recession

Commercial filming didn't end until after eight o'clock in the evening.

During this period, Tao Liyang revised the script according to Du Futing's email and sent it to him, and then stayed in the lounge waiting for Xu Yunqing to come over.

"I won't see you off at the airport tomorrow, so don't oversleep like today. There's a magazine next week that you have to come back to shoot. The cover of the main issue will be released in March. After it's over, I don't have any arrangements until you wrap up. Other work, you can film with peace of mind. I have selected a few new scripts that I think are not bad. You can read them when you find time. The start-up is initially scheduled to be after March, and I will give you time to rest... ..."

When Xu Yunqing came over, he had already taken off his makeup, Shen Xi followed behind him, and was a little surprised to see Tao Liyang: "It's so late, I thought you were gone."

"I still have something to do while waiting for Yunqing." Tao Liyang said in confidence, "I just wrote a new script, and I'm a little unsure. I want him to help read it too. Can't you wait longer?"

His tone was joking, and Shen Xi naturally wouldn't take it seriously: "You still have doubts? Your notebooks are all delicious. Yun Qing read it for you, when do you have to write a notebook for him?" OK."

"It's easy to say." Tao Liyang said, "Then let's go."

Shen Xi only thought that they had an appointment for dinner.Although she knew that Tao Liyang liked men, Xu Yunqing was married, and she was only worried that he would not have anything to do with Li Shuang. They had been friends for so many years, and she didn't suspect anything else at all, so she handed over the car keys to him. Xu Yunqing: "That's fine. You go first. I have to talk to the brand side again. I originally said it was Jiang Xuansong, so let him get off work."

Xu Yunqing seemed to hesitate for a second, but still took the key: "Okay, sister Shen, thank you for your hard work."

They didn't speak when they entered the elevator, until they reached the front of the car, Tao Liyang said: "I'll drive." Xu Yunqing threw the key to him.

I don't know whether it was because I was drunk and tossed all night yesterday, and today I was too tired to go back and forth to shoot commercials, or I didn't think about how to speak.After Xu Yunqing got into the car, he squinted for a while.Naturally, he didn't really fall asleep. After about a quarter of an hour, he opened his eyes again and glanced out the car window: "Where is this going?"

"my home."

Xu Yunqing turned his head slightly surprised when he heard the words, hesitantly smiled and pretended to be relaxed: "Do you really want to read the script?"

"Yeah." Tao Liyang looked at him, "It's the old routine of a friend becoming a lover. I thought the writing was not good, and the delay was too long. But if it's you acting, it doesn't matter. Will you give me this?" face?"

Xu Yunqing pursed his lower lip, and he probably didn't organize what he wanted to say for a while, Tao Liyang looked at his expression, and the smile on his face faded: "I just think that we probably need a more private environment to speak clearly, right? ...although I didn't think it was necessary until you left this morning."

Xu Yunqing was silent, Tao Liyang pursed his lower lip and turned left: "My house is not far away anyway, let's talk about it when we go back, what do you want to eat, order the meal."

When they arrived at the garage, the takeaway had just been delivered. Tao Liyang asked him to leave it at the door, and brought it in when he entered the house.

Xu Yunqing always ate light and light meals at night, so he only ordered raw salted bone porridge with a few side dishes from a nearby restaurant.Their minds were not on the meal, and they finished the meal without taste. Tao Liyang put away the dining table and went to the kitchen to make two cups of Pu'er for digestion.

Xu Yunqing took the tea from Tao Liyang's hand and looked up at him.Tao Liyang leaned against the table and looked at him with his head turned: "Let's talk."

After Tao Liyang said this sentence, he stopped talking, and seemed to be drinking his tea calmly, apparently waiting for Xu Yunqing to speak.

"Actually, you don't need to come today. I was supposed to return to the set tomorrow." Xu Yunqing thought for a moment and said, "This advertisement is a job that has been scheduled long ago."

"So you want to say, aren't you hiding from me?" Tao Liyang smiled, seeing that Xu Yunqing neither shook his head nor nodded, and asked him, "Then why didn't you answer my phone...is it inconvenient? Didn't hear ? When I called you for the first time, you should have not even arrived at the airport. "

His tone is still very gentle, but this is not a peaceful topic.

Xu Yunqing's hand holding the cup wall tightened a bit, and finally said: "I'm a bit messed up this morning, so I didn't think about what to say to you."

"What about now?" Tao Liyang put away his usual indifference: "Of course we can have many things to say, but in fact, there are only two kinds. It's not difficult." He dragged the chair next to him and sat down. Opposite Xu Yunqing, he sighed: "Yunqing, let's stop making detours. Let me ask you, do you regret having sex with me? ... Or you simply want to say, you are drunk, you don't You know who it was last night, and you don't know what happened, so when you saw me lying on the same bed in the morning, you panicked and ran away?"

Xu Yunqing did have such an idea. From waking up in the morning until now, there were many moments in the middle where he planned to do it.But when he looked into Tao Liyang's eyes, he found that he had no way to lie to him like this: "I know it's you. Liyang, I remember everything last night... I took the initiative, I know... …”

"It's not important." Tao Liyang interrupted him, "You know how I feel for you, so whoever takes the initiative is the least important thing. If I have to say that, am I taking advantage of others? I don't want to listen to you This. Yun Qing, I just want you to tell me, what do you think about our next move?"

