I'm weak, I installed [Transmigration Book]

After six months of continuous follow-up visits, the doctor suggested that Song Hanzhang could try to stop taking the drug after various assessments and considerations.

Long-term medication is not only psychologically but also physically dependent on the drug. Even if the drug was not discontinued at intervals but gradually reduced the dose at the beginning, Song Hanzhang had a series of adverse reactions, but because he was still taking the drug, these adverse reactions The reaction was still within his control.

After gradually reducing the dose for a period of time, he took only a quarter of the original dose. After a series of tests showed that he recovered well, he began to try to stop the drug.

Unexpectedly, the withdrawal reaction was more serious than everyone expected. On the day of stopping the drug, besides palpitations, insomnia and other physiological reactions, he also fell into severe anxiety and panic. Time seemed to return to the time when Chun Leshui had just passed away. After waking up from the dream, he looked at Chun Leshui's sleeping face beside him, as if only the pale color of the wall remained.

At that moment, Song Hanzhang could hardly distinguish between reality and hallucination. His heart was so tight that he couldn't breathe, and it hit his chest quickly and violently.

"Chun Leshui?" Every word in his words was filled with strong fear, but his subordinates' movements were uncontrollably eager,? "Chun Leshui?!"

Chun Leshui was pushed awake by him in a daze, turned over impatiently, and was startled by the chicken panting beside his ear in the next second, so that he lost all sleepiness.

Song Hanzhang curled up on the bed, his chest heaved violently, and he gasped heavily with his mouth half-opened.

"Song Hanzhang?!" Chun Leshui hurriedly took his hand, feeling cold and stiff to the touch.

Song Hanzhang's mind was blank at this time, and after a long time, he gently hooked his fingertips to respond to Chun Leshui, but he didn't touch anything.

Just like every time he struggled out of hallucinations and saw reality clearly, Chun Leshui was not by his side.

Song Hanzhang's eyes turned black, and the suffocation caused by excessive breathing made him burst into tears, and his physiological tears soaked the pillow.

Chun Leshui jumped out of bed at the first time. After finding a packing bag in the living room, he stepped over to the bed in two steps. He half embraced Song Hanzhang in his arms and covered his mouth and nose with a paper bag: "Slow down, slow down!" A little bit of Song Hanzhang...calm your breath..."

He kept emphasizing the words exhale and inhale, and it took a long time for Song Hanzhang to slow down, slowing down his breathing in accordance with his rhythm.

Chun Leshui obviously felt the stiff body in his arms soften, and Song Hanzhang held on to his cold wrist, which gradually showed a tendency to warm up.

Song Hanzhang was covered in cold sweat, and even the clothes in Chunle's water belly were a little wet. He wiped the sweat off his head for him, and wiped the tears from his face with his sleeves: "Is it better?"

Song Hanzhang nodded slowly, his eyes fell on Chun Leshui's face, he hadn't fully recovered yet, Chun Leshui waited for a while before releasing the paper bag, Song Hanzhang immediately turned around and hugged him.

"It's all right." Chun Leshui helped him straighten his back, the pajamas felt cold and wet, "Take a shower and change clothes first, don't catch a cold."

Song Hanzhang buried his head in his neck and didn't move, obviously he hasn't come out of the emotion just now.

Don't talk about him, Chun Leshui's hands are still a little weak now that he has recovered.

He grabbed the quilt to surround the two of them, and rubbed Song Hanzhang's back to comfort him: "It's okay, I'm here."

As he spoke, he brushed away the hair on the side of Song Hanzhang's face and kissed him: "Don't be afraid, it's fine."

"Do you want to take medicine?" Chun Leshui asked Song Hanzhang.

For so long, Chun Leshui only encountered Song Hanzhang's illness once a long time ago, but that time was not as serious as it is now, at least there was no situation beyond his control.

Anyway, this is the first time he has stopped taking the drug, and the doctor also said that it is really uncomfortable during the process of stopping the drug, so he can take the drug again to improve the symptoms, and then try again.

Chun Leshui said, "Shall I boil some water for you?"

Song Hanzhang nodded.

Then he followed Chun Leshui out of bed like Siamese twins. Chun Leshui was boiling water in the kitchen, so he hugged Chun Leshui's waist from behind and followed him step by step, about to stick.

