dear psychiatrist

Zhuo Qihua walked out of the dark bar, but was dazzled by the light of the setting sun, and suddenly had the illusion of a world away.

He waved goodbye to Xie Yaohui who was beside him, and then stood at the door of the bar, watching the sad man dragging his slumped body towards the distance step by step.

Until Xie Yaohui's figure completely disappeared in front of his eyes, Zhuo Qihua finally withdrew his gaze.

Along the side of the street, smelling of alcohol, he walked in a daze, aimlessly.Looking at the madman's expressions on the faces of the people around him, he sized up Zhuo Qihua, fearing that he would avoid her, so he hurriedly brushed her side and left.

Then Zhuo Qihua, a silly girl, sat alone on a bench at the corner of the street for people to take a rest, and lit a cigarette for herself.Then, amidst the smog, I suddenly remembered the song "Back to Original Shape" by Eason Chan.

I vaguely remember the lyrics as follows:

"

Be prepared to be scared by me

Who can

Incomparably white.

How to bear this curiosity,

Are you ready to love me?

If you like weirdos,

Actually I am beautiful.

"

In this song, Zhuo Qihua's favorite is the line "If you like weirdos, I am actually beautiful".

Simply taking advantage of the alcohol, he sat on the bench and hummed in broken Cantonese.As a result, those passers-by who didn't think of her as a lunatic originally classified her as a lunatic.

Zhuo Qihua can't take care of so many things, what is more painful than you loving her but she caring about others?

As the alcohol in his body volatilized, taking away the heat from his body, Zhuo Qihua shuddered unconsciously, and finally stopped singing madly and sadly.Standing up from the bench unsteadily, he patted the dust on his buttocks exaggeratedly.

As Zhuo Qihua once said to Tao Yaoyao, she is not afraid of playing a jerk.Zhuo Qihua was only afraid that even after playing the image of a slut, no one would pay attention to her.

Zhuo Qihua turned his face to take a look, and saw the warm light shining from the windows of the residential buildings not far away.It seems to be able to see the warmth of family harmony from that light.The warmth in front of him ruthlessly sets off his own aloneness.

Subconsciously, she tightened the jacket on her body, wrapping herself even tighter.Zhuo Qihua hurriedly turned around, not daring to look at the warm and bright window behind him.

Rationality wanted to take him away to escape, but he couldn't help it, but his footsteps followed his heartbeat and walked towards the hospital.Zhuo Qihua had only one thought, she wanted to ask Tao Yaoyao through the alcohol, if she still believed in love.She wanted to ask Tao Yaoyao to be, be sure, believe it!Because there is another fool here who wants to give everything he has to her.

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When Zhuo Qihua appeared in front of Tao Yaoyao, Tao Yaoyao was lying on the hospital bed in a daze, the bored expression on her face showed her loneliness all day long.

Seeing Zhuo Qihua drooping his head and appearing at the door of the ward, Tao Yaoyao had a smile on his face: "Why are you here again?"

He walked into the ward numbly, and closed the door behind him.Staring at the woman in front of him, Zhuo Qihua opened his mouth, and the sentence that was originally planned in his heart was changed the moment he uttered: "Tao Yaoyao, don't you still forget your love?" First love, that man named Chen Yeping?"

After saying the words, Zhuo Qihua secretly regretted it.But her gaze was fixed on Tao Yaoyao stubbornly, and she was unwilling to leave for a moment.

The smell of alcohol rushed towards Tao Yaoyao along with Zhuo Qihua's breathing.Tao Yaoyao frowned slightly, and glanced at Zhuo Qihua, who was dangling almost unsteadily, who might collapse to the ground at any moment.

Even though Tao Yaoyao nodded and admitted that she likes Zhuo Qihua, it doesn't mean she likes such a drunk in front of her.He didn't answer the crazy talk of a drunk man, but just said lightly: "Drink too much again?"

Zhuo Qihua automatically ignored Tao Yaoyao's dissatisfaction, and reached out to hold her hand, but he didn't want Tao Yaoyao to break free in a hurry.This made Zhuo Qihua feel depressed. Hearing her self-deprecating smile, she lowered her head weakly and said, "Tao Yaoyao, do you remember? You asked me the other day how long you would like me. At that time I said, I will always like you until time separates us. I am so stupid to give my feelings to time..."

There was a moment of silence, when Zhuo Qihua raised his head to look at Tao Yaoyao again, unknowingly, there were tears in his eyes.With sobs, he tried to finish the sentence, but he couldn't finish it intermittently: "I...can I...say it again? If...if I can, this time I will say...I will say ..."

Zhuo Qihua didn't continue talking, tears escaped his eyes and dripped down his cheeks.It was also the only time that Zhuo Qihua didn't wipe away these helpless tears, but just let the tears be wanton.

