Spring wasted

Jiang Kuang found that Liang Chi's involvement in the drama was a bit deep, and his emotions had been trapped in a low-pressure atmosphere, unable to get out.

In the evening, there was a small wrap-up party in the restaurant of the hotel. Su Yimei and Yuhuai came over. Everyone seemed to be in high spirits. Liang Chi ate some food and had a round of drinking with them. I said I had to withdraw first, and I couldn't bear it any longer and wanted to go back to sleep.

Seeing that Liang Chi's footsteps were a little sloppy, Jiang Kuang took advantage of the situation to support him and retreated first.

After entering the elevator, Liang Chi took the hand off Jiang Kuang's shoulder and stood up against the elevator: "I'm not drunk, I just pretended."

"I know." Jiang Kuang said.

Liang Chi rubbed his hands on his face: "It's too lively, I really can't handle it."

Some people are having a carnival, while others are falling into untimely loneliness.

Jiang Kuang followed Liang Chi and entered Liang Chi's room.

Without turning on the lights when entering the room, Liang Chi walked directly through the living room into the bedroom, the curtains were still drawn, and the neon night scene of the city outside let in the mottled light, he directly fell into the bed, his head was muffled and he didn't say anything explain.

Jiang Kuang sat on the edge of the bed, rubbed the top of his head lightly, but didn't speak.

After a while, Liang Chi turned over and lay on his back, the dim light shone in his eyes, half of the sphere seemed to be covered with a layer of water.

He suddenly asked: "Brother, have you ever tried to miss someone very much?"

Jiang Kuang touched the hand on top of his head and paused: "Yes."

Liang Chi tilted his head and looked at Jiang Kuang. Jiang Kuang's figure and face were hidden in the shadows, and he couldn't see anything clearly. He was a little nervous, thinking that Liang Chi would ask him "who is it" in the next sentence, but Liang Chi Chi just looked at him, put a hand on his heart, and said, "Lan Xing seems to have lived in my place. At this moment, I really want to help him find his lover."

When Jiang Kuang opened his mouth, his tone was a little stiff: "You want to find Wen Liang?"

Liang Chi was startled, then laughed, staring at Jiang Kuang who couldn't see clearly in the shadows, trying to find his eyes: "No, I didn't fall in love with Wen Liang, it's just... this scene reminds me of how I miss him very much." A person, I want to find his taste."

He was talking about Li Chun. For a while, Liang Chi tried to find him, but there was no trace. At that time, he didn't even know that the person he had been with day and night, even his name was fake.

Jiang Kuang let go of his hand and didn't continue to ask, but said after a while: "They might make a fuss after drinking, let's go out?"

"Where are you going?" Liang Chi was still lying on his back.

"Tsubaki, do you want to go?"

Liang Chi hardly hesitated: "Yes."

Jiang Kuang stretched out his hand, Liang Chi grabbed it, and was dragged up from the bed by Jiang Kuang. After he changed into more comfortable clothes and pants, the two went out.

Jiang Kuang didn't drink tonight, so he drove there in about [-] minutes. On the evenings of late spring and early summer, the business of "Tsubaki" is very good.

Both of them hadn't been here for a while, and the head waiter was a little surprised to see them. Liang Chi was wearing a mask and hat when he went out, and Jiang Kuang led him directly to the second floor.

I don't know why, Liang Chi felt relaxed when he came here, he didn't eat a few mouthfuls at the banquet just now, he would be hungry now, Jiang Kuang asked the kitchen to cook some refreshing side dishes, and asked Liang Chi: "What wine do you want to drink? "

Liang Chi sank into the sofa by the window, stretched his limbs comfortably, and breathed in the hot and humid breath emanating from the dense vegetation in this season, which is unique to "Chun". He didn't wonder why Jiang Kuang brought up the wine at this time. "Chun" is a place for drinking, and it was originally a paradise specially reserved for him by Jiang Kuang.

"Rum or brandy is fine," Liang Chi said.

"Then applejack, it happens to be there." Jiang Kuang asked someone to fetch the wine.

Because this wine is mixed with fermented apple juice during distillation and then fermented in oak barrels, the wine has a fruity aroma and obvious smoky taste, which is more suitable for young people than ordinary brandy.

Liang Chi likes wines with a "thin, clear" taste, such as white rum, Beaujolais Nouveau, orange vodka and apple brandy, Jiang Kuang still remembers them.

Unlike himself, drinking is completely an old man's taste.

The kitchen also matched the wine, made some tapas and served them, as well as a plate of thinly sliced ​​Liberian ham slices, cheese and arugula.

The passage leading down from the second floor was closed, and the hustle and bustle of the first floor was completely isolated. The two of them returned to the same place, the same night and the same wine, but they didn't need to be sneaky, and they could get drunk openly.

Liang Chi remembered the bottle of absinthe that almost broke his heart and soul at first, and asked Jiang Kuang, "Did you still drink absinthe?"

"Drink." Jiang Kuang washed his hands, rolled ham slices and cheese and arugula, and said, "Green magic water, Wangyou water, drink three sips and travel to another world, why not drink it."

The romantic pamperer came back tonight, and he handed the rolled ball to Liang Chi's mouth. Liang Chi liked to eat these but found it troublesome, and now he was brought to his mouth, he opened his mouth a little embarrassedly, Jiang Kuang Stuffing the food in with two fingers, the lips were closed, and the corner of Liang Chi's mouth wiped Jiang Kuang's warm fingers.

