recession

The moment the door closed, Tao Liyang regretted it.

He wanted to chase him, but when he reached the door, he dared not open it.In the end, he just dropped his hands in annoyance.

He did regret it, but he didn't even know where to start.

Walk out from Xu Yunqing?Since he saw the pill bottle? ...Or from the moment he tilted his head and kissed Xu Yunqing's lips?

Everything is wrong tonight.

Covering his face with one hand, Tao Liyang squatted down along the door frame weakly.

He can sleep with anyone without knowing why, but it cannot and should not be Xu Yunqing.But what is even more sad is that Tao Liyang found that even if he understood this early in the morning, he would never be able to refuse him.

Xu Yunqing stood in the corridor for a long time, and finally managed to recall which room he lived in.Before swiping the room card to open the door, he hesitated, turned sideways, and looked at the room he just walked out of.I was expecting something vaguely, but nothing happened.

Someone has to give in, Xu Yunqing is suffering.

He lied, he obviously loved him so much.Every moment after a breakup is torture.Why bother to get angry again and embarrass each other, how can a good love be like this?

He pursed his lower lip, and hurried back to Tao Liyang's door. In the empty corridor, Xu Yunqing could hear his own rapid heartbeat.But when he was about to knock on the door again, he remembered what Tao Liyang said just now, 'You are taking drugs. '

He had never seen such a disappointed look on Tao Liyang's face.

Like the twelfth lunar month in the cold winter, a basin of cold water is poured head-on.Xu Yunqing shuddered, but it was true, wasn't it just taking drugs?He couldn't lift his hands anymore, the sense of shame he had never felt so strong wrapped him tightly.

There were so many obscure pasts between them, he was unwilling to expose his embarrassing self in front of Tao Liyang again.

Xu Yunqing made up his mind.He stroked the door very lightly, imagining that he was touching the face of the person behind the door.He still couldn't see the way, but he had to get off the drug for now.

Xu Yunqing took a deep breath, went back to his room to take a shower and changed his clothes.When we arrived at the ferry, it was almost daytime, and at the end where the lake water meets the mountains in the distance, we could see a very bright morning star.He took the first boat, went ashore, picked up his car from the parking lot, and drove straight to Kangxing Hospital.

The Sleep Center of the Department of Neurology is located on the [-]th floor of the Department of Internal Medicine Building.He came here twice after he was sent in a coma after filming the commercial last time.The doctor suggested that for his situation, it is best to add physical therapy and psychological counseling.He doesn't have that much time for physical therapy, and he doesn't want psychological counseling either.The filming of the movie was about to start again, and in the end, he had to be prescribed medicine.

The diazepam prescribed by the doctor was actually finished long ago.But it was not difficult for him to get new ones.Xu Yunqing thought about it in the elevator, how to tell the doctor about his overdose, and couldn't help but think, what if the doctor insisted that he go to the psychology department?

Once bitten by a snake.He felt disgusted and terrified.Xu Yunqing didn't know that he had psychological problems, but part of the problem was the psychiatrist.This is morbid, he himself understands, but he has no choice but dare not even take on the role of a psychiatrist①.

Xu Yunqing looked at his blurred shadow on the metal door of the elevator, and in an instant, he thought of Tao Liyang again.He wanted to solve this matter as soon as possible and go to see him, thinking of this, he was forced to have a little courage.

Kang Xing's psychology department was determined not to go, Xu Yunqing weighed it up, if he changed to another hospital, maybe he could give it a try...

In fact, it is still wandering.Xu Yunqing comforted herself that it was not that difficult to quit the drug.Before that step, why should he be afraid first.

While thinking, the elevator has arrived.

It was still early, and there were not many people in the hospital. The nurse on duty at the service desk was eating breakfast.Before Xu Yunqing came, he had already called the doctor on the way to confirm that he was free in the morning.Usually, assistants and Shen Xi were worried about these things. It was probably the first time he received his own appointment call. The doctor hesitated unnaturally for a moment before agreeing, but Xu Yunqing didn't pay attention at that time.

Turn left along the corridor and see the door of the consulting room open from a distance.

He curled his fingers and tapped the door frame, and walked in with a breath: "Doctor Zhang..."

The doctor was talking to a man also wearing a white coat. Hearing the sound, he raised his head: "Mr. Xu, you are here. Didn't Ms. Shen come with you?"

Xu Yunqing didn't answer him, but stared blankly at the other man.

