The benefactor is always forcing me to study

Deng Yan is two years older than Ke Heng, but he debuted at the same time.

They lived in the same dorm, were closest friends, and became rivals when they both got auditions for the same TV show.

Ke Heng is talented and hardworking. Deng Yan evaluated the gap between them. Deng Yan admitted that he was no match for Ke Heng, but he wanted this opportunity very much, so he used the means of not being able to get on the stage.

Countless nights of sleeping on his feet, let Deng Yan know many of Ke Heng's secrets, whether it is about the treatment center, his sexuality, or the boy buried in Ke Heng's heart, as long as it is a weakness, it is his. arms.

Sure enough, Deng Yan succeeded.

He snatched the olive branch and walked on the famous Kangzhuang Avenue, but this road was not easy, and on this road, he was not a justifiable tourist. Deng Yan always had low self-esteem and uneasiness in his heart, and he couldn't help himself. Compared with others, they can't help paying attention to Ke Heng.

After Ke Heng lost his role in that drama, he took over another drama with the help of his agent. Deng Yan could not interfere. He was afraid that Ke Heng would become famous. Heng is also more popular than him, which makes him seem particularly incompetent.

While Deng Yan was working hard, he tried every means to suppress Ke Heng. Outsiders didn't know the relationship between them, or even knew that they knew each other. In the eyes of others, Deng Yan was a rising star with limitless future, but Ke Heng had never even heard of his name. On the [-]th line, no one would have thought of the love and hatred between them.

The better Deng Yan behaved in front of outsiders, the darker he became in front of Ke Heng. He blamed all his troubles on Ke Heng, reminding Ke Heng of his dirty past over and over again. Seeing Ke Heng's negative attitude, Deng Yan Yan will have a perverted sense of satisfaction.

During Deng Yan’s debut years, when he experienced being suppressed, framed, and ridiculed by others, Ke Heng was a bottomless pit for him to vent. During that time, he sent letters to Ke Heng countless times, exposing Ke Heng’s scars, Pour out grievances, and Ke Heng, like the vast sky or the deep ocean, holds everything in his chest without resisting or revealing, virtually becoming Deng Yan's safest tree hole.

Over time, Deng Yan became a habit. He sometimes wondered what the relationship between him and Ke Heng was. They used to be friends. This relationship was cut off by himself, but Deng Yan was able to expose his dark side in front of Ke Heng. To some extent, Ke Heng is the person he trusts the most.

The deepest feeling, but also the most perverted bond.

After Ke Heng and Cen Zhi got acquainted, Deng Yan discovered that Ke Heng had changed, no, in other words, he had changed back.Changed back to that cheerful boy, the Ke Heng who could smile warmly at him, complain to him, and meet him for dinner.

At that moment, Deng Yan couldn't tell whether he was envious or jealous, maybe it was the sympathy that remained. In that year, even though Deng Yan was extremely upset, he didn't send a letter to Ke Heng.

However, at the end of Ke Heng's filming of "Heaven Has No Lighthouse", a very important drama originally planned by Deng Yan was cut off by others. It was an opportunity that Deng Yan took a lot of effort to get. In anger, he repeated the same mistakes, He vented his anger on the letter paper, and after writing the recipient and address on the envelope, Deng Yan suddenly became sober.

He looked at the dark letter and didn't send it on the spot.

However, when he returned home that night, the letter was gone. Deng Yan didn't think much about it. Only he and his assistant could go in and out of his house. The assistant absolutely trusted that the letter would not be exposed, so Deng Yan didn't pay much attention.

The next day, news of Ke Heng's suicide was overwhelming the Internet.

Deng Yan was participating in an event at the time. During the intermission, he heard the chattering discussions of the staff. Deng Yan couldn't believe it. He pretended to go to the scene, but was desperately held back by his assistant. The assistant was calmer and colder than him: "Now the past, only Let the media know that you have an extraordinary relationship with Ke Heng, and may even speculate that you have something to do with Ke Heng's death! Brother Deng, calm down."

Deng Yan was stunned. Seeing his distraught appearance, his assistant helped him push the second half of the event, sent him home, and returned to the apartment. Deng Yan asked coldly, "Did you send that letter?"

Assistant said calmly: "Yes."

Regarding the cause of Cohen's death, the police investigation concluded that it was suicide, which was beyond doubt. Then Cohen's case broke out, and he suffered from depression.

Deng Yanming understood that he was the one who killed Ke Heng.

In the past few days, Deng Yan was depressed and turned down all the activities. Deng Yan nestled in the apartment, looking at Ke Heng's past works day and night. He had never seen them before. Ke Heng represented the worst side of him. , at this moment, he finally dared to look directly.

It was only at this time that Ke Heng realized that Ke Heng had lost the aura he had when the two of them were trainees. Seriously, never faded.

Deng Yan did not attend Ke Heng's funeral. After the funeral, Deng Yan visited the cemetery alone.

The cold tombstone stood coldly between the sky and the earth. The boy in the photo looked at him with a bright smile. Deng Yan felt a dull pain in his heart. He finally understood that he actually wanted to consider Ke Heng as a friend.

It's just that in the choice between feelings and fame, he chose the latter.

……

"Xiao Cen, why are you here alone?"

Cen Zhi was startled, quickly put away his phone, and looked up innocently at the person coming.

In front of her was Fu Hui, and the woman looked curiously at the young boy in the corner who admired himself alone: ​​"Why don't you go and play?"

Cen Zhi followed Fu Hui's words and looked at the center of the banquet. The leading actors were drinking, and the center was Deng Yan and Lin Jiayan. Cen Zhi stared at Deng Yan. , Deng Yan also warned him.

-Be careful with those around you.

He was hinting to himself that Cen Zhi didn't understand at that time.

Fu Hui followed the young boy's eyes and saw that it was Deng Yan.

Fu Hui tried twice, and there was no deviation at all. Cen Zhi was looking at Deng Yan.

Moreover, the eyes are extremely complicated, with disbelief, hatred, and a trace of sadness.

Fu Hui: "..."

Women's intuition has always been amazing, Fu Hui called him tentatively: "Little Cen, do you like the same sex?"

Cen Zhi was taken aback, and looked at Fu Hui with round eyes, as if he didn't expect that Fu Hui came to chat with him about relationship issues.

Fu Hui quickly said: "I'm not discriminatory, it's the 21st century, love is free."

Cen Zhi smiled, before the corners of his lips could draw an arc, they faded away sadly.

Fu Hui exuded the brilliance of gossip, and asked in a low voice: "Do you like Deng Yan or Lin Jiayan?"

Cen Zhi: "..."