Goodbye Wing On

Today’s weather is fine, it’s hot in July, and the weather in Shenzhen is sultry, with no wind. As long as you step out of the air-conditioned room, you’ll feel wet and greasy. By the age of over 40, some of the classmates have become famous, and some of them have been in the same place, like me, eating and waiting to die. I really feel that this is the state, so I let go instead.

So the students are willing to hang out with me, they are cheerful, can drink, smoke, and sing, and they can tell some dirty jokes that are not so dirty. Men and women are willing to hang out with me, hang out with men, and their wives feel at ease , Mixing with women, I know how to be knowledgeable and funny, at most I talk about pornographic jokes, take advantage of words, and then compliment them with 41 flowers, the charm is still better than back then.

This evening, I didn’t want to go home, and I ate and drank with a group of classmates and sang in KTV. I like to drink, and I will be excited and relaxed after drinking, and I can forget some things. When Yong’an called, I was talking with middle school The school belle at that time, and now the aunt Meilan is singing "The Moon Represents My Heart" duet. More than half of the people present were fascinated by her back then. Under the dim light, he regained a bit of his old look.

I didn't want to pay attention to the vibrating mobile phone, but it kept vibrating in my pocket. I took it out and saw that under the dark light, a completely unfamiliar number was shining on the screen of the mobile phone. Normally, I would not hesitate to pinch such strange calls Cut off, I never mind missing someone's call, because the probability of the person I care about calling me is [-] in [-].

Today there was a strange accident, I handed the microphone to Wang Xiaohua, walked out, I pressed the green answer button, the noisy voice rushed in immediately, I guess the other party could not hear anything, after walking out, the back door closed, KTV The sound insulation equipment is quite good, basically all the noisy sounds are shut inside.

I was alone.

"Is it outside?" He was still like that, not calling me by any name, except for very special occasions.

I thought I had forgotten it to the point where I almost didn't care, but instinctively, I recognized his voice.

If I persist for a while, I will really completely forget about him, but unexpectedly, he appeared again.

"Well, it's outside." I didn't call him anything, I thought about the address thousands of times, but never said it out of my mouth, I heard my voice was tight and cold.

Under the central air conditioner, it was chilly, but my palms were sweating.How many years have passed, and I am still like this. The so-called forgetting cannot withstand a random greeting from others.

Still nervous, heart pounding, momentary idiocy.

"It's raining a lot. I'm going to Guangzhou tomorrow, and it seems to be delayed." He said softly and lightly.

"It's not raining here." My voice returned to nature, "Where are we going? Or is it in Guangzhou?"

"No, I don't know where to go. Shenzhen?"

He was still the same, he didn't say he came to see me, the meaning was there, I said it.

"Okay." I pretended to be relaxed and casual, "Come and see me."

"If I don't see you again, I will die." Yong'an said in a very flat tone, "Let hope and despair come together."

"What?" I'm not surprised, he's been d/y/i/n/g for years.

"I'm not in good health and I may die at any time." He still said flatly, "I'm in Zhejiang, the plane tomorrow night. I arrive in Huadu at 10 o'clock in the evening. I have a business event the next day. Then I will be independent."

"it is good."

"Are we going to bed?" he said suddenly.

I laughed, "No." He is always good at flirting/flirting that comes suddenly, and he has resisted it for many years. Although he has fallen, he still has a breath of determination. I said, "Not interested."

He also smiled, and his voice was much brighter, "I have, how comfortable it is to lie and chatter." He walked back to the city with ease.

"We're not going to be that far." I laughed.

"Come on, no design, everything is unknown." I can imagine his appearance, indifferent.

I smiled, I will keep the slag, it can't be turned into ashes, just turn into scum in seconds, don't turn into ashes in seconds.

It seemed random, and it seemed to have been planned thousands of times. After 14 or [-] years, our reunion was finalized in this way.

Then he said the video for each other to watch, because it’s been too long since we haven’t seen each other, so I didn’t even have to say anything, I agreed, and I don’t even have a photo of him in my hand, his appearance is really blurred.The light on his side is a little dark, he looks young, wearing glasses, desperately swallowing clouds, I leaned against the soft wall of the KTV corridor, also desperately swallowing clouds.

After chatting casually for a few minutes, during the 15 minutes of the WeChat video, the two of them were basically smoking relative to each other, occasionally exhaling smoke rings at the camera.Let's play.

Holding a cigarette, he frowned slightly and said casually, "You haven't changed at all."

Where I change, he won't see it.

It ended around [-]:[-], and I returned to the KTV room, which was still noisy and noisy, with a strong smell of tobacco and alcohol. Xiaohua and He Ping were talking head to head in a corner, and Wang Xiaohua was singing the song "Dream Camel Bell" instead. A song that is as old as a lifetime away.

Cuihua came over and put his hand on my thigh, "What kind of plane is it? It takes so long."

I laughed, got up and poured her a glass of wine, "Boring people, just boring things."

The two paired a glass, and took her hand to sing "Youth", "The raindrops are as light as my young years, and the rain on my face is like happiness, and there is nothing in my heart, like there is no pain..."

Cuihua's eyes were shining, the frenzy in her early youth, the moment she calmed down after singing, I said in her ear, "Thank you back then."

Her face flushed, just like when she was 17 years old.

She was my first love/person. We tried the first time in our lives under the bamboo forest by the river behind the school, and then tried it many times, but we separated naturally when we went to college.

As the saying goes, fate is just that little bit.

The gangsters didn't finish until two o'clock the next night. I drove Cuihua back in the car. Downstairs, she stretched out a hand to hook my neck while she was drunk, and looked at me with blurred eyes, "Would you like me?" Don't go up and sit down?"

I kissed her on the forehead, "My dear girl, go to bed early, and when you wake up, you won't think so."

When I came back and lay on the bed, I really couldn't sleep.I have been tossing and turning, unable to calm down, the past, present, and tomorrow are all rushing in, my head is like a paste, and I just can't fall asleep.I wanted to call him in the middle of the night, but I endured it.

My old house is actually ready at one point, it's just whoever comes to order.

Many people have come to light it, including Xiaohua and Cuihua, and they recognized that I was wet firewood. Later, it was identified as waste firewood, which could not be lit and had no value for secondary use.

There is one advantage of waste wood, anyway, it can’t be lighted, so anyone can order it, and some people even use it to bet. It's a pity that I can't collect commissions.

No matter what the situation is, we need to see each other.How many years of reluctance seems to be rewarded at this moment, I always thought he didn't care, I was one of thousands...

I couldn't sleep at noon.

The state after seeing him has been in a trance, as if stepping on a cloud.

Everything seems unreal.

In 13 or 14 years, we will finally meet again.

Perhaps, this is the real final stop.

In the afternoon, I had another phone conversation, but it turned out that he was short of time, so I went to Guangzhou to see him.

I still didn't sleep well last night, but I fell asleep, many people, many dreams, entangled together, woke up in the middle of the night, drank a glass of wine, smoked a few cigarettes, and fell asleep again.