Brother Christine

There have been many moments of regret.

Whenever he wanted to go forward without hesitation, there was always someone behind him pulling him back.

Jiang Xiao didn't want to meet his father's eyes. His father smiled like a benevolent old Bodhisattva, which made him feel that if he cheated on him, he would be punished by heaven.He is not an obedient and good son, but he still selfishly hopes that he will not let that man down.

Father, once he desperately longed for attachment, is now his heavy burden.

Jiang Xiao closed his eyes and leaned against the door, holding his breath and remaining silent.

The doorknob was turned behind him, the people outside pushed the door and came in and found it was blocked, knocked on the door and called "Brother".

Jiang Xiao stepped aside, put the basin on the table, and turned on the light.

Shen Qing's bedroom is brighter than his bedroom.A log desk, a simple white wardrobe, and a small bed covered with a light blue four-piece suit. The curtains are also light blue with tiny white flowers printed on it, which is completely opposite to the dark black and white colors in his room. .

Shen Qing didn't like reading at first, the two rows of bookcases on Jiang Xiao's desk were full of books, and on Shen Qing's desk were all gadgets bought by his father.

Colorful pottery ornaments, big and small, One Piece, Digimon, Eight Immortals crossing the sea in different poses, Avatar and a little donkey, a black cat sheriff riding a motorcycle, a little dolphin taking a bath in a bathtub, and a colorful one small windmill.

Jiang Xiao casually opened the big middle drawer. Inside was a Polaroid in the original box, in the shape of Garfield, which was given to him by his father on his ninth birthday. Shen Qing had no friends who could take pictures with him. This thing has been left like this until it breaks.

There was a small stack of awards under the Polaroid, but Jiang Xiao didn't know it. He glanced at the person who entered the room, and twirled his fingers to flip it under.

Two for the sixth grade, two for the third grade, the most certificates in high school, more than a dozen for the monthly exam, midterm exam and final exam, all golden and reddish paper, especially beautiful when lifted.

"When did you get it?" Jiang Xiao tilted his head and asked him, "Why don't I know?"

Shen Qing put down her clothes and rushed over to hug him, hurriedly buried her head in his collar, sniffed hard and sniffed: "You smell so sweet."

"Brother is asking you something." Jiang Xiao pulled out his head, and pointed to a pile of golden paper hidden in a drawer: "What's going on?"

"The mouth smells good too." Shen Qing held his head again, and gnawed at his face.

"Fuck|Your uncle," Jiang Xiao slobbered all over his face, dragged the brat's ass and hugged him, with a clingy koala hanging on him, went to the door to insert the door, the person in his arms kept moaning, Jiang Xiao warned in a low voice: "You fucking keep your voice down!"

"Brother," Shen Qing put her limbs on him, licked his ears, and laughed in a low voice: "Is it exciting to steal?"

Jiang Xiao stared at him.

Shen Qing leaned her lips over and pecked him.

The rough palms suddenly clenched Shen Qing's ankles, and Jiang Xiao slammed the person against the door, slammed his head on Shen Qing's forehead, and looked down at him.

A resolute and handsome man, with a few strands of damp hair falling limply on his eyelids, and slender and thick eyelashes, looking at him with scorching hot eyes.

"Brother," Shen Qing smiled and said, "Your true nature..."

"Little bastard!" Jiang Xiao gagged his mouth, bumped into him fiercely, and cursed in a low voice: "I really want to fuck. Just forget about it!"

"If you want," Shen Qing stretched her arms around his brother's neck, and replied with a vague smile, "Come here..."

……

Shen lightly lay on his brother's shoulders, asking someone to wipe it clean.

"Don't wipe it," Jiang Xiao slapped him, sat back on the bed with the person in his arms, pulled the paper on the bedside and lowered his head to help the person: "I think it's easier to just cut it off."

"If you cut it off, you won't have a husband," Shen Qinglan narrowed her eyes and smiled tiredly, "I don't want my brother to be a widow."

"I'm just bored," Jiang Xiao prodded and almost swelled. Shen Erqing asked, "How did you live before?"

"Pee." Shen Er tapped his hand lightly.

"Can this pee out?"

"Drink more water and hold it back."

Jiang Xiao clicked his tongue, glanced at the open drawer again, and asked, "Hey, what happened to your certificates of merit? Why didn't I hear you mention it?"

"It smells so good," Shen lightly rubbed his face, feeling his brother's cheekbones, and said softly, "Brother, let's gain weight."

