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"My sister's eyes were injured that time, and my mother finally did not come out of the ICU after more than a month." Ming Xi leaned against Ding Jinyu's arms and gradually lost her strength, "My father is not highly educated and has no other skills. I've always been a driver..."

"Mingxi." Ding Jinyu interrupted distressedly: "I don't want to say..."

"You don't have to say it."

"It's my fault." He lowered his head and kissed his bright and moist eyes, "I shouldn't force you."

"But after that incident, no one dared to ask him to drive again, and he has a waist injury, so he is not suitable for sitting for a long time."

Ming Xi seemed not to have heard Ding Jinyu's words, and continued talking on her own.

"Later, the leader of my mother's supermarket introduced him to work as a security guard in the mall; because I have to go to school during the day, and in order to take care of my younger sister at a different time than me, my father discussed with the leader and specially worked the night shift."

"Ding Jinyu, I want to talk." He looked deeply into Ding Jinyu's eyes, "Let me finish."

Over the past few years, he has gotten used to hiding it from everyone, but it turns out that it is so hard to hide it from the person he likes.

He lowered his eyelashes slightly, "I won't lie to you again."

"Do you remember what I told you—" He took a deep breath, and quietly squeezed Ding Jinyu's fingers, "When the accident happened, my sister was actually much stronger than me."

"At that time, my mother was still in the ICU and couldn't go in to visit, and my father and sister were both injured and lying on the hospital bed; only my grandma and I were fine in the whole family. Grandma cooked at home, and I rode to the hospital. .”

"When I go to the hospital to deliver meals every day, I go to the door of the ICU and look at my mother through the glass."

But there was only a woman on the bed with an oxygen mask and tubes all over her body; he couldn't even tell who was lying on the bed.

"My mother was very beautiful at that time, with big eyes and long hair; so when I was a child, a neighbor said that I looked like her, even if I was said to be as beautiful as a little girl, I was happy."

He looked at Ding Jinyu, with tears in his eye sockets stubbornly, refusing to fall.

"So at that time outside the glass of the ICU, as long as I thought of my mother shaved her head, I couldn't stop crying."

When his eyes turned red from crying, he didn't dare to go to his father's ward because he was afraid that Ming's father would be worried, so he could only hide in Ming Mei's place every time, because Ming Mei was no longer able to see.

"But even if my sister can't see it, she can still hear that my voice is wrong. She will comfort me over and over again, and my mother will be fine."

Later, Ming's father and younger sister were discharged from the hospital one after another, but his mother never came out again; at that time, Ming Xi was the least injured person in the car accident, but he never "recovered".

"At that time the doctor's diagnosis was classic PTSD."

PTSD, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.

Ding Jinyu gasped.

He remembered that on the night of New Year's Eve, when Ming Xi talked to him about the anti-anxiety sleep aid, he had mentioned it lightly——

"It's just that I've eaten it before."

Ming Xi's symptoms actually appeared after the death of her mother.

He suffers from long-term insomnia and repeated nightmares, in which his dreams are full of images of the car accident. When he wakes up and is questioned by the police, he cannot recall the accident.

He refused to communicate with people, and he didn't say a word for many days. In order not to see the car, he didn't take half a step out of the door, and he didn't even allow anyone to open his curtains.

Ming Xi sighed, "My dad helped me with the formalities for my suspension from school at that time."

It's just that he didn't know it at the time.

Because he has no way to pay any attention to everything around him.

"Until one day, I found that my grandma seemed to be limping when she was walking," he said, shaking his head, "but no one told me what happened at that time."

That night, he quietly threw away the medicine prescribed by the hospital. He didn't fall asleep all night until he got up in the middle of the night to pour water, and he didn't turn on the light in the dark.

"My dad actually laid out a thin mat and slept on the ground in front of my door."

Later, after repeated questioning, he found out that after he took the medicine and fell asleep, he often sleepwalked unconsciously at night.

Father Ming was afraid that he would hurt him, so he had no choice but to sleep at his door every night so that he could guard him at any time.

At that time, Ming's father had not fully recovered from his waist injury, could not stand up, and looked not as tall as Ming Xi; at that time, Ming Xi could not pay much attention to the things around him, and it was not until that moment that he realized that his father suddenly Just get old.

Later Ming's father also told him about grandma.

As far as Mingxi can remember, grandma has always been in good health. Even if she has a little chronic diabetes, it has never been serious.

But after the incident happened, three members of the family were lying in the hospital, and the family's wealth was quickly exhausted; at that time, Ming's father was still lying in the hospital, and even he didn't know it. Save all the money to save my son, wife, and granddaughter.

After stopping the drug, her condition deteriorated rapidly, causing serious complications such as foot soft tissue necrosis and joint deformation, which she kept silent.

After Ming's father was discharged from the hospital, the whole family's energy was focused on the "seriously ill" Ming Xi and the blind Ming Mei. It was not discovered until grandma could not even walk well.

At that time, Ming's father had been discharged from the hospital for a long time.

Although Mingxi's mother was no longer there at that time, his 'illness' required long-term medication, and he didn't know when he would recover; and his younger sister's eyes needed surgery later, which was a bigger expense.

But during the previous hospitalization, the family was already heavily in debt.

"Then..." Ding Jinyu asked nervously, thinking of grandma's crutches that she still couldn't let go of.

"Of course my father brought grandma to treat her illness." Mingxi shook her head helplessly, "There is no serious health problem after the treatment, but the necrotic tissue cannot regenerate, and grandma's legs and feet are always inconvenient."

"But after that—" he smiled reluctantly at Ding Jinyu, "my 'illness' gradually recovered."

Because from then on, he knew that he needed to help his father carry the family.

