Sir, I'm not good

"Shu Xian, let's go."

Shen Yao said to him.

"Where?"

"In short, leave this city first." Shen Yao was very sure, not as if she was joking with him,

Shu Xian didn't answer because he was also about to leave.

As for why Shen Yao asked him to go, he didn't know, and didn't want to know.

Seeing that he didn't answer, the female doctor next to him didn't mind, and then said: "I know you don't want to treat the disease, if I wasn't a doctor, I wouldn't persuade you, or if I were Gu Yinian, I would just Will choose to respect you."

"Perhaps you can dereliction of duty a little."

Shu Xian said so, but also understood that Shen Yao would not give up on him.

Shen Yao also just smiled and didn't reply. She wanted to say that there is no doctor who can't save her from death in this world, but she didn't say it.

Facing someone like Shu Xian, she knew that it was futile to show her sense of responsibility, and it would have no effect.

"After you leave the hospital, if you stop being my patient, I will naturally not be responsible to you."

"Then it looks like I'd better leave the hospital as soon as possible, so that Dr. Shen can reduce the burden."

"Thank you for being so considerate of me."

Shen Yao's success made Shu Xian feel a little uncertain, just now he called on Jian Wan and the others to criticize him, why now when he was alone with him, he agreed to let him go?

If Shen Yao really intended to force him to undergo treatment in the Third Hospital, it would be quite troublesome.

As long as Shen Yao takes advantage of Jian Wan a little, it's enough for him.

He thought Shen Yao would do this.

but no.

"Shen Yao, can you have a showdown with me?"

Shu Xian didn't understand, so he asked directly.

Seeing that he was straightforward, Shen Yao didn't have the slightest intention to hide it.

"Because you will be discovered by your family sooner or later here, and your parents are already checking your whereabouts today."

"... Are you checking me? So fast?"

Shu Xian also understood that with his family's influence in the local area and the fact that he himself became a celebrity because of Xiang Qing's incident, if he stayed any longer, he would definitely be discovered and arrested within a week.

But start looking now?

Shen Yao nodded, also showing suspicion: "I don't know how you leaked the news, but your family is indeed checking your flight information."

Shu Xian thought for a moment, then remembered the WeChat message his mother sent him.

His mother asked him if he had arrived and asked him to post a photo, but he only replied "arrived" without posting a photo.

This raises suspicions?

"Although your parents don't know that you are sick, they should also know that you have not come out, so it is normal to worry about your condition."

"Ah."

"Especially...after Jian Wan arrests You Haozhe, your parents will probably be even more worried if they can't contact him."

"I forgot about that."

Being reminded by Shen Yao, Shu Xian also remembered.

"So you should leave early." Shen Yao concluded.

Shu Xian nodded, expressing his sincere agreement.

But I don't want Shen Yao to have another sentence: "Anyway, there are hospitals everywhere you go, so where is surgery not surgery?"

"...Didn't you say that if you don't become your patient, you don't have to be responsible?"

Shen Yao smiled deeper, looking gloomy.

She leaned back, looking very comfortable, and said lazily: "No, don't you think about who is behind me? I don't need to be responsible to you, but if you are not responsible to yourself, do you think that person will let you go?"

"Who's behind you?"

"Don't pretend to be here with me, Shu Xian, he has already indulged you by not telling your parents. In other words, the condition for letting you go is that you agree to treatment."

"……Oh."

Shu Xian suddenly became unhappy, turned his face away from looking at someone who was complacent, feeling very annoyed.

But he knew that Shen Yao was either joking with him or threatening him.

He can't help it.

But under the irritability, Shu Xian still couldn't hold back his anger, and muttered, "Aren't you afraid that I will give up on myself and die directly?"

"Fear, everyone is afraid. But if you value your life too much, you will be hindered, so you can only acquiesce that you will not die."

"Gu Yinian is not afraid."

Shu Xian suddenly remembered Gu Yinian, and answered Shen Yao's opening sentence.

He could feel that Gu Yinian didn't seem too afraid that he would die.

It feels weird.

It is clear that everything Gu Yinian does is for him to live well, but it seems that he is not attached to letting him live.

"That's because he loves you enough." Shen Yao said.

"Love me, so you are willing to let me die?"

"Well, if one day living has become a complete pain for you, then he will definitely watch you on the road. Although he is reluctant, he loves you."

Shu Xian nodded, as if he understood, but his mood was a little complicated.

His love has always been a failure.

He failed to fall in love with Bai Yu, and when he loved Gu Yinian, he failed to make Gu Yinian fall in love with him. When Gu Yinian loved him, he stopped loving him.

He may not understand love, that's why he loves so rough.

What is it like to love deeply?

"Shen Yao, does Gu Yinian really love me?"

"Yes, he loves you very much."

"yes……"

Shen Yao's answer was without any hesitation, and her gaze was firm, making it impossible to doubt.

She knew that Shu Xian had doubts about any good things now, so she had to tell him with absolute certainty that someone loved him.

She can only do this kind of work once, and she will hand it over to Gu Yinian in the future, telling Shu Xian again and again that someone loves you.

"Okay, I have other patients and I don't have time to chat with you. I'll help you deal with Jian Wan later. You can follow Gu Yinian tomorrow."

"Um, thanks...wait?"

Originally, Shu Xian was very grateful when Shen Yao said that he would help him solve Jian Wan, but he immediately found out that something was wrong.

Why did you follow Gu Yinian?

But Shen Yao obviously didn't intend to explain to him, she got up and went out, before closing the door, she turned around and gave Shu Xian a comforting smile.

After the sound of closing the door, Shu Xian was left alone in the ward sitting on the edge of the bed in a mess, stretching his hands towards the door.

Two seconds later, he withdrew his hand and supported his forehead.

later.

