the one who lives in my body

I cleared my throat, "When did you wake up?" I put my hands in my trouser pockets, tilted my head forcefully and said with a smile.

The other party was expressionless, staring at me reminded me of an angry Maine Coon cat, "It's so loud, it's hard not to wake up." As always, the words were stinging, as expected, the tenderness and dependence that he showed just now It disappeared in an instant, and sometimes I really wonder, when is he the real him?I can't figure it out, because I can't convince myself that the naked disgust in Xie Dongrong's eyes at this moment is fake.

"I'm sorry... I didn't control the volume." In the moonlight, his facial contours appeared soft, and I didn't dare to look at him. I quickly lowered my head and dangled one of my legs. At the same time, I was secretly annoyed. It seemed that I planned to sleep together tonight. It's a shame it's gone again.

"Don't you like men? Why did you go to see some big-breasted maid again?" Xie Dongrong's voice seemed a little casual, and it felt like he was just asking casually.

But even then, I couldn't help but wonder—maybe he was interested in who I saw and what happened.

"No, it's just the pectoral muscles. Then... she was wearing a maid outfit. I saw it in a bar and got to know him a little bit." He tried to explain, but he did not forget to raise his eyes slightly to observe Xie Dongrong's face.

As if thinking of some bad picture, Xie Dongrong twitched his brows, "You're actually interested in that?" Obviously, he was overwhelmed by the shock, thinking about it, if he is a straight man, let alone seeing it with his own eyes, even if he Thinking of a tough guy with big pectoral muscles wearing a maid outfit would make you panic.

"It's okay..." Actually, I like you more.Of course, I dare not say this directly, what if I directly stimulate him to faint?I don't want him to hate me anymore.

"Okay?" Xie Dongrong repeated the word with a hint of sarcasm.

so what?What else do you want to say?nausea?so gay?

"Pectoral muscles, very attractive." I knew that saying this would only make Xie Dongrong hate me even more, but I couldn't help but said it anyway.

Don't be too confident, I will fall in love with others, I probably want to express this to Xie Dongrong.

I could have acted extremely affectionate and righteous in front of him, and I could have told him with a clear conscience that it would be superfluous for me to look at anyone except you. After all, these are true, but I dare not let him know, I am afraid That would be his trump card to tease me even more.

But what can I expect him to say?

"Should I praise you for your unique vision?" After a sneer, this was the answer Xie Dongrong gave me.

"That's right? Otherwise, how could I like you?" I summoned up my courage, pretended to be plain, and looked up at Xie Dongrong.

Facing my gaze, Xie Dongrong frowned, "Your liking is too cheap."

No one would say this so bluntly, but Xie Dongrong did it, and what can I blame him for?Anyway, this is just the answer I induced for myself.

"Don't forget, you hugged me and kissed me just now. I didn't force you this time, but you took the initiative to do it." I couldn't help but say this, and there was a voice in my heart telling me I don't want to do this, don't say that, it will only worsen the relationship between you and him, but I just can't help it.

Xie Dongrong's eyes suddenly became fierce, "Get out!"

He picked up the pillow and threw it at me with great force. Although it was soft, it still hurt a little.

"Xie Dongrong, only I know whether it's cheap or not, and I don't need you to help me judge." I threw the pillow in my hand on the ground hard, because I wouldn't throw him like he threw me.

"Get out!" Xie Dongrong couldn't listen, he just repeated these three words, his voice was like the roar of a young lion.

There really seemed to be no reason to stay any longer, and I was off.

"I'm really out of my mind to kiss you."

This is the last sentence Xie Dongrong left me before I closed the door.

Sitting on the sofa in the living room, I couldn't help laughing, I laughed at my own stupidity, I laughed at myself for drinking, and dared to say that to Xie Dongrong.

Of course, I will not break up with him, even if we quarrel, we will still be together tomorrow, day after day, day after day, or even after I don't know how many years.

I do not regret.

The next day, regarding Xie Dongrong kicking me out of the room again, the princess severely criticized him. Xie Dongrong didn't speak or look at me, but just sullenly, as if the world owed him 500 million.

"Rehabilitation should be put on the agenda." Last night, the doctor was also staying in Naming. At this moment, he was wearing glasses, took out a small notebook and a pen, and wrote and drew on it, "The situation of Dong Rong It is not exactly the same as ordinary people. This process will be very troublesome and Tao Shu will need follow-up support, because he was in your body before, so in theory, the person who teaches him to walk and reminds him of the feeling of walking should Also you."

I faintly feel that the doctor's statement is a bit mysterious, but even so, I will not raise any objections.

Because I feel that I am not very professional, and I am afraid of losing face by talking nonsense.

Xie Dongrong is obviously not the same kind of person as I am.

"I don't feel like I need someone else's full support."

Xie Dongrong emphasized the word "others", and then he added: "I have my own reasons."

The doctor raised his eyebrows slightly, pretending to be listening attentively.

