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On the second day of work, Nan Yizui was still handsome, exuding infinite charm.To him, it seems that there is not much difference, as if the relationship between them is the relationship between the leader and the subordinate, and the vague ambiguity before has disappeared without a trace.Meng Yixing had a feeling that what happened last night was that he was imagining that his boss liked him.

He breathed a sigh of relief, but also felt a little lost.

He came home, took a shower, wiped his hair, and lay down on the bed.After lying down for a while, he turned on the computer, found male-to-female movies, opened it and looked at them, and after watching several, he lay back on the bed tiredly.

He didn't think it was a disgusting thing for men to go to bed.It's just that the incident was too sudden, and there was a knot in his heart.

Meng Yixing looked at the ceiling, his eyes gradually lost focus, and his thoughts returned to when he was six years old.

When Meng Yixing was a child, he lived in a village in a remote area. There was a yard outside his house. There was a field not far from the house where vegetables and fruits were planted. Farther away, there were fields, and not far from his door was piled up A lot of stones left over from building houses.In spring, black caterpillars wriggled all over the rocks and the ground not far away.When Meng Yixing was a child, he always felt that there were many animals living in that pile of rocks, because in addition to the common big cockroaches, soft-bodied reptiles, snails, caterpillars and other insects in his house, there were also snakes, mice, and frogs visiting his house.

When I was young, Meng Yixing would follow his friends in that field, secretly grab some perilla leaves, tie them with a thin rope, and tie a thin stick to the other end, and catch frogs. Throw the frog back into the open space of the yard and catch it. In order to catch more frogs, the boy will tear off the two legs of the caught frog. Binding the frog's legs will make it easier to catch the frog.

Meng Yixing didn't know who developed this game, and he didn't know how he came up with the idea of ​​using frog legs to catch frogs.He finds raw frog legs disgusting, and he doesn't want to touch them.And the little friend who played with him was his cousin. He saw that he was standing still and didn’t play, so he thoughtfully helped him tear off the frog’s legs and tied them up for him to play. He only went fishing for frog legs once.

At that time in the countryside, most of the families were not very rich. When boys were young, they didn’t have many toys. Even if there were some toys, they were not as interesting as a group of boys going out to play.They ran wildly in the village in groups, stole some fruits from other people's homes, and then went up to the mountains to dig out bird nests, catch snakes, and use fire to make mouse holes. Parents go to the reservoir to take off their clothes and play with the water and take a bath...

Most of Meng Yixing heard from his cousin that his mother hadn't divorced his father at that time, and his father didn't come home all year round.She is very cautious in bringing up the child alone. She has heard many cases of lost children in the countryside, and many children drowned in the reservoir, so she is very strict with this only child, not allowing him to be like other children. to play.He can only play marbles and bet on Dragon Ball cards with his friends in the yard of his home.

Even though his mother restricted him from going out to play and reduce the risk of accidents, he had an accident near home.

Meng Yixing actually doesn't remember much about that day, he only vaguely remembers that he was playing hide-and-seek with the nearby children near his house, and he ran a little farther.At that time, there were some blue-gray dilapidated houses in the countryside that had not been lived in for a long time.

Meng Yixing hid near the broken house, pricked up his ears, and listened to his little friend shouting the countdown.

Suddenly, someone covered his mouth from behind, and carried him to a small forest next to a few dilapidated houses further away.There was no one there.

That was the first time he came into contact with people with this special hobby.

His thin arms and legs couldn't resist at all, and he couldn't even turn around to look at anyone.All he knew was that it was the young man's hand.

The man covered his eyes and hands, maybe the man didn't want to make a big deal, he didn't feel any pain except fear.That person seemed to be fully prepared. Meng Yixing felt a lot of greasy oil poured into his buttocks, and then he was stabbed by something long and thin like a stick.

Meng Yixing didn't know why he did that, he just knew it was not a good thing and he was bullied.

After an unknown amount of time, the man pulled out the stick, and then he heard the sound of the zipper, and the voice of his cousin calling him.

He couldn't find anyone for a long time, and his cousin came to him.

He also heard his cousin yelling: "Help me find it quickly, if I can't find anyone else, my third aunt will scold me to death, and my mother will scold me to death too! Should I just hide in the broken house over there? Go check it out, but you can't find it there!"

