recession

Passing horses between the windows, day to month.When the first snow fell this year, Tao Liyang realized that it was already winter.

A few days ago, there was a project at hand and the time was too tight, and he was upside down day and night, but when the alarm rang, he heard it immediately.He was so sleepy that he fumbled to pull the nightgown without opening his eyes.Xu Yunqing went to another place to record a program and came back today.Tao Liyang agreed in advance to pick him up at the airport.

Tao Liyang put on his nightgown, planning to go to the cloakroom to change and go out.As a result, as soon as he got out of bed, he heard what seemed to be small noises in the living room.He thought it was impossible, he opened the door, and sure enough, he saw Xu Yunqing sitting in the living room.

"Are you up?" Xu Yunqing turned to look at him, "I cooked porridge, can I serve you a bowl?"

Tao Liyang glanced at his watch again, it was two o'clock in the afternoon: "Why are you back? Isn't the plane arriving at four o'clock?"

"The filming ended in the early morning. I think there are still air tickets and enough time to go to the airport, so I came back early. I'm not here recently. You stay up late every day, don't you?"

"Occasionally, I was caught by you." Tao Liyang was a little thirsty, and walked over to pick up the cup in front of Xu Yunqing to drink.There was too much honey, he drank it in one gulp and frowned: "It's too sweet."

"It was not for you to drink." Xu Yun gave him a clear look, got up and took a glass of warm water and handed it over, "Don't stay up all night, I have to watch it every day? You think you are 20 years old?"

"I just want you to watch it every day... well, let's not take it as an example." Tao Liyang smiled, and held his hand while taking the water, "You are really, what are you doing in such a hurry every time? Take an extra day off So what? Fly back immediately after filming, don’t feel tired.”

Xu Yunqing slapped him on the wrist: "You've been really boring recently, you don't have to be so deliberate if you want to say something nice to me."

"Now that you see it, why don't you say it? If you want to hear it, I don't need you to coax it."

"I do not want to hear."

Tao Liyang looked at him with a smile, and Xu Yunqing looked at him for a few seconds, and couldn't hold back and smiled: "Okay, I miss you."

"So perfunctory?"

"Don't go too far." Xu Yunqing deliberately put on a straight face, but grabbed Tao Liyang's collar and kissed him for the first time since Xiaobie's reunion, "I really miss you, so it's not perfunctory. "

Tao Liyang shook his head, smiled and kissed him again: "I have to feel it again."

"Is it still snowing outside?" Tao Liyang sat at the dining table drinking porridge slowly, and fell asleep after finishing the manuscript.After eating hot food, I feel hungry.

"Stop it soon. I was very small when I came back." Xu Yunqing sat opposite and read a book.

"Just wake me up when you come back early next time. I don't know how many hours you've been at home. It's a shame."

"Look at you sleeping well. Besides, it's fine to tell you what to do."

"You can do anything." Tao Liyang said seriously.

Xu Yunqing glared at him, then casually took the wooden pillow on the table and threw it at him.

Tao Liyang turned his head away and laughed again.Just as I was about to talk, I heard my phone ring.

"Who is it?" Tao Liyang put the phone on the partition, Xu Yunqing took it over, glanced at it and handed it to him: "Auntie."

Xu Anru thinks that the local mutton is too strong, so every winter, she must buy a few lambs from Xinjiang.She booked early this year and has arrived.Let Tao Liyang go back to eat.

"Okay, then I'll be back at night." Tao Liyang hesitated and agreed.Some time ago, because of Xu Yunqing's affairs, I was always busy.He just returned to N City, and caught up with his parents going on a trip again, and he did not go back for a few days.

When Xu Anru heard that he agreed, she asked him again: "Are you coming back alone?"

Tao Liyang subconsciously looked at Xu Yunqing when he heard the words, and he still played Tai Chi with his mother in an orderly manner: "How many people do you want to come back? Why, there are too many dishes prepared, do you need someone to share?"

"You child." Xu Anru said dissatisfied.

"Oh, that's fine. Anyway, when I come back at night, our family always prepares a lot of dishes, enough for several people. By the way, I want to eat osmanthus candied lotus root. You can ask Aunt Zhang to make one. Let's do this first, Mom. I I still have something to do, see you tonight." Then he hung up the phone.

