dear psychiatrist

"The reason why I still can't let go is because I am used to being kind to you, to caring about you unconditionally, thinking of you and thinking of you. But, Qihua, everything has changed. From now on I will not Love you again. Did you hear clearly?" Zhao Xiaoqi's voice reached her ears, full of determination.

Zhuo Qihua turned his face and took a deep look at the woman beside him, but he was caught in his own thoughts.

Just now, the way Zhao Xiaoqi looked at the groom let Zhuo Qihua know that maybe the ordinary happiness that Zhao Xiaoqi said was really within reach.Because it is difficult to fake the unconscious goodwill in the eyes.Unknowingly, the balance of love in Zhao Xiaoqi's heart has been tilted quietly, right?

Perhaps, such a result, for Zhao Xiaoqi and Zhuo Qihua, can be regarded as the most perfect and happy ending...

But now, Zhuo Qihua hopes that Zhao Xiaoqi's married life will be happier than anyone else.With the happiness that everyone looks up to, led by the groom who is not outstanding in appearance, he crosses the vast sea to reach the other end of happiness.There, enjoying the warm wind blowing on the isolated island.

Zhuo Qihua hopes that the groom can take Zhao Xiaoqi to feel the appearance of happiness, because Zhao Xiaoqi deserves a complete love.

Zhuo Qihua finally laughed, the corners of his mouth raised in an arc, and he nodded vigorously to the woman beside him, indicating that he could hear clearly.Amidst the sound of wind and rain, she had no choice but to shout loudly to Zhao Xiaoqi: "Xiaoqi, you must be happier...happier than me!"

Zhuo Qihua's words suddenly touched Zhao Xiaoqi's inner softness.The original resolute expression suddenly became painful, and the strength she had been holding on to collapsed in an instant. Zhao Xiaoqi's emotions were released, and she got into Zhuo Qihua's arms and cried bitterly.

"Don't cry on the big day, okay?" Never thought that at this moment, Zhao Xiaoqi would suddenly cry on her shoulder, Zhuo Qihua showed a bit of embarrassment.He patted the back of the woman in his arms reassuringly, and said softly.

"I'm sad." Zhao Xiaoqi replied with a sob.

After tidying up her mood, Zhao Xiaoqi finally left Zhuo Qihua's embrace and wiped away her tears, but she put on delicate makeup and looked extremely embarrassed and haggard.But she didn't pay attention to these details at all. She looked at the person in front of her for a long time, as if she wanted to take her into her heart.

Immediately, Zhao Xiaoqi took a big step back, and said to Zhuo Qihua in front of her, "Let's go... I don't need you anymore." , Zhao Xiaoqi turned around and walked towards the hotel lobby, leaving Zhuo Qihua alone at the hotel entrance.

In the oppressive storm, through the gorgeous lights of the hotel lobby, Zhuo Qihua looked at the tired but extremely determined back, and lost his mind for an instant.

Finally...it's time to say goodbye.So...Xiao Qi, the only shining star in my childhood, goodbye.

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The torrential rain lasted until the evening, without any intention of stopping, and it still stubbornly fell to the ground, drenching the sadness all over the place.

In the deep night, not a single star blinks.Zhuo Qihua Zhuo Qihua was wearing a white floor-to-ceiling bridesmaid dress, holding a transparent umbrella, walking aimlessly along the street.He stopped suddenly, looked around and examined the city.

In the blurred lights, through the hurried footsteps beside me, I saw the complicated inner worlds, and also saw all kinds of loneliness and helplessness.

The streets were criss-crossed and the lights were dim, Zhuo Qihua couldn't hold back after all, he turned his face and glanced at the warm light from the windows of the residential buildings not far away.In those warm and dim windows, Zhuo Qihua seemed to be able to see the warmth of family harmony from the light.

But he didn't want to take a closer look and hastily shifted his eyes, because the warmth in front of him mercilessly set off his own aloneness.Subconsciously holding his arms, trying to give himself some warmth.

And life is so wonderful, when Zhuo Qihua felt lonely, Tao Yaoyao would always appear in front of her.

At that moment, Zhuo Qihua nodded and believed in fate.In this huge city, Tao Yaoyao was not given the slightest hint. One person was wandering in the streets, in the wind and rain, while the other was driving a car to search for the other person.But they also met each other. This is the romance of encounters on the street that Tao Yaoyao mentioned, right?

Zhuo Qihua didn't feel any romance at this moment, but she knew that what was overflowing in her heart was... endless touch.

Before the Buick stopped, Tao Yaoyao opened the door, staggered towards Zhuo Qihua's direction, and even forgot to hold an umbrella for herself in a hurry: "Scrap, you can't get through on the phone, go to the hotel I can't find you anymore, are you trying to kill me in a hurry?"