Shu Xian was left alone in the ward, extremely depressed.

Shouldn't it?Why was there a circle of people around his hospital bed a few hours ago, why no one came for half a day now?

Although he doesn't like crowds and troubles, but it's time, no one will bring him dinner?

In the short winter days, Shu Xian got up from the bed, walked to the window, looked at the brilliant sunset in the sky, and fell into deep thought.

What about people?

During the long period of silence, Shu Xian began to think about the future uncontrollably, and a great sense of anxiety enveloped him.

Thinking of the future, you will have to hide it from your parents, or you will have to face all kinds of self-righteous concerns after being discovered.

Thinking about the postgraduate entrance examination in the future, computer knowledge is too difficult to understand. He is so sick that he has no time to study.

Thinking of future work, no matter whether it is going to home or Grandpa Bai's place, it is inevitable to communicate and face all kinds of troublesome colleagues.

Thinking about the decades of life that he would have if there were no accidents in the future, every year seemed to suffer.

He thought of all kinds of futures, which were all unsatisfactory.

To live is to be unsatisfactory.

Great anxiety filled all the emptiness, and restlessness took over all his emotions.

Gradually, Shu Xian stood by the window, his hands began to tremble.

He can't control himself.

But before he completely lost control, he opened the window, and the wind blew in with snow shavings. He slid down weakly, squatted on the ground, and hugged his head.

The wind poured in from the back of the neck, making the whole body numb from the cold.

No one could come to his rescue.

"Shu Xian?"

In the mist, a voice suddenly came from not far behind, it was Gu Yinian, it must be.

Soon, a person squatted down behind him, and the warm breath enveloped him.

"What's wrong? Do you feel bad?"

Shu Xian raised his head, looked at him, and put his trembling hand into his bosom, not wanting to be seen by him.

"If you want to blow some air, you will come down, and if you are tired from standing, you will squat for a while."

Shu Xian said outrageous words very naturally.

Gu Yinian did not raise any doubts.

"Are you hungry? I brought you food. I remember you love dumplings."

"...Really, thank you for remembering."

Hearing the dumplings, Shu Xian felt a little complicated.

On the one hand, it’s sad because of thinking of Bai Yu, and on the other hand, it’s sad because I don’t really like dumplings, but I still want to eat dumplings when I get here.

"Why, don't you like to eat?"

"……Love."

Shu Xian finally "likes" eating dumplings.

Holding his knees, he stood up from the bed, closed the window, walked to the hospital bed, and sat on the side of the bed.

Gu Yinian followed, put the lunch box on the bedside table, opened it, and handed the chopsticks to Shu Xian.

Shu Xian didn't answer, and wrapped himself in the quilt.

"……feed me."

Shu Xian spoke, pulling the quilt tighter with trembling hands, lowering his gaze, and murmured.

Gu Yinian was dumbfounded when he heard it, as if what Shu Xian said was not human, he subconsciously asked, "What do you mean?"

It was originally a request that was forced to cover up the trembling of hands, but Gu Yinian wanted to ask again, but Shu Xian couldn't open his mouth for a while.

What's the matter, are his words difficult to understand?

But fortunately, Gu Yinian came to his senses, "Oh, oh!", he quickly picked up the chopsticks, picked one from the lunch box, and brought it to Shu Xian's mouth.

Shu Xian looked at the dumpling, held back a sigh, and bit the dumpling.

"Su Jinju's takeaway?"

After tasting the taste, Shu Xian was a little skeptical and asked.

Gu Yinian also showed doubts on his face: "Su Jinju has takeaway?"

"Don't send it? But I will send it every time I call."

"That's your privilege. I asked my assistant to buy it at Su Jinju."

Shu Xian understood and nodded.

Su Jinju's dumplings, of course, are different from the ones he makes himself, which turn into slices of soup when boiled, and vegetable pancakes when fried.

After eating seven or eight dumplings in a row, Shu Xian choked a little, avoided the dumplings brought to his mouth, and murmured to signal Gu Yinian to stop.

The meal was fed well, as if he hadn't finished his meal, as soon as he ate it, the next one was waiting for him.

What, do you think he has never eaten dumplings?

"Choking? Come and drink some water."

Gu Yinian quickly brought the water to Shu Xian's mouth again.

After Shu Xian drank the water, he signaled Gu Yinian to take a rest and eat later.

He was tired from eating this food, like fighting a war.

"Haven't you ever fed anyone... what are you doing!"

Just as Shu Xian was halfway through speaking, he suddenly saw Gu Yinian pulling the stool forward and rubbing it, and then, holding onto his foot?

"It turned out that it was never fed to anyone, and it should only be fed to you in the future."

"No, what are you doing?"

Gu Yinian pulled his feet into his arms, it was very warm, but it also confused Shu Xian.

"It's cold, remember to wear socks next time when you get out of bed, your feet will be cold if you only wear slippers, you are already cold, so when you sleep together, your hands and feet are like small ice cubes, be careful."

"...Why are you like my mother? Let me pay attention to all kinds of things."

Shu Xian's complaint was full of embarrassment, and he looked obviously embarrassed. I don't know if it was because of Gu Yinian's actions or Gu Yinian's words.

Gu Yinian smiled when he heard this, and put his foot back.

"Then you don't need to pay attention, I will help you pay attention."

"Why, what kind of deal did Shen Yao reach with you in private?"

Suddenly, Shu Xian asked Shen Yao.

What do you mean I will help you pay attention?How to pay attention?Only being together all the time can help him pay attention to these details.

Reminiscent of Shen Yao's words, obviously, the two must have communicated in private and reached an agreement.

Probably, Shen Yao sold him to Gu Yinian.

Facing his question, Gu Yinian just smiled and didn't answer him.

"Are you still eating?"

"...You eat first, I'll rest later."