can you love me today

"Don't call me! I remember Mr. Qin said that I won't let Yu'an from my family call you dad, right? Since you don't recognize this son, Bai Yu'an will have nothing to do with you from now on. I just say a word and don't bother each other If anyone finds trouble with Bai Yu, I will find trouble with him!" Chu Yu was wearing a neat suit, and the buttons of his shirt were all unbuttoned while waiting for the traffic lights. irritable.

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Bai Yu'an didn't notice for a while, and almost fell when he was taken away by Chu Yu.Only then did Chu Yu slow down, holding his hand and walking slowly.Bai Yu'an has been cautiously by his side and did not dare to raise his head. He is still a little uncertain about Chu Yu's mind, and he dare not react at the moment, so he can only follow behind him step by step.After walking for about half a minute, Chu Yu suddenly stopped.

Pulling Bai Yu'an in front of him, and face to face with him, "Do you think I only like that kid back then, so as long as anyone lies to me and says it's him, I'll like him?"

Bai Yu'an raised her eyes to look at him, not understanding what he meant.

Chu Yu's stiff face finally softened, and he held Bai Yu'an's hand with greater strength, "I admit that at the beginning, guilt was greater than love, but gradually, love covered up I didn’t realize it until I felt guilty. The one I like...the one I love...is you, do you understand?" Whether it was the you back then, or the you who married me and always carefully accompanied me and loved me, I love both.It's because I haven't recognized my own heart all the time, and I always only think about that child back then. I didn't understand until the moment you died.

At the beginning, he only thought about that child, so when Qin Jinghe approached him, he subconsciously fell in love with Qin Jinghe before getting along with him.Later, I felt more and more wrong. I just felt that the child from that year seemed to have changed somewhere.Before he had time to understand his own heart, he divorced in a hurry, just wanting to breathe a sigh of relief.A few days after the divorce, the father and son of the Qin family showed their faces.Before he died, he was most thankful that Bai Yu'an had left him.

However, he was also worried and afraid at the same time. Bai Yu'an must have been very helpless at the time.

Seeing that Bai Yu'an didn't speak, Chu Yu thought he didn't believe him, and became anxious, "You don't believe me? I haven't met Qin Jinghe, really. At that time... I just didn't figure it out..." Chu Yu hugged Looking at Bai Yu'an, leaning her chin on his shoulder, sniffing the fragrance of his body, her heart gradually calmed down.

He still remembers... At that time, because of the internal disputes of the older generation in the family, he was put by his father to live in a medium-sized family. Although the house was big, it was less than a quarter of their family's size.The family had a child, but it seemed that he was not favored.The servant in that family has always been taking care of the child, and he has never seen that middle-aged man hug him, let alone smile at him.

What impressed me the most was that the child came from outside the door with a schoolbag on his back, as if he wanted to see the middle-aged man inside, but was stopped by the housekeeper, saying that the man had something to do and the child was not allowed to enter.

The child was in a small group, and after hearing this, he didn't cry or make trouble, but just stood there quietly.After a while, he seemed to have thought of something, and suddenly raised his head to look at the housekeeper, his eyes were watery but there was no smile.He heard him say: "Grandpa housekeeper, if the teacher calls next time, can you remind Dad to answer the phone, and if he doesn't have time to answer, can you not hang up. Can you answer it for me? If not, give The doorman uncle at the door is fine. Otherwise, the teacher will be angry." A small group stood there, looking up at the butler, and he couldn't remember what the butler said, probably something bad. , I saw that the little guy lowered his eyes, his head went down, he nodded and turned away.

At that time, he always thought that the child was the young master of the family. Although he was not favored, he was still the son of the family.Maybe it's an illegitimate child, but after all, he won't be bullied.But, he was wrong.

He saw the child being bullied more and more times. At the beginning, the child ran away as soon as he saw him, and then he stopped running, as if he didn't care what he did.

Inexplicably, he just didn't want to see that look in that child's eyes again.He started playing with him and doing what he wanted with him.He has never played much since he was a child, and it is impossible to play with a child like this. He has always prided himself on being mature, but he never thought that he would lose his sense of proportion in front of such a boy.

He was probably five years older than that child. At that time, the child was only six years old. He was very small and very comfortable when held in his hands, so he couldn't put it down.

He didn't know what the child's name was, and the child never told him. Everyone in that family called him Young Master, and he didn't know anything else.

Maybe it was his reason, he didn't see other people bullying this child anymore, he thought everything would get better, but he didn't want everything to change after he left.Qin's father had his own child, Qin Jinghe, and he became more and more serious towards Bai Yu'an, and he ignored Bai Yu'an even more. Every time he looked at Bai Yu'an, his eyes were full of disgust and slowly loathing.At the beginning, Bai Yu'an didn't understand that he would ask that man for a hug, but later...he seemed to understand something, and he stopped pestering that man and wanted to get close to him.Children are like this, he can very keenly discover your attitude towards him, and since he knows that you don't like him, he won't pester you anymore.Bai Yu'an, who was young, also looked like this...

After a few years of separation, Chu Yu still misses the child at that time in his heart.On the way, he went to the door to look for it, but he couldn't find it.Qin's father said that he sent the child to study abroad, and it will take a few years before he comes back.Chu Yu didn't know that Bai Yu'an had already started working hard in the society at that time, taking care of his mother while making money, no one had ever helped him... and no one had ever asked him if he was tired...

Chu Yu believed it at the time.Later, as he grew older, his desire to see that child became stronger and stronger. Even he himself didn't know what kind of feeling it was, maybe it was missing, maybe it was curiosity, maybe it was liking... whatever Whichever it was, he thought he should see the kid.

He met the person, but found that the person seemed to have changed, and it seemed that he was no longer the same as before. He even said that he had become a little...unrecognizable...

But he is still comforting himself, maybe it's been a long time apart, maybe they can get back to their original feeling after getting along for a while.So, they got engaged and planned to get married, but they didn't expect that the person who came to get married was a different person...

What happened later was just like what happened in the previous life.

It wasn't until he died that he confirmed his thoughts, and realized that the man who had always loved him was actually the man he wanted to find. He had already reminded him, why didn't he find out, and even blamed him by mistake So many times, he thought, he is really unforgivable...

His finger moved suddenly, and Chu Yu realized that it was Bai Yu'an who pulled his finger.He chuckled and slowly released the man from his arms. "You don't have to be afraid, we are all like this, you should be able to trust me this time, right?"

Chu Yu smiled indulgently, looking at Bai Yu'an, his eyes seemed to be soaked with honey, it was extremely sweet.

Bai Yu'an lowered his head, nodded, then shook his head hastily, that stupid look...it was very different from his appearance in front of the silver screen.