fang Nan who spoke first and said, "What do you mean?"

"What do I mean... don't you understand?"

Fang Nan turned her head aside and said, "As I said before, I don't mean that to you."

In the end, Gallo said: "But you should also know that I never promised to give up."

After hearing this, Fang Nan was silent for a long time before saying, "Why don't you understand... There will be no result."

Jia Luo asked, "Why do you think there will be no results?" Hearing Fang Nan's words, he was annoyed, took a few steps closer, and said, "In the end, you still remember Chu Xiting in your heart, no matter what You can't let this matter go. Otherwise... even if you want to take revenge on him, it won't hinder your communication with others. "

But Fang Nan raised his head suddenly, looked fixedly at Jia Luo, and said: "...Jia Luo, what kind of thing is it to date different people at the same time? Even if I hate Chu Xiting, if I lied to him, I would only think that he Deserves it, no guilt. But I don't hate you, how could I?"

What kind of reason does Gallo think this is, what kind of thing can it be to associate with two people at the same time?When he was in SN, he kept relationships with five or six people at the same time, as long as they were willing to each other.

But when the words came to his lips, he couldn't speak them again.

When he was in SN, his relationship was really messed up, and he didn't think such a thing was a big deal.As long as you love me, you are willing to manage your relationship in what way, it is a person's freedom.

But when facing Fang Nan, Gallo changed his mind again.

Gallo usually interacts with people, and he always has a casual attitude of getting together or not.Among the people he associates are those who are relatively clean, and there are also those who are as romantic as him.But no matter what, even if Gallo breaks up with the other party or the other party is with someone else, Gallo will not feel very uncomfortable.

Even if the timing and circumstances were coincidental, making him feel a little sour, it was just a matter of turning back.

But Fang Nan is different.

After returning to CN, Gallo hasn't had sex with anyone for more than half a year.The only chance to hook up with Chu Xiting ended in failure, but he was not unwilling.

It's not that Jia Luo didn't have the opportunity to go out to eat wild food on the way, and Fang Nan didn't care much about his affairs, but Jia Luo didn't have much thought about doing such things.Most of his thoughts revolved around Fang Nan. He had a strong physical desire, but he just solved it by himself when he got up occasionally, and he was completely lazy to spend more time on this aspect.

Most of the time, he just wandered around Fang Nan, busy with nothing all day long.He obviously didn't do many things most of the time, just ordinary work and daily life, but Gallo always found it very interesting, and he was a little bit reluctant to leave.

It seemed that just looking at Fang Nan made him feel very satisfied.

- What is an open relationship?Jia Luo didn't think there was anything wrong with saying this to anyone, but suddenly he couldn't say it to Fang Nan.Even though he knew that Fang Nan hated Chu Xiting in his heart far more than the old love, and he only hated him so much that he wanted to learn from Chu Xiting, but he still couldn't bear Fang Nan's kind face towards Chu Xiting.

Just knowing that the two of them went out for a meal together, he felt as if he was going to burn with jealousy.If Fang Nan really let him go and continued to communicate with Chu Xiting, Jia Luo felt that he was not mad because of jealousy.

For the first time in his life, Gallo found himself so jealous.

Seeing that he suddenly lowered his head, Fang Nan didn't know what he thought of, his face suddenly turned ashen, and he didn't speak for a long time.

After an unknown amount of time, Fang Nan couldn't help reaching out to touch the lips that Gallo had forcefully kissed just now, but walked past Gallo while leaning on the wall.

When he walked over, he said softly, "...I'm sorry."

Jia Luo turned his head suddenly, but only saw Fang Nan's footsteps almost staggering quickly through the living room, disappearing around the corner.After a while, there was the sound of the bedroom door closing.

Jia Luo didn't realize why Fang Nan's apology came from for a long time - obviously he kissed her forcibly.

Finally, he leaned against the wall slowly, and then as if his legs were unable to support him, he slowly leaned against the wall and slid down until the whole person squatted on the ground leaning against the wall, staring silently at the ceiling for a long time. .

Fang Nan entered the bedroom, flung herself on the bed, stretched out her hand and pulled the quilt to wrap herself in. Not only was she wrapped in the quilt, but her face was buried behind the quilt.

The shock that Gallo's sudden kiss brought to him is so obvious.

After lying on the ground for a while, I felt upset again, so I took out my phone and randomly searched for some songs to listen to, as if this could suppress the mixed feelings.

But it didn't work.

After being so distracted for a long time, Fang Nan fell asleep in a daze without knowing when.Because it was still early, and it was not the usual time for him to sleep, Fang Nan slept restlessly.Although the air conditioner is light, it is tightly bound by him, but it feels a bit restrained without struggling.

