dear psychiatrist

Regarding Cui Anjie's teasing, Zhuo Qihua refuted angrily, and the awkwardness when he was alone with Cui Anjie also disappeared.

In fact, these words are not Zhuo Qihua's self-indulgent sentimentality. She always feels that if the relationship between people can be maintained in a certain state without changes, that would be great.

Just like when parents meet and fall in love, if the relationship can be frozen in the moment of deep love, will it be able to fulfill the happiness of the family?And if the friendship between Zhao Xiaoqi and herself can stay at the moment of happiness, will it not be a pain and a torment now?

Zhuo Qihua is not a person who clings to the past and doesn't let go, but he can't resist the pull of his thoughts.For those thoughts that popped up from inexplicable corners, they stung her from time to time, making her want to escape but there was nowhere to escape.

Cui Anjie is not a roundworm in Zhuo Qihua's stomach, naturally she doesn't know what the other party is thinking at the moment, and she said in a nonchalant tone: "It's your dirty thoughts, and you don't want to believe that in the world, apart from family affection, there is nothing but love." It's not love!"

"Can you blame me? Huh? I really want friendship, but friendship will always develop into one-sided or two-sided love in the end." Zhuo Qihua's mood became depressed, and he seemed to understand.

"You are quite emotional, what's the matter? You have suffered a lot from the loss of friendship? You can't despair of this world. You can't eat a rotten apple and think that all the apple trees in the world are growing rotten apples." Cui Anjie bit the apple in her hand until it was crisp, and stood in the position of a wise man who passed by, commenting on Zhuo Qihua.

"All right, all right, you can say it, you can say it, you can say it." Zhuo Qihua was at a loss for words, and hurriedly raised his hands to signal his surrender.Immediately, he rolled his eyes and deliberately changed the topic to something else: "I heard from Lao Cui that your dream is to go to Beijing to participate in some talent show. You should go, don't say I underestimated you, I think You won't even pass the qualifiers."

"..." Hearing her father's name, Cui Anjie's expression changed, but she stopped rebutting and fell silent.

This silence made Zhuo Qihua feel uncomfortable, only then did he realize that he had said something wrong.Although Cui Anjie's attitude towards Cui Bin has always been bad, Zhuo Qihua knows that Cui Anjie still loves her father deeply in her heart.

Thinking about it carefully, since Cui Bin passed away, Cui Anjie has never voluntarily mentioned her father's name once.It is even more silent about the so-called dreams of the past.

But now that the past is brought up again, Cui Anjie will definitely recall the past, the good and the bad.Humans, that's probably the case. Although I know very well that the past cannot be changed, I will still blame myself and regret the mistakes I have made.

The atmosphere of the conversation was completely destroyed, Zhuo Qihua, the idiot with low emotional intelligence, finally shut up.Holding the idea of ​​"retiring bravely in the rapids", I slipped quietly to the kitchen and went to cook.

"The meal is ready, come and eat..." The last dish of cold jellyfish was brought to the table, Zhuo Qihua took off the apron hanging around his neck, and shouted to Cui Anjie on the sofa in the living room.

Hearing Zhuo Qihua's urging voice, Cui Anjie slowly stood up from the sofa, muttering, "What's the urging?!"

Zhuo Qihua saw Cui Anjie's expression of "good life to serve Ai's family", not to mention how awkward it was.Wanting to reprimand her a few words, but he didn't want to argue with her too much, so he opened his mouth and closed it resentfully.

Tonight, Cui Anjie's appetite seemed to be good, and she devoured all the food on the table.In contrast, Zhuo Qihua didn't have much appetite, just sat quietly on the dining table, fiddled with the rice grains in the bowl with chopsticks from time to time.

"I'm full. I'll give you the rest!" Cui Anjie wiped her mouth, put the bowl and chopsticks on the table, and clapped her hands as if she had completed an important task.After dropping these words, she returned to the sofa and watched the variety show.

"Miss Xie's reward..." Zhuo Qihua rolled his eyes at Cui Anjie's back. He frowned, and tapped the side of the bowl with chopsticks: "Why don't you eat a single bite of ribs. Nutrition and medicine are balanced, do you understand?!"

Cui Anjie was half lying on the sofa, staring at the TV intently.Just when Zhuo Qihua thought she hadn't heard and was about to give up, he heard Cui Anjie say calmly: "It's so unpalatable, it's far worse than old Cui."

Could it be that today's sweet and sour short ribs are not up to standard?With doubts, Zhuo Qihua picked up a piece of small steak, put it in his mouth and tasted it, but found that the small steak was not only not inferior to the standard, but performed exceptionally well.

After thinking in silence for a while, Zhuo Qihua suddenly understood why Cui Anjie yelled 'unpalatable'.It is expected that even if the chef of a five-star hotel is in charge, Cui Anjie will probably say 'unpalatable'.Because the "unpalatable" in Cui Anjie's mouth has nothing to do with delicious food.Because for Cui Anjie, the same sweet and sour short ribs can no longer taste the taste of father's love.