No matter what, he was at home and didn't really touch him. After packing up the papers and pulling up his pants, Jiang Xiao ignored him and got up to wash his hands in the basin.

Shen Qing came over and hugged him from behind.

With an iron arm around his waist, Jiang Xiao turned a blind eye to it, wiped his hands with paper, pushed the fireworks aside, and left with a basin.

"Brother," Shen Qing hugged him to keep him from moving, "you stay with me."

"Let go."

"Do not."

Jiang Xiao stood there expressionless, motionless.

Shen Qing kissed the back of his brother's neck, hugging him up and down.

"Shen Qing," Jiang Xiao said in a deep voice, "If I like you a little less, you've already flown out."

"It's not No.1, there's nothing to say." Shen Qing stopped her hands and put her arms around him: "You won't praise me anyway."

"How can I praise you if you don't tell me?" Jiang Xiao turned to look at him.

"Will you?" Shen Qing looked up at him.

Jiang Xiao choked.

He really doesn't.

At most, I would sigh with emotion that this kid was lucky, just like the last college entrance examination.

"You don't accept the gifts I give you, you don't reply to the letters I give you, I say I can protect you, I can carry you, I say I can be your reliance, I won't let you fall, "Shen Qing leaned close to his ear and whispered: "You have never listened to me carefully, you look down on me, so don't fucking emphasize your shit dignity to me, brother, I'm saying this now, you understand Yet?"

"Shen Qing," feeling cold in his heart, he couldn't tell what he was feeling, Jiang Xiao saw that his expression was a bit complicated: "No matter what, I am your brother, and I will be happy for you in my heart."

"I don't." Shen lightly dismissed.

He hates keeping everything in his heart, and he hates his brother not telling him anything.

Jiang Xiao lowered his head, took his hand, and shook it.

Shen gently withdrew his hand.

Jiang Xiao glanced at him, and Shen Qing watched him.

Suddenly, I don't know what to say.

He is a selfish person, he always feels that he is innocent, why does Shen Qing miss anything, the people in front of him have been chasing him and liking him for decades, and in those days when there is no response, they are addicted to obsession, Crazy into a demon, it was he who turned Shen Qing into what he is today step by step. He has failed him for too long, and he owes him too much.

He is Shen Qing, no matter how much Shen Qing tortures him, he should endure it.

Eye sockets were astringent, Jiang Xiao looked at Shen Qing, at the person he was going to protect with his whole life since the day he confessed his love.

He didn't want to cry, he just suddenly felt sad.

Father and son, mother and son, brothers, lovers.

It turned out that he had never achieved Consummation.

never.

Very calm, calm despair seemed to have become his habit, Jiang Xiao cleared his throat and smiled.

"I'm sorry," he said.

Shen Qing shook her head, came to hug him, and patted his back with her palm, "Brother, be good, don't make me sad anymore, you understand?"

"Shen Qing," Jiang Xiao hugged him back, resting his chin on his shoulder, closing his eyes and sighing softly as if accepting his fate: "If I fail anyone, I will never fail you again."

"you swear."

"I swear."

Embrace each other in silence, one second, two seconds...

Less than five seconds.

Shen Qing came over to kiss his brother.

"Let's order some flowers first." Jiang Xiao pushed him lightly, turned and left, "I'll go outside to find Dad for a lighter."

"The lights in the living room are all dark, and my parents are asleep. You are not allowed to go." Shen Qing took his hand, and led him to dig out his pants from the pile of clothes on the chair by the wall, and took them out of his pocket. a lighter.

Zippo, black ice inlaid with diamonds, black and gold angel wings flying on both sides of the mirror, two rows of English letters engraved on the left and right corners respectively, Shen Qing sneaked into the gift shop near the station on the pretext of going to the toilet before boarding the train Bought for his dad.

His brother helped him carry the box, and the box was too conspicuous no matter where he carried it, so he unpacked it and kept it in his trouser pocket, ready to deliver it with the cigarettes.

His brother doesn't like his father smoking. Just now he was watching TV while his brother was taking a shower. He intended to pass it to his father. Who knew that his father suddenly asked about him and his brother, and the hand that took out the cigarette bent. , went to pick up grapes.

So once you eat it, you can't stop.

He is indeed hungry.

"Where did it come from?" Jiang Xiao frowned.

"Sent by Hu Hao." Shen Qing went to get small fireworks from the table.

"Why did he give you this?" Hearing Hu Hao, Jiang Xiao frowned even tighter.

