recession

Although Li Shuang had promised not to reveal it to others, Xu Yunqing was not completely at ease.

Commitment is not enough against one handle, only another handle is.He thought of Li Shuang's strange request, and felt that there was something tricky behind his intuition, but he just needed a little patience to find out.

The truth was revealed faster than Xu Yunqing expected. After all, feelings are too difficult to cover up, let alone with deliberate attention.

Which one is more wrong, liking a married teacher or liking the same sex?He would occasionally think about this question, in some absent-minded moments.

At that time Xu Yunqing was still not sure why Li Shuang needed a fake boyfriend.To get rid of Xu Qun?The love in Li Shuang's eyes made him quickly deny it.That might be the answer that Li Shuang used to speculate on him, to deceive others.

It's a bit stupid, Xu Yunqing thought.He didn't know whether it was Xu Qun's request or Li Shuang's own idea, but it didn't matter.He's got the information he wants, enough is enough.

Spring passed quickly, and it was midsummer in a blink of an eye.That summer was surprisingly hot, and when the summer vacation was coming to an end, he and Tao Liyang ran to the lake in the suburbs to go swimming. Under the water, he touched Tao Liyang's waist and arms several times, and he didn't know whether it was his intention or the other party's carelessness.They separated quickly, and in the next moment, they touched each other's body again.

When the sun was about to set, they came out of the water.I bought watermelon from the farmland opposite, sat under the shade of a tree and ate it, with my bare backs pressed together, I didn’t feel the heat anymore.Also still hot.

In summer, the distance between evening and night is not always clear, the moon comes out as the sun sinks.They stepped on the wet soil mixed with fine sand to change clothes in the tent set up not far away.He heard Tao Liyang say behind him, there are many stars tonight.Xu Yunqing raised his head to look at the sky, but out of the corner of his eye, he caught a glimpse of Tao Liyang, who was just looking at himself with a smile.

Back on the bike.When they reached the intersection where they were supposed to part ways, Tao Liyang turned the corner together with him without saying a word.Xu Yunqing was actually not very willing, but he couldn't say it, and on the other hand, he was thinking about it.In the end, he didn't mention anything at all, just got out of the car, and the two of them walked forward pushing the bicycle side by side.

Not a long way to go soon.

"I'm going back."

Tao Liyang nodded, and suddenly grabbed him again: "Tomorrow, I will accompany my dad to a village in Yunnan to collect folk songs, and it will take about half a month before I come back."

"Then school has already started." Xu Yunqing calculated the time.

"The director and I asked for a few days off. We were supposed to go last month, but he was delayed by his own business and dragged me down." Tao Liyang said, with a bit of distress in his tone. Very, I heard that there is no electricity, and I don’t know if there is a signal, so I probably can’t call you.”

Xu Yunqing pursed her lips, feeling a little disappointed, and said jokingly, "Then write a letter."

"Okay." Tao Liyang also smiled, "I'll see if there is a post office nearby."

There was no more words for a while, and a short farewell between friends should be simpler.The moon dragged their shadows very long, the two looked at each other for a while, Xu Yunqing said, "I'm going up."

"Okay." Tao Liyang agreed, but no one left first.

"Call me when you come back." Xu Yunqing said.

"Okay." Tao Liyang still responded, looking at him with a deeper smile.Suddenly leaning over again, getting very close: "You wait for me."

Breathing around Xu Yunqing's ear with an indescribable itch, he rationally felt that he should avoid it, but for some reason, he turned his head in the direction of Tao Liyang instead.

His lips slid across the side of his neck at that moment, like a cloud or a feather.They all noticed it, but they didn't speak.Tao Liyang took two steps back and stared at him under the moonlight, his eyes were astonishingly bright.

Xu Yunqing suddenly didn't dare to look at him, and only stared at the shadow on the ground: "Be careful on the road."

"Understood." Tao Liyang stepped back and waved at him: "Good night."

"Good night, give me a message when you get home."

The slightly moist feeling on the neck seems to be there all the time, Xu Yunqing knows that this is just an illusion, a psychological effect.Even so, before taking the key to open the door, I couldn't help reaching out and touching the small piece of flesh again.

"Are you back?" Lu Yin was sitting in the dining room checking the invoices. She was working as an accountant in a company. When she heard the door open, she raised her head and said to Xu Yunqing, "Come here for some soup."

