the one who lives in my body

This is very good, I don't need to walk beside Xie Dongrong, just follow behind him without talking, just look at his back like that, it can be said to have greatly relieved my pressure.

Xie Dongrong was obviously lost in thought. It could be seen that he was not in a good mood, and his pace was not fast. It took us a lot of time to return to the banquet hall from the relatively deserted back garden, during which he did not speak. As if thinking about something carefully.

Go up the stairs in the center of the banquet hall and turn left to the second room, which is our destination this time.

An Hexuan was standing not far from the door, seeing us, a smile appeared on his face, and he walked slowly.

"I've been waiting for you for a long time." After paying his respects to Xie Dongrong, An Hexuan walked slowly to my side, and took my hand very naturally, "Come with me."

"An Hexuan." When Xie Dongrong spoke, An Hexuan stopped, and I found that Xie Dongrong was staring at him silently, with a hint of warning in his eyes, and the next second, An Hexuan let go of my hand hand, smiled at Xie Dongrong comfortingly: "Okay, okay...just kidding."

I have never seen Xie Dongrong talk to An Hexuan in such a tone. To be honest, it doesn't feel good to be caught between the two of them. She has a soft and submissive appearance, but this kind of undisguised strength also makes me feel uncomfortable.

It's as if I am still his property, but he has learned to tie me to him by being soft.

Realizing this, I never wanted to run away from Xie Dongrong for a moment, but when I quickened my pace slightly and overtook him, my shoulders were dragged back to the original place by his strength, "What's wrong?" Xie Dongrong leaned over slightly, Said so in my ear.

"No." I said.

The short conversation, I don’t know which point of An Hexuan’s jokes were caught, causing him to laugh in a low voice, and his attitude like watching a show also annoyed me. Maybe he followed Xie Dongrong’s rhythm and felt that all this is happening right now. , but it’s all a drama led by Xie Dongrong, and I am just Xie Dongrong’s pocket, and there is no possibility of challenging him.

hateful.

I couldn't help but clenched my fists, I was a little angry, although I didn't show it.

There is melodious classical music in my ears, the floor is as bright as new, and the surrounding glitz makes everything in front of me seem to be dyed with a dreamy golden color. This is the first time I have seen such a large-scale noble dinner. I am puzzled, the First Prince's birthday, with such a big ostentation, is enough to believe that it is a preparation for the First Prince's succession to the throne, but will the throne be given to An Hexuan next?I have to say I don't quite understand the rationale for this.

One of the few reasonable explanations is that this may be the final apology from the seriously ill Wang to his eldest son.

An Hexuan eventually led us to a table.

The faces before us are all familiar to us.

This dining table seems to be specially prepared for the royal relatives.

The eldest prince An Boyan, the second prince An Shenhai, the third prince An Hexuan, the adopted son An Jingtong, and the princess' son Xie Dongrong.

Of course, there are a few others whose names I can't name, but judging by their temperament, they should also have a certain relationship with the royal family.

As for me, it seemed less upright.

An Hexuan turned sideways slightly, and chose a seat for me—next to An Jingtong.

An Jingtong, who had just parted, looked over carefully at this moment, and gave me a slight smile. His movements were very subtle, but I don't know if it was because the eldest prince was sitting next to him. Not tall, but Yue Mo sensed An Jingtong's gaze, and An Boyan, who was sitting beside him, also looked over, without any superfluous expression, he turned his face away again in a neutral manner.

It is naturally good to be able to sit next to an acquaintance. I took advantage of the opportunity to sit next to An Jingtong, Xie Dongrong immediately sat next to me, and An Hexuan sat on the other side of him.

I have to say that this is a very strange formation, from left to right are An Boyan, An Jingtong, me, Xie Dongrong, An Hexuan.

I feel like An Jingtong and I are like little chickens caught between a bunch of ghosts and ghosts, and we can't do much except focus on the food in front of us.

Of course, I have to say that this single-serve food looks really delicious. If no one wants to eat now, I would like to try it immediately.