Then Xie Dongrong uttered a series of terms that I had never even heard and could not remember to prove his point of view. Talk nonsense.

It seemed that he had really carefully understood his physical condition in advance.

"You are right, but those are just theories of previous years, and they are too ideal, but your situation is unique and unprecedented. Combined with your previous performance, I don't think you can completely eliminate your need. partner." The doctor said, and patted me on the shoulder lightly.

partner?I smacked this word in my heart, and finally realized that the relationship between me and Xie Dongrong might not even be considered a "partner".

Xie Dongrong didn't argue anymore, just turned his head with a stern face, and didn't even look at me from the beginning to the end.

"Dong Rong, as long as you actively cooperate with the treatment and don't intentionally create conflicts with Tao Shu, you will be able to fully recover physically in half a year." The doctor seemed to have guessed the situation of me and Xie Dongrong, so he proposed to Xie Dongrong in this way.

Hearing this, the princess took a step forward, as if agreeing with the doctor's words.

However, before she could say anything, Xie Dongrong raised his hand to stop her, "First of all, I didn't 'deliberately create conflicts with Tao Shu'." He turned his eyes and glanced at me, "He just pretended to be obedient in front of you That's all, what kind of dirty thoughts are in his heart, only he knows."

Dirty?

Before I had time to recollect the word, there was a crisp sound of "pop", and my mood sank to the bottom.

The princess slapped Xie Dongrong across the face.

"Xie Dongrong, I don't want you to be a person who doesn't respect etiquette! Your elder brother Shu is kind enough to help you, how can you say that to him... This is too impolite, hurry up and apologize to your elder brother Shu!" Talk, but I can't be hardened.

Xie Dongrong is right, I am indeed dirty, I should only be his elder brother, but all along, I always look at him with that kind of mind.

Xie Dongrong was right.

"Princess." I took the princess's hand and stared into her tearful eyes.

It would be a lie to say I don't feel guilty, but at the same time I can't tell her the truth.

"I quarreled with him last night. I caused it first. Don't blame him...Really, it was my fault." words to justify.

How does Xie Dongrong see me at this moment?hypocritical?cunning?Good at flattering?

I didn't dare to look at him, and he was silent, without saying a word.

Anyway, I quarreled with Xie Dongrong and fell into a cold war.

But even so, we still have to see each other every day.

Even if I like him, I am uncomfortable enough in this way of getting along with him. I can hardly imagine how huge a mass of anger Xie Dongrong will accumulate in his heart.

Say something else.

Regarding Xie Dongrong's drinking, the princess found the current king, and soon, after An Hexuan's testimony, the culprit, An Shenhai, was fined and grounded, and did not come to school for a month.

The reason is to instigate minors to drink alcohol.

The wording may be a bit inappropriate. This matter is actually a private matter of the royal family. Anyway, it was settled like this in the end.

Then there is my relationship with Sun Yuze.

As the saying goes, blessings never come singly, and misfortunes never come singly. I think this is probably the reason.

After what happened that night, although I feel a little strange about Sun Yuze, I still hope that we can get along as normal as before.

I don't have many friends and I don't want to lose anyone.

When I met him again at school, I tried my best to show the same attitude as usual, laughing loudly and patting him on the shoulder, but he avoided it.

Maybe it just corresponds to the somewhat non-mainstream but reasonable saying "Emotions are like quicksand, the tighter you hold them, the more they will slip through your fingers".

"Tao Shu, do you really look down on me?"

It was not in the classroom, but this time the conversation took place on the playground after class. Even though they were walking side by side, I felt that Sun Yuze was far away from me for the first time.

"How? What are you thinking?"

"In front of that idiot Second Prince, I obey like a dog's leg. You must look down on me."

"Fuck, didn't I say no? I'll be angry if I do this again!" I stretched out my fist as if to hit him as a joke, but he swung my hand away violently.

"An Jingtong sticks to you, and Xie Dongrong cares about you so much. When you came, even An Hexuan welcomed you respectfully. You are the star of that place!" Sun Yuze's voice suddenly dropped Raised, I looked into his eyes, and for a split second, I didn't even feel like I knew him anymore.

But he is obviously still the old Sun Yuze.

star?I find it funny, that word doesn't fit me at all, that night was like hell to me, and he didn't know it...envious of me?

"And me? No one noticed who I am. I'm like a clown, an insignificant tool man, just a background board. Don't you think it's funny? Tao Shu?" Sun Yuze asked me.

"No." I just denied.

"No fart! In your heart, we are no longer equal! I am inferior to you now, and you can look down on me."

Hearing what he said, my mood instantly became depressed, "I don't know what you're talking about, Sun Yuze, it's just what you think, I've never said anything like that..." Halfway through the speech, Sun Yuze looked at each other For a moment, I suddenly didn't want to talk anymore.

I realize this may not make sense.

Besides, what he said: "You can look down on me too."

I couldn't help but think, so how on earth did he see me before that?