but you never loved me

After that day, Ning Yi became more and more busy.Even though Yan Zimu stayed at home every day, he rarely had the chance to meet Ning Yi.Because Ning Yi always came home late at night after he fell asleep, but left before he opened his eyes in the morning.He knew in his heart that Ning Yi was avoiding him.

Yan Zimu thought that what he said last time put him under pressure, but he didn't mean to force Ning Yi.He just thought that they had really come to that step naturally.But Ning Yi's current performance made him feel a little chilled. Did he think that he was being affectionate again?

He deliberately waited late that night, no matter what Ning Yi thought, he wanted to ask clearly.At one o'clock in the morning, Ning Yi finally came back.

When Ning Yi pushed open the door and saw Yan Zimu sitting on the bed reading a book, a trace of surprise flashed in his eyes.But with a smile on his face, he said, "Why haven't you slept yet?"

Yan Zimu closed the book and said with a smile, "I'm waiting for you." Ning Yi's heart sank, but she still moved elegantly while taking off her coat and said, "You don't have to wait for me next time. There are too many things going on in the company recently. I'm a little busy, so I'm not sure what time I'll be back."

The smile on Yan Zimu's face gradually disappeared, and finally the expression on his face was as flat as water.The room fell into silence, so quiet that you could hear a needle drop to the ground.

Yan Zimu looked up at Ning Yi, trying to find some special emotion in his eyes, but found nothing.

He felt a little disappointed, and then lowered his head and stared at the lines on his palm in a daze.Looking at the winding lines, I thought to myself that it is really "a bumpy road to love".

He finally said: "Ning Yi, I want to talk to you." When Ning Yi raised his hand and took off his tie, he frowned slightly, and thought for a long time before saying, "Okay, but can you wait until I finish my work?"

Yan Zimu said, "How long will it take?" Ning Yi clenched his tie unconsciously, and replied, "Soon." Yan Zimu sized him up and said after a while, "Okay." Ning Yi smiled Asking his cheek: "Thank you." Then he turned and walked out the door.

After he left, Yan Zimu picked up the book on the bedside table again and read it.The clock in the room was ticking, and when the pointer reached two, Yan Zimu put down the book in his hand and stared at the clock in a daze.When the pointer pointed to 4, he got up calmly, put on his slippers, and went to the study.

When Yan Zimu pushed open the study door, he froze.There was a pile of documents on Ning Yi's desk, and he himself fell asleep in the pile of documents.

Yan Zimu walked over and took one of the documents.He flipped through the files, and they were clean.He knows Ning Yi's habits, he likes to mark the key points.

His eyes began to dim, and when he was about to leave, he looked at Ning Yi's subordinates who seemed to be pressing a photo.He gently pulled the photo out.

In the photo are two little boys of similar age, one of them is looking at the camera with a big smile, while the other is staring at the boy with a gentle smile on his lips.

Yan Zimu's heart trembled. The two little boys in the photo were him and Ning Yi.Then, as if feeling something, he flipped through the photos.On the back of the photo are the handwriting that he is familiar with, the handwriting is vigorous and powerful, and the charm of the font is superb.

It was a poem: "Floating growth hates less joy, and I am willing to love Qianjin with a light smile." Yan Zimu stared at the poem for a long time, and a smile gradually melted in his eyes, then turned and left after a long while.

When Yan Zimu covered Ning Yi with the thin blanket, Ning Yi frowned and moaned, then his long eyelashes trembled a few times, and he opened those overly beautiful eyes.

Ning Yi looked at Yan Zimu standing in front of him, his eyes trembled, and he subconsciously covered the photo with his arm.Yan Zimu just pretended not to see it, and said to him: "It's very late, go to rest first, it doesn't matter if you read the document tomorrow."

Ning Yi smiled and said: "Okay, you go back first, I will sort out the files and go to sleep." Yan Zimu nodded and turned to leave, and when he reached the door, he paused: "I'll wait for you." The door closed At the moment, Ning Yi spread out on the chair, picked up the photo on the table and was dazed.

Half an hour later, Ning Yi opened the door of the room, and when he saw the darkness, he unconsciously breathed a sigh of relief.He took his pajamas and changed into them. Afraid of waking Yan Zimu, he gave up his plan to take a bath.

