He just hit CP with true feelings [entertainment circle]

When Ah Shan left Tang Hai, he didn't say goodbye to Tang Hai, and left quietly.

That day, Tang Hai went home from the sick as usual, but this time Ah Shan was not in the room, the small room was empty.

Tang Hai's eyelids twitched. He was used to Ashan when he came home at noon. When he opened the bathroom door, there was no one there.

He reacted for a while before realizing that Ah Shan left.

Looking carefully, there are indeed traces of farewell in the house. The quilt on the bed is neatly folded, the unwashed dishes in the sink last night have been washed and put away, the garbage at the door has been dumped, and even Moldy mushrooms in the corners have all been shoveled off.

Only then did Tang Hai find a note on the pillow, with two words on it, "Thank you", in clear and meaningful handwriting, not like a black/dao blind word, but like a college student's word.

He suddenly felt a little empty. For a long time, no one talked to Tang Hai. Tang Hai was used to being empty. Ah Shan fell from the sky and forced him to drink soup every day. Tang Hai felt much more lively and less free every day. up.

Now Ah Shan is gone, but it is even more empty than before, it is the kind of emptiness with a sense of detachment.

In fact, Tang Hai knew that he and Ah Shan shouldn't be the same people in principle, they should meet by chance, and then they will meet indefinitely.

He is an intellectual who graduated from a prestigious school, and Ah Shan is a gangster who works hard.

They should never be the same.

Tang Hai sat silently on the table of the Eight Immortals, took out the chicken soup he made and drank it, the soup was still hot, the auntie in the cafeteria had stewed the soup for him for several days in a row, the craftsmanship was a lot finer, today is the best taste one serving.

Unfortunately, Ah Shan didn't drink it.

This performance is Weng Daoheng's one-man show alone, he does not need to speak a line, Tang Hai's inner world needs him to express with body and eyes.

Weng Daoheng has played Tang Hai for a long time, this performance was performed completely by instinct, without thinking about how to react, Tang Hai has eroded him to a certain extent.In particular, he carefully analyzed the full version of the script, which gave him a deeper understanding of Tang Hai.

After a long time, Tang Hai is not a character he created, but a virtual friend of his, as if he really exists, he can instantly experience Tang Hai's joys, sorrows, joys and struggles.

But most of the time, Tang Hai is lonely.

Weng Daoheng empathizes with conscious and unconscious loneliness.

Weng Daoheng drank the chicken soup for two while holding Tang Hai's bowl with eyes.

Tang Hai didn't go to work by bike, but circled around the house several times, the wheels turned fast, Tang Hai only cared about riding forward, he seemed to be looking for something, but he didn't know what he was looking for.

Finally, he stopped panting, his forehead and the tip of his nose were covered with sweat from cycling, and the sweat stuck to his bangs drooping on his forehead. He stood in the empty alleyway, next to the trash can where Ah Shan was picked up, The air is full of the smell of damp and soreness in the residential area and the noise, which is the sound of poverty.

Tang Hai wiped his sweat, glanced at the trash can, and then realized that he was looking for Ah Shan.

His heart skipped a beat, and then he became more and more irritable, his mood became inexplicably depressed, and his subconscious told him: he was finished.

He could have endured the loneliness if he hadn't met Ah Shan.

"Crack." Liang Yu yelled to stop in satisfaction. In fact, Weng Daoheng's legs were a little cramped when he rode the bicycle back and forth for several scenes.

Hearing the director call to stop, his emotions are still in the scene, and the close-up shots in the camera are still dazed and lonely.

He walked out of the viewfinder frame, slowly eased his emotions, and almost regained the feeling of Weng Daoheng, before he went to the director's side to watch his close-ups and shots.

Liang Yu looked at Weng Daoheng in the camera, and suddenly said: "You are very similar to him."

Weng Daoheng stood next to him, of course he heard it, his eyelashes trembled, as if something was touched, he knew what Liang Yu was talking about, even though his life trajectory was completely different from Tang Hai's, but he could understand Tang Hai's "" Lonely".