After hastily eating dinner, Zhuo Qihua, a clean freak, quickly washed the dishes and chopsticks.Just now, standing on the balcony, he rubbed his sore shoulders from time to time to relax his muscles and bones, and then he let out a long breath of relief.

In the past, when Zhuo Qihua stood on the balcony and looked out, there must have been a cigarette accompanying her.But after quitting smoking for a long time, she has gradually learned to forget this habit.

Subconsciously looking up at the cloudless night, Zhuo Qihua, who had withdrawn from the housework, was surprised to find that he missed Tao Yaoyao so much.

She clearly knew that Tao Yaoyao might still be working at this moment, but Zhuo Qihua's thoughts kept clamoring.He played with the phone in his hand for a long time, hesitated and struggled again and again, and finally dialed the phone number he had memorized by heart.

"How is it? Coward, have you eaten yet?" Zhuo Qihua couldn't help opening his mouth just after the phone was connected.

"Not yet." Tao Yaoyao's voice was very soft, a little tired but pretending to be energetic, and it came to Zhuo Qihua's ear from the other end of the phone.

"Yaoyao, you are tired from hearing the voice. Is it..." Before Zhuo Qihua finished speaking, he heard a male voice from the other end of the phone, who seemed to be talking to Tao Yaoyao.

Almost in the next second, Tao Yaoyao hurriedly said goodbye and hung up the phone.

Hearing the sound of 'beep' hanging up from the other end of the phone, Zhuo Qihua's heart became empty for an instant.Putting away the phone, Zhuo Qihua remained motionless as if in a daze, just looking at the dark night like this.

Without Tao Yaoyao by her side, it would be so empty.And this emptiness is even more difficult than being alone and lonely.Perhaps, love is really just a one-way street.Once a person who has tasted sweetness, it is difficult to return to the previous solitude.

He didn't know how long he stood on the balcony until the phone rang again, and Zhuo Qihua suddenly recovered from his thoughts.Glancing at the caller ID, Zhuo Qihua was a little surprised and laughed almost reflexively.

Zhuo Qihua would never have guessed it. Not long after hanging up the phone, Tao Yaoyao called back the phone again.

Tao Yaoyao's gentle voice reached her ears, and she said with a smile: "Stingy, although it would be strange to say that, but... I miss you again."

Although Tao Yaoyao kept laughing, Zhuo Qihua didn't take this sentence as a joke.Because... Zhuo Qihua believed that at this very moment, she and Tao Yaoyao were in the same city, under the same starry sky, missing each other.

"I miss you more." Zhuo Qihua said softly with the corners of his mouth curved.

After a moment of silence, Zhuo Qihua changed the subject and brought up Momo, the proprietress of 'Time Nostalgic Music Bar': "Yaoyao, we haven't been to Momo's bar for a long time. Pick a weekend, let's go for a walk?"

"Yo, did cheapskate suddenly change his gender today? I will never forget in my life, your shocked expression when you saw the price list of the bar. Besides, it's not that we haven't been there for a long time, but you haven't been there for a long time. Me, still I often go to support Momo." Tao Yaoyao smiled softly.

Even though Tao Yaoyao was not in front of him, Zhuo Qihua could still feel the joy that was conveyed from her laughter at this moment.For no reason, Zhuo Qihua also laughed.

They chatted for a few minutes, and finally hung up the phone reluctantly.

At some point, Cui Anjie left the sofa and stood quietly in a corner of the balcony.Cui Anjie's eyes kept falling on a certain place in the distance, until Zhuo Qihua hung up the phone, she turned her head and smiled and said, "Girlfriend?"

"..." Hearing the voice suddenly coming from beside him, Zhuo Qihua subconsciously turned his head, glanced at the woman not far away, and then nodded slightly as an answer.

Seeing that Zhuo Qihua didn't speak any more*, Cui Anjie, who cherished words like gold, also followed suit, and cast her gaze into the distance.For no reason, Cui Anjie suddenly envied the woman beside her, envied her and the sincere relationship she had.

In this world, I don't know how many lovers are noisy, separated and reunited.For fart big things, they can get into a quarrel.But Zhuo Qihua and her girlfriend are clearly in the world, but they are not stained with any dust.

"Your girlfriend asked you for an explanation, why didn't you tell her the reason?" Cui Anjie opened her mouth calmly. Judging from the tone of her words, she seemed not expecting Zhuo Qihua's answer.

"I want to tell you. But you...you don't even want to tell your own mother, so how can you tell an outsider's girlfriend?!" Zhuo Qihua sighed softly, then turned to Cui Anjie and said with a smile : "Don't think too much. She can understand."