"What's the matter with you?" Xu Yunqing asked him after two seconds of silence.

"What can I do?" Tao Liyang smiled, and lightly kicked Xu Yunqing's leg under the table, "Of course I'm waiting for you to speak, will you come home with me?"

Xu Yunqing pouted: "Didn't you order all the dishes for me?"

"If you don't go, I'll eat it." Tao Liyang blinked, paused for a moment and said, "But I told you, don't be angry, my parents...maybe know, I don't know where I heard about it."

"I probably know." Xu Yunqing lowered his eyes to look at his fingers, "I met my uncle last week, it was the day of the movie magazine dinner, and you went to the script meeting."

Tao Liyang never heard him mention it: "What did he say?"

"At the beginning, I chatted casually, but then there was no one around, and my uncle suddenly told me that you are always messy, so I don't care about you."

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"What are you talking about, you're being stupid." Xu Yunqing scratched his hair, "Didn't I go to record the show the next day, I forgot."

"Really forgot?"

"I just forgot."

"If you forget it, forget it. I already know it. But the conscience of heaven and earth, I have never messed with you." Tao Liyang got up, sat down beside Xu Yunqing, and put one hand on the back of his chair, "How do you answer that?" My Father."

"How can I answer. I'll just say yes, I understand." Xu Yunqing frowned and pushed him, "Sit back."

"You are all well, and let me sit back. How can there be such a reason." Tao Liyang suppressed a smile, and asked him again, "So are you coming back with me?"

Xu Yunqing pursed his lips and did not answer immediately. Tao Liyang looked at his expression and said in a relaxed tone: "It's okay if you don't want to go, we'll talk about it later..."

"I'll go." Xu Yunqing cut him off, his voice raised twice.

Tao Liyang laughed: "Just go. You don't want a heroic expression."

Xu Yunqing glared at him, turned his face away, Tao Liyang pinched his jaw, and told him to turn back to face himself: "Okay, come back with me. I like you, and my parents like you too. You can go back with me at ease, nothing at all Not bad."

"Really?"

"Really." Tao Liyang nodded, "What do you think is wrong, let me make it up for you.""

Xu Yunqing couldn't help laughing, and kissed his face lightly: "Eat."

Seeing this, Tao Liyang brought the bowl over again and continued to drink the porridge.He conveniently fed Xu Yunqing another spoonful.

"You eat yours, I've already had lunch." Xu Yunqing said this, but still tilted his head and swallowed.Suddenly remembered something, and stood up, "Eat slowly, keep the rest warm in the casserole, serve it yourself, I'll go out for a while."

"Where are you going?" Tao Liyang was taken aback for a moment, and he couldn't help it at all.Xu Yunqing hurriedly took his coat and went out.

He came back two hours later, changed into another set of clothes and went out with Tao Liyang.

"Don't worry, it's still early. We'll go to another movie before we go back." Tao Liyang patted his hand, Xu Yunqing pursed his lips and didn't answer.Tao Liyang knew that he was a little nervous, so he didn't say much.After getting into the car, he swept across the back seat unintentionally, and was stunned.

"Are you going to prepare gifts this afternoon?" Tao Liyang asked him, "Don't tell me, the trunk is still there."

Xu Yunqing's expression clearly affirmed his answer: "I prepared a little casually."

"Teacher Xu, that's not how the quantifier is used." Tao Liyang laughed, "I'm afraid that the more I talk about it, the more nervous you will become, but in the end, you've become too panicked. It's okay, really. Now the ugly daughter-in-law is not afraid of seeing her parents-in-law anymore, let alone Besides, you're so pretty."

"Stop talking nonsense, I'm obviously seeing Mount Tai's mother-in-law." Xu Yunqing pursed her lips.

"Okay, you can be as happy as you want." Tao Liyang never bothered with him, "Then you are going to propose a marriage? Bring so many things..."

He casually took a box from the back seat and looked at it, shaking his head and sighing: "Yunqing, I really admire you. Two hours, where did you get these things. It's been too long since I've been to the mall, I don't know now Jewelry is easier to buy than cabbage?"

"Some were prepared a few months ago." Xu Yunqing whispered.