Unscrewing Chunle Water, just took out mineral water from the refrigerator and mixed it into hot water, and when he handed the water glass to Song Hanzhang, Song Hanzhang reluctantly let go of him, quietly swallowing the pill in his palm.

"So good." Chun Leshui licked off the remaining water stains on his lips, led him to the cloakroom, and found a set of pajamas, "Do you want to take a bath?"

Song Hanzhang asked back: "Do you wash?"

In fact, at this moment, the cold sweat on the two of them was basically dry. Chun Leshui thought for a while, and took out another set of pajamas of the same style and different colors as Song Hanzhang: "Then let's wash together."

The two simply took a shower and returned to the bed. Song Hanzhang was already clingy, but this time he became even clingier. He insisted on clinging to him, hugging him and looking at him, and his eyes were red from crying, pitifully Chun Leshui couldn't resist the appearance.

He covered Song Hanzhang's eyes: "Close your eyes and go to sleep."

Song Hanzhang still kept his eyes open, and when he blinked, his eyelashes would swipe across Chun Leshui's palm. He didn't speak, but moved closer to Chun Leshui.

Two-meter-wide double bed, two men with an average height of nearly 1.9 meters huddled together and slept as one person.

Chun Leshui could feel his uneasiness from his over-dependence. This mood that had already improved did not disappear because of taking the medicine again, but Song Hanzhang did not give up the matter of stopping the medicine because of this, and he would still take it continuously. Stop for a day after a few days.

So during that time, he became several times more vulnerable and sensitive than usual, wishing to be one with Chun Leshui, and when it got serious, as long as Chun Leshui was out of his sight, he couldn't even concentrate on his work.

After weighing the last few phases, Song Hanzhang spent a few days sorting out the work at hand and temporarily handed it over to several vice presidents of the group to give himself a long vacation.

This is the first time in the few years since he took over the Song family that he stopped working and rested. He opened his eyes on time in the morning and then washed and changed his clothes. When he was putting on a tie in the cloakroom, he suddenly woke up and found that the bedside was empty, so he got out of bed to find someone. water found.

Chun Leshui leaned against the door frame with her arms around her chest: "Song Hanzhang, you don't go to work today."

Song Hanzhang's expression was blank for a moment before he realized that it was true, and he took off his half-tied tie and changed back into home clothes.

It just so happened that today was also the weekend, and Chun Leshui didn't have to go to school. The two of them stayed in the house for a day like ordinary couples, nestling on the sofa, reading books, watching dramas and watching movies. This was the first experience for Song Hanzhang.

The pace of work is very fast. Every decision is related to the interests of the group. Even socializing is a form of work. I wish I could divide it into 48 hours a day.

But now he can see Chun Leshui no matter whether he looks up or turns his head. It seems that he has endless time.

Although he was a bit uncomfortable and couldn't help but want to flip through his phone and emails to check the latest work news, this was still Song Hanzhang's unprecedented relaxation moment.

Chun Leshui doesn't like to sit on the sofa seriously. Whether it's studying or entertaining, he likes to sit with his long legs curled up in the open space between the coffee table and the sofa. Song Hanzhang originally wanted to imitate him and sit cross-legged, but the narrow space The gap between them was a bit cramped for him, and he was not as soft as Chun Leshui. After sitting for a while, his back was sore and his legs were numb because he couldn't straighten, and then he gave up.

He was sitting on the sofa, and Chun Leshui could see him as soon as he raised his head.

And Song Hanzhang can always catch Chun Leshui's eyes looking back at the first time, the curtains in the living room are drawn, and there is only dim light projected from the TV screen in the room.

Chun Leshui said, "Are you looking at me or watching a movie?"

Song Hanzhang said bluntly: "Look at you."

Chun Leshui had no choice but to sit on the sofa after a while, pushed Song Hanzhang down and lay down in his arms: "That's fine, let's watch TV."

In the end, I don't know whether it was because the posture was too comfortable or the human cushion was too warm. Amid the deafening sound effects of the movie, Chun Leshui's eyelids became heavy, and he fell asleep not long after.

After realizing that he was asleep, Song Hanzhang turned down the volume of the TV, and closed his eyes after watching him for a long time.

When I woke up again, the movie had already finished playing, the TV had automatically entered the standby screen, and it was even dark outside.

The two strolled out of the house again, went to the building next door to pick up Alice and Border Shepherd, and took a walk in the community.

