the one who lives in my body

I don’t know if you have ever experienced the trembling sensation from your fingertips. At a certain moment, there seemed to be some chemical reaction in my body, sometimes cold and sometimes hot, sometimes painful and sometimes refreshing.

Afraid that Xie Dongrong would discover my abnormality, I let him pull my finger, but I didn't move.

Xie Dongrong lowered his eyes and looked at it seriously, as if he was studying my palm prints, or maybe he was confirming the thickness of the calluses on my hands. Fortunately, because I didn't move, his attention was not attracted to me.

Ten seconds later, he let me go. At the same time, I hurriedly turned my back and said, "I'll go and have a word with Sun Yuze." Then I hurried back.

Fortunately, it's just a little feeling, but it's not to the point where it can't be covered at all.

By the time I got near the large troops behind, I was almost calm.

At this moment, Sun Yuze had finished reciting his manuscript. He lowered his head and mixed in the crowd, not being noticed by others from the beginning to the end.

His expression was a little lonely.

An Shenhai, who usually likes to dictate to him, also mingled with An Hexuan at this time, completely ignoring him.

Looking at his expression, I know that he may very much want to blend into the laughter ahead.

But in the end he didn't try.

When I walked to his side, he raised his head and I met his eyes. At that moment, he smiled at me. I think he probably thought I saved him.

I also took the opportunity to talk to him a few words, because I didn't forget the previous embarrassment, so I picked some irrelevant topics at first.

I would have liked our relationship to go back to what it used to be.

Until he suddenly mentioned: "Just now in the banquet hall, I saw auntie, she is very beautiful tonight, I heard that you have moved back to Namin, right?"

For a moment, I didn't know what expression to make, and I didn't know where the "heard" in his words came from.

In the past, when facing Sun Yuze, I would not shy away from my family affairs, and occasionally I would like to complain about my depressed mood, but at this moment, I can't tell the reason, I just don't want to say, "Oh, yes, my mother , she is always like that, you know." I said with a smile in the most familiar tone, the most common tone.

I really want to change the subject, and I hope he can get over this and say something else.

But he said: "The man next to her is the head of the Ning family. Although he is a bit old, his temperament is still there." After speaking, he turned to look at me.

I don't know what his eyes mean, or maybe he doesn't mean anything else, but because I already have a grudge against him, and I have the illusion that there is something in his words.

"Oh, him, let's just do that, it's not a good thing." Not wanting to pretend anymore, I waved my hand and pulled one corner of my mouth, almost involuntarily.

I didn't tell him that I was even able to exhibit at the Mangkamai Palace because of that man, because Yue Mo expected that his views might disagree with mine, so I gave up.

Sun Yuze seemed to be a lot more relaxed because of my words. He laughed, "You don't like him either, so what if things don't develop as you think? You won't want to treat people like you did before. Pull him into the alley and beat him up?"

My thoughts froze for a moment, and I almost laughed, but I didn't expect Sun Yuze to still remember this.

I thought he had completely forgotten everything about us.

Although my mother has never established a relationship with any man since I was born, there are many men who have pursued my mother since childhood.

When people get along with each other, sometimes they pay attention to a complementarity.

Just like rabbits will attract hungry wolves, a weak woman like my mother who has no opinions will easily attract scumbags.

There are aristocrats, and there are many non-nobles, but my mother is born to look down on the so-called "common people" by the public.

Many of those non-noble men said that my mother was pretending, snobbish, gold diggers and so on.

However, those nobles looked down on my mother from the bottom of their hearts, at most they wanted to have an extramarital affair with her or something.

With such a mother, naturally, I had a natural hostility towards any man who approached my mother since I was a child.

There have been a couple of times I've had someone beat up people who were mean to my mom.

In the eyes of outsiders, maybe I was a little overprotective of my mother.

Just like Sun Yuze, he always thought that I was the crux of my mother's singleness.

But it's not.

If my mother really wants to be with any of those men, I can't stop it, just like before, the Shen family's family style is so strict, she can elope with my father, and then successfully get dumped, and come back with a big belly To the stolen home.

Although she is stupid, she also knows what those men want and what they can give her. Most of the time, she can handle the things around her by herself.

I only go out when I encounter something that I really can't handle.

I remember that a few years ago, a man who worked in Naming fell in love with my mother. In fact, there was nothing wrong with his status, it was just that he was poor, but because of that, my mother would not talk to him.

So he stalked him, and I went to her door with my mother several times. I couldn't bear it anymore. I spent a week figuring out his routine, and one night I found a sack to cover him. His head was sliced ​​half to death with an iron rod.