The man was quite old, with gray hair on one side and deep wrinkles on his face. On his badge on his chest was written Vice President and Director of the Psychology Department: Su Liang.

From the day when he found out that Su Liang had arrived at Kangxing Hospital, Xu Yunqing dreamed of meeting him on a narrow road several times, and every time he woke up, he was sweating profusely. ②

He tried to transfer Lu Yin, but there was no suitable reason.My own insomnia also wants to change to another hospital for treatment, but Kangxing is indeed the private hospital with the best confidentiality.In Shenxi's place, he didn't know how to make up an excuse.

When it comes to the past, Xu Yunqing is completely at a loss, and will not lie anymore.Simply because Kang Xing is old enough, it is not easy to meet Su Liang.

Or, Xu Yunqing would occasionally think that these might be excuses.In fact, he also wanted to see Su Liang.I want to know what the instigator who retreated unscathed looks like now.

He really saw it today, but his mind was blank.Xu Yunqing let out a quick breath.Before Su Liang stood up and spoke, he reluctantly said to the doctor: "Doctor Zhang, I have something to do today, so I'm leaving first. You don't need to tell my manager."

Xu Yunqing stumbled and turned around and ran out.Soon he heard someone chasing after him, and he ran upstairs in a panic along the emergency passage, and didn't stop until there was no way to go on the top floor.

Su Liang struggled to keep up with him: "Xiao Ning!"

There was no way ahead, and Xu Yunqing had no way to avoid it.He looked at Su Liang who was two steps away.He is indeed old, but traces of the past can still be seen between his brows.

At that moment, Xu Yunqing seemed to have returned to that summer many years ago.

How old was he then, seven or eight?He was hugged by Lu Yin and stood outside the window.From the gap in the curtains, I saw Su Liang holding Xu Qiming's hand in the psychological consulting room, and they were arguing about something excitedly.As if no one could convince anyone, Su Liang suddenly stepped forward and hugged his father.With his head on his shoulder, he seemed to be crying.After a while, Xu Qiming raised his hand and touched the back of his neck with a sad expression.

Xu Yunqing didn't understand anything at that time, but he felt scared for no reason. Lu Yin was trembling and hugged him hard.He called Lu Yin in a low voice, Mom, I am in pain.

Lu Yin threw him on the ground and rushed in.He was in great pain from the fall, and the broken stone cut his hand, and the blood continued to flow.He stood up sobbing.There was already a lot of noise in the hospital, and Lu Yin was in the consulting room, like crazy, throwing everything he could touch on the ground.

Xu Yunqing burst into tears in fright, Xu Qiming turned his head in embarrassment, and saw the little him by the door.

Everything after that was like a black and white silent film at eight times speed.He can't remember many details, only the ending is particularly clear.

In the mental hospital, Xu Qiming was lying on the ground, as if asleep.It's just that the skin is bluish white.There are deep strangle marks on the neck.He stepped forward to push him gently, trying to wake him up, but he couldn't make a sound.Xu Qiming also never opened his eyes. There were unhealed wounds on his forehead and wrists, and blood kept oozing out, flowing and flowing, all the way to his body...③

Fear was about to submerge Xu Yunqing like a tide.For a moment, he wanted to jump down the stairwell.The ring hanging on the necklace fell out of his neckline as he turned around.Xu Yunqing saw the faint light on the ring from the corner of his eye, and gradually calmed down. He touched the watch on his wrist.Turning his head away, he looked at Su Liang coldly.

"Xiao Ning." Su Liang hesitated to speak.

"Don't call me!" Xu Yunqing raised his voice, "What qualifications do you have?"

Su Liang looked at him sadly, with nostalgia in his eyes.Xu Yunqing knew who he wanted to see through his face, which made him feel sick.

"Get out." Xu Yunqing said coldly, "I don't want to see you."

"Xiao Ning. I have no other intentions." Su Liang wanted to take a step forward, but stopped in embarrassment under Xu Yunqing's cold eyes, "I saw your medical records. Uncle just...just want to know, you How are you?"

"Okay." Xu Yunqing said, "Thanks to you, I lost my father when I was young, changed my name and surname, and left my hometown. Could it be better?"

Su Liang's skinny hands were trembling all the time: "I...I'm sorry..."

Xu Yunqing interrupted him, and smiled mockingly: "I'm sorry? Since I'm sorry, why don't you go and accompany him. He's been dead for so many years, why are you still alive?"

The author says:

①: See Chapter 7 for the characters; ②: Su Liang: Chapter 32, Chapter 45; ③: Chapter 29 hinted