Alice is already two years old, and she walks quite steadily. As soon as she heard that she was going out with her brother, she immediately pulled out her own leash and put it on her waist, just like the border shepherd who was biting the leash and waiting to go out.

Song Hanzhang is leading the dog, Chun Leshui is leading the child. With Alice at the border shepherd, she will not run wild anymore. She walks to her left and then to her right, and Alice is an age who is curious about everything, squatting on the side of the road to look at the flowers. I can watch it for half a day.

When she was not moving, Bian Mu sat aside to protect her.

Chun Leshui was delighted to see it, and bumped into Song Hanzhang: "My mother often said that momo is the most careful watcher of children in our family."

Hearing his name, Bian Mu turned his head and barked.

Alice stumbled over and ran over, holding up the dirt-covered flowers she had picked up in the flower bed just now: "Brother, I give you flowers."

Chun Leshui said thank you, and then took Alice to squat down by the flower bed, inserted the unknown flower back, and reasoned with her that you should not pick flowers in the flower bed casually.

He never condoned Alice's behavior just because she was an ignorant child, especially when she grew up, he always communicated with her with an equal attitude.

Alice nodded half-understanding, and asked him what kind of flowers were these in the flower bed.

The back view of one big, one small, and a dog squatting there is particularly warm and harmonious. Under the light of street lamps, Chunle Shui seems to be wrapped in a layer of soft light, which is very beautiful.

Looking back, in Song Hanzhang's eyes, it was like a slow-motion close-up shot in a movie. Chun Leshui said, "Why are you standing there giggling, Song Hanzhang?"

Song Hanzhang walked over and squatted beside him.

He just thought it was great.

Chun Leshui's understanding of flowers is limited, so he asked Song Hanzhang to introduce Alice to popular science.

After returning home, Chun Leshui suddenly proposed to go back to the old house, so the two drove back overnight. Compared with the flower beds in the community, the flowers in the yard were rich and delicate.

Uncle Xu and Aunt Xu were both asleep, and they stood in the yard like thieves, holding hands, admiring the still bright colors under the night.

"Uncle Xu has planted a lot of new varieties." Chun Leshui said, "It's so beautiful."

"We can grow it on our balcony, do you want to grow it?"

Chun Leshui shook her head: "I will die, right?"

"I will." Song Hanzhang said, "If you like, I can take care of you."

"Then let's go to the flower market tomorrow."

Because the house is locked and the door cannot be entered, the two left the old house on tiptoe after finalizing their schedule for tomorrow. Afterwards, they spent a few days visiting the flower market and building a flower stand on the balcony. The balcony directly becomes a small garden.

Because the whole process was done by himself, he and Song Hanzhang even made the flower stand while watching the tutorial, and Chun Leshui just wanted to show off after it was done.

Chu Lin, Jiang Buwei, Lin Xi's various friends were invited by him to visit his home at different times, and every time he emphasized without hesitation that Song Hanzhang was the director of their garden.

Later, Director Song added two more gardeners, the first gardener Chun Leshui, and the second gardener Alice.

It's just that Gardener No. [-] spends most of his time fishing and paddling, and Alice, who is less than three years old, not only works diligently, but also often lingers, wanting to stay at Chun Leshui's house.

It's just that their family doesn't have many beds to accommodate this human cub.

After sending her home, Chun Leshui lay paralyzed on the sofa and didn't want to move. After a while, he changed his direction, put the back of his head on Song Hanzhang's lap, and looked at him from bottom to top: "Song Hanzhang, how do you feel when you stop taking the medicine today?" Are you ok?"

Song Hanzhang nodded.

The sense of security that Chunle water gave him can weaken a large part of his anxiety caused by withdrawal of drugs. After the severe reaction after stopping the drug in the early stage, Song Hanzhang's withdrawal reaction is also gradually weakening.

As long as Chun Leshui is by his side, as long as everything is left to time, it will be fine.

Song Hanzhang caressed his face, raised Chun Leshui's chin slightly and lowered his head to lean towards it.

The shadows of the two were elongated by the light outside the house, climbing up the wall, and the tall and short flowers on the balcony were also clustered and bloomed on the wall.

作者有话要说：感谢在2021-09-11?17:00:26~2021-09-12?02:34:50期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angels who irrigate the nutrient solution: Qianzhihe Hard Candy? 20 bottles; Xieyang? 10 bottles;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!