This is of course not good, and after leaving a warning, I ran away.

Fortunately, the man never came again.

If possible, I don't want to be like a hedgehog all day, always alert to everything around me.

But just like small dogs tend to be irritable and bark, large dogs are often docile and gentle.

Because I am weak, I have to be vigilant at the right time and try my best to protect me and the people around me.

I thought so much, but it was only a moment.

After recovering, I realized that Sun Yuze's central idea was—my mother found a good job, so I suggest that I don't get involved.

"I saw him in the banquet hall. He was very polite to his aunt. When he introduced it to everyone, he said that his aunt was his younger sister. The two families used to be family friends." Sun Yuze muttered words. From his tone, I He even heard a hint of envy.

"Sorry, do you think... I shouldn't say this."

"No, if you didn't tell me, I wouldn't know what happened, but I don't want you to tell others." When I said this, I didn't have any expression on my face.

"Sense of proportion between adults", because of the previous relationship, it seems that there is no such sense of distance between me and Sun Yuze

I only hope that through my attitude, Sun Yuze can understand what I mean.

After saying this, the large army in front just stopped.

An old man pushed a metal cage and slowly walked out.

Inside the cage is the novelty that An Hexuan wants to bring us to watch.

Aliens, Amuts.

At this time, Sun Yuze remembered his responsibilities again. He stepped forward, cleared his throat, and dutifully acted as a tour guide.

But my sight was attracted by the old man pushing the cage.

He's the one who just called me rotten in front of the showcase.

The old man obviously didn't expect to see me here, he frowned slightly and turned away, ignoring me.

Xie Dongrong was originally at the front, but at this moment he is naturally the person closest to the iron cage.

He manipulated the wheelchair, and with an inquiring look, he stuck to it.

Unlike the Amut man we saw in the small village on the edge of the capital that day, the one in the cage in front of us is much stronger and younger.

Although in the cage, they were all curled up, maintaining the same posture, motionless.

Dark skin, lustrous hair, larger than average human build, and strange eye color.

These are common features of the Amut people.

After the big troops in front finished watching the cage, I slowly squeezed to Xie Dongrong's side.

At this moment, his wheelchair is facing the side of the Amut man. According to the old man, this position may be dangerous, so we suggest that we stay away as much as possible.

But Xie Dongrong didn't move.

Worried about his safety, I had no choice but to go there.

Xie Dongrong didn't respond to my arrival, he just watched the face of the Amut man silently.

Following his line of sight, I looked over.

The Amut sat curled up in a narrow iron cage.

Because his posture is too similar to human beings, I think he is like a poor and helpless mental patient.

And this mental patient is far away from his hometown, in an unknown place, surrounded by a group of inexplicable creatures.

I am not a person with strong empathy, and I will not feel pity for this Amut with compassion.

I just thought that if I became this Amut, I would definitely go crazy.

I wonder if Xie Dongrong feels similar to me.

When I turned my eyes to look at Xie Dongrong, I found that his eyes had turned to my face.

For a moment, I felt that the way he looked at me was very similar to the way he had just observed the Amut.

He seemed to be asking me, "What are you thinking?"

I just smiled at him.

After listening to the introduction, the enthusiasm was only maintained for a short time. Soon, these noble children lost interest in this fresh alien. Why did it keep curling up and not moving at all?

An Hexuan asked the old man why it didn't move, and the old man told him: "When he moves, you are in danger."

Listening to the laughter around me, I suddenly felt a great sense of separation.

I suddenly realized that the aliens, which are of era significance to us ordinary people, are just a novel plaything to these noble children.

It seems that there is a certain time limit for the exhibition of aliens. Soon, the time for the exhibition ended. The old man told the young masters in front of him that if they wanted to, they could visit the breeding room of the Amut people.

Originally, most people wanted to go, but then the old man listed a lot of rules that everyone should abide by after entering.

An Hexuan got impatient, waved his hands, and said, "I'll just watch outside, you can go if you want."

An Hexuan had many followers, and his whereabouts seemed to be the direction of most people's hearts, so soon, many people who knew him expressed no interest in the breeding room.

And An Shenhai seemed to be tired from walking, and began to sit on a chair beside him to rest.

So naturally, Sun Yuze could only "rest" with him.

After a moment of silence, only Xie Dongrong said, "Let's go."

I scrambled to keep up.

I knew he was interested in this, and fortunately, he was interested in this.

I think, perhaps in essence, I am no different from those who follow An Hexuan An Shenhai.