Confess to you in early summer

"Don't feel sorry for me, please all of you can live a better life for yourself."

Turning to the last page of the diary, Yan Wei covered his face in tears.

Xue Yu, who was also haggard, sat on the opposite chair, drooping her shoulders in pain.

Her face is gray and blue, and she is in her early 40s, but her hair is more than half gray.

After recovering from a serious illness, she was hit again. If it weren't for the girl who was sleeping peacefully on the hospital bed and still breathing weakly, she would have lost her will to persist in living.

Everything that happened last night was like a nightmare, and recalling it now is still shocking.

The nurse Su Ci invited did not continue to accompany Yan Wei in bed a week ago at Yan Wei's request, and now she is the only one in the ward.

Yan Wei saw the text message from Jiang Youyi, and a bad premonition grew wildly in her heart.

It was as if her heart was being tightly clenched by one hand. The pain made her tremble all over, and she couldn't breathe. It took a long time for her to recover, and she stretched out her hand and rang the nurse's bell next to her.

A few minutes later, the nurse on duty came to the ward. Before she could ask her about the situation, she stretched out her hand and asked, "My phone is broken, please lend me it to make a call."

The nurse saw that she was uncomfortable, and wanted to suggest that she should be checked first, but her eyes didn't meet her face, and the eager tears in those eyes hit the soft place at the bottom of her heart.

She immediately took out her mobile phone and handed it to Yan Wei, and asked her intimately, "Is it convenient? How about I dial the number for you?"

Yan Wei didn't refuse her kindness, she only had one right hand that could move, and it has been numb and trembling since just now, and it might be difficult for her to support herself.

The nurse quickly pressed a series of numbers according to the numbers Yan Wei reported, and the phone shut down without any accident.

Yan Wei took a deep breath, and reported another string of mobile phone numbers.

This time the call was successfully connected after waiting for a while, and Yan Chu's slightly hoarse voice came from the receiver after being awakened from a good dream: "Hello, who is it?"

"It's me, sister, are you home now? Help me, please."

Yan Wei's crying voice woke up Yan Chu's remaining drowsiness.

The sound of the quilt being lifted came from the receiver. Yan Chu first persuaded Yan Wei to calm down. Before he had time to find out why Yan Wei used someone else's number, he asked her while getting dressed, "What's wrong? Don't worry, take your time." Slow down."

"Go and see Jiang Youyi's house now." Yan Wei said without saying a word, "I had a nightmare, my eyelids kept twitching when I woke up, and then I saw her send me a very strange text message, I was afraid that something might happen to her. "

Yan Chu was a little puzzled, Jiang Youyi and Xue Yu just came back from the capital, how could something happen so easily, and it's midnight, one or two in the morning, she felt that Yan Wei was too sensitive.

Yan Wei seemed to have guessed what she was thinking, and said to her in a hoarse voice: "Sister, please, trust me, go and confirm."

Yan Chu sighed silently: "Okay, let's go and have a look, don't worry, I will call you back later."

After hanging up the phone, Yan Chu shrugged helplessly, and said to Su Ci, who also got up and put on his coat, "Let's go, go to Xiao Jiang's house, I don't know what Weiwei did at night."

Su Ci knew that she was in a mood, and Yan Wei's call was actually a bit inappropriate.

She took the back of the child's head, kissed her gently on the forehead, and said comfortingly: "I don't trust you so much, don't be angry, sometimes there will be indescribable feelings between two people, maybe Xiao Jiang There's something really going on there."

Yan Chu was in a better mood after being shunned by Su Ci. Hearing this, he smiled and said deliberately sourly: "It seems that you are very experienced?"

She couldn't remember when Su Ci had such a feeling for her, it must be Sister Su's first love girlfriend, after all, they have been together for many years.

Just a little sour, really, she swears.

Su Ci rolled his eyes at her: "I don't know who it is, but he came out to his family without saying a word, and I was terrified all day long."

Yan Chu was stunned for a moment, and took a few seconds to react. He stared and said in shock, "So you actually liked me a little at that time?"

If you just like it a little bit, how can it be so frightening?

She thought that that year and that day, she cut off her back path and bravely fought for an impossible possibility, but she just let herself do her best for every current decision, leaving no room for regret.

But it turned out that she had already got what she wanted.

Su Ci didn't answer Yan Chu's words, opened the closet and found two clean underwear, threw one to Yan Wei, put on the other by himself, and said calmly, "Don't dawdle, time waits for no one."

Yan Chu looked at the back of her pretending to be calm, but actually running away in a hurry, which was a bit funny.

After tidying up, the two went downstairs quickly. There were few cars on the road in the middle of the night, and the road was unimpeded. It only took half an hour to arrive at Jiang Youyi's community.

Soon, they all felt that something was wrong.

At this time, the supposedly quiet neighborhood was brightly lit, and many people gathered downstairs, sighing.

Su Ci and Yan Chu passed by them, and vaguely heard a few words of discussion.

"It's really a crime! You are so young, you haven't graduated from high school! It's too miserable!"

"Such a small child, why can't he think about it?"

"Whoever has such a bad father would not be able to bear it. It's a pity to lose a good boy. I hope there is still someone to save."

"..."

They quickly passed through the crowd and saw a few drops of dried blood remaining on the stone steps in front of the unit building.

The unreasonable speculation added a bit of fear to the unknown event. There was no one in the corridor, and the bloodstains stretched all the way to the elevator. There was more scarlet in the elevator box, and even the air was filled with the lingering smell of blood.

The faces of the two sisters turned pale, and the bad premonition became stronger and stronger, until the elevator dinged, the familiar security door on the right side of the corridor was wide open, and the police officers pulled up the yellow wire to prevent anyone from approaching that room .

Yan Chu was knocked on the shoulder by someone, and the man stepped back to apologize, but she grabbed his arm and asked in a daze, "What's going on here? What happened?"

That person also seemed to be a resident of this floor. He had never seen Yan Chu and Su Ci before, but seeing that the two girls were pretty, he was not wary.

He thought they were here to watch the excitement, and when he heard the words, his expressions became tense: "Didn't you hear it when you came up? The little girl in this room couldn't think about it at night, so she cut her wrists. She killed herself. She was just sent to the hospital. I don’t know if I can be saved or not.”

"I can't wait for the appointed day.

When I accepted the alms, I lost the qualification to meet you. Counting the remaining time, there is only hopelessness in the foreseeable future.

The people I am most sorry for are you and my mother.

If I hadn't confessed to you, maybe things wouldn't have turned into what they are today. The hurt you suffered was also a punishment for my impulsive thoughts.

But at the end of this diary, I want to say something from the heart.

Call me selfish or greedy, but in fact I don’t regret it, thank you for being the hot and warm light in my short 17 years of life, and let me have a past when I can recall it and smile.

I hope you in the future forget about me, meet a lover who understands you better, and have more happiness.

Finally, write to mom.

If my existence stumbles your footsteps, then after I leave, you can divorce without any scruples.

Don't feel sorry for me, please all of you can live a better life for yourself. "

The author has something to say: There will be a second update today, and the most difficult plot has passed _(:з"∠)_