but you never loved me

When he heard that sentence, Yan Zimu was in a daze, as if the sunlight outside the window had become far away.He heard himself asking Ning Yi: "What did you say?"

Then he saw that Ning Yi's eyes looking at him gradually became brighter, which was a kind of prayer intertwined with sadness and happiness.He found that the wall of his heart that he had spent so long in building collapsed in an instant.Because it was originally used to protect the secret, but now the secret has been exposed, so the wall is also broken.

But the fragments of the collapsed heart wall cut his heart.And those fragments contain all the painful memories that cannot be recalled.He was breathing quickly, but he still couldn't hide the pain, so his eyes were filled with pain.

Ning Yi loves him so deeply, how can he let him be sad?He got up and hugged him tightly, hoping to warm him with his body temperature and make him calm down a bit.

He whispered repeatedly in his ear: "It's okay, Zi Mu, it's okay. Even if you lied to me, it doesn't matter, don't be sad. Seeing you sad makes my heart ache."

Hearing the last sentence unexpectedly, Yan Zimu gradually calmed down.He pushed Ning Yi away with a sneer, and said, "Yes, he is your child, our child is not dead."

After getting this answer, Ning Yi felt extremely sad in his heart, but he still smiled, with a very sincere smile: "I'm really happy."

Yan Zimu looked at him, his chest was heaving violently, he looked at Ning Yi with dismissive eyes: "Are you happy? But I am not happy at all. I wish he never existed, I wish I never knew each other. Thank you Ning Yi. If it wasn't for you, why would I be in such pain? Ning Yi, do you know how much I hate you."

Ning Yi smiled, very fiercely. He knew in his heart that all Yan Zimu's sympathy for him after the reunion was because of his kind nature.It's just that he has been unwilling to face it squarely. He would rather deceive himself than let go.But what Zi Mu said just now slapped him awake.

He touched Yan Zimu's cheek with trembling hands, and asked gently: "Then force yourself to be with me, are you in pain? Zimu tell me, are you in pain?"

Yan Zimu raised his head and the intense emotion in his eyes had faded. He looked at Ning Yi blankly: "I don't know...but, Ning Yi, can you stay away from me, from me and my child."

Ning Yi still smiled, even if Yan Zimu kept stinging his wound, how could he bear to refuse him.He gently pressed a kiss on Yan Zimu's forehead.When he turned to leave, the morning light drew a light and shadow behind him.

Yan Zimu was in a trance until he left for a while.But when he reacted, his heart suddenly became cold.He knows exactly what Ning Yi's mental state is now, what she said just now is tantamount to forcing Ning Yi to die.

He ran downstairs almost immediately, but when he reached the entrance of the hospital, there was no sign of Ning Yi.There was a panic in his heart.

All day long, he ignored Mr. Gu, who had just woken up in the hospital, and searched for Ning Yi all over the street.In the end, he even called Du Chenfeng, and when he knew that the other party had no news of Ning Yi, he almost collapsed.

He searched almost every corner where Ning Yi would go, but he didn't expect that Ning Yi would be in a place that he couldn't even imagine.

Ning Yi went to University A, his and Yan Zimu's alma mater.Sitting by the Jingming Lake, he thought of what happened many years ago.At that time, he and Yan Zimu were very young. At that time, it seemed that no matter how bad he was to him, he always seemed to be by his side unyielding.

And although I didn't admit that I liked him verbally, because he was really like a boy in his 20s, he would be jealous of him and even fight for him, but he never knew it.Thinking of this, he smiled unconsciously, his eyes full of nostalgia.

He also remembered that Jingming Lake had always been the school's holy place for dating, and young couples would always come here for dates at that time.Yan Zimu also likes coming here.Although I have been impatient, but every time will accompany him.Because I really like his little tricks, such as giving him candy, but eating it myself, and then kissing him shyly.

How gentle the moonlight was at that time, and how nostalgic the youth at that time was, but it was a pity that everything could not go back.Ning Yi's heart was full of regrets. If he could meet him for the first time, he would find that he was the little man in his memory.After that, all the pain and suffering will not exist, so how happy should they be?

Ning Yi just sat by the Jingming Lake for a whole day, and the students coming and going around unconsciously kept their eyes on him, and his charm was never diminished by the temporary embarrassment.

Some bold female students even approached him and asked him for his contact information, but Ning Yi just refused with a gentle smile: "I already have a lover." When Ning Yi mentioned that person, the tenderness in his eyes made the person who asked him for the number Girls are not intoxicated either.She stood there for a long time, until her companion pushed her away, and then ran away in embarrassment.

Ning Yi didn't take this episode to heart.Looking at the calm water surface, his heart is also very peaceful.In fact, when he first arrived at the lake, he had extremely pessimistic thoughts, and he had such pessimistic thoughts many times before.

But now he wondered how he could have thought that way.The man just said to keep himself away from him, so as long as he doesn't appear in front of him, it will be fine.

As long as you know that the person and the child are fine, living in a corner and silently protecting them, you are already very happy.In the past, I was too obsessed and demanded too much, so I was not satisfied.He sat until late at night, when there was sporadic light rain in the sky, he had no choice but to leave.

As soon as he got in the car, the cell phone in the passenger seat rang.As soon as he picked it up, Du Chenfeng's voice came from the opposite side: "Thank God you finally answered the phone, do you know that we are looking for you like crazy. Where are you?"

Before Ning Yi could figure out the meaning of his words, he replied subconsciously: "I'm at the gate of A." Du Chenfeng's voice came from the opposite side immediately: "Okay, we're coming here now, stay where you are and don't move." " Before Ning Yi could answer, Du Chenfeng hung up the phone.

Twenty minutes later, Ning Yi saw Du Chenfeng's car parked across the road.Someone opened the door and got out of the car. When he saw someone coming, he understood why Du Chenfeng said 'we'.

When Yan Zimu saw Ning Yi on the opposite side of the road, he ran over immediately, and then he saw the terrified expression on the other side's face, and his pupils shrinking desperately.