Many times Weng Daoheng's emotions are calm and unwavering. He doesn't know whether it is his poor empathy ability or the loss of some emotional investment ability. Most of the emotions he can experience are loneliness.

The last time he shed tears in real life was the day when his younger brother drowned when he was a child. After that day, Weng Daoheng didn't seem to be able to cry anymore.

Because when he was a child, his mother said to him: "Why wasn't you the one who died?" Since then, even the sadness has faded a lot. Sometimes, Weng Daoheng thought, it would be good if I was the one who died.

Later, the father couldn't bear the mother's nagging about the loss of the child, and had an affair and an illegitimate child outside. The pain of losing the child seemed to be easier for men than women to get out of.

On the day my mother went to catch the adulterer, she cried and howled in disregard of decency, so my father said: "Look in the mirror, you are like a bitter woman and a shrew every day, and you make the family so crazy, I can hardly breathe when I am with you .”

So my father resolutely left his mother and went to live with women outside.

On the day of the divorce, my mother drove there and took him with her. He sat in the back seat ignorantly watching the poplar tree fall backwards on the roadside, and then the car drove faster and faster. Weng Daoheng came back to his senses and found that The direction of mother's car is a big river.

She wanted to die with him.

So he yelled "Mom!", and finally the woman stopped by the river.

Sitting in front, she suddenly looked at Weng Daoheng in the rearview mirror and said, "It would be fine if I didn't give birth to you."

Seeing her empty eyes, Weng Daoheng trembled, but his heart died. She only remembered her dead son, but always ignored her living self. It would be fine if he hadn't been born.

Seeing that there were no emotional fluctuations on his face, and he was calm like a child of a few years old, his mother sneered and said, "You cold-blooded monster."

Weng Daoheng didn't feel sad, he knew that he would never get any maternal love from this woman again, at that moment he extinguished any expectations for that woman.

He thought to himself, if he hadn't called her to stop just now, he would have let her die with him.

After the divorce, he and his mother lived in his grandma's house. Grandma's eyes were the same color as his. She was a purebred Russian. Although she was a little fat, she could still see the beauty of her youth.

Grandma told him that his brother's death was not his fault, and don't blame his mother, she was just sick.

His mother was indeed suffering from serious depression. Later, she talked about a boyfriend. That uncle was a divorced person. He was very gentle. Because of love, his mother's attitude towards him became softer. Therefore, Weng Daoheng had the illusion that his mother was back. .

On the day she left, she specially put on a gentle makeup, and cooked a table of dishes for Weng Daoheng, all of which he liked.She smiled softly and said, "Hengheng, eat."

Weng Daoheng, who had given up his expectations for this woman, actually had the first reaction that she had put rat poison in the rice, but he still ate it with the last sliver of expectation.

My mother sat aside and watched him eat with a smile, and suddenly burst into tears with a smile, and said, "Hengheng, I'm sorry."

Weng Daoheng knew what her "sorry" was, but the damage had already been done. There was a pathetic barrier between him and that woman, and he could never go back. Disappointed and sad, he learned early on, he didn't dare to have any expectations anymore.

He said, "Grandma said you were just because your brother was sick."

Mom was taken aback for a moment, and then said "I'm sorry", there was something wrong with this sorry, and Weng Daoheng didn't realize what this sentence meant.

After a long time, he knew that she jumped from the seventeenth floor that day for no reason, but everything was getting better, she seemed to have come out from the past, and she was in love with her uncle The wedding has already started.

Weng Daoheng was not surprised by her departure, he even felt a little "as expected".

At Mom's funeral, her fiancé cried so hard, he was a wonderful man who really loved her.Weng Daoheng didn't cry, no one noticed his emotions, he lowered his head, everyone thought he was sad, he was not sad, just lonely.

