Sir, I'm not good

Xu Zhi agreed to Shu Xian's invitation and decided to celebrate the new year together.

There are still three days before the New Year's Day holiday, in order to add the so-called breath of life, Shu Xian took Xu Zhi to the supermarket.

Xu Zhi picked out some daily necessities in front, he was already familiar with Shu Xian's house, and he was very clear about what was missing.

Shu Xian was wearing Xu Zhi's coat, lying softly on the shopping cart and following Xu Zhi, sliding forward a little bit.

He doesn't like to wear his own coat when he goes out recently, but asks Xu Zhi to take it off for him, with the milky fragrance of body lotion, which makes people feel at ease.

As long as Xu Zhi picked it up and looked at it carefully before putting it down, Shu Xian would silently follow behind and throw it in.

Walking all the way and throwing it away, when Xu Zhi was about to carry a barrel of gasoline, he found that there was no place to put it in the car.

"...Brother, I don't remember taking so many things."

"That's why you remember wrongly."

Shu Xian lazily raised his head to look at Xu Zhi, smiling like a cat.

Xu Zhi frowned while holding a large barrel of oil in his hand, it would probably be a huge project to play it back.

"Is there more to buy? Push another cart?"

"Originally, one car would not be enough to fill it."

"I'm going to push the cart."

"Don't, don't, don't! Brother, how do we take back so many things?" Xu Zhi hurriedly grabbed Shu Xian, trying to persuade him.

And Shu Xian was not as firm as Xu Zhi thought, but frowned, lost in thought.

Xu Zhi's heart suddenly became agitated, and you just put it in, you didn't want to take it back at all, did you?

After thinking for a while, Shu Xian silently took out his phone.

"I asked Mouse to come and pick him up."

You Haozhe is one of the few Xu Zhi ever met, Shu Xian's friend, and it is said that You Haozhe also modified the big pink Land Rover.

"Is this the only way we can go?"

"Why don't you put these things back?"

Shu Xian asked the question back without shame, Xu Zhi was so overwhelmed that he couldn't reply for a while.

Soon You Haozhe answered Shu Xian's call, and immediately responded to Shu Xian's order, saying that he would be there in 10 minutes.

So Xu Zhi and Shu Xian went to the cashier to pay the bill, sat on the bench and waited for You Haozhe to pick them up.

When You Haozhe arrived, he saw the three full bags beside Shu Xian and Xu Zhi, and there were still a barrel of oil and a bag of noodles at his feet, his steps suddenly became heavy, and he stopped in place.

What kind of devil are these two!

Just when You Haozhe was about to turn around and flee, Shu Xian had already seen him and waved to him.

Knowing that he couldn't escape, You Haozhe had no choice but to walk towards them with a sullen face.

In the end, the three of them worked together to move the things into the trunk of the big powder car.

"I'm not talking about you, brother, that's not how boyfriend power is displayed, what you're displaying is lethality." You Haozhe was panting from exhaustion, and put his hand on Shu Xian's shoulder to complain.

Shu Xian knocked off You Haozhe's arm, went to Xu Zhi's side and grabbed his wrist.

"I'll give you the keys to the house, put the things back."

"how about you?"

"I'll take him to lunch."

You Haozhe immediately had a look of disbelief, deeply feeling that he was being left out in the cold.

"Damn! If you call me again in the future, I will definitely not come!"

After giving a vicious shake, You Haozhe got into the car alone, slammed the door and sped away.

Watching the pink car disappear from sight, Shu Xian pulled Xu Zhi's sleeve and turned to walk to the elevator.

Xu Zhi asked hesitantly: "Do you really ignore You Haozhe?"

"There are property staff on duty in the apartment, just ask them to help carry it."

"……Oh."

"Would you like to have dinner with me?"

"No, it's just that we rarely eat out."

Shu Xian thought for a while, indeed, he and Xu Zhi always ate at home, mainly with Xu Zhi's own hands.

He seldom ate out once or twice because he went to school to find a tutor to exchange papers and ate at a noodle shop near the school.

However, although he and Xu Zhi seldom eat out,... will Xu Zhi care about this?

"Are you afraid of being seen by people you know?" Shu Xian asked speculatively.

He looked into Xu Zhi's eyes, his eyes were a little deep, not like superficial panic, but more like deep worry.

What is Xu Zhi worried about?

And Xu Zhi seemed to realize that something was wrong with him very quickly, so he quickly restrained his expression and smiled at Shu Xian.

"I just feel that the atmosphere of life is not good when eating outside."

"Really?" Shu Xian stopped staring at Xu Zhi, entered the elevator, and pressed down to the fourth floor, "I didn't see it, why do you want to live with me so much?"

"I do not."

Shu Xian made a joke, and the slightly stiff atmosphere just now passed.

In fact, he could still feel something wrong with Xu Zhi. When the child looked at him recently, he occasionally showed a guilty conscience, and he didn't know what happened.

But since Xu Zhi didn't want to talk about it, he didn't want to force him to ask. At worst, he just went back and checked it out. There was no need to put psychological pressure on Xu Zhi.

When he reached the floor, Shu Xian held Xu Zhi's arm all the way, looking for the barbecue he had eaten before.

He remembered coming on this floor.

"Brother, your shoelaces are untied." Suddenly, Xu Zhi stopped him.

Shu Xian lowered his head, and sure enough, he saw that the shoelace on his right foot was unraveled.

