I'm weak, I installed [Transmigration Book]

Chun Leshui should have realized this a long time ago. Song Hanzhang is now paranoid and sensitive. He always falls into negative emotions such as self-blame, and even has world-weary behaviors that hurt himself. Obviously, he has serious psychological problems.

It's just that he didn't think about it before, but seeing Song Hanzhang's evasive posture under his questioning, he found that the matter might be more serious than he imagined.

Until he got a little angry, Song Hanzhang had no choice but to tell the whole situation, and he still emphasized: "It's really all right."

Chun Leshui didn't say a word, but read the instructions in the medicine box on the table.

The dosage and the time when the medicine was taken last time were posted on the medicine bottle. He looked at each of them one by one. It was the dose for a week. It was the fifth day, and the one he took just now was the last one.

"Song Hanzhang?" Chun Leshui's face was not very good-looking, "You don't want to die?"

Different drugs have different side effects. Overdose may only aggravate the side effects slightly, and serious ones may even cause drug poisoning. Three-year-old children know that drugs should not be taken indiscriminately, can Song Hanzhang not understand this truth?

Of course he knew.

This is not the first time he has overdosed. He used to rely on drugs to force himself to stay awake. Now he is afraid that he has fallen into a fantasy. He can only use large doses of drugs to prove that he can have pure again. Le Shui is real.

Facing Chun Leshui with a cold face, Song Hanzhang was a little flustered, he looked down at the water glass in his hand, there was still a little water at the bottom of the glass that he had just taken the medicine, quietly projecting the halo of the table lamp beside the sofa.

Song Hanzhang put it in the water glass, raised his hand and pressed his temple: "Sorry."

Chun Leshui: "Who are you apologizing to? Me?"

Song Hanzhang was silent.

Chun Leshui looked at him, Song Hanzhang was sitting with his head down, one hand resting casually on his lap, one elbow resting on his knee, his thumb and middle index finger were pressing on both temples respectively, the palms almost completely blocked his half-hanging Looking at his face from Chun Leshui's perspective, he could only see his sharp jaw line and half-closed lips.

Chun Leshui was naturally angry seeing him not cherishing himself so much, but seeing his slumped appearance, the slight anger in his heart was instantly diluted.

Just because a large part of the reason for him becoming like this is himself.

It's just that he doesn't quite understand why he still overdoses when he is willing to give him a chance.

Isn't it supposed to get better gradually, then reduce the drug and finally quit the drug completely?

"Song Hanzhang." Chun Leshui lowered his tone, he held Song Hanzhang's hand, so that he had to lift his face from the palm, and there was a little light in the dark eyes looking at Chun Leshui.

Chun Leshui asked him, "When is the next time you will communicate with a psychiatrist?"

Song Hanzhang looked at him for a moment, and said after a while, "I haven't made an appointment yet."

Not only did he not have an appointment, but Song Hanzhang hadn’t seen his psychiatrist for a long time. It was because he was busy with work, and Chun Leshui took up all his free time later. But in fact, the doctor can provide Song Hanzhang with help. Not too big.

So he is very unwilling to waste time communicating with the doctor, he would rather spend more time on Chun Leshui.

But Chun Leshui obviously didn't think so, at least he had to be clear about his illness, whether the overdose was due to the exacerbation of his illness or something, so that he knew what he should do to help Song Hanzhang.

He said to Song Hanzhang: "You ask the assistant to make an appointment for you, and I will accompany you."

Song Hanzhang lowered his eyes slightly, hesitating a little.

He didn't want Chun Leshui to see that he was too embarrassed.

"Be obedient," Chun Leshui squeezed his hand lightly, "don't worry me, okay?"

Song Hanzhang paused for a moment, then nodded.

He was like an extremely obedient puppy, so Chunle subconsciously raised his hand and patted him on the head: "So good."

After doing this action, both of them were stunned. In the end, Chun Leshui laughed first. His five fingers slid down on the back of Song Hanzhang's head, and his fingertips gently stroked the mastoid behind the ears: "Come closer, I'll give you a reward."

Hearing this, Song Hanzhang looked at him for a few seconds, his eyes slipped from Chun Leshui's eyes to his lips, he kissed him, grabbed Chun Leshui's hand, and pressed him on the sofa.

