Confess to you in early summer

The bus departed at 07:30, and it took more than four hours to arrive in Yizhou. When it arrived at the station, it was close to twelve o'clock. The parents of the students got the news in advance and were already waiting at the station. Yan Wei saw his parents in the crowd as soon as he got off the bus.

They are all decent cultural people, younger than they are many years later, the wrinkles around the corners of their mother's eyes are less, and their father's sideburns have not yet turned white.

But Yan Wei looked at them with complicated emotions.

A lot of emotion, subconscious fear, mixed with a little sympathy, and helpless sadness.

Before her emotions could ferment, her mother raised her hand excitedly when she saw her: "Weiwei!"

A relieved smile appeared on Papa Yan's face.

Yan Wei followed her parents out of the station, dragging a light suitcase. Yan Tingyue rushed to take the suitcase from her hand and put it in the trunk. Yan Wei sat in the back seat and left the co-pilot to her mother, He Ping.

"Weiwei, are you tired from the car ride? What's the matter with your school? Did you come back so late?" He Ping started rambling as soon as she got in the car.

Yan Wei leaned against the car window to rest with his eyes closed, and he didn't know what to say in a vague way. Yan Tingyue glanced at her from the rearview mirror and tried to dissuade his wife: "Can you not be tired after driving for four or five hours? Don't you think so?" Just say a few words, let Weiwei rest for a while, it is usually time to go to bed at this time, wash and rest directly when you get back, so as not to affect the spirit during the day and destroy the biological clock."

He Ping felt that her husband was right, so she turned to Yan Wei and said, "Go to sleep, I will call you when I get home."

Yan Wei hummed, pressed his forehead against the car window, and half-squinted to see the fast-moving scenery outside the car window.

"Weiwei, I'm going to see grandma tomorrow, so I can't sleep in late." After returning home, Yan Tingyue took off his shoes and told Yan Wei about tomorrow's arrangements, "Remember to set an alarm clock and get up at seven for breakfast. We'll go early and come back early. affect your homework."

Like before, Yan Wei did not express any opinion on the decision they had already made, but only nodded obediently: "I see."

She returned to her room, with familiar and distant furnishings. Although she hadn't come back for more than a month, the floor was still clean and the table was spotless.

Yan Wei looked at the few books in the middle of the book, thought of something, walked over and took out one of them, and quickly flipped through it.

Sure enough, the graffiti caught between the pages disappeared.

He Ping cleans Yan Wei's room every weekend, organizes her desk, and throws away everything she thinks shouldn't be in the room of a sophomore girl, even if it's just a few meaningless graffiti.

Her parents rarely asked her why she did such inexplicable things when she should be studying, but under their seemingly gentle and tolerant attitude, their actions were more domineering, direct and unreasonable.

In the previous life, I don’t know if I will wake up from this dream, so let’s just call the experience in my memory the previous life.

She seldom went home after college, and sometimes stayed in Fudu to work during the winter and summer vacations. Every time she met her parents, she would find that they were getting older. There will be quarrels, and in the end, it is likely that Yan Wei will rush out and break up with each other.

During the two years she stayed in school for graduate school, she never went home once.

A good girl who has been a good girl for too long, once she becomes rebellious, she will be unstoppable. The grievances and resentment accumulated in the past, as well as the confusion and sadness caused by Jiang Youyi's death have broken through the threshold, making her feel tired and tired, and she is no longer willing to please anyone or avoid punishment. Continue to be an obedient child.

Or maybe she was just venting her emotions.

Everyone is at fault, but no one is willing to back down, especially her parents who have been domineering for 30 to [-] years.

But at least for now, they still ran to pick up the car in the middle of the night because they were worried about her safety. She never doubted that they loved her. Indeed, they poured all their love and hope on her.

It's just that they never introspected and didn't understand that such a domineering and controlling love imprisoned her like a shackle, making her always want to escape.

In her character, she has the same pride as them, and because of long-term self-repression, she has low self-esteem, shrinkage and timidity. These contradictions distort her values, making her continue to accumulate rebellion in her submissive life, and play games with another self deep in her heart. , and finally broke out regardless of the consequences, burning the past clean.

He Ping came in without knocking, and handed Yan Wei a cup of hot milk.

She saw the open book in Yan Wei's hand, she didn't ask anything, she didn't say anything, everything seemed to be taken for granted.

Yan Wei put down the book, drank the milk in one gulp, and handed back the empty cup: "Thank you mom, you and dad should go to bed early, good night."

"Good night." He Ping went out with a smile, and closed the door behind her.

The next day, when the alarm clock rang, Yan Wei immediately opened his eyes and got up without delay.

About 2 minutes later, the door of the room was pushed open by He Ping. She looked at Yan Wei who was making the quilt, and showed a satisfied smile: "Wei Wei, breakfast is ready, go wash up and eat."

"Okay." Yan Wei agreed, and at the same time flattened the corner of the quilt with his hands.

