dear psychiatrist

Zhao Xiaoqi, who bought the perfume, seemed to be in a good mood, humming a little tune along the way.Zhuo Qihua scratched his head, wondering whether it was because he happened to choose the perfume that Xiao Qi was also in love with.It was because of what she said about the perfume that Zhao Xiaoqi finally made up her mind and bought that perfume.

Of course, no matter what, the task of buying perfume with Xiaoqi was finally completed.Sniffing the fragrance of his body left and right, Zhuo Qihua felt a little uncomfortable about the smell on his body.After all, Zhuo Qihua wore neutral clothes, but his whole body smelled like rouge.It doesn't match her clothes and image.

"What are you thinking about?" Zhao Xiaoqi's abrupt words interrupted Zhuo Qihua's thoughts.

"Oh, nothing..." Zhuo Qihua replied casually.How could she answer without telling the truth?I can't see it anymore, and yelled at Zhao Xiaoqi, it's all your fault for insisting on buying some broken perfume to make my body full of fragrance.

"Qihua, are you in love? Do you have a partner?" Zhao Xiaoqi didn't care about Zhuo Qihua's answer, so she started talking about other topics.

Hearing the word 'object', Zhuo Qihua's head suddenly became dizzy.Hastily waved his hand, made a bow to Zhao Xiaoqi, and said, "Uh, Xiaoqi, please forgive me. Why do I feel that you are like the aunt next door to my house, you are the target when you talk and you have to treat yourself Zuoyue old matchmaker. The aunt next door always likes to ask me if I have a date. Then she said, if I don’t have a date, introduce me to a date. Hey..."

The bitter expression on Zhuo Qihua's face made Zhao Xiaoqi feel amused: "Then how do you answer aunt every time?"

"What? You still want me to answer her? I don't even have time to escape, so I don't have time to talk to her. That's called running away, and it's almost breaking the world record." Zhuo Qihua was startled when he said, Then she answered solemnly: "Xiaoqi, I'm different from others. I really don't have a chance to fall in love and get married. It's hard to imagine how I will look like holding my child and my husband in my arms after many years. Me . . . and feel at ease alone.”

I don't know when it started, Zhuo Qihua realized that he only had feelings for women.Of course, she didn't think it was a disease. What's wrong with liking someone?If you like it, you will like it, whether you are a man or a woman.

For men, Zhuo Qihua can always hook shoulders and call him brothers.But when facing women, Zhuo Qihua often didn't know how to talk, and looked at each other with a little embarrassment, and his heart was pounding.

Maybe this is admiration, Zhuo Qihua always thinks so.In fact, she has never experienced love.I know my heartbeat, I know I like it, but I don't know what love is.Is the feeling of love different from the affection between family members?Zhuo Qihua felt very strange why he didn't cry when he was sad after he confessed to the girl he liked and was rejected.

Heh, I am not a monkey jumping out of a rock, I am a man of flesh and blood.Why faced grandma's death, I cried like a dog.But facing the rejection of the girl he likes, Zhuo Qihua just smiled, and he calmed down after sleeping.

Is it because love is not deep enough?So what exactly is love?This or that problem always troubled Zhuo Qihua.Gradually, she was no longer obsessed with these trivial issues.

Zhuo Qihua wanted to tell Zhao Xiaoqi that he liked women, but he just opened his mouth, but he didn't tell the truth after all.Although I don't think that liking the same sex is a disease, there is no reason to tell the friends around me with my tongue.

For some reason, Zhao Xiaoqi also fell silent.The two of them thought about each other and walked towards Xiaoqi's house.

"Okay, it's getting late, so I won't go up. Thank you for today's hospitality. Xiaoqi's craftsmanship is good. It has hooked up the gluttons in my stomach. I will come to eat next time." Standing Downstairs of Zhao Xiaoqi, Zhuo Qihua said goodbye with a smile.

"Aren't you planning to go up and have a sit down? We haven't seen each other for a long time, let's talk together. By the way, I'll make you a supper to worship your five internal organs temple." Zhao Xiaoqi invited with a smile.

"That's right. Since there is supper, I won't be polite." Hearing that there is supper, Zhuo Qihua swallowed unconsciously, and rushed up the corridor begging for nothing.

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Holding a bowl of steaming dumplings, Zhuo Qihua ate with great joy.Seeing her stop after eating half-pay, she laughed at herself and said, "Xiaoqi, I think I'll come to you less in the future, I'm going to make you poor. I feel like I was starved to death in my previous life." If you don’t eat a meal, your eyes will shine and your legs will tremble.”