Xu Yunqing originally thought she was asleep, but she always went to bed early, so she pursed her lips: "I'm not hungry, I don't want to drink."

"It's getting cold, mom will heat it up for you." As if she didn't hear it, Lu Yin put away the things in her hand, got up and took the soup to the kitchen.Xu Yunqing had no choice but to put down his backpack and sit down.

The soup is pork ribs simmered with chicken bones and grass, and added orange peel and candied dates. After heating, it has an indescribable fishy smell.Lu Yin filled a big bowl full for him, and Xu Yunqing swallowed it slowly with a spoon expressionlessly.

"Did you go out with Li Yang today?" Lu Yin stared at him and drank half a bowl of soup, then went to the room and took out a half-embroidered cushion, and asked him while embroidering.

"There are other students."

"Oh." Lu Yin nodded noncommittally, "I just saw you guys talking downstairs for a long time, why didn't you ask him to sit up? He hasn't come to play at home recently."

She saw it.Xu Yunqing's back froze for a moment, wondering how much she had seen.

Tao Liyang did come to his house several times to bring him something, but Lu Yin bumped into him and forced him to stay for a light meal.Tao Liyang didn't know anything, and told him privately that his aunt was kind and enthusiastic.Xu Yunqing knew what she was up to, but he didn't know how to say it.

Just like now, he can only swallow the soup without changing his face: "Why should I ask him to come up?"

"Aren't you on good terms?" Lu Yin said slowly.

Xu Yunqing raised his head: "So what? I don't have the right to make friends normally?"

"Xiao Ning." Lu Yin looked at him softly, "Mom is just worried about you."

"What are you worried about?" Every time she called him that, Xu Yunqing felt a chill run down his back, "Why do you force those things on me."

"What did I add to you?" Lu Yin asked back, her tone still calm, "Can I? Can I?"

Xu Yunqing gritted her teeth and turned her head, trembling unconsciously. Lu Yin raised her hand and ran along his hair, touched his face, resting on his neck, sighed and said, "Yunqing, you have to be obedient. You Dad is gone, and you are the only mother. If you also go astray, how can I see him when I go down?"

This is a cliché, Xu Yunqing tightly squeezed the spoon in his hand, the edge of the spoon made his fingers hurt.Then I heard Lu Yin say: "I dreamed about your dad last night, and said I missed you very much. I'll book two tickets later, and we'll go back to visit his grave tomorrow."

Xu Yunqing knew that this was just an excuse.After they moved to N City, they didn't return to their hometown for seven or eight years. The first time Lu Yin mentioned that he wanted to go back was after he was in college. To be precise, it was the first time Lu Yin met Tao Liyang and came to him. two days.For the same reasons as today.

Xu Yunqing still remembered his surprise and fear at that time, he asked Lu Yin: "Do you dare?"

"Why don't you dare?" Lu Yin just asked him calmly, "For you, mom will dare to do anything."

Then they really went back, but they didn't do anything, just let him kneel in front of the tomb for a day.Later, I went back several times, it was a reminder and even a warning, Xu Yunqing knew it all.But this time, for some reason, his intuition would be different.

"I won't go." Xu Yunqing said.

"It's okay." Lu Yin smiled, "Then I'll book the ticket." Then, she took the bowl in his hand, went to the kitchen and refilled the soup in front of him, "Drink it, I'll wash it up when you're done Bowl. Mommy is going to pack the luggage first. Let's leave early tomorrow morning."

She touched his neck again, her hands were cold, and for a moment, Xu Yunqing had the illusion that she would strangle him to death.

It wasn't until Lu Yin returned to the bedroom that he had the strength to straighten his back, and poured the soup into his mouth spoon by spoon as if venting his anger.I felt sick, but I could only swallow it.

At this time, the phone rang. It was a message from Tao Liyang, saying that he had arrived.There is a smiley face on the back.

Xu Yunqing groped for that short line of words with his fingers, and then thought of the stars all over the sky tonight, Tao Liyang's white back in the lake, and his sweaty fingers under the shade of trees.

But in the end everything disappeared, and all that was left in front of him was a bowl of soup that he didn't want to drink and couldn't refuse.Xu Yunqing pressed his eyes carelessly and feebly.For a long time, I only went back to the past.

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