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Yu Yao only felt that the body holding him was not real, but he could feel the warmth and trembling from above, which belonged to young people, or nervous animals.

Yu Yao stretched out his hand and stroked his back, this touch startled Xu Zhiyuan, so he hugged Yu Yao even tighter.

Until the heartbeat is not so violent.Yu Yao said: "Is this the reason why you and An Rong quarreled?"

He felt the head on his shoulder move, nod.

Yu Yao patted him on the back and said, "Sit down and talk, but stand up and your legs are sore."

Xu Zhiyuan didn't move, so Yu Yao had to drag him to sit by the bed, recalling the clues that Xu Zhiyuan revealed about the "sweetheart" in the past, which coincided with his characteristics little by little. The red hijab that was slowly raised was surprising but expected.

Yu Yao was quiet for a long time, remembering what Xu Zhiyuan said that night when the two slept together, and said, "...but when did you confess to me?"

"Before you returned to Beicheng, when you were drunk."

Yu Yao rubbed the center of his brows, he didn't expect that after a few months, he would find the underlying reason why this bastard ran away from home in the first place.

"I don't remember what happened after I got drunk."

Xu Zhiyuan still had a nasal voice, and said, "A heartless man."

"..." Yu Yao said, "...what?"

Xu Zhiyuan made it clear to him word by word: "You are a heartless man."

Yu Yao opened his mouth and looked at the reddish eyes, suddenly felt that all the bastard behaviors this little bastard did before were childish.So he turned to sighing, temporarily put aside his suspicions for a while, and said, "Okay... I am."

"You're still a lump of wood."

"I'm."

Xu Zhiyuan gripped the fabric behind his back tightly, and said, "You haven't even said you like me yet."

Yu Yao paused, lowered his eyelashes, and said, "Listen to me, Zhiyuan."

"You're going to start duplicity again." Xu Zhiyuan said, "Yao'er, I told you the truth, and I want to hear your truth."

"I'm telling you the truth." Yu Yao's voice was as soft as the light, he stared into Xu Zhiyuan's eyes, and said solemnly: "I thought I was just a non-marriageist, and my partner's sexual choice was normal. , I have never questioned this. But you make me a little anxious, because I find that I don't dislike you, and even... I am very comfortable with your intimate contact. "

Xu Zhiyuan remained in his original posture, waiting for him to continue talking.

"Zhiyuan, at your age, you are impulsive and fearless. It seems that you can see the end at a glance. It is easy to say that you like it. But I can't." Yu Yao said, "I will consider many things. For example, you What exactly is it, to me, you are a precious and unique child with many qualities that I like. Although this is also a favorite, it is not what you think."

"When I see you, I can't help caring and taking care of you. I will deliberately care about you and get angry with you. But it is far from the desire to entrust the rest of my life with you, and the appropriate And active sexual impulse-I am missing these emotions that a lover should have for you... In the same way, you are probably the same for me. Therefore, the liking you think may just confuse your dependence on your elders, do you understand."

After being silent for a long time, Xu Zhiyuan looked at him and said to himself: "It really is exactly what I think."

Yu Yao didn't hear his whisper clearly, and said, "Huh?"

"You are trying to tell me that you think I am a child, and now I am playing a childish game with the elders that you lack love and I make love."

Although harsh, but it is true, Yu Yao said frankly: "...Yes."

Xu Zhiyuan leaned over suddenly, pressed Yu Yao on the bed, gently held his wrist, and said, "Yaoer, you are wrong, I have never lacked sex drive."

"..." Yu Yao struggled a bit, and found that Xu Zhiyuan, who was still very "gentle" just now, slowly tightened his five fingers like a frog boiled in warm water.

He leaned down and said in Yu Yaohong's ear, "It's even easier for you - I can kiss you with my mouth without moving my hands or feet. Believe it or not, little uncle."

"I believe," Yu Yao turned his head away, and said in a calm tone, "but it's just a normal physiological phenomenon..."

Xu Zhiyuan grabbed his chin angrily, and said, "Then when someone kisses you, will you react in the same way?"

"I...wouldn't be with others..."

"Then isn't that enough to explain the problem?"

Yu Yao said stubbornly, "It's not the same."

"I don't care about the difference," Xu Zhiyuan said, "Yao'er, I've told you everything I want to say. Now tell me clearly whether you want to promise me or not."

Some people like to hide in the hazy and entangled ambiguity, and have an instinctive fear of clarity and decisiveness.Yu Yao claims that he acts mostly rationally and never procrastinates, but after being dragged into the mud by his emotions, Li Anrong's words and the morality that he has heard and seen stick out from the mud and entangle his trousers. I also began to rely on the ambiguity that seemed right and wrong in the past.

But the person in front of him is too different, he is just a little bastard who dares to rush through the swamp, straight to the point, loves and hates clearly, even liking is very reckless, reckless and brave.

Yu Yao looked at him, then subconsciously avoided his gaze, and said, "I don't have a very clear idea for now."

Xu Zhiyuan stared at him nakedly, always making Yu Yao feel that the funny man standing in the mud had nowhere to hide from the sight of this junior who was seven years younger than him.

Xu Zhiyuan said: "Little uncle, I said that no one can stop me - but as long as you say no, I will stop immediately. I will ask you this once." He said: "Would you agree? I."

Yu Yao opened his mouth and said, "...you're confused."

He waited for Xu Zhiyuan's rebuttal, but there was no, Xu Zhiyuan gradually loosened his five fingers holding his wrist, and said, "OK."

He just said one word, and went out quietly and obediently - he had never been so obedient before."Good night then," he said.

Yu Yao got up and sat by the bed, stayed there for a long time, and said "night", and the door was gently closed.

"...good night," he finished.

In the Xu Mansion the next day, the complexions of the three of them were not very good-looking. They were lifeless during breakfast, and they didn't look like they were in the morning.

Li Anrong glanced tentatively at the two silent uncles and nephews, and broke the calm with his mouth.She asked Yu Yao if he was free today, and Yu Yao came back to his senses and said, "There is class in the morning, and I'm going to see Adjutant Chen in the afternoon."

She just said "hmm" and shook the porcelain spoon.Mentioning Adjutant Chen and chatting with Xu Zhiyuan about their childhood, seeing her intentionally gossip about her former neighbor, Xu Zhiyuan knew that she was going to talk about Meng Che's daughter again.

He swallowed a bowl of porridge whole, and said, "What are you in a hurry for? We'll think about it later."

Li Anrong froze for a moment, answered "OK" first, and subconsciously went to see Yu Yao who was eating porridge quietly.He stumbled and replied: "That's right... You have to catch up with class recently, and you are quite busy."

"I can catch up with the class. It's just that I just fell out of love, so I need to slow down for a while." Xu Zhiyuan pushed the tableware forward and said, "After eating, I'm going to school."

After a long time, Li Anrong and Yu Yao were left in the silent room.

Li Anrong asked: "Ah Yao...you told him."

"Ah."

"He also... told you?"

"……Um."

"I'm sorry Ah Yao, I didn't tell you last night because I was afraid that you...would not get used to it." Li Anrong went to pack the tableware, observed his expression secretly, and said, "You probably noticed it earlier than me. I also I didn't expect Xu Zhiyuan to have that kind of meaning for you."

Seeing Yu Yao's silent appearance, Li Anrong said guiltily: "But if you are disgusted, I can't persuade you. I can only apologize to you. I didn't manage him well and let this little bastard cause you a lot of trouble. .”

Yu Yao's fingers curled up, with mixed emotions in his heart, he just smiled and said, "...No trouble."

After he finished eating, he cleaned up the dishes and went out.