Song Hanzhang seemed to be tasting something, he felt the existence of Chunle Water seriously, trying to engrave the tenderness and sweetness of this moment into his bones.

Let him ask for Chun Leshui, the hand that landed on the back of Song Hanzhang's neck slid to the side of his face, and pressed against it gently, the temperature of the palm warmed the small piece of skin from his chin to the neck, as if two people were sticking together to grind lips, and clinging to the body enveloped in warm light.

The night outside the window was dense, and there were occasional car noises floating into the air. They received a warm, gentle and long kiss like the summer evening wind in the empty office above the sky.

Chun Leshui's thumb brushed against Song Hanzhang's lips, wiping off the luster on his lips: "I've kissed you so many times, do you still think I'm fake?"

Both of them were panting slightly, Song Hanzhang and Chun Leshui were facing each other, he was hanging above Chun Leshui, with the lamp on his back, only the outside half of his face shone with some light, but his pupils clearly Reflecting Chun Leshui's face.

Song Hanzhang buried his head in his neck, Chun Leshui raised his arms to hug him.

"Don't leave me again." Song Hanzhang said.

Chun Leshui didn't say yes or no, Song Hanzhang didn't ask any more questions, and hugged Chun Leshui's waist tightly. Although Chun Leshui was pressed so hard by him, he didn't push him away from the beginning to the end.

Afterwards, he accompanied Song Hanzhang to the hospital. Song Hanzhang stayed in the consulting room for more than an hour. The doctor adjusted the medication according to his current situation. Under the supervision of Chun Leshui, he never had an overdose again, and Regular follow-up visits.

With Chun Leshui's active and frequent care and company, Song Hanzhang's uneasiness eased a lot.

But on the other hand, he is more dependent on and inseparable from Chun Leshui.

Chun Leshui also enjoys this kind of mastery of the other party's entire emotional state, anyway, he thinks it's quite cool.

There were people coming and going at the airport, Chun Leshui was sitting in the waiting hall, brushed Chu Yuxiu's loving circle of friends, a picture of Chu Lin wearing an apron in the kitchen from the back.

Chun Leshui's comment: Senior brother is so pretty.

This circle of friends was posted yesterday, but Chu Yu was probably fishing with his mobile phone at the moment, and Chun Leshui immediately received his reply: Mine! ! !

Three exclamation marks, it can be seen how embarrassing it is, Chun Leshui is so happy, he took a screenshot to Chu Lin: Xiaoyu is too cute.

Then according to the script, three exclamation points were played.

Although Chun Leshui is a few years younger than Chu Yu now, he still regards Chu Yu as his younger brother. If Chu Yu is in front of him now, he will definitely rub his hairy head with his arms.

As soon as the news was sent to the airport, the announcement began to remind her to board the plane. Chun Leshui locked her phone and stuffed it in her pocket. As soon as she placed her luggage and sat down in her seat, Song Hanzhang's video call came over.

Chun Leshui put on the headset and connected it. Song Hanzhang seemed to have just returned to the hotel in the video, and the hand that loosened the bow tie was still wearing a suit jacket at the crook of the arm.

"What's wrong?" Chun Leshui asked him.

Song Hanzhang pursed his lips and said nothing, Chun Leshui was a little puzzled, and after a while he heard him ask: "What are you doing?"

The voice sounded less emotional.

He has been on a business trip abroad recently, and he has been away for more than a week. Whenever he has free time every day, he will have a video call with Chun Leshui.Song Hanzhang has nothing to talk about except work, but Chun Leshui also has a very rich life after studying. What happened to the baby walking the dog? What did Chu Lin do?

Song Hanzhang listened silently every time, and dealt with the work at hand with Chun Leshui's voice.

Although he is sometimes jealous of those who are around him at this time, Song Hanzhang will restrain himself from wanting to take him for himself, because Chun Leshui, who shares trivial things with him, is full of fireworks and can make people feel to his joy and happiness.

Song Hanzhang likes it very much.

But it doesn't mean that he likes to hear Chun Leshui praise others to him, just a reply makes him cute, how cute is it?

But he also heard Chun Leshui mention the relationship between Chu Lin and Chu Yu. Song Hanzhang and Chu Yu basically had no contact. Looking at Chun Leshui's familiar tone, he could guess that he might have made a mistake.