Seeing that Zhuo Qihua didn't answer, Tao Yaoyao paused and said, "Are... are you okay? Your eyes are so red and swollen, have you cried?"

"No. The eyes are uncomfortable, probably because of the rain, and they are a little irritated." Zhuo Qihua rubbed his eyes in a concealed manner while lying.

But Tao Yaoyao slapped her hand off, and said with a little dissatisfaction: "Stingy, you lie to me all day, are you tired?"

"..." That's right, don't you feel tired if you don't tell the truth all day?Maybe he was already exhausted, but now he finally found someone he could rely on, and finally he could feel at ease and boldly give up his incomplete heart, right?

If the human heart is a city, if Zhuo Qihua's heart is always raining heavily, then... the rain in Zhuo Qihua's heart, wrapped in Tao Yaoyao's warmth and already intertwined in love, has stopped...

Sitting in the co-pilot's seat, she turned to look at the woman beside her, watching her concentrate on the road in front of her, and drove steadily to her home.

The torrential rain that raged all day gradually subsided, and Zhuo Qihua's heart finally calmed down.

Zhuo Qihua's home... Tao Yaoyao let out a long sigh of relief, dragged her slightly tired body, and sat on the sofa with a calm expression without any waves.

"Have you eaten yet? Do you want something to eat?" Zhuo Qihua took off the wet bridesmaid's dress, and said to Tao Yaoyao who was in the living room.

"No, I'm not hungry."

"Oh, then I'll change into dry clothes and wait a little while." The feeling of being wet all over was uncomfortable, and the underwear was almost sticking to the skin, which looked particularly awkward.

Putting on dry clothes, Zhuo Qihua went back to the living room, saw Tao Yaoyao walking to the balcony, and followed him.He hugged Tao Yaoyao from behind, wrapped his light hands around her waist, and asked softly, "What are you thinking about?"

"One will meet two people in one's life, one is amazing for time, and the other is gentle for years. Cheapskate, I want to be the one who warms your heart." Turning his face to the side, he smiled slightly at the people behind him, Tao Yaoyao replied like this.

Pausing for a moment, he opened his mouth again: "So...Qihua, please love me with all your strength..."

After the violent wind and rain subsided, the moonlight looked surprisingly bright, and fell on Tao Yaoyao's side face through the glass window, but Tao Yaoyao's serious face made the moonlight dim.

Zhuo Qihua could never forget how Tao Yaoyao looked at him affectionately that night.I can't forget how I hugged Tao Yaoyao tightly, and whispered love words in her ear over and over again.

There are too many things in life that cannot be controlled, but Zhuo Qihua is extremely sure that he will never let Tao Yaoyao down.In this life, it must be her!Zhuo Qihua firmly believed in this.Because, in the years I have experienced, there have been countless imperfections, but there is one person who is willing to stand still and stick to this love that cannot see the future clearly.

In fact, Zhuo Qihua didn't know Tao Yaoyao well.The woman in my arms should be the most perfect woman in the world, right?Faced with Zhuo Qihua's hesitation, Tao Yaoyao was unreserved and delivered all the warmth.

This moved Zhuo Qihua and made him feel guilty, he couldn't help but feel worthless for Tao Yaoyao.If fate didn't pull him and Tao Yaoyao together, maybe Tao Yaoyao would live a more chic life at this moment?Standing under the ginkgo tree with the astonishment of the first meeting, she talked on the phone with a smile on her shoulders, without any sorrow or tears.If Tao Yaoyao had never met her, maybe Tao Yaoyao would be sitting in a high-end restaurant with an outstanding man at this moment, enjoying a glass of old wine and enjoying life.

Tao Yaoyao turned around and interrupted Zhuo Qihua's thoughts.But Zhuo Qihua was surprised to find that the woman in his arms was crying.Tao Yaoyao smiled slightly, but tears rolled down her cheeks, but there was no trace of sadness on her expression.

Even crying, is it so forbearing?

At this moment, Zhuo Qihua was thinking, perhaps, Tao Yaoyao has never used the rules of a psychiatrist to help her analyze her life, let alone bring her work into her life.Everything is just because of my own psychology with a restless and immature heart.

It's like knocking over the bottle of five flavors in her heart, the mixed taste is not good, Tao Yaoyao has been waiting for this moment for too long, right?So much so that tears flowed without knowing it, and a smile that broke free from tears bloomed.

Zhuo Qihua was both moved and heartbroken by this innocence of love. He couldn't say a word for a long time, but hugged the person in his arms, trying to answer her with warmth, telling her: "Don't worry, I Will be here, always!"