Hearing this, the man stood up quickly. He heard the sound of opening the plastic bag. He seemed to be in a hurry to pack up his things. He roughly pulled up his pants, loosened the rope that bound him, and ran away.

Seeing the person running away, he quickly pulled out his limbs and the cloth that bound his eyes, and the person was no longer there.

The cousin's voice was getting closer, Meng Yixing pulled up his pants and walked out.

His cousin doesn't want to be scolded, and he doesn't want to, his mother often scolds him, endlessly, pulling out all the previous things and scolding him, and can scold him until he goes to bed at eleven o'clock in the evening.His house is not as lively as his cousin's house, and his grandparents and father persuade him.This time he ran a little farther and was bullied.Meng Yixing thought that he would definitely scold him to death.And he was bullied by pulling his pants down, he felt very ashamed, and he didn't want his friends to know.

He hesitated and said that he fell down, and his cousin was relieved when he found him, didn't say anything, let him go home quickly, and Sangu would scold him again later.

After this incident, he still occasionally thinks about it.He still remembers the feeling of being stabbed in the ass, it's subtle.He didn't feel any pain, but a little... an indescribable feeling, which he later realized was pleasure.

Before he knew what desire and pleasure were, without the correct guidance from anyone, that person opened Pandora's box in his life ahead of schedule.

He didn't know when he started to explore his body, he just remembered that it was an ordinary afternoon, his mother was not at home, and he had nothing to do at home. , can only see a few specific stations, his mother is afraid that he will be addicted to the TV, and tells him not to watch it, but to read a book, and if he finds that the back of the TV is hot when he comes home, he will be scolded again.In fact, he is always watching secretly, but he will be clever not to watch for too long.

He didn't find what he wanted to see that day, and learning is impossible.When he gets bored, he will remove all the cabinet doors that can be removed with a screwdriver, and then install them before his mother comes back.

Another time when he was reading a book, he suddenly had the urge to learn from Edison to make a panacea. He dug out all the medicines at home and threw a little into an empty bottle. Imagine what a panacea should look like.He could only secretly deal with it in disappointment.

He's already ravaged everything in the house, and he's lying in bed with nothing to do.For some reason, the subtle reaction of the body came to mind.He actually imitated that man and explored his own body.

From then on, he was a boy with a secret.

When he was twelve or thirteen, he had a wet dream.During that time, his father came back and brought him a mobile phone. He had a small window to connect to the outside, and he gradually realized that his behavior was different from ordinary people.It’s just that the mobile phone was an entertainment tool for him at that time, he only liked to use it to play some games, and unlike the mobile phones behind, he didn’t play much, he still preferred watching TV to mobile phones.Because there are animations, you can also buy game cards to play video games.He didn't use his mobile phone to understand his own differences.

Once, his cousin took him to watch porn, which was his first exposure to adult films.After reading it, both he and his cousin had the same impulse. The cousin looked at him with knowing eyes.For the first time, Meng Yixing knew that desire is not a big deal. He heard his cousin talking about adult topics, and suddenly felt a little more relaxed.So he is also happy to use his right hand to solve the previous problems.

It's just that after watching too much, he found that he was different from them.A group of boys gathered together to watch videos, most of them pointing fingers at women's bodies, imagining how they would do things in person, and felt angry.And he also had a feeling, but what he substituted was the woman.

Desire is normal, but is his desire different from ordinary people normal...

He was panicked, and he didn't dare to ask.

At that time, he had a long face, he was handsome and quiet, his grades were passable, and he was quite popular with girls.

But his mother ordered him not to fall in love early, so as not to harm other people's girls.In the small place where he is, don't say who he is in love with, even if a man and a woman get close, they will be said to be related.

He doesn't get close to girls, and with his mother as a reason, it seems reasonable.After all, his mother was a teacher at the school he attended, and she was well-known among the students for her fierceness and strictness.

In the eyes of everyone, he is a quiet and reserved ordinary boy.But he knew he wasn't.

He is more outstanding than all his peers around him.