But when he lay down, a figure sat on top of him.Ning Yi was taken aback, and before he could react, Yan Zimu's kiss had already fallen.

Ning Yi subconsciously turned his head to the side, and Yan Zimu's kiss landed on his face.There was a bit of stubbornness in Yan Zimu's eyes, he pinched his chin and wanted to kiss his lips.

Ning Yi's eyes became a little dark, he pushed Yan Zimu away and stood up, and turned on the bedside lamp.He sat silently on the head of the bed.Zi Mu, on the other hand, sat up from the bed expressionlessly, and picked up the bathrobe that had slipped from his waist.

Ning Yi didn't know how to face him, so he lifted his coat and wanted to leave.Yan Zimu's gloomy voice sounded behind him: "Ning Yi, what are you hiding from me?"

Ning Yi turned around: "I have nothing to hide from you." Hearing his answer, Yan Zimu's face was calm, but his fingers unconsciously tugged on the sheet under him.He chuckled and said, "Then why are you hiding from me?" Ning Yi turned around upon hearing this.

Yan Zimu stared at him straightly, waiting for his answer.He thought that Ning Yi didn't love him that much, that's why he didn't want to marry him.But the truth is, Ning Yi never loves less than herself.

But he became puzzled, unable to understand the reason why Ning Yi alienated him.Until Ning Yi avoided his kiss just now, he seemed to suddenly understand something.

Ning Yi's toiletries disappeared in the toilet, serving chopsticks suddenly started to be used at home, and the intimacy between the two disappeared.The details that I had neglected during this period flashed through my mind little by little.Yan Zimu felt extremely scared because of the guess in his heart.

But now Ning Yi, who was silent, deepened his fear.As if he needed to prove something urgently, he reached out and tore off the belt on Ning Yi's bathrobe, and leaned over to kiss Ning Yi's place.

Ning Yi noticed his movements, and a trace of fear flashed in his eyes.He quickly grabbed his hair and lifted his head up.

Looking at his pale face, Yan Zimu's heart turned cold.He smiled, with tears in his smile: "Ning Yi, are you infected with AIDS?"

Ning Yi's pale face turned paler in an instant, and he clenched his fingers unconsciously.He looked at Yan Zimu's miserable expression, and a few strands of distress flashed in his eyes.

Layers of darkness surged through his eyes, and he hugged Yan Zimu in his arms for the last time, before saying in silence for a long time: "I have taken blocking medicine before, but the doctor said that there is no guarantee that I will never be infected. I am worried... I'm sorry, Zimu."

Yan Zimu's emotions on the verge of collapse seemed to find an outlet in an instant, and he burst into tears.Ning Yi felt sorry for him but had no choice but to comfort him: "It's okay, I've gone for an examination and the result will come out tomorrow."

Yan Zimu didn't seem to hear it, and wept unscrupulously. In the end, he was so tired from crying that he wanted to fall asleep in a daze.But he forced himself to cheer up, choked up and said, "I'll accompany you tomorrow." Seeing Ning Yi's promise, he closed his eyes unbearably.

Before six o'clock in the morning, Yan Zimu woke up.After waking up, he didn't do anything, sat on the bed and watched Ning Yi in a daze, and finally got up and went to the bathroom.

When Ning Yi woke up, he had already cleaned himself up.Seeing him sitting on the edge of the bed with a calm face, Ning Yi felt a little depressed, and got up without saying anything.

On the way to the hospital, both of them were silent, but it was raining outside the window.Yan Zimu opened the car window, looked at the light rain, and suddenly realized that it was spring.

When the doctor handed him the report, he didn't have the courage to open it.He rushed out the door with a pale face while holding the report, and Ning Yi hurriedly chased him out.

Ning Yi held his trembling hand in the corridor, and pulled him to sit on the chair by the window.He kept holding his hand, and finally squeezed his palm lightly.

Yan Zimu mustered up his courage and opened the report with trembling hands.Tears welled up in his eyes when he read the last line.

The rain outside the window has stopped, and there are birds singing happily on the branches. It is really a warm and beautiful spring.