Then Song Hanzhang became even more sour when he thought that Chun Leshui would be praised others behind his back.

He sat down on the sofa, threw his coat aside, and heard Chun Leshui say, "Nothing."

The camera of Chun Leshui this time is closer than any previous video, so close that only Song Hanzhang's face is on the screen.

For more than a week, I can only make videos with Chun Leshui, and I can only watch but not touch him. Song Hanzhang really wants to see him, but Chun Leshui is praising others for their cuteness.

He muffled "Oh".

He was in a strange state, and Chun Leshui asked him what was wrong.

"I want to see you." Song Hanzhang said bluntly.

At the same time, Song Hanzhang heard a somewhat familiar "Le Shui" from Chun Leshui. In the video, Chun Leshui turned his head and looked up, revealing an unexpected smile.

The other party was still talking about coincidences, Chun Leshui turned to Song Hanzhang and said, "I met a friend, so I won't tell you about it."

Chun Leshui hung up the video, and smiled at Lin Xi who was across the aisle from him: "Are you going to country A too?"

"Yes, there is filming over there, how about you?" Lin Xi said.

"I'm going to find someone."

Chun Leshui was looking for Song Hanzhang, but Song Hanzhang didn't know it yet. He got his itinerary and the hotel he stayed in from Song Hanzhang's assistant, but he didn't expect Song Hanzhang to have a long meeting tomorrow.

But it's not bad to hide in the room first and give him a surprise when he comes back.

"How long are you going to stay in Country A?" Lin Xi asked him, "If you have time, let's get together. I went to the mountains to film a movie a while ago and haven't played with you for a long time."

Chun Leshui is also relatively free now. Since he went to find Song Hanzhang, he didn't intend to leave after a day or two, so he readily accepted Lin Xi's invitation.

When he got off the plane, he stood up to take his luggage. Lin Xi looked at him and sighed, "I haven't seen you for a few months. Have you grown taller again?"

Over the past few years, Lin Xi has grown two centimeters from her original height of 178, and will soon step into the threshold of 1.8 meters. When she reunited with Chun Leshui for the first time, he was only half a head taller than Lin Xi, about five or six centimeters , but now that the two are standing together, Lin Xi can clearly feel that she has to raise her chin slightly to look up at him.

"187?" Chun Leshui was not sure, the last time he measured his height was when Chun Ruan called him for a physical examination not long after he returned to China.

They probably lived together all the time, even if they grew up quietly, the people around them didn't feel it too much, but Lin Xi, who hadn't seen him for a long time, could clearly see the difference.

Lin Xi smiled: "I think you are almost 1.9 meters."

The two got off the plane, and Lin Xi had a team and a car to pick him up. He asked Chun Leshui where he was going, and he gave him a ride. Chun Leshui was not polite, and directly reported the name of the hotel where Song Hanzhang was staying.

"What a coincidence," Lin Xi was a little surprised, "I live there too."

Chun Leshui didn't expect such a coincidence, and took a ride to the hotel.

About his coming, Assistant Song Hanzhang had already greeted the hotel. After Chun Leshui reported his name and waited for the hotel to check, he was led to Song Hanzhang's suite on the upper floor. The manager opened the door and left. Chun Leshui pushed the luggage box in.

Although the plane from Shencheng was a direct flight, it took more than ten hours to fly. Chun Leshui was extremely tired. After taking a quick shower, he took a nap first, and then opened his eyes, the sky outside had already darkened.

He glanced at the time, this time he slept for almost six hours, the room was pitch black, obviously Song Hanzhang hadn't come back yet.

While Chun Leshui was sleeping, Lin Xi sent him a few messages, asking if he was jet-lagged and ready to go to bed, and asked him if he wanted to go out for a stroll together.

Chun Leshui typing: Sorry, I just woke up.

Lin Xi called back: "I guess you are asleep too. I'm in the hotel bar now, Leshui, would you like to come down for a drink or two?"

"Okay," Chun Leshui was idle anyway, he said, "I'll come down to find you."