After a long time, Zhuo Qihua calmed down, and said again: "Yaoyao... stay with me, I will quit smoking for you. As long as I love you for a day, I will not touch the tobacco you hate. .Can you stay with me?"

He heard neither the expected rejection nor the fancied agreement.Zhuo Qihua's chest rose and fell with his breath, his eyes fell on Tao Yaoyao's body, waiting patiently for the answer in her mouth.

Tao Yaoyao should refuse, right?It's like rejecting Xie Yaohui.But will she mention Chen Yeping's name this time?Will he use a passionate expression to mention in front of himself the name that has hurt her so badly and that has long been engraved in her memory?

After staring for a long time, Zhuo Qihua gradually realized that maybe this time Tao Yaoyao still answered in silence.

The mood fell straight into hell, just about to pull out a lame excuse to leave, but Tao Yaoyao said: "Okay."

These two simple words seemed to give Zhuo Qihua, who was still struggling at the gate of hell, a pair of flying wings, so that she could spread her wings and fly towards heaven.

He looked at the woman in front of him in astonishment, but he couldn't see any emotion on her face, neither sad nor happy.Zhuo Qihua could not help doubting whether the words in his ear just now were just his own wishful thinking and imaginary words.

Even Zhuo Qihua himself couldn't understand when he became a person who worried about gains and losses for no reason.With all kinds of uncertainties, he opened his mouth again: "Huh? But Xie Yaohui said, you still can't forget Chen Yeping..."

"Otherwise, how do you want me to tell him? Oh, I'm sorry, I like Zhuo Qihua more than you?" Tao Yaoyao spoke calmly, without the slightest ripple on her face, which made people feel her Just telling a bad joke that wasn't very funny.

As a result, Zhuo Qihua, who was already drunk, became even more dizzy now.I don't know which sentence Tao Yaoyao said is true?And which sentence is false?

"What are you thinking?" Tao Yaoyao's voice reached her ears.

Zhuo Qihua answered honestly: "I was wondering if all this is true...Happiness came too suddenly. And my luck has not been very good since I was a child. I am very worried that you are joking. Because...it is really not funny. "

"Well, that's fine. You can think about it slowly here." Tao Yaoyao gave the other party a sweet smile, and then took the clothes at the foot of the bed.In front of Zhuo Qihua, he took off his hospital gown and changed into clothes without any shyness.

His eyes fell on Tao Yaoyao's graceful waist, Zhuo Qihua instinctively swallowed his saliva.Then he came back to his senses, and asked with some surprise: "Your elbow is healed? Can you move it? I thought it was dislocated."

"It's just a sprained arm. Do you really think I'm so fragile? I slipped and dislocated?" Tao Yaoyao replied casually while changing her clothes without looking back.

Originally thought that Tao Yaoyao had dislocated her elbow, but now it sounds like just a small sprain.Zhuo Qihua breathed a sigh of relief, secretly glad that the dislocation was only his own misjudgment.At the very least, Tao Yaoyao didn't have to endure a hundred days of pain.

While putting on her clothes, Tao Yaoyao silently endured the slightly painful sprained arm.And the clothes that could have been changed in 2 minutes, it took three to five minutes to put them on.

What's even worse is that Zhuo Qihua, a stunned young man, put all his attention on sizing up Tao Yaoyao's figure back and forth, and didn't even think about stepping forward to help him.

"Why are you looking at me with this expression? Is there something dirty on my face?" Tao Yaoyao, who had finally changed into a suit, looked at Zhuo Qihua with a smile on her face, with a harmless expression on her face.But in my heart, I complained and said: I am not feeling well now, so I can't care about anything with you.When my body recovers, let's see how I settle accounts with you!

Zhuo Qihua's mind was completely on Tao Yaoyao, but he didn't realize that Tao Yaoyao had made another mark on her at this moment.

Hearing Tao Yaoyao's question, Zhuo Qihua quickly put away his intoxicated expression, and asked her, "What are you changing clothes for?"

"What else can I do, of course I'm discharged from the hospital. Remember to cover me!"

"Huh? Missy, what are you doing?!"

Seeing Zhuo Qihua looking at her, Tao Yaoyao drew a beautiful smile on the corner of her mouth, and then explained seriously: "It's really boring to stay in the hospital bed all day. Now that the fever has subsided, there is no need to act like a seriously ill patient." Lying down the same. Actually... what I need is not a cold hospital bed, but a you who gives me a sense of security."

So, Zhuo Qihua, please take me away from here.To a place where no one else can find us, let's elope together.I want to escape into your heart and take root firmly in your heart like a big tree.