Zhuo Qihua can be said to be a complete foodie, so it stands to reason that he lives alone.Food and clothing will become very casual, just fool around a bit, that's all.But Zhuo Qihua is a strange flower, she will spend a long time on researching and cooking.

Even so, her cooking skills are still not good.But have you never seen a pig run, haven't you eaten pork?Although she doesn't cook very well, when it comes to food, she is like a gourmet on a TV show.Speak clearly and logically, so that people can't tell the slightest flaw.

"This dumpling is not an ordinary quick-frozen dumpling. The dough is hand-rolled and served with carefully prepared exclusive fillings. The soup is full of water and has a sweet taste. The dumpling skin is soft and glutinous, but not sticky to the teeth. Everyone says 'it's better than dumplings ', it seems that..."

When Zhuo Qihua was commenting on the bowl of dumplings in front of him, he heard Zhao Xiaoqi suddenly say: "Qihua, do you still remember what I said at the gate of the middle school yesterday? I said, in this school, there are A person who made me fall in love appeared. But at that time, I didn't know that it was love..."

"Well, it's so hot, so hot." Zhuo Qihua blew on the dumplings in his mouth, then turned his head and said to Xiao Qi beside him, "Remember."

"Qihua, that person is you. I have liked you for a long time. Before you and after you, I have never seen someone as kind as you. I have been thinking that if I meet you again, no matter what, I want you to know my thoughts too." Zhao Xiaoqi said emotionally to Zhuo Qihua who was beside her.

But at this moment, Zhuo Qihua was stunned, with dumplings stuffed in his mouth, he didn't know what to say.In my mind, there was a question: Is Xiaoqi confessing to me?

"I don't know what's wrong with me. To tell you the truth, there are many people who pursue me, but I will always compare them with you. Mr. A is too irritable, Mr. B likes to brag, and Mr. C is not independent. There are always various reasons for me to reject them, and I will always miss you in my heart." With a blushing face, Xiaoqi stretched out her hand to grab Zhuo Qihua's hand, drew circles on her palm, and continued blushing. : "Can I...can I be with you?"

I rely on!Do you want to be so explosive.The old classmate who only recognized yesterday confessed to himself today, that's all.Xiaoqi actually fell in love with her secretly, and she has been waiting for her for more than ten years. It would be a lie to say that she was not moved.

Countless images of the past flashed through Zhuo Qihua's mind.I lost my mind for a moment, I just felt that my head was stuck with paste.After a long time, he said stupidly: "Ah? Xiaoqi, what did you say?"

"I said I like you and want to be with you." Seeing that Zhuo Qihua was nervous, Zhao Xiaoqi, who was a little nervous before, calmed down.While talking, he looked at Zhuo Qihua in front of him with great interest.

Seeing that Zhuo Qihua no longer ate dumplings, but kept fiddled with the dumplings with his chopsticks, he stammered and said: "Well, Xiaoqi. To tell you the truth, I like women. But I never confessed, It all ended in failure.”

Speaking of this, Zhuo Qihua turned to look at Zhao Xiaoqi beside him, and said again: "Besides... I have nothing, the only thing I have is the drive all over my body. I am not a person who is good at performance, and I may not be so good at work. All my life, I have been an unknown criminal policeman. You are good-looking, and there are many people who pursue you, so you can always find a suitable candidate. You can live a peaceful and stable life, and you don't have to worry about it and suffer from hardships with me. "

What Zhuo Qihua said was all the truth, the whole truth.But in Zhao Xiaoqi's ears, it became an excuse, and she asked tentatively: "Qihua, do you have a lover?"

"No." Zhuo Qihua shook his head and answered honestly.

"Then is there anyone you like?" Zhao Xiaoqi then asked.

"No." Zhuo Qihua shook his head again and replied.

"Is that so, you don't like me?" Zhao Xiaoqi asked again.

"Of course not! When I was a child, you were the only one who was kind to me, and I will keep it in my heart all my life. It's just... I've never been in a real relationship. I don't know what it feels like to love. Also I don't know if I will mess up the original friendship with you because of being associated with you." Zhuo Qihua was a little anxious, and in a hurry, he expressed his thoughts.

"Try it, if you don't try, you will never know the answer." Zhao Xiaoqi leaned closer and kissed Zhuo Qihua's lips while talking.