Ever since he was "abandoned" by his parents, Weng Daoheng has become an emotional Grandet. He has learned to withdraw "inappropriate" expectations since he was a child, and to be cautious about emotional investment, as if that way, he will not feel uncomfortable.

Since the death of his younger brother, he seldom has big emotional fluctuations because of something. Fortunately, he has acting, and all his emotions and tears will only be given to the characters. Only in the play can he seem to be able to fully experience normal people mood fluctuated.

He became obsessed with acting, because the characters in the play gave him the illusion of being full of emotions, and he didn't feel sick, because it allowed him to acquire a talent by accident, even if the price of acquiring this talent was painful.

The protagonist of the first play, Xia Tian, ​​also jumped down from the high platform. When he stood on the high platform, he suddenly thought of his mother, and then a tear fell just right. The subsequent performances were all instinctive. It hurts, except for himself.

He once went to see a psychiatrist and expressed his experience very cooperatively, and said, "I don't think I have any pain from the original family, because I didn't look forward to the original family a long time ago, and I don't think I need to heal."

The result was exactly as he thought. The psychiatrist told him that he was mentally healthy, and he did not have any childhood shadows, nor did he have any dark thoughts due to his childhood experiences.

His only negative emotion is loneliness.

And Tang Hai in the complete script is as lonely as him.

Weng Daoheng thought of the past in his heart, but he was just in a daze for a moment, and he didn't feel any soreness. His emotions were overdrawn in the play.

He is actually very contradictory, he will cry because of the characters in the script, but his own affairs are extremely calm and rational, he is cut off, and all his sensibility is supplied to acting.

It's as if his heart trembles because of Also's words, but he doesn't have too much emotional fluctuations because of Ren Ye in reality, which is very strange.

Because the cycling scene was filmed immediately after the scene of drinking chicken soup, Weng Daoheng suddenly felt sick and threw up holding the trash can of the crew, as if he wanted to spit out his soul.

Ren Ye ran over, patted him on the back, and asked anxiously, "Are you alright, brother?"

After he vomited, Ren Ye silently took out a tissue and wiped his mouth without hesitation, then supported him to rest beside him, Weng Daoheng got up and went to the sink to rinse his mouth and tidy himself up.

When he came back, Ren Ye still looked at him anxiously: "Brother, I just asked you for leave with the director. You can go back to the hotel for a rest in the afternoon, and shoot my solo scene first in the afternoon."

He said "um", and glanced at Ren Ye, Ren Ye looked back at him, there was a gentle light in his eyes, bright, Weng Daoheng suddenly felt a little guilty.

He could feel that Ren Ye insisted on getting close to him, even though he was indifferent, Ren Ye was very warm to him, half of him was sensitive to understand something, but the other half was slow to veto and stay away.

Suddenly, Ren Ye's superficial kiss in the dark that night at the dinner party flashed in his mind, remembering that time when Ren Ye was walking on the road, in order to prevent him from being hit by a car, Ren Ye subconsciously hugged him and lost control of his emotions.

He thought of many, many things, starting from the earliest time he watched a movie in the cinema, when Ren Ye stuffed candy into his hand when he left.

In an instant, his sensitivity defeated his dullness, and Tang Hai in the play still left some emotions for him. He suddenly thought, if Ren Ye could not distinguish him from Ah Shan, then Ren Ye might just like him.

And this possibility is a possibility that Weng Daoheng has been subconsciously ignoring.

The author has something to say: Half of Weng Daoheng's acting talent comes from innateness, and half of it comes at a price.

He is the emotional Grandet, who will only be emotionally invested in characters and plots that he cannot touch, because it is within the safety line.

In reality, he is a cold rose with thorns. Anyone who tries to get close to and love him may be hurt. Ren Ye’s original family is warm. He is the little prince of his own planet. He is warm and unique. He is not afraid The thorns of roses only feel sorry for roses that have so many thorns to protect themselves.

So the little prince and the rose are a perfect match.

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