After "healing up", he began to work and study, and also repeated the third year of junior high school, and finally entered the third middle school.

Ding Jinyu still remembered that Zhou Hao said before that Mingxi's previous grades were very good.

But after such a big change, it is reasonable to be distracted by part-time work to pay off debts, or even save money for my sister's subsequent surgery, which will affect my grades.

Ding Jinyu even wondered if he really thought too much.

"No." Ming Xi denied it bluntly: "I'm just pretending, and I have to pretend just right."

Ding Jinyu shook his head in disbelief, "Why?"

Now that Mingxi has stepped out of the shadow of the past, and even worked hard to get into the third middle school, isn't it just to reassure Ming's father?

Every time he gets the first place in the grade, Ming's father is sincerely happy and celebrates for him joyfully. Doesn't Mingxi want his father to be happy for him too?

"Ding Jinyu, have you ever thought about it—" Ming Xi tilted her head and looked at Ding Jinyu, "Is what happened back then really over?"

"My sister's eyes haven't been operated on. Before she recovers, can I really leave Panyang City, can I leave this home?"

Ding Jinyu was stunned for a moment.

"If my grades are a mess and I can't even get into a university, my dad will be very sad. A car accident ruined my life that year."

Ming Xi's voice was obviously very soft, but it seemed to have substantial weight in Ding Jinyu's ears.

"But if my grades are good, what's the use? Let my dad think that it's him, it's my sister, and this family is dragging me down, so I want to stay in a second place in Panyang City instead of studying at a prestigious university?"

Everyone called Ding Jinyu a top student, and if he still couldn't understand Ming Xi's words, he would have been a top student for so many years.

There is only one university in Panyang City, two normal colleges, with national policy subsidies, low tuition and low expenses; the location is not far from the third middle school, so it is convenient for Mingxi to take care of her family.

Most universities have preferential policies for local students. Mingxi's current grades are just right for Panyang Normal University.

Ding Jinyu felt his chest twitch and hurt.

Panyang City is a heavy industrial city. It developed by relying on resources and minerals, but it also declined together with many heavy industrial bases in the country.

The roads here have not changed nearly ten years after he left, and the housing prices here are only a few thousand yuan per square meter.

Everything here carries a heaviness of a hero's twilight years, unable to find a way out.

Ming Xi is still so young, it's not that he is not outstanding, he shouldn't be stuck here all his life.

"How much is the debt paid off? How much does my sister's surgery cost—" Ding Jinyu squeezed Ming Xi's shoulders, "We can figure out a way together, there must be a way."

"The debt has been paid off, and I'm saving the surgery fee, but Ding Jinyu—" Mingxi twisted her shoulders and shook Ding Jinyu's hands away, "My sister's eyes are still on schedule, and I have to wait until the eye/cornea/membrane Donated donors are the only ones who can be operated on.”

"No one knows how long it will take."

"It's not about money, and I won't ask for your money."

I won't ask for your money either.

Ding Jinyu felt a "bang" in his head, like a thunderbolt falling.

He should have thought of it earlier.

"We're just dating. I like you and you like me, that's enough. You don't have to—" Ming Xi shook her head, "There's no need to carry the whole family for me."

Ding Jinyu let go of Ming Xi, he took two steps back and saw the determination in the other's eyes, "Then have you ever thought about me?"

Although many years ago, he had made a plan for his life. He had to go to a well-known university and have a decent salary, so that he could truly live a stable life.

No longer rely on anyone, life can not be controlled by anyone.

It is only now that he understands that a house bought with money is not a home if there is no one in it; life will never get better without Mingshi by his side.

His childhood was constantly disrupted and reorganized every day, he hated someone breaking his plan, but Mingxi became his only variable——

Inescapable, fateful variable.

But what's wrong with Mingxi?

It's just that you can't do without each other.

He shouldn't force Ming Xi.

"Okay." He nodded to Ming Xi, "I'll accompany you to study in Panyang Normal School."

"Ding Jinyu—"

Ming Xi widened her eyes in disbelief.

Tonight, he had made too many compromises and insisted at the end, but at this moment, he was completely dumbfounded.

Ding Jinyu has always been a rational and principled person, he never thought that such words would come out of Ding Jinyu's mouth.

"I never said that I would stay in Panyang City forever, nor did I say that I would leave you. As long as my sister's eyes are cured, I will go to you—" He rushed forward and hugged Ding Jinyu, at a loss Explained: "Maybe it will be separated, but only for a short time..."

He was so flustered that his tongue was knotted, and he didn't know what he was talking about.

"Long-distance love, many people will experience it, won't they?"

"Ding Jinyu, as long as my sister has finished the operation, as long as you still want me, I will go to you right away...I..."

He hugged Ding Jinyu's neck tightly, and the tears that he had spent all night finally fell on Ding Jinyu's neck.

"I hide it from everyone, but the last thing I want is to hide it from you... Actually, I also want you to hug me... I want you to comfort me..."

"But Ding Jinyu..." He threw himself into Ding Jinyu's arms and wept uncontrollably, "I'm afraid you will sympathize with me..."

"You only like me, okay..."

"As long as you like me, nothing else..."

"I beg you……"

"Mingxi, I like you, and I will always only like you." Ding Jinyu tightly hugged the man who was about to slip in his arms, "But it's because I like you——"

"Although I am not qualified to participate in the past, I will never let you face it alone again, as long as you are going through it, whether I know it or not."

The author has something to say: Chinese New Year is coming soon~ Happy New Year everyone (*^▽^*)

Xiao Gong will definitely untie his brother's heart knot, and live a happy and sweet life together (shameless bushi!)~

Ah Yu will still update it tomorrow, but I don’t know if you have time to watch it, why don’t you send red envelopes to everyone on the first day of the new year!

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Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!