He felt that he was a unique monster in the world, he felt that he was out of place with his peers, and he couldn't live up to his mother's expectations of him.So he began to dislike why he had such a desire, and he also hated the person who sexually assaulted him at the beginning, making him unable to fall in love and live a normal life like his peers.He despises his own special desires, but he can't get rid of them.Every time I gave up and vented myself, my body felt as if a hole had been broken, and the wind came in, and my body began to turn from hot to cold, and the emptiness suddenly flooded my whole body.He knew that the huge disgust would take over his body afterward, but he was like masochistic, there would always be a next time.

Gradually, I don't know if it was a psychological effect, his body became sick, and he could no longer use his hands to vent himself out, he could only vent out by poking the sensitive area behind.

But when it came to this situation, he didn't dare to tell others.He could only swallow his panic and helplessness alone.

At that stage, the conflict between his father and mother became more and more serious.

In the past, it was rare for his father to go home, and the two of them would not recover for a few days, and then began to quarrel again.There were many problems between them. As a child, he had already fallen into an abyss where he could not see the light. Looking at the situation of his parents, he felt very powerless.

So he wanted to escape reality even more, playing games and watching anime, immersing himself in the fictional world to forget himself.

Later, his father cheated outside and was seen by fellow villagers. When he came back, he laughed at his mother for being too fierce. The husband didn't want to come back and just wanted to find someone else.

After his mother found out, she asked his father to find him immediately. They had a big fight and divorced.

His father doesn't go home all year round, and only sends back living expenses. To him, his father feels like a distant living expense.When he came back, it was the torch that ignited his mother's powder keg.He looked at them and thought he might as well leave it alone.Unexpectedly, one day, they really left, and it was because of his seemingly honest father who cheated.

After the divorce, his father was quite reluctant to part with him. He wanted his son, but he didn't have the face to rob him. Looking at Meng Yixing's attitude, he still let it go.

Distant living expenses become distant child support.

Life returned to calm again, as if not much had changed, and he soon entered the high school in the county, ranking second to last among high school freshmen.

Later, when he came home on weekends, he saw his mother getting closer to her divorced old classmate who had chased her, and then they were together.

He heard from his mother that he was not chosen to choose your father at the beginning because he looked less honest and glib, not as honest and reliable as your father.So what if you look honest, it's not cheating.

Looking at the old classmate, he always felt that the middle-aged man looked cheerful and talkative, and a little unreliable, probably because he was too bragging, and Meng Yixing felt embarrassed when he heard it.But he saw that his mother liked to listen, and the flowers were trembling with laughter.This is as long as I can remember, I have never seen his mother like this in front of his father.And it’s not this time that he changed his attitude towards his stepfather. It’s because he can coax his mother who can’t help but lose her temper, or make the house not as cold as an icehouse after her mother loses her temper, and still look like nothing happened. , Let the family restore the fireworks.

It may also be because he left this small closed place, or he may return home, the atmosphere has changed a lot, and his mother has other men to worry about, so she won't always stare at him alone, and he feels that life is getting better.Later, he had a younger brother and younger sister, who were twins.

Meng Yixing felt less guilt and pressure from his mother.With younger siblings, my mother has other sustenance instead of putting all her expectations on him, a monster.His heart also relaxed a little, and he also felt a little lost.

Fortunately, my heart is still a little more open than before.He began to want to understand what kind of situation he was in.When he was in high school, touch-screen mobile phones had become popular, and he also owned one. It was no longer like the button-based mobile phone before, and all kinds of information came to him, and he could understand many things more clearly.

For example, the first male-female film he came into contact with that he saw on that mobile phone.Needless to say the impact of it.

He finally knew that there are many people in this world who only have feelings for the same sex like him.Most people like him are born that way.But even so, if that person hadn't sexually assaulted him, he wouldn't have been exposed to desires he couldn't handle at a too young age, like opening a Pandora's box.And normal desires have also become unspeakable knots in his heart.

Over the years, his orientation to be different from ordinary people and pathological desires have long been deeply rooted in his heart, following him for many years.

That's why he was so touched when he heard Nan Yizui tell him that it was a normal thing.In fact, he knew that this was normal, but those were all learned from the cold screen, which still lacked the real feeling.I never told him with gentle eyes and a gentle tone, this is a very normal thing, don't worry, leave it to him.

He wanted to cry at that moment.

Even though he knew in his head that it was normal and he shouldn't be ashamed once, his body and mind still resisted such a thing, and he couldn't have such intimacy all at once.