"New Year's gift." Shen Qing took something and brought a basin under the window next to the bed, opened the window by drawing the curtains, and turned to greet his brother: "Come here."

"Doesn't he have a boyfriend?" Jiang Xiao felt uncomfortable, and walked over to Shen Qing's side, "What's the matter with giving New Year's gifts to other people's boyfriends?"

"He's just so shameless, we don't care about him," Shen Qing lifted the lid of the lighter with one finger, lit a fairy stick, and handed it to his brother: "Little fairy, make a wish."

The spark was burning, and the white light flickered streamlined. Jiang Xiao was quite displeased with the phrase "Little Fairy". As soon as he held it in his hand, he replied "Fuck off" first, and the spark went out.

Shen glanced at him lightly.

"One more time." Jiang Xiao smiled awkwardly, lowered his head and poked the burnt stick into the water.

The second time Shen Qing lit three sticks for him, and the fire was so fierce that the fireworks crackled and burned like explosives. As soon as Jiang Xiao received it, he immediately said: "Family reunion, everything goes well, happy new year!"

Shen Qing also lit one for herself, stretched out her hand out of the window, held it up in the mid-air and shook it in the night, and said: "My brother and I will always be together."

"Yes." Jiang Xiao smiled, took the stick from Shen Qing's hand, and threw it into the water together with his own.

The fireworks were lit one after another, Jiang Xiao and Shen Qing held the small fireworks, and lay side by side in front of the window, looking at the dark and quiet night sky outside, chatting with the tall buildings around them:

"Brother," Shen Qing asked, "will you go abroad in the future?"

"I don't know, maybe, it depends on what kind of occupation you do." Jiang Xiao turned his head to look at him: "Why do you ask this?"

"I don't know how to talk to foreigners yet." Shen Qing said.

"Tsk," Jiang Xiao shook the fireworks in his hand, and said with a smile, "Didn't you say that just communicating with the Chinese is enough?"

"If a foreigner seduces you," Shen Qing said, "I won't scold him."

"It's okay." Jiang Xiao couldn't quite understand Shen Qing's brain circuit, and comforted him: "It's fine if I know how to scold."

"Can you travel through time?" Shen Qing looked up at the night sky covered by dark clouds, and asked again: "The kind that disappears out of thin air."

"What to wear?" Jiang Xiao asked with question marks all over his head, and looked up at the pitch-black sky together.

"If you time travel," Shen Qing explained to others, "remember to find someone to do it for me, and I will go find you."

Jiang Xiao: "...Okay."

The cell phone thrown on the bed vibrated, it was the New Year's Eve time that Shen Qing had set.

"It's morning," he said.

"Happy New Year." Jiang Xiao turned his head to look at him and smiled, "You are 19 years old."

"You are twenty."

"You will be twenty next year."

"You will be 21 next year."

"You will be 21 next year."

"You will be 22 next year."

"When you grow up, you will..."

"elder brother."

"Ok?"

"Next year, the year after the next year, the year after that, the year after that, many years after that." After the fireworks burned out, Shen Qing took his hand and turned his head to look at him: "I will light fireworks with you."

He froze for a moment.

A familiar wish.

Jiang Xiao suddenly clenched Shen Qing's hand.

"Brother," the air was quiet for a while, Shen lightly tugged on his brother's arm: "You haven't said yes yet."

"Okay," Jiang Xiao regained his composure, turned to look at him and smiled, "Whatever is fine, as long as you are by my side, I will order with you in the next life."

"Reincarnation is a lie," Shen Qing dragged him to turn off the light and go to bed: "I only believe in this life."

"Then I hope I won't miss you again in this life." In the night, Jiang Xiao smiled and got into the same bed with someone, hugged him, bowed his head and kissed his forehead, "Lovers will eventually get married."

"Brother," Shen Qing hugged him, and said face-to-face: "The 'final success' in the novel usually has to go through a lot of disasters to be together."

"Then we don't 'succeed in the end'," Jiang Xiao said: "We 'succeed all the time'." "'Success all the time' is not very good," Shen Qing suggested: "Change it to 'do it all the time'."

Jiang Xiao: "..."

"Brother," Shen Qing looked up at him, "Do you think it's okay?"

"I can't tell!" Jiang Xiao pushed him down angrily: "Sleep!"

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感谢在2021-08-1921:02:23~2021-08-2016:22:19期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the landmine: 2 little deer obediently;

Thanks to the little angels of the irrigation nutrient solution: 4 bottles of flowers and branches alone;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!love everyone~