An Jingtong obviously had the same idea as me. It stands to reason that he should have eaten enough of these things in the palace, but at this moment he was obviously a little greedy. After a while, he came to my side and pointed The dim sum in front of me said to me softly: "Brother Shu, this is delicious, you must try it." He swallowed.

I was a little amused by his appearance, "Really? Then why don't you do it?"

An Jingtong secretly glanced at An Boyan, then leaned close to my ear, and said in a very low voice: "I dare not." Although I ensure that no one else can hear the voice, everyone at the table knows that I am with you. He's whispering.

Still, there's nothing wrong with that.

I leaned close to his ear and asked in the same small voice, "Why?"

"I'm studying etiquette recently. An Boyan said that this is my exam. If I eat now, I will fail."

What's the point?I have never had a very clear idea of ​​noble etiquette, I only know that everything should be learned from Xie Dongrong and the others, and now An Jingtong...

Reminiscent of what he told me not long ago that he was going to marry An Boyan, I realized that it is very likely that he will attend various social occasions as a queen or concubine in the future.

Thinking of this, I can't help but feel a little uncomfortable.

I don't think An Jingtong should be the kind of person who is trapped in the palace and blindly follows etiquette.

I still remember that he once played with the internal structure of the palace into his own primitive jungle, and I also remember some of his whimsical ideas, although they seem nonsensical, they can often make people laugh.

Naturally, I can't say anything.

"If you like it, I'll give you my share later." I told him in a low voice.

An Jingtong's eyes sparkled suddenly: "Really?"

Really yo, the only thing I can do for you.

The clothes at the elbow were gently pulled, and Xie Dongrong was looking at him in a blink of an eye. He frowned and leaned over, thinking what he was going to do, I couldn't help but took a step back, "Why?" He Xuan was looking at this side jokingly, and I couldn't help being a little annoyed.

"You hide from me, don't you hide from him?" Xie Dongrong said bitterly, "What are you talking about?"

"Eat." I don't know what to ask.

"The chef here is really good. If you like, I can take you to the restaurant he owns." Xie Dongrong's breath lingered in my ear, and I twisted my neck uncomfortably, "Let's talk, you Sit down."

"Why don't you sit still?" Xie Dongrong straightened up, looking down at me, "You two can stick together."

Only then did I realize that the distance between me and An Jingtong's seat is obviously closer than that of other people, and the distance between me and Xie Dongrong is obviously much farther.

And at this moment, An Jingtong and the eldest prince were obviously not dealing with each other.

The eldest prince was very straightforward, he grabbed An Jingtong's chair and pulled it towards him. He stared at An Jingtong, and An Jingtong also stared at him. The Great Rift Valley didn't close again. When An Jingtong turned his head again, his lips were pursed, obviously refusing to communicate with the First Prince, although the First Prince didn't say anything from the beginning to the end.

Xie Dongrong chuckled, "The family is strict, what are you thinking?"

What he said seemed immoral to me, "It's not a crooked mind, don't interfere with my normal social life." With a straight face and looking directly at him, I said this.

"Really? I'm afraid you're the only one who thinks so." As he spoke, Xie Dongrong stretched out his hand and stroked my shoulder, "There's a bug, it was left in the garden just now."

There is nothing on his fingertips!No bugs at all!For Xie Dongrong's inexplicable little action, I couldn't figure it out, and I didn't know how to deal with it, so I could only turn my head and choose to ignore it.

As I wandered my eyes, I realized that most of the people who are at the forefront like ours are the kind of people who have the closest relationship with the nobles of the palace.

And I'm probably the biggest exception to this.

Not far away, the princess is sitting at a dining table exclusive to ladies, surrounded by many noble ladies who often visit Namin. According to my shallow knowledge of the aristocratic social circle, most of them are related to the royal family. Closer, and Mom... I didn't see her in sight.

The empty seat next to the princess obviously belonged to the empress, not to mention the seat design which was obviously different from others, even the tableware placed in front of that seat had a very special color.

It seems that the queen has not yet arrived.

Later, according to Xie Dongrong's introduction, I learned that the original process was that the guests and the queen had to pay tribute to everyone present before the guests could officially start dining.