"Oh?" Tao Liyang raised his eyebrows when he heard the words, and smiled, "That's my fault for being late. I should have taken you back earlier." He took Xu Yunqing's hand, "It's really unnecessary, you have seen my parents a lot time."

"It's different." Xu Yunqing said stubbornly.

"It's not the same. But you have prepared too much. It's not like going to be hired, it's like going to demonstrate with my parents. Why are you afraid that they won't give you your son?" Tao Liyang stroked his forehead lightly Fa, "What does that matter. I like you so much, I don't need you to demonstrate, you hook your hands, no, you just look at me, and I will follow you away. And"

"And what?" Xu Yunqing looked at him.

"And my parents like you. If you take one car with you, they only want to bring two cars back and give me back to you. How could they not want to?"

"I won't talk nonsense to you." Xu Yunqing pulled out his hand in dissatisfaction.Once again caught by Tao Liyang, he said seriously: "Yun Qing, thank you."

"Thank you." Xu Yunqing was a little uncomfortable, and deliberately said, "You have been bought by this small favor. You have a big family and a big career, so you have never seen the world?"

Tao Liyang smiled: "Yes, thank you Teacher Xu for opening my eyes."

"You're welcome." Xu Yunqing looked serious, "It's all what I should do... I have done too little for you."

"Stupid words, don't share this with me. And you have done a lot." Tao Liyang kissed him: "Don't panic?"

"A little bit... You and I change seats." Xu Yunqing smiled uncomfortably, "My hands are a little numb, you drive."

It snowed yesterday, and there were not many vehicles and pedestrians on the road.There was no red light along the way, the car drove halfway, Xu Yunqing looked at the road sign, and suddenly asked him: "Is the Kangxing Hospital ahead?"

"En." Tao Liyang nodded.Maybe he was stingy, he didn't want Xu Yunqing to visit Lu Yin, but he would definitely not stop him.Drive to the hospital entrance and stop the car on the side of the road: "Do you want to go? It's still early, there's time. Do you want me to accompany you?"

"I'm passing by, go for a while. Don't go, I'm afraid she will embarrass you. I'll just go by myself." Xu Yunqing shook his head, and he put on a mask, "I'll be back soon."

Calculating carefully, Xu Yunqing hasn't seen Lu Yin for almost half a year.He took the elevator to the seventeenth floor and gently opened the door.The nurse probably went to prepare dinner. In the ward, Lu Yin was sitting alone on the bed watching TV.His complexion was actually good, when he heard the noise, he turned his head and saw that it was Xu Yunqing, his face sank again: "You still remember to come."

At this time in the past, Xu Yunqing might have left directly.But today he hesitated for a moment, then walked in and sat down beside the hospital bed.Picked up an orange and peeled it, and tried to talk to her: "Is this show good? I have worked with these actors, if you want to..."

"How are you and Li Shuang?" Lu Yin said.

Xu Yunqing pursed her lips: "I thought you already understood that it was impossible."

"Is there anything impossible!" Lu Yin said angrily, "You just have to be with a man."

Xu Yunqing put down the fruit knife in his hand, and said calmly: "Yes. I just want to be with Tao Liyang. I'm already with him. I can't live without him."

Lu Yin let out two heavy breaths, grabbed the teacup next to him and was about to splash it on his face, but Xu Yunqing grabbed his wrist: "I'm not a child anymore."

He snatched the cup of tea without too much effort, raised his hand and put it away.Pick up that orange and continue peeling.Thinking about it, he said calmly: "I was a little afraid of you since I was a child. Because you were busy with work and didn't spend much time with me. I mispronounced characters, I can't read pinyin, and you still hit my palm. Dad never If I quarrel with you, only then will I fight with you."

"Don't mention him to me." Lu Yin said sharply.

Xu Yunqing ignored her and continued: "Actually, I know you are very good to me. Dad is gone. I am even more afraid of you. But we mother and son depend on each other, there is no way. Find a doctor, any folk remedies, and try all kinds of troubles. In order to let me go to the best school, you used up all your family savings to buy a house. I want to learn acting, so you hire me the most expensive teacher. Every day Work overtime to make money, and get up in the morning to make breakfast for me..."