There was another strange scene in the dream.Half-dream and half-awake, Fang Nan seemed to have returned to the time when Gallo pressed against the wall and kissed him forcefully. He struggled to push away, but he couldn't even move a finger with all his strength.He didn't know that it was a ghost bed, and he was very anxious. For a while, he thought that he had locked the door before entering the house, and for a while, he thought that Jia Luo could not go on like this. He tried desperately to wake up, but Just can't wake up.

After a while, there was a sudden sound of closing the door.Fang Nan couldn't move his body because of the ghost pressing the bed. He curled up on the bed like a shrimp, but he always felt as if someone was pressing him, and his face suddenly turned pale in his sleep.

He only thought about the sound of closing the door, did someone go out, or did someone come in?If someone is out, is Gallo out?Who was that pressing on him?

When he finally woke up, he was already drenched in sweat as if he had been fished out of the water.

Afterwards, he reached out and turned on the light, and sat up leaning on the bed while leaning behind him, but he still didn't forget to look around to make sure that there was no one in the room.

After the inspection, I went to check the door lock of the room. Seeing that it was indeed locked before, I was relieved, thinking that it was probably a dream.

But even so, Fang Nan was still a little uneasy after all, so he opened the door again, turned on the lights and checked everywhere, to make sure that there were no thieves or robbers in the house.When he reached Jia Luo's door, he reached out and knocked on the door, calling softly twice, but no one responded.

He raised his voice again, but still no one answered.Fang Nan stretched out his hand and pressed the doorknob, but found that the door was open. He pushed the door open and went in. Then he was shocked to find that the room was completely dark.

Turning on the light, Fang Nan found that there was indeed no one in the room at this time, and the Jialuo people didn't know where they went.

It was eight or nine o'clock in the evening.Fang Nan guessed that Gallo might want to avoid him, so he went out.I checked the cabinet again and found that the travel bag and clothes were still there. I guessed that he would not be away for a long time. After hesitating for a long time, I finally decided to leave some space for the other party, and did not call impatiently to ask him whereabouts.

After all, it has been more than half a year since I returned to China. Unlike Fang Nan, Jia Luo is an extremely open-minded and outgoing person. Presumably there will be no place to go, and it is impossible to wander around on the road.Fang Nan suppressed a little bit of worry and forced herself not to disturb him.

As a result, Gallo didn't return all night.

Although he didn't return all night, Gallo still arrived on time when the MV was filmed the next day.

When the two met, Jia Luo said hello first, and Fang Nan responded.Then Gallo asked about the work arrangement for the day, and asked him if he had seen the samples taken before. His attitude was similar to that of the previous ones, and there was no difference.

But he looked sluggish and lacked energy after all.Fang Nan looked at him and wanted to comfort him, but after thinking for a while, she closed her mouth again.

He really didn't mean that to Gallo.Fang Nan has been alone for a long time. He looks introverted, but in fact he is very clingy. He also knows this, so during the time he lived with Jia Luo, although he only regarded him as an ordinary roommate in his heart, he was actually very clingy. It is to take care of the other party's affairs in every detail.

Fang Nan himself is not someone who knows how to live at home, and the daily housework is completely out of reach for him.But he is careful, since he cared about whoever he was, he would remember every bit of the other person in his heart.It's just that Chu Xiting turned against him, and after his parents died unexpectedly, Fang Nan hadn't had such a caring person for a long time.

Obviously they are just roommates, but Fang Nan even remembers all the other's habits, likes and dislikes, and cares about the other's itinerary and daily life.On weekdays, if you see something interesting or eat something delicious, you always remember to share it with Gallo... Now that I think about it, he feels that he did something wrong.

He and Gallo are not purely friends.At the beginning, he thought that Jia Luo had that kind of personality anyway, even if he was interested in him, he would forget about it when he met someone who was interested in him later.Moreover, Jia Luo himself likes the new and hates the old when it comes to relationships, and he is not serious, so Fang Nan didn't take the affection that Jia Luo showed as a thing, and always felt that as long as he didn't play with him, the other party couldn't play .

The result became what it is now.

Fang Nan felt that he should distance himself from Gallo again.

But there is a bit of reluctance - whether it is suitable for Gallo to be a lover or not, but if we are purely friends, he has a cheerful temper, is easy to talk to, and Kuo Lang does not hold grudges, so he is not annoying.

Fang Nan felt a little sad, so he was a little careless in doing things.

During the intermission, people around started to rush around, and the voices became noisy, but he was the only one sitting there motionless, as if in a daze, which inevitably attracted attention.

Chu Xiting had actually been here for quite a while, because he was worried about the video shooting, he didn't come up to talk to him, but just kept watching him from the back.

At this moment, he took the opportunity to come up in the middle of the game, and asked, "Did you not sleep well? Why do you look listless?"