But from the beginning to the end, the empress did not come, and no one came to tell everyone why, everyone just waited for half an hour, during which An Hexuan left the table, and when he came back, his expression showed embarrassment, it could be seen that, He didn't know how to explain it to his elder brother.

After dawdling for a while, he walked up to An Boyan and said, "Mother is not feeling well, let everyone use it first."

So An Boyan stood up and finished the speech in place of the queen, and the princess immediately got up and took the place of the queen, expressing apology to everyone as the woman with the highest status present.

Anyone who knows the inside story of the royal family knows that this is a note from the empress to An Boyan, a show of authority in front of everyone.

An Boyan himself didn't show any emotion about this, but after sitting down, he gently pushed the small plate in front of him to An Jingtong. It was the food that An Jingtong told me earlier that he liked.

Even though An Jingtong was angry with the eldest prince, he realized that the atmosphere was a bit delicate at the moment, and he didn't resist An Boyan's almost flattering gesture any more. He only turned his head to look at An Boyan, and silently put the thing into his mouth After finishing, he carefully poked An Boyan with his elbow and said, "You eat too."

If you ignore everything before, just look at the interaction between these two people at this moment, in fact, they are quite affectionate, silently put the thing in front of me into my mouth, somehow, I don't know what to eat.

Xie Dongrong's low laughter came to my ears. When I turned my face, I found that he was slightly curling up his lips, watching me silently. His attention didn't seem to be attracted by the episode just now, as if it happened just now. It's not enough to attract his attention.

"What are you laughing at?" I couldn't help asking.

Xie Dongrong raised his chin slightly, "Here, you also saw that they have a good relationship." After speaking, he raised his eyebrows slightly, his eyes were quite provocative.

I can't help being a little annoyed, I don't understand why this guy is thinking about these things at this time.

However, just when I was about to speak, Xie Dongrong suddenly said: "I know what you want to ask, but now is not the time." Then, he gently leaned over and whispered in my ear: "Wait a minute with me Go out for a while, I have prepared something for you."

how?Feeling apprehensive, I had a premonition that it might be another gift that I couldn't afford.

"As I said, don't send me any more things." I lowered my voice and said to Xie Dongrong.

"Brother Shu." Before Xie Dongrong could respond, I heard An Jingtong call my name.

When I turned my head, I saw a gift box in An Jingtong's hand, as if it was just delivered to him by the servant standing beside him.

"Sorry, it might be a bit early now, because we probably won't be able to see each other for a long time," An Jingtong said with a soft smile on his face, "Although I can mail it to you, I still I think it would be better to give it to you face to face." Looking at my expression, he seemed to realize that I was in a completely sluggish state at the moment, An Jingtong said: "It seems that Brother Shu has already forgotten, it will be three days later, your birthday ...Happy birthday, I'm sorry I can only say this to you at this time."

"Thank you." Of course, apart from these two words, I can't say anything else.

Staring at An Jingtong's smiling face, I felt an inexplicable feeling in my heart. He was right. I had indeed forgotten it myself, because few people celebrated with me. Living with An Jingtong In the first year of being together, I also specifically emphasized that there is no need to celebrate birthdays, because such things as birthdays, in my opinion at the time, were meaningless and always disappointing.

Oh, that's because I haven't been able to forget Xie Dongrong at the time, and maybe I have a feeling that he never remembers my birthday, so I just thought, everyone just doesn't remember it, and I don't remember it either.

However, now that I think about it, around that day every year, the old man will organize everyone to go out for dinner together.

Everyone was fine back then.

Suddenly want to go back to Nancheng.

"Why? So touched?" Xie Dongrong's voice interrupted my nostalgia at the right time. His eyes were fixed on the gift in my hand, and then he smiled softly. With a little arrogance, he said: "I also I have prepared a present for you, brother."

"Dong Rong, why are you called Brother Tao Shu now?" A man at the other end of the dining table asked, probably because the presents here caught his attention. I can't name this man, but he looks familiar. Judging by his temperament, he should be a typical son-in-law, probably an acquaintance or classmate of An Hexuan and Xie Dongrong.

