Enlightenment

By the way, I will definitely stand up and bless them. This is something I have always felt very regretful about.

Therefore, Kailan and Nanyu in this novel are the prototypes of the two of them. Although most of them are not very similar, they are indeed written based on her story.

In the novel, I didn't give them a chance to stay together because they didn't stay together in real life.But they dare to face their own love, as Kailan and Nanyu have demonstrated.

The other is school violence, which is mentioned several times in the article.

If you are a victim of violence, please stand up and resist, if you are a perpetrator, please stop your behavior.

School violence is not just violence.Even if it does not become the shadow of a person's life, that terrible memory will accompany him for a lifetime.It pops up in your mind from time to time and catches you off guard.No matter what grade you are in, school violence should not be used.

Of course it's not just school violence.

Because of this incident, what I wrote in the article [As a perpetrator who has caused a psychological shadow on the victim, he seems not qualified to be forgiven, let alone be liked or loved by the victim] is my heartfelt voice.At that time, I wanted to write that the perpetrator is unforgivable, but I thought it was too absolute... um... just... changed the wording.

There are also characters like drug dealers in this article.

The characters I wrote about this kind of characters may be a little pitiful, they are forced to.But what I personally want to say is that even if it is a last resort, such behavior is inexcusable.

Maybe this kind of character is written to highlight the people at the bottom of society.For example, Gu Guoyao, who has no ability to make money to treat his sister, chooses the wrong path.People like Xuan Jinhua, whose parents' drug use cast a huge shadow on her when she was a child, do the things she least wants to do in order to survive.

Life is like this, not everyone gets what they want.

Then there are Jiang Zhuo and Gu Qi.

Gu Xi's feelings for Jiang Zhuo are just below lovers, above girlfriends, there is a little bit of sympathy between the two.She chose to stay away from Jiang Zhuo because she thought that Jiang Zhuo would find someone better to take care of her if she left herself.And in her mind, the two girls have no future.

It probably means that whether the two of them have feelings or not, there will be no future when they come together, it is just a moment of warmth, and in the future they will each find their lover, get married and have children.

Rather than being wrong from the beginning, it is better not to take this path from the beginning, and not to go wrong.No matter who they are, it is the best choice for both of them.

The ending was just as she expected, Jiang Zhuo got married, and she also found a partner. Although her ending was not written in the article, she knew without thinking that she would definitely find a boy to spend her life with.

I think this is not the case in real life.

If you want to say that Jiang Zhuo doesn't like Gu Qi much, I'll be the first to deny it.

It was explained in the article that she and Xuan Jinhua knew each other, and that both of them had been subjected to campus violence by Xuan Jinchen, which caused Jiang Zhuo to drop out of school directly, and also developed a psychological resistance to others.

She understood Gu Xi's thoughts from the beginning to the end. When Gu Xi stayed away from her, she already understood.There is no future between them.Rather than making both of them unhappy by continuing to pester Gu Xi herself, it's better for her to let go first.

Uncle and Little Tail.

There is no uncle's real name in the article, because I have never thought about uncle's name from the beginning to the end, not because I am lazy and don't want to choose a name.Rather, I want to highlight the uncle. When I wrote it, I thought that what the uncle represents is not just the characters in the text.

Maybe this pair of CPs is something you don't want to knock on, because the CPs in the danmei novels you read are basically beautiful men, even people at the same age as uncles are extremely handsome, but the uncle in this one is like that People, it may be a bit unacceptable for a while, I can understand.

But I don't want to be prejudiced against this pair of CPs.Because in real life, there are many occupations and many ages among homosexuals.

They are all ordinary people, without shocking talents or amazing looks.

Although they are ordinary and very ordinary, they have a sincere relationship.

I hope everyone can understand that the same-sex people we support are not just two beautiful people, but the sincere feelings between them.

Most of the lilies in this article are also my favorite.

Let's talk about Liu Chun and Han Song again.

Here, please don't treat them as special people, they are all the same as us.The reason for writing these two characters is also to hope that everyone can love life like them.

Be strong enough to face the difficulties that life throws at you.

They are not special, they are just two ordinary people in the crowd.

