Autism

In the dream, there is endless darkness.

The girl hugged her knees and squatted on the ground, not knowing what to do.

So hurt, so depressed, so lonely, who will save her?Who will comfort her?Alone in this place, how much I want someone to come up to her and stretch out a hand towards her.

"Now, come here."

In the vast light, she saw an illusion, mottled the face of the young man.

I can't see clearly, but I know who you are.

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"Dad-ha-mum-what-what's going on?" Toda Lu panted, seeing the parents outside the operating room...and the boy. "Seijuro?"

The young man turned his head and nodded towards him, his brows were full of melancholy, "Brother Alu."

"What else could it be? Isn't it appendicitis last time!" Erika's eyes were red, and she must have cried. Toda Riku walked over and sat beside her, patting her on the back to comfort her. "The doctor's explanation shows that the body is already very bad, and the previous illness has not fully healed. After returning home, I didn't take a good rest. This time it has deteriorated into acute appendicitis. The ulcer almost rotted through the intestinal wall. If it is true... then it is true. will die..."

"Okay, okay, isn't it all right?"

"It's too late for something to happen!"

Here, Toda Lu had no choice but to put away his worries and focus on comforting his mother.And over there, Akashi, who received the unexpected news, was asking Eiichiro Toda in a low voice.

"I just heard from Aunt Erika that the last time was...?"

"It's also appendicitis, just last weekend. But it was chronic, so at Nana's insistence, conservative treatment was adopted, and no surgery was performed... It seemed that I was going to participate in some activities, and the pain was so painful on the way back. I made a phone call. It's my fault for not paying attention... She should have had an operation if she knew it earlier! What does a child know about her!"

Last weekend... Akashi raised his head sharply.

Isn't that the time for the opening ceremony of Wintercup!Could it be that when she went back that day... Really!How could it not be seen that her complexion was so bad that day, how could nothing happen if she was left alone like this!

He crossed his hands in his lap and looked down at the ground.He was still wearing a ball uniform, and only a school uniform jacket was approved outside, and he didn't change his sneakers or anything.When he was taken to the hospital at the age of seven, he was also escorted all the way, and he was also the one who contacted the Toda family.

However, these only made him more at a loss.

She has been complacent, she likes herself, and she likes it very much.This realization made Akashi feel very satisfied, but also uncertain.I was afraid that it was just the other party's whim.I still think from time to time, will someone like me really like it?

Then gradually forgot to think about other things about the girl.

Can he really enjoy the other party's wholehearted feelings with peace of mind?

The door of the operating room slammed, indicating that the lights during the operation were immediately turned off.They quickly stood up and walked towards the doctor. "How's it going? Is everything going well?"

"It's okay, look at you like Eiichiro, it's just an appendectomy. My niece delivered it in time, and it's all right now. Don't worry, don't worry."

"It's really great... I'm bothering you today, Hisaki. I'm more at ease only if you're the chief swordsman..."

When he heard the news, Akashi breathed a sigh of relief, but his heart became more and more heavy.

Peace of mind?Can he really feel at ease?

At the age of seven, he was still dazedly immersed in complicated dreams.

It's weird and weird, but it can't get away from the figure of the young man.Obviously, she couldn't see his face clearly, but she knew what kind of expression the boy had.

I remember a long time ago...it should be the previous life, right?She once heard people say that two lonely people will only become more lonely when they are together.

She felt that what she said was not so accurate.

Yes, she used to reject many things, people, and the world as if she was dead.But the boy made her see everything clearly in a special way.In fact, the boy himself is also wrapped in a considerable amount of shackles.

The sound of the shackles in the dream was very clear.

"Go, go, go!"

The boy kept urging her, all the time.

why don't you come with meshe asked him.

The other party just shook his head and didn't speak.

The light became more and more obvious, and the feeling became weaker and weaker. She felt that she was about to wake up, so she opened her eyes desperately to see the boy clearly.

It was only when she woke up that she saw clearly that the boy who seemed to be beside her was actually separated from her by a huge gap... very huge.

"My life is without you."

The boy said so.

Seven years old finally woke up, and when she opened her eyes, the light outside the window was as strong as blinding her eyes.Fortunately, a dark shadow came over and blocked the light.

She looked up sideways, the backlit face overlapped with the boy in her dream.

"A Zheng?"

It's just that the other party didn't pay attention to her. Instead, he turned his head away and rang the calling bell beside the bed.But after a while, doctors and nurses rushed over to check her here and ask her there.Another water delivery, another medicine, busy making a mess.

The eyes of the seven-year-old looked at Akashi from time to time, but the other party just leaned against the window and looked out the window without making a sound.

It wasn't until the medical staff finally got out of the ward that the room was quiet, and it took a long time for Akashi to say the first thing she said when she woke up: "Does it hurt?"

"Well, it's starting to hurt slowly." The effect of the anesthetic was fading, and her senses became clearer. "Why is Ah Zheng here?"

"Have you forgotten where you passed out?"

Akashi sighed a little helplessly, seeing the girl lying on the bed as before, suddenly very irritable, and the tone of his mouth was also very aggressive: "Do you know why you are lying here? "

"Uh...appendicitis?" That's what the doctor told her just now.

"Didn't you stay in the hospital once before the opening ceremony? Why didn't you take a good rest after returning? Do you really think it's good to break your body like this? Have you ever thought about..."

"But! Manga can't be delayed! I don't want to give up like this!" Akashi's tone of voice was really hurtful. Even though he knew he was worried about himself, Seven Years Old couldn't help getting excited: "If you don't work harder, If I don’t work hard, how can I realize my dream?! Now the manga has reached a bottleneck period, and I don’t want to… If I just give up like this, how can I prove it to you.”

To prove... yeah, she wanted to prove to him that the girl's liking was real.

After a long silence, he finally moved.

"No matter how hard you try, it's useless, Nana." Akashi suddenly turned his head to look out the window without looking back, "No matter how hard you try, I won't like you."

"will not."

His illness has not been cured, and he doesn't even know what his future will look like.Because of all kinds of uncertainties, he couldn't give her even a little response.

Akashi Seijuro will not do things that cannot be won.

There are too many things between the two of them, like a huge gap.Rather than clinging to something that is impossible, it is better to give it up early.Ah... just like the seven-year-old friend said.Long-term pain is worse than short-term pain, if this continues, it will only hurt her more deeply.

She didn't have to wait for him.

"So, give up working so hard. Your dreams, your life, have nothing to do with me."

The kite that has been held in his hand has been let go.

When Akashi turned and left the ward, Seven Years Old endured the severe pain and sat up, scooped up a bunch of flowers by the bed and ruthlessly threw them at the boy's skinny back.

Shouting with all his might:

"Akashi Seijuro, you are really a big bastard!! How long are you going to escape!!"