"What's the use of talking about it now?" Lu Yin patted the bed heavily, "I've been so kind to you, what about you? You insist on messing around with men. Just be as good as your father."

The orange peel in Xu Yunqing's hand broke, he stopped for a while, and continued to peel: "I am not only my father's son, I am also yours."

"If you like men, you are not my son! If I knew you were a monster who likes men, I would have strangled you as soon as you were born. It's better than you coming to piss me off now!"

"Is it because of your father that you hate homosexuality so much?" Seeing her so angry, Xu Yunqing finally asked the question that had lingered for a long time, "Do you hate him because you love him? Lost face?"

Lu Yin stared at him for a few seconds, raised her hand and pushed, knocking everything on the bedside table to the ground: "Get lost!"

It took a long time for the crackling to stop.Xu Yunqing stood up, originally he wanted to ask her if she had received Su Liang's letter.But now he knows that there is no need for this.

"Okay. I'm leaving." Xu Yunqing smiled, he was very calm from the beginning to the end today, "You won't die. I won't either. You can live in the hospital if you want. If you don't want to, I will arrange it for you A house. You gave birth to me and raised me up. So I will take good care of you as long as you live."

After Xu Yunqing finished speaking, he walked towards the door.He suddenly thought of another question, so he turned his head to look at Lu Yin: "Mom." He called her like a child: "When we were still in our hometown. Every time you got off work, you would give it to me at the store in front of your company." Buy a little packet of sugar. I don't remember what that tastes like, do you?"

Lu Yin looked at him like a ghost, Xu Yunqing thought, she probably forgot too.So he turned and left.Lu Yin's angry voice came from behind him: "People like you will go to hell after death!"

Xu Yunqing didn't look back, he shrugged and smiled: "Okay."

Push open the door of the ward and go out. At the end of the corridor, Tao Liyang looked at him worriedly.

Xu Yunqing smiled and walked over: "Didn't you tell me to wait for me downstairs? You can't bear to part with me for a quarter of an hour?"

"I can't bear you for a second." Tao Liyang saw that he looked relaxed, so he also smiled.

Xu Yunqing blinked and opened his hand towards him. In the palm was the freshly peeled orange: "I chose the biggest one, do you want to eat it together?"

They sat in the car and shared the orange, which was both sweet and sour, and the whole car was full of fragrance.

Tao Liyang asked him: "What are you talking about?"

Xu Yunqing watched the signal light in front turn from red to green, and patted Tao Liyang's arm to remind him to start: "I asked her if she could remember the taste of the candy she bought for me when I was a child. But she also forgot. I feel a little Pity……"

"And then?" Tao Liyang asked softly.

"Then." Xu Yunqing glanced at him, "You have to buy me more."

Tao Liyang smiled and nodded: "That's great, I've been waiting for you to give me this chance."

"Is it an honor?" Xu Yunqing frowned, "I think so too."

Tao Liyang was right, they had plenty of time.When the car drove into the community, there was still a glimmer of sunset in the sky.

"Still nervous?" Tao Liyang stopped the car, "We can talk for a while before going upstairs."

"Don't tease me. It's all right." Xu Yunqing glanced at him, then said softly, "But there is one thing, maybe we can talk about it."

After finishing the words, Xu Yunqing leaned over and hooked Tao Liyang's neck, and untied the chain that he had been hanging close to his body with one hand.He dropped the small ring into his palm, and took off the one he was wearing.

The two identical rings bumped into each other lightly, and fragments of light flashed across Xu Yunqing's eyes.

Lu Yin said that he would go to hell after death.She never believed in any sect.In this matter, I pray to the gods.

But what does it matter.Xu Yunqing didn't believe this either.The only person he believes in is Tao Liyang, and he has always been infatuated with him.

Xu Yunqing once felt that she was unlucky.There are thousands of things in the world, but I will meet Tao Liyang.Tao Liyang was also unlucky, the crowd was vast, but he was picked by himself.

He once fell into a deeper nightmare because of him, but only Tao Liyang, firm and gentle, could pull him out of it.He lives in his eyes, heart, and dreams, dispelling all the haze and cowardice, and giving him a beam of light.Tell him I will always be here.