Having said that, I want to mention the people in the village again. I can't say they are bad, but I can't say they are good either.

From some small details in the village, you should be able to see what the people in the village are like.However, their prototype is the people in our village.I wrote it in the article based on some things I saw in our village.

Hahaha hiccup.

Finally, let's talk about the protagonist.

Jiang Yan finally ended his life by live broadcasting suicide, which may be considered too exaggerated by everyone.The feelings described in that chapter are not realistic, I do not deny this.

Too much sensationalism.

Also too much exaggeration.

But that's all I can write.

What's more, Jiang Yan got sick and mentally ill before breaking up with Jiang Shu.

After all, under the long-term Internet violence, his spirit is not very normal, he has a tendency to self-abuse, and later he got rage.

Why didn't Jiang Shu stop him in time when he committed suicide?At that time, as long as Jiang Shu took a step forward, Jiang Yan would immediately stab his vitals.He really didn't know what to do with the person he loved.Neither retreat nor advance.

In the end, Jiang Shu went to ask someone to take them to the hospital behind Jiang Yan's back. At that time, everyone might think that I wrote people too coldly.

Actually, this kind of thing...

I don't know how to explain such a thing to everyone, so I will leave it to you to understand.

When Jiang Yan passed away, Jiang Shu didn't call him by his name to make up the number of words, really not to make up the number of words.

Loved ones are gone, and I think I'll keep calling that person.So I wrote it in, it would be more immersive, I don't know.

In addition, the characters are portrayed by writers, but it is impossible to come out of thin air.

In real life, people have thousands of emotions, and it is inevitable that there will be times when they deviate from their own personality.Of course, some of the remarks in the novel are based on the characters themselves, and do not represent the writer's own thoughts.I hope everyone can make this point clear.

Here, I would also like to thank everyone who has read this novel. It’s hard work for you to endure my poor writing.

I also hope that after reading the article, our fate will only continue in the next novel.

Writers only need readers, and only reading books regardless of the writer's life is the greatest respect.

I wish you can stay with love in real life and not be afraid of the world.

No matter what you face, please believe that someone will stand by your side, believe in you, respect you, love you, and protect you.

Also send this sentence to everyone.

"Secularity is inevitable, but love is never picky."

Attached is a section of Jiang Yan's autobiography:

My name is Jiang Yan, and I am in my 20s this year, but I forgot that I am in my twenties.I'm sick, mentally ill.

My profession is singer, actor.I have won many awards, including international awards, but I have not been recognized for this, but I have followed the trend wave after wave.

I don't know what they didn't like about me, but then I figured it out, even if I just stood there and did nothing, it was wrong.

People, when you get more, you want more.

I have fame and wealth, but no feelings.

I have dated a few girlfriends, but they all broke up in the end.All this may be because of my native family.

My family is broken. When I was a child, my father used to drag me to take a paternity test, and my mother cheated on a woman.

The only relative who is still willing to care about me is my grandfather, but he passed away after being with me for more than a year.

During that time, I once suspected that I was a dead star.

I don't have any friends, oh, I don't have any friends at all.

Singer, actor is my lifelong dream.But it never occurred to me that because of the dream I lost my freedom, my innocence, my privacy.

When I was completely in the dark, the light in my life, he appeared.

His name is Jiang Shu.

He is male.

he's good.

He saved me, but in the end he was disappointed.

It never occurred to me that I would be gay until I met him.

I am very homophobic because of my mother.

But he made me change all prejudices.

He met my parents, and I met his parents, his grandparents.

Because of my occupation, I can't go shopping with him justifiably. Even when I go out to meet him, I have to wear a hat and mask. Sometimes I even cover my face exaggeratedly, leaving only my eyes.

We once went to Mongolia to look at the stars together, doing what every couple would do.

I never said I loved him, and neither did he.

But we both know we love each other dearly.

"Jiang Shu, I love you, do you know that?"

12. Fanwai [Uncle Has a Small Tail]

◎The uncle is 45 years old this year, and he is still a loner, moving bricks on the construction site to support the family◎

The uncle is 45 years old this year, and he is still a loner, moving bricks on the construction site to support the family.He has nothing, sometimes