The situation was really damp and ambiguous, Liang Chi lowered his head to eat and drink, Jiang Kuang didn't roll it for himself, just tore off a piece of ham and threw it directly into his mouth.

Cheese and ham are slightly greasy, but it is just right with wine.

With Jiang Kuang's hand, Liang Chi finished eating a whole stack of ham and cheese rolls.

It was late at night, and the guests on the first floor left one after another, preparing to close.

Liang Chi was a little drunk, he asked, "Are we leaving too?"

Jiang Kuang seemed to be thinking about something, and after a while he said, "You don't have to leave, there is a room here, which I reserved for myself to sleep in."

"Then don't go." Liang Chi had already had a drink, and his mind had already formed a straight line reaction. He didn't want to go anywhere tonight.

The head waiter came up and asked if they needed anything else, and if they wanted the kitchen to prepare some food, Jiang Kuang asked Liang Chi if he needed anything else?Liang Chi shook his head, and Jiang Kuang told them to get off work.

The lights on the first floor were off, but the second floor was still on, a dim cluster of light.

The lake outside is still the same lake as before, the blue water tower is still there, but the dilapidated pier has been repaired, "Is there a boat there?" Liang Chi asked, pointing to that end.

"Yes, the previous one was too broken, so I replaced it with a new one," Jiang Kuang said.

Liang Chi turned his head, his eyes sparkled, before he could say anything, Jiang Kuang asked him, "Want to go?"

Liang Chi nodded, and Jiang Kuang got up from the ground where he was sitting, and stretched out his hand to Liang Chi.

Tonight has passed the cold spring season, the weather is fine, there will be no sudden heavy rain, and there will be no medical staff who need to dodge. The world belongs to them.

Jiang Kuang didn't forget to bring the half-bottle of brandy he hadn't finished drinking, and led Liang Chi to the pier with the wine in one hand and the other in the other.

Sure enough, there was a rubber boat there, small and dark blue, which almost merged with the lake at night.

As before, Jiang Kuang jumped down first, followed by Liang Chi. After he sat down firmly, Jiang Kuang untied the rope, picked up the paddle board and pushed hard towards the pontoon bridge at the pier, and the boat swung towards the center of the lake.

The two paddled for a while and stopped. At this time, they looked at the "Tsubaki" on the shore and the street lights that were still on in the park, like night pearls adorning the shore.

The boat was not big, and the two sat facing each other. At this time, they let go of the oars and relaxed their bodies. The four long legs were squeezed together, pressing against each other. Liang Chi leaned back and saw the sky full of stars. .

A few years ago, he said that "the boat is full of clear dreams and crushes the galaxy", and there were only a few sporadic ones that night, but tonight is the real galaxy.

The sky is bright, the sky is in the water, and people are in dreams.

With his arm resting on Jiang Kuang's knee, he took a sip from the bottle: "I seem to want to meet you again for many years and drink together again. Although there is no specific picture, it seems to be like this tonight."

Liang Chi didn't carefully analyze what it means to want to drink, and to drink with Li Chun. He is not a philosopher and psychologist, but just pursuing his own instinct.

"Why do you want to quit drinking?" Liang Chi asked.

The boat drifted with the current, ups and downs, Jiang Kuang didn't answer directly, but said: "My mother's name is Li Si. At that time, I said I was called Li Chun because I borrowed her surname."

It was the first time Liang Chi had heard of this name, and the only time Jiang Kuang mentioned his mother was on his birthday, when he spoke in an extremely casual tone about his experience that left Liang Chi dumbfounded.

"Thinking about it now, I don't know much about her. Her identity and her life close to house arrest made her a complete alcoholic. She has no way out and can only pass on all the confinement imposed on her to For me, she and I say I love you to each other every day, and then kiss each other after saying it, it is already a ritual, only during this ritual, she is sober, it seems that she survived by this ritual, But then I refused, thinking she was a lunatic."

"I'm ashamed of her, and I'm ashamed of my behavior with her. This kind of shame made me become an alcoholic. I thought I would drink to death, but it wasn't me, but her. .”

"She died, but she left me a lot of things, some unspent money, dependence on alcohol, and physical aversion to intimacy. After she died, I tried to make myself the opposite of her, so I obeyed Jiang. As before, I returned to the Jiang family, worked hard, and quit drinking."

Liang Chi's eyes were bright under the starlight, and his eyelashes fluttered. He asked, "What about intimacy? What efforts have you made to change it?"

Jiang Kuang didn't answer.

Liang Chi sighed: "No, right?"

"Do you know what physical aversion looks like?" Jiang Kuang asked.

Liang Chi shook his head: "I don't know, tell me."

Jiang Kuang paused: "When you get close to people and touch your skin, when you have desires in your heart, you will feel ashamed, feel disgusted, and then have chest tightness and shortness of breath. This inflated sense of shame makes me want to kill myself, you ask?" Have I ever had an intimate relationship, I can tell you, I tried, someone I paid for, but I vomited on that person before it even started."

Liang Chi met his gaze without flinching: "So in order to cover up this sense of shame, you will pretend to be joking and playful on the surface, just like you once said you were going to kill me, and you said you were going to hide the rules that night? "Liang Chi was direct and aggressive.

Jiang Kuang gritted his teeth, Liang Chi stared at him with burning eyes: "So you admitted that you have desire for me?"

Liang Chi tried his best to suppress the ups and downs in his heart, this was a game at all, he couldn't let the other party see that the time and place were right, Jiang Kuang opened his heart, he couldn't miss this opportunity.