Xu Yunqing was silent for a while, and seemed to be having a hard time saying, "I didn't think clearly. I was indeed a little impulsive last night." There was a little pleading in his eyes: "Why don't we put this matter aside first."

"Let it go?" Tao Liyang only felt a thunderbolt hit the sky: "When will you let it go? If you let it go one day and find a woman to marry, just turn this page over naturally, right?"

Xu Yunqing pressed his forehead, helpless and exhausted, but blurted out: "I promise you, I will not get married."

"What do I want you to do with this promise?" Tao Liyang frowned and gritted his teeth: "What do I think, you know very well in your heart, I just want to tear my heart out for you to see. But what do you think of me? I'm Who the hell are you here? Do you really sleep with someone who is just a friend and doesn't feel anything for me?"

As Tao Liyang said, he stretched out his hand to break Xu Yunqing's jaw, and let him look into his eyes: "Yunqing, can I beg you to tell me the truth?"

"No..." Xu Yunqing's eyelashes trembled slightly, but he didn't dare to look at him. After a long silence, he said with some difficulty, "It's not that I don't feel it."

"Then can't we just stay together?" Tao Liyang knew that he still had something to say, even if he heard such an answer, he couldn't be completely happy.

"Li Yang, listen to me." Xu Yunqing breathed out, "I don't regret sleeping with you...but I may not be ready to be with a man yet."

"What are you going to prepare for? You can't accept men? I've thought about it before." Tao Liyang paused for a moment, then said, "But you obviously have a reaction."

"It's not this." Xu Yunqing interrupted him, but refused to continue explaining.

Tao Liyang raised one hand and pressed his forehead, and took another sip of tea to calm himself down a bit: "Yunqing, why don't you think I won't come? I thought my long-cherished wish had come true, and I kept it until the clouds opened and the moon was bright. You ran away after waking up... If you say you are not ready and ask me to give you time, it doesn't matter. As long as you can give me a time limit, five years or ten years are fine. But I am afraid Yes, you will always use this reason to come back to me. If so, then there is no need to prepare. Since you still remember what happened last night, then you should also remember what I said. It is beyond your control, and I will not let go. "

Xu Yunqing seldom saw him in such an aggressive manner, but he was not angry, but more distressed.Tao Liyang continued: "If you are worried about your identity as a public figure, I will definitely not let anyone find out and affect your career. Even if there is, you must find someone to suppress it. It will not be difficult... ..Tang Ran and Jiang Ning have been together for so many years, and nothing happened, and neither will we, okay? I promise."

Xu Yunqing lowered his head slightly, not without a trace of hesitation.The warm light shone on him, and the black hair and the smooth neck were distinct in color.Tao Liyang's heart was ups and downs, but his voice calmed down instead: "Yun Qing, I have never given up on you, but I have indeed forced myself to give up countless times, but you have given me hope again and again. You understand Yes, the relationship between the two of us is definitely not a one-time sleep that can end, we have reached this point, how can I let you go?"

He spoke with certainty and resoluteness, but his heart was not without uneasiness.If Xu Yunqing insisted on saying no, what could he do, he would probably obediently retreat to the position where Xu Yunqing wanted him to go.

He was never willing to force Xu Yunqing to do anything he didn't want to do, otherwise there would be no need to delay these 12 years.Tao Liyang didn't know if he didn't make it to the end last night under such circumstances, whether he intended to leave a way for Xu Yunqing to retreat.But he always hoped that Xu Yunqing would not regret it and be happier, even if he put himself in the most inconspicuous position.

The silence lasted for a long time, Xu Yunqing finally looked up at him, and smiled with difficulty: "Then how many times do you want to sleep?"

"Is it okay for a lifetime?" Tao Liyang squatted down in front of him, held his hand, as if he wanted to put a ring on him, "For a lifetime, there will be only you and no one else, okay?"

Xu Yunqing thought, how strange, oaths are obviously the most unreliable thing in the world, without paying any price, you can deceive the other party to be happy just by opening your mouth, as if you have sacrificed a lot.But that was someone else, he knew Tao Liyang was serious, he always knew it.

He watched Tao Liyang hold his hand, the knuckles were slender, but trembling slightly.

He was afraid, Xu Yunqing suddenly felt very uncomfortable, it turned out that Tao Liyang was afraid.He clearly loves him too, but it left him hanging on his heart for 12 years.

Xu Yunqing once again remembered the feeling of thinking that he would really lose Tao Liyang last night, and he was also afraid... Do you really want to keep both of them in this position?

Xu Yunqing knew that his fear had not passed away, the shadow was always there, covering him all the time, making him dare not take a step after so many years, letting the threat that he knew didn't exist to torture him.

But if he wanted Tao Liyang to suffer because of this, he was unwilling.

Besides, Tao Liyang told him his whole life, he and his whole life.The temptation of this sentence is too great, so great that Xu Yunqing thinks that maybe he can really give it a try.

Xu Yunqing's eyes glide across Tao Liyang's face, there is no difference from a boy to a young man, but the expression he looks at himself has never changed.

He felt his eyes sore, but at the same time he slowly held Tao Liyang's hand.

The hands finally settled down, and they shook hands with him vigorously.

Xu Yunqing smiled. He knew that this smile must be forced, and his voice was trembling a little, but he did hold on to finish the sentence: "Okay, let's try."

The author has something to say: the first volume is over.

This essay should consist of four volumes in total, the first two volumes are mainly from Tao Liyang's perspective, and the last two volumes are from Xu Yunqing's perspective.