Just as he was about to squat down to tie, Xu Zhi ran in front of him and squatted down before him.

Watching Xu Zhi tie his shoelaces, Shu Xian was immediately brought back to his original memory.

Both Bai Yu and Gu Yinian once tied his shoelaces.

Just as Xu Zhi was stretching Shu Xian's shoelaces to tie them, his eyes suddenly went dark, and he saw that Shu Xian also squatted down.

In doubt, he saw that Shu Xian had untied the lace of the other shoe and started to tie it together with him.

A warm current rushed up from the bottom of his heart, and Xu Zhi's whole body became hot.

How can this person be so warm?

But Xu Zhi didn't know that both Gu Yinian and Bai Yu had tied Shu Xian's shoelaces like this.

"Let's go."

After tying up the shoelaces, Shu Xian stood up with him, pulled his wrist again, and walked forward.

Xu Zhi thought, if it keeps going like this, it might be good.

Even if you can't be introduced to friends by Shu Xian, even if you can't be blessed, maybe it's not bad.

"What do you want to do after dinner?"

"...Brother, I have to go to class in the afternoon." Shu Xian's sudden question pulled Xu Zhi out of his fantasy, and he was silent for a few seconds before answering.

"Aren't you free this afternoon?"

Sure enough, Shu Xian had memorized his class schedule.

So Xu Zhi took out the speech he had prepared: "My roommate has an elective class this afternoon, and he's gone to find his girlfriend, so I'll take it for him."

Shu Xian seemed to believe it, but after waiting for a long time, he turned to look at him and teased, "Why are you so kind?"

"That's not true. The main thing is that he also helped me fuck me once, and it's a favor."

The rhetoric is very reasonable, and there are traces to check. His roommate is indeed looking for a girlfriend, and there is indeed an elective class this afternoon, and he is not afraid of Shu Xian to check it out.

Seeing that he answered calmly, Shu Xian didn't ask any more questions, and dragged him to the door of the barbecue shop, then whispered: "Let the mouse take you back after dinner."

"Didn't he say that he will definitely not come when you call him in the future?"

"He was just talking."

"……Um."

Xu Zhi felt a little resistance in his heart at the thought of going back to school in that big pink car.

After eating, You Haozhe went to the underground parking lot again as Shu Xian said, with resentment all over his face.

"Grandpa's biceps are almost out. Brother, can we tell you in advance next time? I'll call two more people."

"Okay, okay, next time I invite you to dinner, you can send him to school first, he is going to class soon."

You Haozhe glanced at Xu Zhi, curled his lips in displeasure, opened the car door and went in.

Watching the car go away again, Shu Xian felt his whole body turn cold, and the tenderness in his eyes gradually disappeared.

After coming out of the underground parking lot, there are all kinds of passers-by, the endless stream of vehicles, the trees are rustling, and the leaves have fallen clean.

Shu Xian stopped in his tracks, and suddenly felt that everything was meaningless.

Just like a dying star, after losing its last fuel, it suddenly began to shrink and collapse, and finally became a huge black hole, from which even a ray of light could not escape.

What is the purpose of living?

But death can also cause trouble for people.

Shu Xian stood where he was, burying himself in the collar of his padded jacket.

He was still wearing Xu Zhi's coat, and sniffing hard, he seemed to be able to smell Xu Zhi's scent and think of Xu Zhi's face.

Forget it, let's live for now.

Shu Xian pulled his clothes silently, finally walked to the side of the road and hailed a taxi.

After returning home, all kinds of eating utensils that he and Xu Zhi bought in the supermarket were placed under their feet.

Bored, Shu Xian began to tidy up these things silently, took them out one by one, and put them back in their proper places.

His movements were neither hasty nor slow, but he didn't feel relaxed or relaxed.

On the contrary, every movement of Shu Xian seemed to be sinking, every step was like dragging iron chains, lifeless.

This activity lasted for more than an hour. When all the bags were empty, Shu Xian stood there staring at the three empty plastic bags and began to be dazed.

What else can be done?

It seems like I can't do anything, and I don't want to do anything.

So Shu Xian dragged his slippers to the sofa, lay down, turned on the massage mode of the electric sofa, and gradually let himself go.

It was a phone call that woke Shu Xian up.

The sudden bell rang in the dark room, everyone would be palpitated with fright, but Shu Xian just glanced at it indifferently.

You Haozhe called, but he didn't really want to answer it.

But thinking that You Haozhe was going to see off Xu Zhi in the afternoon, Shu Xian still picked up the phone.

"Hey?"

The opposite side was very noisy, with the sound of quarreling, snatching, and familiar background music.

It seems to be at 23.5°N.

In a daze, he also heard a familiar female voice, vaguely clamoring for You Haozhe to hang up the phone.

This female voice seems to be... Jian Wan?

"You Haozhe?"

Shu Xian called out tentatively, but there was still confusion there.

Just when Shu Xian thought that the two of them were drinking too much and were playing some boring wine table game, You Haozhe's voice suddenly came from the phone.

"Brother, go to Gu's..."

Then there was the sound of something breaking, and the phone hung up.

Shu Xian reacted, his pupils constricted suddenly, realized something, and got up from the sofa with a "thump".

Before he had time to put on his coat, Shu Xian took the mask, put on a pair of shoes, opened the door and ran out.

Please, Xu Zhi, please don't let anything happen.