The bar is located on the first floor of the hotel. As soon as Chunle Shui entered the door, he saw Lin Xi at the bar. The two chatted while drinking, until Chunle Shui received a message from the assistant saying that the meeting was over, and he pushed away the remaining half glass of wine in front of him. : "I should go back."

Lin Xi said, "Then I'll go back too. If I don't go back, it's time for my manager to look for me."

Before Chun Leshui came down, he didn't know how long he had been drinking alone, or he simply had a poor capacity for drinking, so he followed Chun Leshui for a few steps and said, "I'm a little dizzy, Leshui, can you help me?"

Chun Leshui stretched out his hand to support him, Lin Xi followed him slowly to the hotel lobby, and suddenly laughed as he walked: "I was drunk once before, and you were the one who sent me back to the hotel, do you remember?"

"You've got the wrong person." Chun Leshui said.

Lin Xi looked up at him and nodded: "I made a mistake."

On the other side, the assistant followed Song Hanzhang step by step.

"President Song, the information about this meeting has been sorted out and sent to your mailbox, and then the domestic..." The two hurriedly walked until they reached the elevator entrance. The assistant was still reporting the latest progress of some key domestic projects .

And Song Hanzhang didn't listen to what the assistant was saying at all, his eyes fell on Chun Leshui who just helped Lin Xi into the hall.

The moment the two looked at each other, Song Hanzhang couldn't hear anything, only the sound of his footsteps as he stepped towards Chunle Water step by step.

"You..." Song Hanzhang's voice was tight, "Why are you here?"

As he spoke, his eyes fell on Chun Leshui's hand on Lin Xi's arm.

The back of Lin Xi's neck felt cold inexplicably, she glanced at Song Hanzhang, then followed his gaze to Chun Leshui: "Leshui, you and Young Master Song..."

"I'm here to look for him." Chun Leshui said with a smile.

The communication between the two of them was particularly dazzling to Song Hanzhang. He grabbed Lin Xi's arm and tore him off Chun Leshui's body, threw him to an assistant not far away, and grabbed Chun Leshui's wrist and pulled him into the elevator.

Lin Xi still wanted to take the same car, but Song Hanzhang gave him a cold look and took back the foot he had already taken.

There was a moment of silence in the elevator car, Chun Leshui wanted to take his hand away, but Song Hanzhang held on tightly, and he chuckled: "I came all the way here, what did you say?"

Song Hanzhang looked back at him, his eyes were a little red, but he still didn't say anything, and quickly looked away.

As soon as the car door opened, he strode out leading Chun Leshui.

Swipe the card, enter the door, and Chunle Shui follows.

He reached out to turn on the light, but before he touched the switch, Song Hanzhang had already pressed all the lights in the room. When the lights were bright, he was pressed against the wall by Song Hanzhang and kissed him.

An eager, somewhat intense kiss.

After the two of them touched their foreheads, Song Hanzhang asked again: "Chun Leshui, why are you here?"

"Don't you want to see me?" Chun Leshui put his arms around his shoulders, holding the back of Song Hanzhang's head with one hand weakly from behind, "And I miss you a lot too."

In the previous video of the two, Song Hanzhang expressed his longing for Chun Leshui more than once.

But Chun Leshui basically didn't respond to his sweet words, he always acted more, because Song Hanzhang wanted to see him, so he came.

And this is the first time Chun Leshui has said such words to him in such a long time.

Song Hanzhang's heart was pounding, and he kissed Chun Leshui again completely following instinct, and the two stumbled towards the bedroom.

When Chunle water was poured on the bed, the soft mattress of the hotel bounced up slightly due to the sudden weight.

Song Hanzhang leaned forward, kissed him, and pushed Chun Leshui's leg away with his knee.

The two kissed each other, Chun Leshui put the hand on Song Hanzhang's waist and pressed him down with a little force, the wet kiss fell on the sides of the faces and necks of both sides, Chun Leshui rubbed Song Hanzhang's Adam's apple with his mouth in his mouth, and turned over Sitting on Song Hanzhang.

The clothes and hair of the two were messed up after some entanglement, Chun Leshui put her knees under his knees from left to right just like Song Hanzhang did just now.

He looked down at Song Hanzhang, neither of them spoke, only two different panting sounds intertwined in the room.

Song Hanzhang hooked Chun Leshui's neck and pulled him down.

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