Hearing this, Xie Dongrong stretched out his arms and wrapped my arms around my shoulders, but I felt his strength was very light, "We are as close as brothers, don't you know?" It seems that the man has a good relationship with Xie Dongrong .

There was a sound that sounded like a joke at the dinner table.

"From now on, we'll have to call Tao Shu brother." Seeing that the atmosphere became active, someone interrupted at the right time.

"No, only I can call you." Acting like a dandy, when Xie Dongrong wants to integrate himself into a certain group, he will change into a corresponding appearance.

Very cunning.

An Hexuan laughed at first, and then other people started laughing with them. I felt very strange about the sound that was similar to booing.

"Put your hands down." Leaning closer to Xie Dongrong, shrugging slightly, I whispered in his ear.

Looking at me, Xie Dongrong slanted the corners of his mouth and raised his chin slightly: "It's just a joke, seeing how nervous you are."

Am I nervous?Maybe.In order to hide the generality, I picked up the small wine glass on the table and drank it down.

The prelude ended, and the surrounding atmosphere gradually became lively. The male creatures gathered together, whether they were men or boys, inevitably chatted and chatted, but the high-end suits covered them with a gorgeous coat, which was expensive. The wine puts them apart from the common people, that's all.

Observing everything around me silently, I found that nobles are not much more elegant than ordinary people, but they don't make loud noises, and they can speak some more advanced and elegant vocabulary, which makes their gossip more dignified. Of course, they also talk about nationalities. Political, political, and national issues, but most of them are their beautiful ideas, and those who are really capable of practicing them often don't announce them at the wine table.

When everyone started drinking, An Jingtong obediently listened to what An Boyan said, and went back to his room to sleep. From his expression, I knew he wanted to stay and play. I thought I would be embarrassed sitting here , was about to chase An Jingtong out, Xie Dongrong stopped me and said, the princess asked me to help keep an eye on him.

He said he was terrified of getting drunk.

Having been with him for so many years, I am very aware of his drinking capacity. I know that there are not many people who can knock him down based on the presence of these people, but he is pretending to be drunk at this moment. I am really annoyed, but I can't be bothered to tear him apart.

Because the wine in the palace is really good, so I also drank some, but not much, I heard them talking about the Amut star, and then I knew that there are still human soldiers stationed in the Amut star, they Responsible for "managing" the Amut people there, so that the cargo fleet can reasonably get the supplies of Amut star.

They also said that Xie Dongrong was in charge of all this.

Considering Xie Dongrong's military rank, I know this is not surprising at all, but Xie Dongrong never took the initiative to mention this news to me.

When I turned my head to ask him for proof, he just turned his head away, pretending to be drunk, and called "brother" in my ear.

Every time he called my brother in a low voice, the noble brothers around him would cast some ambiguous looks, and what was even more extreme was An Hexuan, who became even more unscrupulous after drinking, and this time he stopped laughing directly , but laughed directly, and said to me: "Take him home."

I asked Xie Dongrong to get up, don't hug me, but Xie Dongrong didn't move, he just put his head on my shoulder like that, relying on himself to be drunk, smiled softly, what else did he say, the smell on my brother's body is really real smells good or something.

My body was a little paralyzed by alcohol, and my mind was also messed up. Listening to him, I just felt that this kid brother was really erotic.

I don't know who started it later, saying that we are going to kiss each other, and many people in the back echoed, saying that we are not brothers at all, but lovers, and calling brothers is just taking off our pants and farting.

Of course, this is just my popular way of saying it. They said it very elegantly at the time, but that's roughly what it means.

Then Xie Dongrong whispered in my ear, "Brother, I want to kiss you."

Of course, he didn't move.

But I still can't stand it.

The moment I stood up, I clearly felt that Xie Dongrong's body froze.

"I'm going out to get some air." After greeting everyone present, I left.

At this time, everyone was a little drunk, and most of them hummed, dazed, and did not forget to maintain their correct sitting posture.

Before leaving, An Hexuan told me that in the end he still had something to discuss with me alone, and asked me not to run away first.

It seems he saw through my intentions.

With a wave of my hand, I walked to the balcony, and the evening breeze was blowing. Although it was a summer night, the air outside was still much cooler than inside.