So, as long as he is there, what is the boundary between hell and heaven for Xu Yunqing?

If this is evil, depravity, perdition, Xu Yunqing will be happy with it.

He is no longer afraid of any trial, Tao Liyang will forgive him.

Xu Yunqing raised his eyes, Tao Liyang was watching him, and his figure was clearly reflected in those gentle eyes.

"Do you know when I first saw you?" Xu Yunqing looked at the ring, then at Tao Liyang, and asked him softly.

"Freshman autumn." Tao Liyang replied without thinking, "In the small theater, I will come to see you rehearse."①

Xu Yunqing smiled and shook his head: "It was in the small theater, but it wasn't the time you thought it was. It was just the first time you saw me, and I was pretending to be very similar, wasn't it?"

Not surprisingly, after seeing Tao Liyang's astonished expression, Xu Yunqing's smile deepened.

It was an earlier autumn afternoon, equally sunny.Xu Yunqing went to the small theater and got the script from the senior sister that was about to be rehearsed, the story of a young man looking for a tree.

He originally wanted to go back to the dormitory, but after he got it, he was attracted by the story after only reading the first paragraph.Unable to move at all, he simply sat down on the bench opposite the small theater and finished watching it in one go.After a long pause, I remembered to find out who the screenwriter was.

Tao Liyang.

When he couldn't help but read it softly on the cover page, he heard someone call the name not far away.

"Come right away!" A refreshing male voice replied.

Xu Yunqing looked up subconsciously.

He saw a boy about his own age, tall and straight, with handsome features, the warm sun fell on him, and the ends of his hair were shimmering.

At that moment, Xu Yunqing remembered the lines he had just read.

"When I found you, I also became a tree. I went through all the running, just to be rooted in the same soil as you for the rest of my life..."

Great joy and fear enveloped Xu Yunqing at the same moment.Unable to explain why, he almost hastily covered his face with the script.

But his eyes couldn't help but look over the pages of the book, looking at this stranger, who was walking towards him, walking up the steps.

"You should have told me earlier." After a brief silence, Tao Liyang raised his hand to stroke his face.

"Is it too late?"

"No." Tao Liyang said with certainty, "Not at all."

The street lights were turned on one by one, and in the garden of the community not far away, there were children laughing and playing, and there were also elderly couples walking side by side arm in arm and sticking a cane.

There are too many bad things in this world, but they are gentle and lively after all.

Scars don't go away, regrets are always there.He used to shy away from it, but not anymore.

Because there is a person who is always willing to be by your side, if the abyss cannot be crossed, then he will accompany him to detour.Then generously gift him with love and fireworks, so that he will always be alive.

Xu Yunqing knew that he must be laughing, and he saw Tao Liyang laughing too.He picked up the ring in his palm, took Tao Liyang's hand, and gently put it on for him.

"There is one thing. You already knew about it. But I really don't seem to have told you personally." Xu Yunqing looked at him with a soft but solemn voice.As if he wanted to give his whole heart to Tao Liyang, and indeed he had already given it to him, "I love you."

Tao Liyang touched another ring in his palm and put it on Xu Yunqing's ring finger.The fulfillment of their lives falls here, and it starts here: "Me too."

Theend.

①: Tao Liyang met Xu Yunqing for the first time and the following lines can be found in Chapter 3

The author has something to say: This is the end of the text, thank you for your support.

This is an unplanned story. There were too many twists and turns in the writing, and the reading experience for readers who follow the update is not good. For this, I must apologize to everyone.

Frankly speaking, writing so far, apart from consuming my mind and energy, I have gained almost nothing.The process of writing the recession is extremely painful.Loneliness and pressure made me doubt and question myself why I wrote. I felt that I was wasting myself and making garbage, and I thought about abandoning the article and closing the pen countless times.

But even if there is only one reader, I think it is my responsibility to finish writing.I need to be responsible to the readers, and I also need to be responsible to Yun Qing and Li Yang.

Fortunately, I hit the last period. I think I love Liyang and Yunqing very much, just like every character I have written.I'm really sorry that I didn't write this story well, although I'm not good at writing.

I am deeply grateful to them, and thank you for your tolerance and company.

The mountains are long and the water is wide, and we will meet again by fate.

Thank you.