Five minutes later, the family of three sat down to eat neatly. Yan Tingyue and He Ping sat side by side at the long table. Yan Wei glanced at the empty seat on the left, without showing any emotion, and ate quietly with his head down. Finish your own breakfast.

Starting from home at [-]:[-], Yan Tingyue drove his wife and daughter to a cemetery in the suburbs to sweep the grave.

Today is Ching Ming Festival, the sky is gray and light raining, Yan Weiyuan saw a figure standing in front of grandma's grave, holding a black umbrella in his hand.

Yan Tingyue and He Ping also saw it and stopped at the same time.

The other party seemed to have sensed something, turned around and saw a family of three not far away, with no expression on his indifferent face, but his eyes stayed on Yan Wei for a few more seconds, then staggered, turned around and walked down the long steps from the other side, from beginning to end There is no word at all.

A woman was waiting for her at the bottom of the steps.

He Ping took a deep breath, and turned her head to look at Yan Tingyue, whose face was livid.

"She still has face?" Yan Tingyue's forehead bulged with veins, "How dare you bring someone here? The family is unlucky! It's a shame!"

Yan Wei looked at the backs of the two leaving, and kept silent rationally.

The young woman's name is Yan Chu, she is Yan Wei's older sister, three years older than Yan Wei, and the person next to her is her lover, the two have been together for many years.

In Yan Wei's memory, when she was in the second year of junior high school, Yan Chu happened to be her current age and was in the second year of high school.

Yan Chu's puppy love was discovered by the teacher, and the partner turned out to be a woman who was 11 years older than her, who could almost be called her elder.

Before this incident happened, Yan Chu had always been the pride of her parents, and she was also a role model for Yan Wei. She was excellent in character and learning. She participated in many mathematics and physics-related competitions in junior high school and won numerous awards. She was a favorite of the teachers and deserved her name. baby bump.

After the relationship was smashed, she came out to her parents without hesitation. The quarrel was earth-shattering. Yan Wei had never seen such a surge of power from her gentle and considerate sister, and her gentle and decent father also went crazy. A slap fell on Yan Chu's face, but it couldn't slap the stubbornness in her heart.

In the end, Yan Chu slammed the door and left, got into the woman's car, did not go to school, and never returned home.

It's not that Yan Tingyue and He Ping never looked for her, but she didn't break up with her girlfriend until she was forced to drop out of school.

From then on, the family defaulted that there was no such person. Neither Yan Tingyue nor He Ping talked about Yan Chu's affairs, but in all aspects of study and life, Yan Wei was more strictly controlled than before.

Many times, Yan Wei felt that maybe her parents' love for her was mixed with other things, for example, they wanted to find the shadow of Yan Chu from her.

But she is not Yan Chu, she doesn't have the confidence to be self-willed, let alone accept Jiang Youyi's confession with such a strong shackle, dragging the already bruised girl into another abyss.

In her previous life, she didn't want to understand until Jiang Youyi died.

She is not really willing.

Efforts may not necessarily lead to success, but if you don’t take the initiative to strive for it, you will only be left with regrets.

She envied Yan Chu's rebellion and bravery, life gave her a chance to start over, even if it was just a dream, she didn't want to let it go.

Not only wanting to keep Jiang Youyi, but also for herself.

After finishing the tomb-sweeping in a depressing atmosphere, after returning home, Yan Tingyue sat down on the sofa, turned on the TV and watched the news, He Ping went to prepare lunch, and Yan Wei consciously went back to the room to do homework.

There is never a lack of homework for high school students during the holidays, and the amount of homework is even more than when they were in school. Teachers of various subjects can always reach an incredible consensus on squeezing students' rest time.

Tomb-sweeping Day is three days off, one subject has two test papers, a total of [-] papers, plus the review of the monthly exam and mid-term exam that will come after the Qingming Festival, the schoolwork is heavy, and there seems to be no free time other than studying.

But in this family, only studying can be considered an effective use of time, and only when she is bored in her room studying for this period of time can she gain short-term freedom.

After more than ten years of getting along with her parents in such a peaceful but lacking rational communication mode, she has long been used to it, and has explored the inner laws. She can make judgments and predict the future when footsteps sound outside the door. She had a few seconds to push open the door of her room.

At the same time that Yan Wei closed the drawer, He Ping's voice came out accompanied by the click of the handle: "Weiwei, take a rest and come out for dinner."

"I'll come as soon as I finish writing this question, in 2 minutes." Yan Wei replied.

The door was closed again, Yan Wei opened the drawer again, flipped through a thick stack of photo albums, and found a specific photo, took it out, and wrote a string of mobile phone numbers on the back with a ballpoint pen.

This is her junior high school graduation photo. On the day she received the photo, Yan Chu came to school to see her.

Yan Wei didn't know whether Yan Chu's phone number had been changed in the past two years, but this was the only way she could contact Yan Chu now.

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