Hearing the noise behind him, he turned his head, and Xie Dongrong was closing the fan-shaped door. When he looked over, his eyes were clear, and sure enough, he was not drunk at all.

"You're not drunk, you're pretending." Clenching my fists, I tried my best to calm down my tone.

Xie Dongrong didn't answer, just said: "Are you angry?" He walked up to me, not far away, but enough to make people feel dangerous. At this moment, his face was expressionless, not at all like the appearance at the dinner table just now .

"We clearly agreed, but what are you doing?" I said.

Xie Dongrong turned around and finally faced me, his blue eyes looked very strange under the moonlight, he said: "I will listen to you and call you brother."

I couldn't bear it anymore, "Is that what my brother called me!"

"I don't know, I just listened to what you said," Xie Dongrong actually laughed, "If you just don't want me to touch you, touch you, or get close to you, this method is really too stupid, and... Why do you want to blame me? No brother is as sensitive as you, why don't you ask if you have a ghost in your heart?"

Okay, very good, after so long, Xie Dongrong is finally willing to tell his true feelings, I don't know, so my behavior is so ridiculous to him?Yes, thinking about it now, I also find myself ridiculous.

"I'm just trying to take the doctor's advice and hope it helps in your... those situations."

"Are you trying to talk about your illness?" Xie Dongrong squinted his eyes and took a step forward, "I never thought I was sick, it's because you are desperately rejecting me now that I became like this...Tao Shu, I know I'm sick." I did a lot of sorry things to you before, but you see, we got along very well before, as long as you come back to me, I will be fine, I can even do better, I can fulfill your wishes, You want to open a mech manufacturing center in the capital, I can help you do that, as long as you stop treating me like this and stop those ridiculous role-playing games, we can..."

"Role-playing games..." I laughed out. It turns out that my efforts these days are nothing more than role-playing games to him. I want to break away from the original relationship and bring our lives back to normal. However, Xie Dongrong's ultimate goal But...is it back to the way it was before?

"Xie Dongrong, I told you, it's impossible between us! I can't forget what you did to me, as long as you stand in front of me, I will remember! Just like today, when An Jingtong sent When I gave...my birthday...you never remember..."

"Yes, I didn't think it was necessary before, but this time I remember... I even prepared a gift for you." Xie Dongrong looked over, as if he was a little nervous, and said, "Didn't you say before that you want to live like a child in the future?" A house like Qiu Xingwen’s? I’ll take you to see it after the formalities are completed.”

At that moment, I was dizzy and didn't know what Jinxi was. However, the look on Xie Dongrong's face, which seemed to be pleading for praise, made my heart ache again.

"I can't afford such an expensive gift." I said.

"There is nothing important, I want to give it to you." Xie Dongrong came over and grabbed my wrist, his blue eyes just stared at me like that, making me feel that I was standing in front of endless Yuanya, as if In the next second, he will step on the air.

"...I can't take it." I tried my best to break free from Xie Dongrong's restraint, but finally found that I couldn't shake it at all. Xie Dongrong seemed to be lost. He just grabbed me. After I struggled for a long time, he said: "Tao Shu, don't do this."

"Xie Dongrong, count me as stupid. I just now realize that you have never thought about obeying what I said to you from the beginning to the end... You are pretending, you are pretending from beginning to end, right?" My voice Already trembling a little, I thought, a long time ago, I would never have imagined that one day I would talk to Xie Dongrong like this.

"You are standing in front of me, there is no way I don't want to touch you," Xie Dongrong paused, as if he realized that he would make me angry, so he said in a roundabout way: "I just want you to know that as your I can do it, love."

At that moment, I really wanted to laugh, but I still imagined that one day Xie Dongrong could truly respect my meaning... After a long time, he did that because he wanted to behave well.

"Tao Shu, in my mind, as long as you stand in front of me, there is no other option for our relationship except to be lovers." Xie Dongrong's voice seemed to come from far away, and for a moment I felt like I was Back when I first confronted him, my mind was full of...

"Really? Then...forget it."

I hear myself say this.

The author says:

Today is very thick and long, and tomorrow I will rest.